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2005 22 November :: 5.42 pm
I liked a lot of people a whole lot more before they started drinking, smoking, having sex, switching women/men everyday, skipping class, dropping out of school...there's a lot more but you get the idea.
No, for the record, I never liked Ben.
I guess the thing that bothers me the most is the fact that those same people are the ones who are being the biggest hypocrites.
1 You are my satellite |
Always the first star that I find |
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2005 21 November :: 9.28 pm
Jon Stewart's having another kid, a girl. His son, Nathan, is 16 months old.
I want babies. I don't care. Marry me now. Give me babies.
Always the first star that I find |
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2005 5 November :: 7.56 pm
I don't even want to go into how awful my math class was yesterday.
Or how I almost cried during it.
And once I got out.
And when I was driving.
And when I got to Jessa's.
And when I drove to Nick's.
Yeah. So never mind.
Always the first star that I find |
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2005 4 November :: 5.55 am
Remember what I said a while ago about Ben and talking to Ben?
Yeah. Completely ignore it. He is a gigantic asshole and I take it all back. He'll never be happy and no one will ever make him happy.
Not like he deserves it anyway.
Always the first star that I find |
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2005 31 October :: 5.59 am
Lately, I haven't known how I have felt about anything. I don't know why. I just don't realize how I feel until I say something that isn't how I feel.
Are you getting this?
Never mind. Don't know what I'm talking about.
I love you.
The best time in my life is when we're lying together and you're holding me close. That's when I feel safe.
Always the first star that I find |
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2005 25 October :: 10.11 pm
I think my little "vacation" down in Kalamazoo was the best thing that has happened so far for Nick and me. It gave us a little break away from each other. Insert some cliché about hearts and fondness here.
I talked to Ben for the first time in a long time. I miss hanging out with him and talking to him. Every time I go over to their house, I'm always upstairs with Nick. So our conversation, however brief/meaningless, was refreshing.
I might go to the Malleable Toad for their Halloween party on Sunday night but I don't know. One: no costume, two: I'm not one for being surrounded by the drinkers, three: eight o'clock class on Monday morning.
Katie's aunt gave me these Christian romance novels and, even though they are awful and lame and corny, I am addicted. I prefer the smut of the real thing but these are nice enough. Too bad I only took two.
I'm tired. I love you.
2 You are my satellite |
Always the first star that I find |
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2005 19 October :: 8.34 pm
Accents look fine on my comp so...
Here's the lyrics for that song that's in the movie I posted. In French. I'll translate them while I watch Lost.
Read more..
Always the first star that I find |
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2005 18 October :: 4.50 pm
Nick's leg is bothering him.
Badly.
Fuck.
1 You are my satellite |
Always the first star that I find |
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2005 18 October :: 4.24 pm
So I work from 9 to noon the rest of the week. I don't know how confident I am about going to see Katie after I bitched out her roomate's friend. I know I say I don't care what people think but right now it actually matters. I mean, if I'm staying there for the weekend, I'd better get along with her.
Blah.
Always the first star that I find |
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2005 15 October :: 3.19 am
That was totally uncalled for and you know it, jackass.
2 You are my satellite |
Always the first star that I find |
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2005 13 October :: 6.06 am
I still feel like a little kid most of the time. I don't want to be a little kid, I want to be une grande personne.
Always the first star that I find |
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2005 12 October :: 8.15 pm
:: Music: 32 Flavors by Ani DiFranco
I love this woman. This song makes me happy.
Squint your eyes and look closer
I'm not between you and your ambition
I am a poster girl with no poster
I am thirty-two flavors and then some
And I'm beyond your peripheral vision
So you might want to turn your head
Cuz someday you're going to get hungry
And eat most of the words you just said
Both my parents taught me about goodwill
And I have done well by their names
Just the kindness I've lavished on strangers
Is more than I can explain
Still there's many who've turned out their porch lights
Just so I would think they were not home
And hid in the dark of their windows
'Til I'd passed and left them alone
God help you if you are an ugly girl
'Course too pretty is also your doom
Cuz everyone harbors a secret hatred
For the prettiest girl in the room
And God help you if you are a phoenix
And you dare to rise up from the ash
A thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy
While you are just flying back
I'm not trying to give my life meaning
By demeaning you
And I would like to state for the record
I did everything that I could do
I'm not saying that I'm a saint
I just don't want to live that way
No I will never be a saint
But I will always say
Squint your eyes and look closer
I'm not between you and your ambition
I am a poster girl with no poster
I am thirty-two flavors and then some
And I'm beyond your peripheral vision
So you might want to turn your head
Cuz someday you might find you're starving
And eating all of the words that you said
This song makes me very, very happy. So does Ani DiFranco.
Always the first star that I find |
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2005 11 October :: 9.41 pm
I don't care.
Always the first star that I find |
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2005 11 October :: 9.37 pm
:: Mood: sad
Katie, I know I haven't mentioned this to you at all.
I think my parents are getting a divorce/having major troubles.
My dad said that if he gets this job in Wisconsin, he doesn't think my mom will move with him. I told him that she will, she hates Michigan and he said "Your mother hates me more than she hates Michigan."
They've been fighting a lot more than usual.
Neither of them are wearing their rings. My dad hasn't worn his for a long time, they say he needs it resized, but my mom always wears hers.
I just have a really bad feeling about everything. And it's depressing me like you have no idea. Nick tries to cheer me up and he does but that feeling doesn't last forever. Once I leave him or I'm going to bed...
I don't know what to think.
1 You are my satellite |
Always the first star that I find |
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