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drowning-in-you

:: 2004 6 May :: 6.54am
:: Mood: tired & annoyed
:: Music: Evanescence - Last Breath

i was afraid to sleep lastnight, but it was all good; no freaky-ass dreams today...
my day yesterday was kinda hectic, & i think it's because of that stupid dream from yesterday...i got so freaked out by it that i was shaking when i got to school & started to cry a bit...*oi*...

so i guess i was holding something agains joey which i specifically avioided cuz i don't like getting in fights with him...though some ppl at our table were kinda trying to get us to stop (which i really appriciated really), i just couldn't let him accuse me of doing things that i didn't do & yelling at me for it...so yeah i wasn't a very happy camper the whole day...

i went to applebee's w/ joey, kile, matt (his cousin), lina, ben, and brittney...it was...different...lol...then we went to toys*r*us & played a round of hide-and-seek...i didn't get caught :) ...then i went to joey's then home...

i will admit i was online last night...for bout 20 mins...then i shut everything & got off the phone by 10:30 i believe...joey called me lastnight at @ 11:30 & leaves a message cuz i didn't get the phone in time...then i called him back, & he's all "oh you were asleep, i called cuz i figured you'd be on the computer and i was gonna tell you to get off"...sorry, but ASSHOLE!...

i'm starting to think that he believes that this is worse than when i smoked...*oi*...this won't kill me, just make me tired...but then again i have other things to blame that one on...

*oi* i'm gonna get ready now, i've got a track meet later tonight...talk later...

royal load of cranberries


drowning-in-you

:: 2004 5 May :: 7.25am
:: Mood: scared shitless
:: Music: Evanescence - Going Under

there were some good tests...then there was a bad dream...
you are extremely attached to him. he seems to be
fond of you too! thats great!


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Wow......You really know your're evanescence!I bet
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actually that sounds like joey's discription, & he's never onine...lol...

woah, he is like so totally the one he undertsands
you loves you for who you are and everyhting
you must feel pretty lucky :)


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i had the wierdest dream...(by the way all the tests were done when i last wrote but i fell asleep finally)...

i had a dream that..i was at joey's house, but it was like 3 stories high...(creepy for me cuz i'm afraid of heights)...& i was there w/ my computer i guess & it wouldn't shut off, instead it would just play music videos...then i look at my old cell phone & it's doing the same damn thing...& i'm thinking *damn my dad is gonna kill me cuz i'll waste money on this shit*...so then i figure shut off both the things & we'll be fine...but they wouldn't shut off that was the problem...then the tv did the same thing...& now i'm starting to freak out...& i guess it was round time for rosa's wedding & we're supposed to have like a lunch thing so i'm really stressed out...then nana poured what she thought was diet coke but it was really root beer, so she started to complain that "it's not my damn soda"...so i went to trade her & she tipped it over & spilt it all over rosa's mother-in-law so i got pist & left, then i heard them saying "i'm sorry bout that, & i apoligize for her"...that made me mad...then i felt like there was a meet so i went to the parking lot of big john's to get picked up i guess by the team early in the morning & there was a swingset there so i was there...then i saw the strong's but they didnt' say anything to me bout a meet & just left me there...so i figured i'd get back home & *poof* there was my trucky trucky...so i get in & on my dash board i see music videos just like on my computer & cell phone...so i went to joey's quickly cuz i'm freaking out...then i get there & it seems like he doesn't care so i'm like fuck it i'll just kick it here...& i guess his house was across from the middle school cuz it was there & next door they were working on a new house i guess...well my phone started ringing & annoying me so i was gonna throw it but then i realized that there was a suction cup thingy on it...& then i looked on my computer & realized that the same thing was on my trucky trucky...& i dunno how i figured, but it was a bomb...FK!....so i'm freaking out & telling joey & lorenzo was there all of a sudden & so was chavez...so then they didnt' do anything so i freaked & said fk it, went to school, where i saw the same thing happening to me to everyone else, but it was normal...so i called danny & told him the situation & he said he'd meet me at the band room & before i got there i had a bad feeling that the band room would look different...so i go in his car & as we're pulling up i started to tell him bout the band room thing & right when we park i notice that it looks how i unfortunetly imagined (i dunno why it was bad though)...then i was gonna get a drink of water in the band room & some ppl were around the boys bathroom....so i look & i dunno what i saw or anything but next thing i know i'm in cox's class as a student & he got upset w/ my presence so he sends me out & he was fking red as hell he looked so mad, so i went back to the band room & macon was kinda mad i guess i didn't stay long enough to find out...i had danny take me to joey's & we went up & joey was just *eh* whatever, & all of a sudden joey was asking if i wanted to do it & i was mad cuz i wanted to get to the bottom of this...so he spreads out & starts beating it...but scarey as hell danny does the same thing...but he's kinda laying near him!...so i left & i hear them like they're going at it...& when i was walking out to the hallway i noticed joey's dad walking towards the door...& i wanted to stall him but then i decided that if they weren't helping me, they'd get what they deserve...& when he went in i saw adrian walk out looking ashamed...then danny came out putting his t-shirt back on talking to joey...that's when i found out that the suction cups from earlier were like bombs from the construction workers working next door so i went to save mine off my truck but i ended up walking on the street to find that one of the girls who's pregnant at school was gonna be in labor...then joey made fun of her so i hit him & ran up to his house to get rid of all those bombs...i'm halfways successful then i guess the window was open & the workers saw what i was doing so they had more put in by little robot like things...so i was having tony, darryl, frankie, danny, & joey trying to help me get rid of these things...frankie & darryl wanted to help but somehow died or something...joey & danny...i'm not sure & i don't think i want to know...& tony was just watching me as i was trying to save everyone & when i got one away but not far away enough he kicked it back into the house & locked the window from the outside...as far as i know, i think we all died...

i was so scared i couldn't go back to sleep...shit...

*ugh* i've got the chills now & i'm not gonna be comfortable at school today...talk later...

royal load of cranberries


drowning-in-you

:: 2004 5 May :: 3.48am
:: Mood: um...ugh...i dunno i'm awake i guess
:: Music: watching some movie on USA

damn these sneezes of mine...
it's really early in the morning right now...i woke up round 2:45 cuz i wasn't feeling too good, i think it was just really hot here...i'm kinda thinking that my $2 won't get here in time so this might be one of my last posts on here, it saddens me really...i'm gonna send it today & have danny like send it first class or something like that...i told him i was waiting for denisse's money but i'm just gonna give him a $10 cuz i was gonna pay my old one & another friends', so i'll add hers & they can pay me back...i should've done that a long time ago, but i've been so busy...which is why i'm mad at myself for being online right now, but i can't get back to sleep, at least for a while...

track has been ok, no new conflict with elyse, *thank god*...i think we only have 3 more track meets to go...

i found out that there is 25 days left of school... :'( ...i'm not ready to go yet...actually i don't think i will ever be...
when i'd thought bout graduating when i was younger a song always stuck out in my head...& it's very sad, but i would suggest checking out the lyrics to Patty Loveless' "how can i help you to say goodbye"...*sigh*...

joey & i are good, i just realized we have to talk bout what we're doing as far as that little ring on my finger...he said he'd wanted to do an "unlegal" (not ilegal, un-legal) wedding thingy at prom, which would be coo...it would be unlegal cuz we're both underage but we'd get it done after a few years in college, as long as we can keep it going then...i have hope for it though...

damn why did i have to wake up so early?...i'm gonna be so tired at school...*ugh*...i think it's time for me to go...actually all i'll do is just download music & take some tests...lol...

for now g'night...or g'mornin'?...either way, talk later...

oh yeah, happy cinco de mayo...*ay ay ay*...

royal load of cranberries


drowning-in-you

:: 2004 30 April :: 1.47pm
:: Mood: aggravated

dude, i swear she's gonna get it!
ok so here's the deal:

our track teem couldn't go to the escondido meet because we didn't get enough drivers to take us there...we had 3 vans & 2 drivers...& to have to tell some members that they couldn't go is not fair at all...so we didnt' end up going...

now, for normal ppl, that would be fine...oh no not for this one...

elyse...*oi*...*cringe*...fking hooch...*sigh*...ok so my thing is that she's pist cuz we can't go...she pulls some strings (oh i'm sure she did ;) )...gets us our vans back, gets another driver...& doesn't understand the fact that our coach said that we aren't going, end of story!...we're even getting our money back & getting the chance to leave late wouldn't look good for the team...

someone doesn't think so...

she is such a hooch omg it's not even funny...in the 45 mins that i was walking around the school to figure this out, i wanted & had the chance to deck her bout 3 times...stupid dependant priss thinks that things will work out her way...oh no no no not today little girl...that shit ain't working for me...

she had the audacity to try and make me look like i'm not important for the team...say shit bout our "undependant coach"...& bring up one of my close friends for no reason whatsoever...

i swear if she shows up to practice i'm gonna bring it up to coach..."oh i guess coach let us down now"...that's bull & they all know it...i know he did it for a reason, & you respect your elders...when a coach says no, THEY MEAN NO DAMNIT!...

i can't stand her anymore & i'm gonna straight up tell her that...

*damn*...talk later...

1 extra bushel | royal load of cranberries


drowning-in-you

:: 2004 29 April :: 10.25pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: Hoobastank - The Reason

TRYING TO DO MY DAMN TERM PAPER!





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well i figured taking a test would get my mind off things...sorry i've neglected to write in here...i need to get my money in to andy NOW!...*oi*...well i just needed some time off & to let others know that i'm still alive...

...stressing now...talk later...

damn no one ever comments here anymore...fk you all! :'(

1 extra bushel | royal load of cranberries


drowning-in-you

:: 2004 21 April :: 10.55pm
:: Mood: sneezy

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ahh, so i WILL die of an ulcer named danny...hmm...interesting...



well i think i'm kinda better...talk later...

royal load of cranberries


drowning-in-you

:: 2004 21 April :: 2.59pm
:: Mood: pist
:: Music: Evanescence - Everybody\'s Fool

the above song reminds me of danny...
why is he so stupid & stuborn?...*UGH* I HATE HIM...

he thinks i'm a bitch cuz i bring up the past when he just used it against me...whatever...

i fucking hate you now a bit more than ever...& i'm not sure i want to know you anymore...

"it never was & never will be, you don't know how you betrayed me & somehow now you're everybody's fool..."

talk later...

royal load of cranberries


drowning-in-you

:: 2004 20 April :: 6.34am
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: something on mtv...

g'mornin'?...yeah, wateva
so my night last night was kinda *eh*...really *eh* actually...though it sux to think this, sometimes it's not wise to work in a group project w/ friends...cuz sometimes nothing gets done...

i did my paper lastnight...*yay*...i think...i did a bad on it though...

joey's math proficiency is today & i'm really worried for him...so i'm gonna make him a bag today...i'm a cute girlfriend...

well i must go so i can get everything done early & get denisse's cd made...talk later...

royal load of cranberries


drowning-in-you

:: 2004 19 April :: 2.02pm
:: Mood: *eh* i'm coo i guess
:: Music: joey's movie next to me

so i'm in the mac lab, this time not w/ mac's class...
well i'm in here cuz i had to look over an ap test for spanish class...really intimidating...but i'm still gonna take it...it's just a small waste of $13...*damn*...anywho...

i've got to work big time on my paper for anatomy tonight...i'm even not going to practice (which i'm sorry to say but *yay*...)...i'm gonna have denisse & mark come over after i write some of the paper cuz we're all on the same group anyways...maybe we'll have dinner...i dunno...

well i'm gonna have to go cuz school is getting out in like 5 mins...i'll be back to write in you at home...talk later...

royal load of cranberries


drowning-in-you

:: 2004 19 April :: 7.39am
:: Mood: kinda sick still
:: Music: Evanescence - My Last Breath

can you feel me in your arms?...
well the punisher was a kickass movie, i went to see it with my dad lastnight...

i went to visit joey a few times yesterday...i think he felt really bad that i went over yet didn't get to really hang out w/ him cuz him & his friends were trying to film a movie...he was really sincere bout it when i told him i was a little upset...i shouldn't have been though...i'm sorry joey...

the second visit made up for it though...

well i've gotta get ready for school...talk later...

royal load of cranberries


drowning-in-you

:: 2004 17 April :: 11.00pm
:: Mood: sleepy

our 11 month anniversary...i love you joey!
well the track meet was kinda wierd, i'm glad we left cuz of the rain up there...i didn't want to do the rest of my events...*yay*...today was fun though, i hung out w/ ppl i usually don't hang out w/ during track meets, which kinda makes me feel bad but brings out hope in me to know that no matter what i always have someone there...

i saw kill bill 2 tonight, & i would so recomend it...it's an interesting movie so yeah i liked it...

well i'm kinda tired so i'm out...talk later...

royal load of cranberries

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