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2003 25 October :: 1.39am
:: Mood: blah
well now...
i found out before i left to the game that my dad has been in the hospital for the week...*ay pinchi puto*...i'm debating on seeing him...i know that sounds mean...but it's me...
danny got me jealous...YOU WON BITCH...just know that i got the better end of the deal...at least i have someone who treats me right & loves me...
speaking of which...i was thinking bout these words that i hold true esp. today since i'm a bit under the weather..."in sickness & in health..."...awww...
I LOVE YOU JOEY W/ SO MUCH OF EVERYTHING IN ME & NOTHING WILL CHANGE THAT EVER!!!...
goodnight everyone, i love all...
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2003 25 October :: 1.37am
:: Mood: sleepy
zzzzz...
You are Anywhere
Beatiful song. Anywhere is beatiful and tragic all
in one. It reminds me alot of the song
"Theres A Place For Us" from West
Side Story. All that you want is to be with the
one you love, but the people around you are
making that near impossible.
Your Lyrics:
Dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me
And dear my love, haven't you longed to be free
I can't keep pretending that I don't even know you
And at sweet night, you are my own
Take my hand
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name
I have dreamt of a place for you and I
No one knows who we are there
All I want is to give my life only to you
I've dreamt so long I cannot dream anymore
Let's run away, I'll take you there
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name
Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you
Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you now
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name
What Extremely Underrated Evanescence song are you?
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2003 24 October :: 4.19pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: "you's a whoe"
& now for his bitch...
ok freshman...here's what i think of you:
you can flaunt around & you can definetly whore yourself round the rest of those band members...but DO NOT EVEN THINK you can do it better than the one's who created it...the only reason you can get away w/ it is cuz you are the type of person who loves sloppy seconds...*mmmhmm*...
respect your fuckin elders, especially the fucking seniors...just because you mind as well be fucking one doesn't make you any closer to us...know your role & shut your fucking mouth...
don't get into things that you have no information bout...next time you wanna ask me what the fuck is up you realize who the fuck you're dealing with & realize that i am NEVER gonna forget shit...i know you act innocent & but i can also see that you can't stand me round...fuck off bitch...he's yours i don't care, but don't for one minute think that you can get away w/ stupid shit & make me look like an ass when you know you'll get your ass kicked...
are we clear now...freshman?...cuz if not, then i guess i'll have to make a personal house call on that one now aren't i?
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2003 24 October :: 4.06pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: something on kazaa
yeah right!
danny let me say one thing:
i'm not sorry for your dumbass actions...i'm not sorry for you & your pathetic life...i'm not sorry that you may have had a crappy ass childhood...i'm not sorry that your parents are fucking crazy & have problems...i'm not sorry you can't get any anymore...i'm not sorry for what my happiness has done to you...i'm not sorry for being happy w/out you...i'm not sorry that deep down inside you suck at everything you try to do...i'm not sorry for things that you think i should be sorry for...
i'm not sorry for saying yes to joey...i'm not sorry we didn't go to prom...i'm not sorry that you didn't end the friendship sooner...
i'm not sorry that you'll never be "the one" in my life!
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2003 22 October :: 5.06pm
:: Mood: somewhat accomplished
:: Music: evanescence - anywhere
*eek*
well i got finished talking a bit to danny...we only talked bout scholarships...he seems nice over the net rather than at school...but whatever...so yeah we talked for like 5 mins or so...i miss talking to him as a friend...but i guess i have to respect what he wants...at least he gave me a chance...*sigh*...
i want another chance, but i know it wouldn't be fair...
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2003 22 October :: 3.43pm
:: Mood: happy...but sick :(
:: Music: ill nino - with you
if i stay right here & forever w/ you...
damn that's a great song...check it out if you ever get the chance...
well yesterday was great i spent some time w/ joey...that was cool...we talked & stuff...i guess i hit a touchy subject w/ him so yeah i'm a chismosa & want to know bout it all, but i have to respect him & if he doesn't want to talk bout it, then i won't bug him for it...i love him enough to not talk bout certain things...*sigh*...too bad he doesn't live like next door to me...or w/ me for that matter...he just makes a lot of shit go away...seriously he's way better than smoking...which then seemed to be a stress reliever...but it's all bout joey now...i love him so much...& i really fear fucking up the relationship like i did w/ my other ones...*sigh*...
we'll be ok becky...we'll be GREAT!
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2003 20 October :: 9.45pm
:: Mood: mixed everything
:: Music: tv
*oi*
well i'm kinda getting better, my voice sounds better somewhat...i came to the conclusion yesterday that i'm not going to homecoming...it's kinda ghetto this year anyways...but debated w/ myself bout it & decided that as long as i'm w/ joey i'll be fine...besides that's the only reason to go to homecoming->to be w/ the one you love!...joey asked me what i wanted to do that night & i said it really didn't matter...so he want's to hang out in ec...give me "a real date" according to him...to be honest, i don't care if we hang out @ finley...as long as i'm w/ joey, the night can't be bad...usually when i'm w/ him it never is...besides, according to most ppl, i mind as well live w/ him, so i guess i'm set forever...
*whoa*
that's usually not a freaky word for me...forever...hmm...it's kinda different...i like it though...it seems to real...but that's ok...
i have this fear of failure...i think everyone does...(by the way this thought came out of nowhere...sorry)...i'm truely afraid of college, mariage, & other things w/ this...i disapoint others & myself...i turn out to be less of something i truely could be...*(what the fk?)...(i must stop this thought...sorry)*...
in other news...lol...
i posted up another poem on my other site & the poetry site:
www.blurty.com/users/viking_punk/
http://poetry.com/Publications/display.asp?ID=W1023247&BN=999&PN=1
yeah...the blurty one is where i keep poems & songs i've written...the other one is where i enter in those contests...they're kinda neat so i would recomend trying that...
i want my voice back so fucking badly...*ugh*...it's hard to not talk & sing & shit...i really need it for tomorrow's radio show...well, denisse has been doing really good on the show, so she'll take over again...lol...i think we could do so much better w/ it, but i don't think we can put in much...as long as we try though, we'll be ok...
i just noticed this is an unusually long post...DEAL W/ IT!
*back to you in the studios becky*
thanx ;)
jezz, wtf is up w/ me today?...maybe cuz i'm tired & shit...my lordy...
*eek*...danny's online right now...not on msn, but yahoo...i've asked ppl if they thought i should talk to him...i'm kinda scared, but i'm probably not going to...what do i say?...when this started i blocked him cuz i was scared...i unblocked him but i think he blocked me...cuz he hates me...jeez...& some ppl i'm talking to right now are kinda making me feel like shit bout this whole ordeal...whatever...i think i'm getting the balls to say something to him right now...h/o...
damn nothing...fuck it...i tried...*sigh*...
well i think i've taken up enough time from everyone...talk later...
here's something i haven't said in a while...
I LOVE YOU JOEY W/ ALL MY HEART!
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2003 20 October :: 5.09pm
:: Mood: lost & stupid
:: Music: ricky martin - tal vez (over & over again)
damn i'm dumb...
well...yeah...i am though...
what kinda person email's their ex w/ lyrics sounding like they want to get back w/ them...
what kinda person likes spanish songs that cap on their life in general...esp. when the person doesn't know a fking word of spanish?...
what kinda person...am i?...jeez...
i'm lost right now...i had good things to put on...but to be w/out a friend...i'm screwed up right now...*oi*...
talk later.
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2003 19 October :: 10.05pm
:: Mood: energetic
I'M TIRED OF THIS SHIT...
i really shouldn't have to cater to anyones needs or feelings but myself...
w/ that i say:
JOEY, NOTHING & NO ONE WILL TEAR US APART...I'LL LOVE YOU TILL THE DAY I DIE...& I NEVER WANT TO DIE!
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2003 19 October :: 7.11pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: thinking of Juanes' "la paga"
damnit you've won again...
i feel stupid round joey sometimes...he usually seems right bout everything...i'm not tough enough...i need to learn to be a bitch...cut off ppl i don't need...i mean don't get me wrong he IS right, just that i can't be that sometimes no matter how hard i try...
he was right bout another thing again...& he may or may not realize it...
i do feel bad bout this whole thing b/w me & danny...it wasn't my fault, but i feel it is & i have to do something bout it...but there's nothing to do or say...NOTHING...so why do i feel like this?...joey thinks it's him trying to make me feel like shit...
well you know what... :( it's working...
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2003 19 October :: 11.41am
:: Mood: crushed
...
well...i try to give up but i can't...
i can't throw away 3 years...i can't...it's not possible...it was never something i really wanted to do...it's something im not trying to do...*ugh*...
BECKY GET OVER IT!!!
:'(
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