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:: 2005 4 August :: 1.28 pm
:: Music: Blumchen (I found my CD)

[Secret: I want to play Beauty in a production of Beauty and the Beast. One without singing because I can't sing.]



Aquinas is doing Beauty and the Beast, the Disney musical one. I want to go. Maybe I can drag Nick along.

They're also doing A Midsummer Night's Dream later this year. Hee. I still want to be Titania. Being a faerie was fun. I'm definitely trying out though.



P.S. Mom wants me to try out for Godspell. It's a musical but apparently there are small parts that don't have much singing in them.

1 You are my satellite | Always the first star that I find


:: 2005 3 August :: 10.29 pm

My favorite Disney movie is Beauty and the Beast. It's also my favorite fairy tale.

Just in case you're ever digging for ideas for presents or anything. Hee.







I want to go watch that movie now. We've got it on DVD so no more crappy VHS!

1 You are my satellite | Always the first star that I find


:: 2005 31 July :: 11.25 pm

Nick is my Orpheus.

He leads me out of my personal hell.

Always the first star that I find


:: 2005 29 July :: 2.01 am

Ridin' along in my automobile
My baby beside me at the wheel
I stole a kiss at the turn of a mile
My curiosity runnin' wild

Cruisin' and playin' the radio
With no particular place to go.

Always the first star that I find


:: 2005 28 July :: 1.30 pm

Say goodbye
Accept this fate without any anger

Always the first star that I find


:: 2005 27 July :: 1.09 pm
:: Mood: calm

Here is a long rant.
It's not pointless, being in a relationship. I hate when people have the outlook that they don't want to be in a relationship because they're just going to get hurt.

You don't stay inside everyday because you're afraid you're going to fall down and scrape your knee. You don't stay at home because you're afraid that you're going to get in a car accident. You don't get rid of all your friends when you get in a fight with one of them. You don't stop eating ice cream forever after it falls off your cone once.

If you don't want to be in a relationship just because you're afraid of it ending like the last one did or you're afraid you'll get hurt or the other person will get hurt just like last time and just like all the other ones, you're never going to get anywhere in life.

You say you want a family or someone to love but you're afraid to be with anyone because you'll break up eventually. Well, yeah. Of course you will. You're not going to be able to sit around and have life throw your man/woman at you. Nothing's free, darling.

And the very best things are those you have to work for.

Look, if you want love but are afraid of the pain, then you're never going to get it. Love is the best and worst feeling in the world. You're not going to get the fairy tale relationship that you see in movies and read about in books. You don't meet someone at an arcade and have a wonderful affair where nothing goes wrong.

Love isn't a singular feeling. Love is hate, jealousy, happiness, sadness, desperation, loneliness, pain, joy, excitement, anticipation, everything. If you want just the "love" and the "butterflies", you're out of luck. Nothing in life is free, honey, and love is no exception.



But trust me, for all the crap you're going to have to go through, all the men or women you're going to have to be with, all the arguments and pain you'll have to fight your way through, it's worth it.

Trust me.

1 You are my satellite | Always the first star that I find


:: 2005 25 July :: 3.02 am

...

Babies.

Always the first star that I find


:: 2005 24 July :: 3.10 am

I miss Nick's grandfather.


Which makes me miss my grandmother, both my grandfathers, my aunt and my uncle even more than usual.

Always the first star that I find


:: 2005 24 July :: 3.08 am

I kind of want to see what kind of drunk I am. Will I be the angry drunk? The sad one?

But I don't want to have to drink to see that. Icky.

Always the first star that I find


:: 2005 24 July :: 2.08 am

Ophelia'd know your every woe
And pain you'd ever had
She'd sympathize
And dry your eyes
And help you to forget...

Ophelia's mind went wandering
You'd wonder where she'd gone
Through secret doors
Down corridors
She'd wander them alone
All alone...

Always the first star that I find


:: 2005 24 July :: 1.17 am

Life is fantastic.

I love Nick so much... gush gush icky icky mushy romance BLAH!

1 You are my satellite | Always the first star that I find


:: 2005 23 July :: 12.05 pm

"I like looking at the back of the tapestry because it's a lot like real life. A mess. It makes no sense, there seems to be no order or beauty. But every once in a while God gives you a glimpse of the other side and it all begins to make sense."



"Remember, life is beautiful -- even when you can't always see it."

Always the first star that I find


:: 2005 22 July :: 1.15 am

In other news, I love Nick and I can be absurdly jealous at times.

Always the first star that I find


:: 2005 22 July :: 1.14 am

I'm not liking Mitch right now.

Always the first star that I find


:: 2005 19 July :: 6.03 pm

I am in love with a man who just happens to be the best person in the world.

But he'll never admit it.

1 You are my satellite | Always the first star that I find

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