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2004 26 May :: 12.45pm
:: Mood: tired, trying not to get too stressed out
:: Music: i still hear "going under" in my head since monday...lol...
so yeah
i'm in mac's class...once again, tell me what's new...
last night was the spring concert, the last one for us seniors...*oi*...& I PLAYED MY SOLO CORRECTLY!!!*yeeehaww*...so yeah that was coo...kinda bummed out now that it's gonna be over, but it as good while it lasted...every minute of it...
we (the band seniors) went to millies last night, so that was coo...i had fun...*sigh*...i thought to myself as we were eating last night how that would be one of the few last times we'd all get together like that...*oi*...
joey & i have been having a few fights a bit more than usual, & i accept the fact that most of it is my fault...i wanted to tell him today that i just feel useless & maybe if i'm not going so much along w/ him that maybe he doesn't need me anymore...but i decided how selfish that would sound...i've just been extremely frustrated & stressed...& it's hard for me to get over things & let them flow...*sigh*...i'm not sure how to usually handle that but i'm trying...& i hope joey knows that...i kinda got chewed out by him, which i was fine w/, i needed the lecture...but i just wanted to cry, yet i knew crying would not only not help the problem, but cause him to get frustrated w/ me even more...i just need this week to be over & i should be better, i'm hoping...
i can't help but worry the fact that i'm graduating & i've only got a couple weeks left...i'm getting scared & the closer we get to it, the more alone i feel...*sigh*...
...talk later...
oh...a cute thing joey did say to me last night when we were kinda arguing was "i guess i'm the screw that keeps you together..."...
& he is :)
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2004 24 May :: 10.34pm
:: Mood: great great kick ass great!
:: Music: Going Under is still stuck in my head from practice
they think i'm good?!...i still can't believe that...
well yeah i haven't been around much, i got frustrated a bit too much with my period this week, so i figured i needed to rest...we found out that we can't play at the senior assembly because not all of us are seniors, so joey & i are gonna do a song hopefully...that's coo...
the senior picnic is tomorrow so that'll be kickass...*yay*...then the downer is the concert...*oi*...oh well...
i'm kinda tired & need to get an interview done for my govt class right now...talk later...
damn i blushed today from someone i usually don't like to talk to...isn't that crazy?...damn, they think i'm good?!?...um...OK :D...
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2004 17 May :: 11.11pm
:: Mood: scared
:: Music: Metallica - Unforgiven II
so i freaked...*oi*
well the day was great...it just kinda went a bit down at the end of the night...
i started my period there at joey's house so that sucked...then i got emotional...& freaked out...
i was so gung-ho bout being w/ him & stuff from prom, but i flipped...i got scared of what could happen...
i explained to him that i'm very afraid of things like for instance marriage...in my family alone, i witnessed bout 3 divorces & known of 2 or 3 others very close to me...it's not cool...i freaked out on that...& also it came back to missing amber...
i'm getting tired, so long story short...joey held me close while i cried at the park & assured me that things will be great for us...& for once, i put my trust in that knowing he is right....
i love you joel...happy one year anniversary sweetie... :D
...talk later...
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2004 17 May :: 1.32pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: justin singing "sesame street"...don't ask
damn those sesame street kids on pot :D
so yeah my day has been going pretty good today...i'm kinda worried bout spanish cuz i haven't finished my part of the project & we wanted to be done by wednesday or thursday...it's due friday...*oi*...
joey & i are planning on getting dinner and renting a movie tonight since we've seen most everything out right now or we don't want to see some of them...so that's coo...
a lot of ppl are worried bout my ex, but then again, he's my ex...i know i shouldn't really care, but i just don't want him to do something incredably stupid to himself or to anyone else...i'm sorry to say, but it's his fault he's kept a memory that he made fade away...
denisse is playing bullshit w/ some guys in class...& damn she looks so cute ;) ...not trying to hit on you...(it just happens naturally)...
well i'm kinda bored so i'm out...talk later...
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2004 17 May :: 7.34am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Alanis Morrisette - Precious Illusions
*yay*
today is the day, our 1 year anniversary...
i thought about it last night that i didn't think then that it would last this long...but it has...
& i plan to keep it going...
i love you joel!
...talk later...
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2004 16 May :: 4.39pm
:: Mood: excited
did i mention we looked hot last night?...no...well...
i went to get the pics developed & denisse & i came to a great conclusion...
WE LOOKED FUCKING HOT!!!
well, not trying to be concieted & shit...*hee hee hee*...
the pics turned out wonderful times 20...i'm very happy with them...i also went to rite aid & found a beautiful card for joey for tomorrow...damn...i am really cute man...
well gotta get some things done round here...talk later...
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2004 16 May :: 9.00am
:: Mood: accomplished
prom was the bomb...*oi* i sounded really white...no offense to those who read my journal :S
well last night was my senior prom...awww...though there were a few things that i was upset w/ & wanted to change, it took me very little to realize that the only thing that mattered was being w/ my date...my boyfriend...my everything...my joel...
i love you joey & i'm sorry if i frustrated you or made you believe i wasn't happy...you make me realize that the little things don't have to be a burden to me...as long as i know you're there, i'll be fine...i'll be happy...i'll be with the one person i'm gonna want to love forever...
denny's kicked ass too, i almost choked on my food it was that funny...i'm gonna miss those guys...
i'm planning on getting my pictures developed today :D cuz i'm really really excited bout them...i'm gonna wear my cape tomorrow at school (i think, i'm still debating)...i've gotta work on my spanish project & then practice tonight i think...
track is pretty much over, & though i'm happy, it sux tambien...oh well...
i'm gonna start to help rosa & nana move in this week...so...sure :S ...i'll be back soon...
i love you joel!
talk later...
CAN YOU BELIEVE TOMORROW IS A YEAR?!...*YAY*...
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2004 14 May :: 2.03pm
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: something from bob marley
in mac's class...damnit what's new?
so yeah i got bored here right now since we have a sub...i've been up and down today so i'm not sure what's up with me...i'm hoping it's either cuz my period will start or i'm just extremely nervous & stressed bout prom which is tomorrow night...*oi*...
joey is going to my track meet today *yay*...even though i only have one race, i'll be in a better mood cuz i'll have seen him...
i'm gonna try out my dress & cape today after school...it's gonna rock!
i'm planning on dying megan's hair too today...that'll be neato...my hair isn't gonna get done til tomorrow after i take denisse & lina to calexico...that'll be ok i guess...
i've gotten frustrated today & i'm usually at the point now of crying...*ugh*...
talk later...
damn i need to pee...i wonder... :S
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2004 12 May :: 12.46pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: justin annoying me :D...asshole...anywho
so i'm in mac's class...yes i know, again...
so yeah prom is only 3 days away, & i'm starting to get nervous...not so much for myself, but for like others, you know like they aren't gonna get ready in time...i don't think joey got the corsage & i'm gonna be pist...*oi*...anywho...
the day is gonna come & it's gonna be amazing...
i heard someone a week ago say something very cute...
"i'm gonna marry my crush"
how many people really can say that?...hmm...
i'll be back on later i guess...oh yeah my computer at home is fking up again so maybe i won't be back later...we'll see how it goes...i've got IVLs tonight so it'd be late anyways (that never stopped me though)...
i'm getting my green hair!...ok i'm done freaking out now...
talk later...
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2004 8 May :: 1.50pm
:: Mood: kinda busy i guess
:: Music: Evanescence - Going Under
i'm gonna be like this for the rest of the year, crying that it's almost over...
well i had the spaghetti dinner last night & the concert there sucked...we ate it so bad, our band deserves to get shot in the arms...lol...i don't think macon was very happy w/ us, but then again lately we haven't been with him so the feelings are mutual...
i went to see mean girls later last night, & damn i guess that's how ppl percieve women...bitches...damn, we're vicious, but that's coo i guess...it works for us :) ...i saw david munoz there w/ his fiance & damn it was good to see him...i was thinking bout him earlier that day cuz denisse, rosa, & i were looking through my 7th grade year book to show rosa who a girl in my class looked like...damn...
i'm not ready to leave yet..."i've got to breath, i can't keep going under..."...so yeah
i'm waiting for my dad to get back from work cuz i need to get all my prom accesories from flames & price center today...i'd rather do it tomorrow now, but better sooner cuz then i'll just whimp out & say "i'm tired i'll do it later" & it'll never get done...lol...story of my life...
my journal is saved bitches...talk later...
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2004 6 May :: 10.41pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Alyson Krauss & James Taylor - How's the world treating you?
an emotional day...
well to make a long post short, i cried bout 7 times at the track meet cuz this was my last real meet before IVLs...*sigh*...
do you think of returning...how's the world treating you?...
like shit...talk later...
i swear if joey calls me tonight i'm gonna kick him in the gouch tomorrow...lol...
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