random thoughts..
yea... its such a nice day out... i wish i was allowed out, and i can't even call my mom to talk to her about it because our cell phone people fucked with our phones... its gay... so my mom has to wait like a week to call them back again... idk why.. but whatever... lately i've been noticing how like... idk i don't wanna sound like... bitchy or anything but i've been feeling kinda.. left out? like ya know.. when your friends are hanging out and all... and you're not invited to come along... yea well thats happened to me several times just recently... and im kinda getting bored with it...

i found this on a journal..
fill this out.. its funny lol...

I ____ Stephy.
Stephy is ____.
if I were alone in a room with Stephy, I would ____.
I think Stephy should _____
Stephy needs ____.
Stephy will never ____.
I want to _____ Stephy.
Stephy can ____ my _____.
when I think about Stephy, I ____.
Someday Stephy will _____.
Stephy reminds me of _____.
Without Stephy ____.
Memories of Stephy are ____.
Stephy can be ____.
____ is how I describe meeting Stephy.
Worst thing about Stephy is ____.
Best thing about Stephy is _____.
Stephy _____.
If Stephy was a flavor of ice cream she would be _____.
Stephy is my _____.
I wish Stephy would _____.

the stupid meeting
yea well... i went to the meeting this morning. it was my teachers, the house principal (culigan) my mom and me. yea well he started off by saying that my grades dropped dramatically from 1st to 2nd MP. he said that first MP my grades were rather good... but 2nd MP it all went down hill. i went down in all of my classes. he brought up my cutting class... i had over 50 cuts... and he said something about how the leading cause of students' grades dropping dramatically like mine did was "substance abuse." yea... well he was like "i'm not saying this is the case, but i'm just stating" and my mom steps in and goes "well that was the case" and she continued by telling my principal and my teachers how i was doing drugs around christmas time and when i was hanging out with britt n julie n the boys all the time... dude i was so mad. thats NONE of their business what i used to do in my spare time. like wtf. and he asked when the last time i used drugs was... and then my teachers were asking me if i was happy, or if i felt like i didn't belong at school... asking me if i was depressed, and if i see mrs rackozy(the school counsiler) it was all bullshit. but culigan said that since i haven't been cutting class at all, and i've improved my grades greatly... and i'm doing homework and making an effort, and since i've stopped doing drugs, he's going to cut me a BIG break and he was like "i'm going to do something i've never in my history of being a disiplinary principal done before. i'm going to just drop all of these 50+ cuts that you've got and just let you start off on a clean slate" it was the best thing i heard the whole meeting. because he said that if i would have been disiplined for all the cuts, i would have been suspended for 5 days which would have SUCKED... i would have been grounded for 10 times longer....

haha this is so funny

Stoner Bear


Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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just finished a REALLY long survey..
yea this fucking thing took me two god damn hours to fill out! so read it *angry face* lmao...


000. Time you started taking this: 8:47
001.What is your name: stephy
002. Spell your name backwards: yhpets
003. Date of birth: o4.o7.88
004. Male or female: female
005. Astrological sign: aries
006. Nicknames: kissy, stephy
007. Occupation: uh I don’t work? I’m a student?
008. Height: 5'4
010. Hair color: I don’t remember… red, brown, blonde… black, orange, pink??
011. Eye color: brown
012. Where were you born: mt laurel?
013. Where do you reside now: cherry hill
014. Age: 15
015. Screen names: my sweet poisonX
016. E-mail addy: pinkpixystix47@yahoo.com
017. What does your screen name stand for: idk..?
018. What is your journal name: poisonedxlove
019. What does your journal name stand for?: .idk?
020. Pets: dog
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake: 15
022. Piercings: ears
023. Tattoos: none yet.. I’m getting tinkerbell with sparkles around her on my lower tummy
024. Shoe size: idk? Like 8?
025. Righty or lefty: righty
026. Wearing: jeans n a hoodie
027. Hearing: smile empty soul
028. Feeling: BORED
029. Eating/drinking: pepsi.. duh

~Friends Stuff~

Which person you know is the....
030. Craziest: kate
031. Loudest: ashley
032. Nicest: brittney
033. Bitchiest: probably me
034. Life of the party: bo and julie
035. Jock: idk..
036. Prep: kristen
037. Rebel: monica
038. Cutest: idk? A lot of them
039. Best friend of the same sex: Kristen, la, Courtney, sam, Julie, boner
040. Best friend of the opposite sex: Kevin, jr?
041. Most popular: chet
042. Rudest: idk
043. Most shy: teresa!
044. Dumbest: matt lmao
045. Smartest: sam
046. Weirdest: Jake… he makes play dough penises lmao
047. Has the best hair: Jake DID til he cut it off?
048. Best personality: several people
049. Most talented? Deffinatly boner
050. Most ghetto: shawn
051. Most spoiled: erica
052. Drama queen: erica
053. Pain in the ass: idk… probably katie
054. Funniest: warren and jr
055. Best advice giver: Kristen hope and la
056. Druggie: none of my friends are druggies.. they prefer “junkies”
057. Most likely to join a cult: lisa.. lmao
058. Have you lost touch with a good friend recently: yes
059. Person you've been friends with the longest: Rachel or erica
060. How many friends do you have on your buddy list: 169

~Guys/Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff~
061. Have you ever been in love: yup
062. How many people have you told "I love you": and actually well said they meant it? idk
063. How many people have you been in love with: 2
064. How many people have you kissed: idk… too many to remember?
065. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex: yes
066. How many people have you dated: a lot…
067. What do you look for in a guy/girl?: personality.. looks
068. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: eyes
069. What type of guy/girl do you usually go for: Goths/skaters/LOSERS
070. Do you have a bf/gf: surely
071. If so where did you meet them: through kristen
072. What do you like most about your bf/gf: I trust him
073. Do you have a crush right now: Johnny depp… he’s so hott lmao
074. If so who is it: see above?
075. Do you believe in love at first sight?: not really
076. Do you remember your first love: unfortunatly
077. Who is the first person you kissed: this kid dan from cinnaminson
079. Do you believe in soul mates: uhh… Kristen is my soul mate lol
080. If so do you believe you'll ever find yours: I already did… score!

~Family Stuff~
104. How many siblings do you have: 1
105. What are your parents names: kelli and rob
106. What are your siblings names: johnathan (JR)
107. How many siblings does your mother have: 1
108. How many siblings does your father have: 7
109. Where are your parents from: palmyra
110. Is your family close: some of it…
111. Does your family get together for holidays: unfortunatly
112. Do you have a drunk uncle: doesn’t everyone?
113. Any medical problems run through your family: idk
114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee? YES!!! lmao
115. Do you have any nieces or nephews?:I HOPE not lol
116. Are your parents divorced: not yet lol
117. Do you have step parents: no.
118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family: yep.. it was me
119. If so for what: because I’m a fuck up
120. Did some of your family come to America from another country: my great grandfather came from like… italy I think

~Music Stuff~

121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life: smile empty soul – the other side… or simple plan – one day
122. What's the most embarrasing cd you own: umm… I think I have a Madonna cd in my closet.. does that count?
123. What's the best cd you own: sublime owns ALL
124. What song do you absolutely hate: brittney spears
125. Do you sing in the shower: I always sing
126. What song reminds you of that special someone: with you

Okay, I Name An Artist And You Give A Lyric From Any One Of Their Songs!~
127. Pink:I’m my own worst enemy
128. Aerosmith: don’t wanna close my eyes
129. Madonna: like a virgin, touched for the very first time! Rofl me and sam’s song
130. Korn: don’t really listen to korn
131. Backstreet Boys: I want it that way
132. The Beatles: don’t listen to the beatles
133. Sublime: im hornier then ron Jeremy… YES I FUCKING LOVE SUBLIME
134. J.Lo: love don’t cost a thing
135. *Nsync: this I promise you
136. Limp Bizkit: everything is fucked everybody SUCKS
138. Creed: idk…
139. Enrique Iglesias: idk..
140. Good Charlotte: hold on, if you feel like letting go
141. Christina Aguilera: young girl don’t cry, I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall
142. Eminem: when I was just a little baby boy my momma used to tell me these crazy things
143. New Found Glory: umm… I’d still pick my friends over you..
144. Kelly Clarkson: have you had a friend who let you down were you the last to know?
145. Kelly Osbourne: who cares..
146. Mandy Moore: sing to me the song of the stars, of your galaxy dancing and laughing again
147. Eve: idk…
148. Aaliyah: rock the boat.
149. Nelly: its getting hott in hurr!!! lmao
150. Alicia Keys: idk
151. Incubus: bat your eyes girl be otherworldly, count your blessings seduce a stranger

~Favorites~
152. Color: pink n black
153. Food: sugar
154. Song: I’ve got a few
155. Show: The OC and that 70’s show…
156. School subject: science or math or history.. no fuck that… LUNCH
157. Band/singer: Mariah carey, sublime, smile empty soul, idk… a lot more
158. Animal: kitties
159. Outfit: pj’s
160. Radio station: 100.3, 96.5
161. Movie: dirty dancing, anything disney
162. Pair of shoes: sneakers?
163. Cartoon: daria
164. Actor: Johnny depp, Orlando bloom, adam brody <3
165. Actress: Angelina jolie.. she’s so hott
166. Potato chip: idk
167. Drink: pepsi
168. Alcholic drink: vodka <3
169. Holiday: new years.. the only one I don’t have to spend w/ my family… and I get really drunk haha
170. Perfume/cologne: whatever chet wears.. rofl
171. Pizza topping: idk?
172. Jello flavor: watermelon
173. Lunch meat: none
174. Board game: outburst w/ sam Kristen n jeanna!
175. Video game: anything that I play in my room
176. Website: my journal
177. Book: innocence <3
178. Computer game: don’t play computer games
179. Number: 13
180. Cereal: anything not too sugary
181. Comedian: idk
182. Dessert: my mommys brownies… SCORE
183. Disney character: ariel….. duh
184. Clothing store: doesn’t matter.. as long as its comfy
185. Pasttime: the past 2 summers.. w/ kristen… and with jess n court
186. Teacher: last years world civ teacher… mecca’s so hott lmao
187. Childhood toy: Barbie dolls with green hair and things through its plastic skull <33
188. Carnival game/ride: ferris wheel w/ bo late at night over the water <33 I miss her L
189. Candy bar: idk…
190. Magazine: seventeen
191. Salad dressing: ranch
192. Thing to do on the weekend: chill w/ my homies.. lol
193. Hot drink: French vanilla cappuccino w/ hot chocolate
194. Season: spring, summer..
195. Sport to watch: football… I’ve grown to like it.
196. Person to talk to online: everybody…

~Your Bedroom/Sleeping Habits~
197. What color are your sheets: dark blue0
198. What color are your bedroom walls: its like… wood? idk
199. Do you have posters on your wall: posters, pictures, drawings, writing.. handprints… EVERYTHING is on my walls
200. If so of what: see above… plus a lot more
201. Do you have a tv in your bedroom: yep
202. How many pillows are on your bed: 1-2
203. What do you normally sleep in: pj pants n a tank top
204. Describe your favourite pjs: pink babe pants, white tank w/ tweety
205. What size bed do you have: twin… but I rarely sleep on it
206. Do you have a waterbed/bunkbed/daybed: just a regular bed
207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom: nope
208. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep: always
209. Describe the last nightmare you had: last one… won’t say.. but the last one I WILL say… I got back with my ex boyfriend from last year… and a lot of shit happened, and I ended up killing him and burying his body in the woods behind my school.
210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: not anymore
211. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed: I fit like 3 people in there once
212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions: idk.. I don’t watch myself sleep
213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling: hellz no
214. Do you snore: no
215. How about drool?: lmao no
216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room: of course
217. What color is the carpet in your room: all kinds of colors.. people draw on it..
218. What's under your bed: nothing.. my bed’s on the ground..

~This or that~
219. Coke/Pepsi: pepsi
220. Doughnuts/bagels: bagels
221. Day/night: night
222. Wicked witch of the east/wicked witch of the west: west
223. Heaven/hell: neither
224. Make love/have sex: neither… FUCK
225. Coffee/tea: umm… both?
226. Hamburgers/hotdogs: neither
227. Rap/rock: rock
228. Britney/Christina: christina
229. Swiss cheese/american cheese: american.
230. Real World/Road Rules: real world.
231. Backstreet Boys/*Nsync: nsync lol I know more of their songs
232. Silver/gold: gold
233. Nike/Adidas: adidas
234. McDonalds/Taco Bell: mcdonalds
235. Sweet/sour: sweet
236. Punk/emo: both
237. Hot/cold: hot
238. Winter/summer: summer
239. Spring/fall: spring
240. Operas/plays: plays
241. Read/watch tv: depends on the book/whats on tv
242. Cd's/tapes: deffinatly cds
243. Dvd's/vhs: doesn’t matter
244. Old/new: umm… depends?
245. Shorts/skirts: neither… I hate my legs.. but if I had to choose, a skirt
246. Pink/red: pink
247. Colored pictures/black and white photos: depends on what it’s a picture of
248. Meat/vegetables: veggies
249. Mexican food/chinese food: chinese
250. Commercials/infomercials: commercials
251. Scary movies/comedies: HORROR!!!
252. Bikinis/one piece bathing suits: deffinatly 2 piece shim suit
253. Sandals/tennis shoes: sandals
254. Dogs/cats: kitties
255. Unicorns/fairies: im a fairy freak?
256. Water/land: both…
257. Sugar/spice: sugar
258. Black/white: black
259. Ribbons/bows: bows
260. Chicken/beef: chicken
261. Colored christmas lights/regular white christmas lights: colored AND blinky
262. Cars/trucks: fast car!
263. Austin Powers/James Bond: james bond… hehe
264. Popcorn/pretzels: pretzels
265. Hip-hop/Rock: rock
266. Passionate kiss/peck: hmm… both?
267. WWE wrestling/ real wrestling: neither
268. Back rub/foot massage: back… I HATE feet
269. Picture frames/photo albums: frames for the pictures of the people I really care about… albums for all my other friends
270. Pens/pencils: pens

~What Is Your Opinion Of The Following~

271. Eminem: hate him
272. Virgins: see this! Innocence!! *points to self*
273. God: uhh..
274. The Osbournes: funny
275. Reality TV: okay sometimes
276. J.Lo: big ass
277. Religion: fuck religion
278. Emo music: love it!
279. Valentine's Day: stupid society. die
280. Christina Aguilera's comeback: annoying
281. Homosexuals: nothing wrong with it
282. Abortion: idk
283. Inter-racial relationships: perfectly fine
284. Murder: love it
285. Death: love it
286. Obesity: nothing wrong with it as long as you’re not aunt jamima at my school… rofl
287. Pre-marital sex: no problem with it
288. Terrorism: as in mass destruction? SCORE
289. Pornography: don’t need to watch it
290. Fortune tellers: weird
291. Threesomes: lucky person rofl
292. Prostitution: SMUT
293. Politics: they should all die
294. Country music: not that bad
295. George W. Bush: dumb fuck
296. Cloning: I want a clone
297. Britney's boobs: eww?
298. Gas prices in America: who cares?

~Name Game~

What Do You Think Of When You Hear These Common Names?...
299. Jack: idk
300. Tiffany: skank
301. Ben: benny from the mall
302. Maria: pretty
303. Jennifer: jew
304. Nicole: fork up her nose?
305. Amy: annoying
306. Adam: conceited
307. Richard: SMELLY
308. Justin: gay
309. Arnold: from the TV show
310. Tom: vw class
311. Melissa: my cousin
312. Charlotte: good charlotte!
313. Harold: the kid from the Arnold show!
314. John: sam’s ex… DIE
315. Joel: that kid who used to stalk me and laurie
316. Vanessa: ashleys cousin
317. Michelle: girl in my gym class.. she’s cool
318. Kevin: my heart <33 the boy Kristen says I’ll marry
319. Brent: idk
320. Jake: shaggy!!! He made a play dough penis
321. Billy: shwane’s cousin
322. Sarah: girl from my health class.. she was weird
323. Natalie: saffos… AHH DIE DIE DIE
324. Christy: boner’s HOTT sister
325. Nick: dirty dom
326. Linda: ashley’s other mother
327. Taylor: jay’s lil sister… aww so cute
328. Jordan: Jordan tor
329. Jamie: oneil… eww he licked me!
330. Adrian: idk

~Have You Ever....~
331. Mooned anyone: uhh no
332. Been on a diet: yea
333. Been to a foreign country: does mexico count?
334. Broken a bone: nope
335. Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling: eww
336. Swear at a teacher: all the time?
337. Talked to an LJ member via e-mails or instant messages: no?
338. Got in a fight: who hasn’t?
339. Dated a teacher: no but my world civ student teacher was really hott
340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants: eww no
341. Thought about killing your enemy: I’m always plotting death
342. Gone skinny dipping: lmao… naked in the hot tub w/ Kristen hope
343. Met another LJ member in the flesh: no? but met sjc people.. losers
344. Told a little white lie: who hasn’t!?
345. Told a secret you swore not to tell: once… but it was important
346. Used a foreign object to masturbate: eww
347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid: no?
348. Been on tv: mhmm
349. Been on the radio: nope
350. Been in a mosh pit: nah
351. Been to a concert: hellz yea… y100 feastival, front row, center stage with my best friends monica Julie and raine.. drunk as hell… jet, smile empty soul, dashboard, the offspring and 311!!!!
352. Dated one of your best friends: once
353. Loved someone so much it makes you cry: mhmm…
354. Decieved somebody close to you: unfortunatly
355. Broken the law: yup
356. Been to a rodeo: no
357. Been on a talk show: nah
358. Been on a game show: no
359. Been on an airplane: yea
360. Got to ride on a firetruck: yea
361. Came close to dying: no comment
362. Cheated on a bf/gf: bleh… yea..
363. Gave someone a piggy back ride: my baby brother
364. Terrorized a babysitter: me? Terrorize somebody? lol
365. Made a mud pie: when I was little
366. Had a dream that you're falling off a cliff: mhmm
367. Snuck out of the house at night: ALL the time
368. Been so drunk you don't remember your name: lmao.. a few times
369. Had an eating disorder: yea
370. Felt like you didn't belong: often..
371. Felt like the 3rd wheel:yeaa
372. Smoked: yup
373. Done drugs: yup
374. Stolen money from a poor person begging on the street: no that’s just wrong
375. Had your tonsils removed: nope
376. Gone to camp: nope
377. Won a bet: yeaa
378. Written a love letter: if you mean one of those “I can’t sleep cant eat cant breathe without you” kinda things… NO
379. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love: several times… and 95% of the time got grounded for it too
380. Written a love poem: nope
381. Kissed in the rain: jessica’s aunts house last year on her birthday… I remember it exactly.
382. Slow danced with someone you love: of course
383. Participated in cyber sex: lmao no
384. Faked an orgasm: VIRGIN!
385. Stolen a kiss: of course
386. Asked a friend for relationship advice? yea
387. Had a friend steal your bf/gf: yea :-\
388. Watched the sunset/rise with someone you love: mhmm
389. Gotten a speeding ticket: I don’t drive yet
390. Done jail time: nah
391. Had to wear a uniform to work: nope
392. Won a trophy: yea when I was little
393. Thrown up in public: nope
394. Bowled a perfect game: on the video game!
395. Failed/got held back: nope
396. Got perfect attendance in grade school: hell no
397. Roasted pumpkin seeds: uhh?
398. Taken ballet lessons: yea
399. Attempted suicide: no comment
400. Cut yourself: many times

~Childhood Stuff~

401. Did you play with Barbies: who hasn’t
402. Did you own Treasure Trolls: still do
403. Did you watch Beverly Hills 90210: nope
404. Did you play Simon: yea
405. Did you watch Fraggle Rock: hell yea
406. Did you wet the bed: when I was little
407. Did you believe there were monsters in your closet or under your bed: hell yea I did.. and they growled at me n shit…
408. Did you lol: huh?
409. Were you shy: haha no
410. Were you spoiled: got EVERYTHING I wanted
411. Were you abused: nope
412. Did you go to the circus: all the time
413. Did you go to the zoo: still do
414. Were you in a car accident: yep
415. Did you build snowmen: still do
416. Did you cry when you scraped your knee: no.. I was the tough bully type
417. Were your older cousins mean to you: heather hated me and I hated her.. then we became best friends
418. Did you think slinkies were cool: dude they’re soo fun to play with when you’re fucked up
419. Did you think the Ninja Turtles really lived in the sewer: hell yea
420. Were you afraid of the dark: when I was little.. I love the darnk now
421. Did you have slumber parties: didn’t EVERY little girl?
422. Did you have New Kids On The Block sheets, curtains, sleeping bags, dolls and pajamas: no that was heather
423. Did you tease your hair out like Tiffany: huh?
424. Did you believe in the Easter Bunny/Santa Claus/ and the Tooth Fairy: yea

~Randomness~

425. Do you believe in aliens: sure
426. Name 3 things that are next to your computer: my bookbag, my book, dad’s tools
427. Do you have any hidden talents: idk?
428. Do you wish MTV would play music videos: mtv = shit
429. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be: horror… I’d be the psycho along w/ kristen
430. What would your movie star name be: psycho bitch
431. Do you play any sports: nope
432. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen: umm… those tales from the crypt things when I was little scared the shit outa me
433. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently: pirates!!!
434. What is the dumbest movie you've ever seen: darkness falls.. fucking tooth fairy
435. Do you drive: not yet
436. What is your dream car: hot pink jeep
437. Do you think you're good looking: no
438. Do others think you are good looking: yea
439. Would you ever sky dive: sure
440. Do you believe in Bigfoot: uhh?
441. How many rooms do you have in your house: idk
442. Are you afraid of roller coasters: hell no
443. Do you believe in God: nope
444. Do you believe in Satan: nope
445. Do you believe there is a heaven: nope.. when you die, you go into the ground
446. Do you believe there is a hell: see above?
447. Do you own a pooltable: yea
448. Do you have a pool: nope
449. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen: its called my mom
450. Do you like chocolate: uh huh
451. Who/what is on your 2003 calendar: kitties n dogs
452. How many U.S. states have you been to: idk… several
453. Ever wished on a shooting star: yup
454. Best Halloween costume you ever wore: I was a hooker in like 7th grade lmao
456. What is your weakness: trust
457. Name something you can't get enough of: spending time w/ people I care about
458. Describe yourself in 3 adjectives: umm… apathetic…. Psychopathic…. crazy
459. How many kids do you want to have: none
460. Future daughters names: none
461. Future sons names: none
462. What is your ideal way to die: right now? Die by suicide after going on a mass murdering spree
463. How do you release stress: music
464. Are you a trendy person: nope
465. Are you an artistic person: when I’m fucked up
466. Are you a realistic person: sometimes
467. Do you un-tie your shoes every time you take them off: no
468. Are you a strong person: idk
469. Are you a strong willed person: nope
470. Who is the last person to e-mail you: kevin
471. Who is the last person to IM you: my cousin
472. Do you hate chain e-mails: doesn’t everybody?
473. Are you a deep sleeper: at my house yes, or at any house I’m comfortable in.. yes
474. Are you a good story teller: when I’m in a psycho mood
475. What do you believe is your best quality: I listen
476. What is your greatest accomplishment: my bedroom!
477. Do you like to burn candles or incense: all the time
478. Do you do yoga: eww no
479. Do you have your own credit card: parents don’t trust me
480. Let's say you win the lotto. What do you do with all that money: first i'd bring raine back to jersey then buy my dream car (my hot pink jeep w/ sparkle flames and the word "bitch" written on the windshield)
481. Do you have a check book: nope
482. Do you like your driver's license picture: don’t got one yet
483. Do you tan easily: mhmm
484. What color is your hair naturally: don’t remember
485. How many fillings do you have: idk
486. How many cavities did you have at your last dentist visit: no idea
487. Worst feeling in the world: feeling alone
488. Best feeling in the world: being w/ my loser boyfriend
489. Is the glass half empty or half full: depends
490. Last thing you downloaded: bright eyes
491. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life: nope
492. What do you think people think of you: don’t care
493. Are you a likeable person: not usually.. unless I like you
494. Do you need therapy: deffinatly
495. Do you take medication for a chemical imbalance: no
496. What is the best way to be proposed to: laying in the grass in a field watching the sunrise during summer
497. What kind of movie would you star in: horror movie… as the murderer
498. If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UPS? No! because then they don’t have the arrow anymore! (in between the e and the x in “Ex”)
499. When are you moving: idk
500. What's your favorite phrase: “kill yourself, now”
501. What time is it now: 10:28

yay
heh.. i finally redid my journal layout... tell me what you think of it... i spent like an hour doing it so you better like it lol

in study hall
yea... so i know i haven't updated since like.. i got grounded... which kinda sucks but oh well... yea not much has happened anyway... i got pictures developed from when jake first got back from rehab.... they're so funny.. there's a picture of the play dough penis that jake made when we got bored.... and there were alot more... but yea... my dad got really fucked up on sunday night at timmer's house.... and it was to the point where he couldn't remember one thing from the next.... and my parents ended up getting into a really really big fight, and my dad broke the black phone... and my mom ended up giving me my corded phone back and told me to put it in my room.. i was like SCORE lol... and i have my cell phone back too... yea well we ended up going to my grandmothers sunday night and staying the night there because my mom wanted to get away from my dad... and so i didn't go to school yesterday. and so i just chilled around melissa's house and babysat darren and my brother.. then when krystal got home from school we went to her house and played some LOTR game where like.. you play online with people and you can like... talk to them with a headset.. it was cool... i made a friend from michigan lol... it's all good... idk things are looking better since last weekend... thats a plus... but i miss monica soo much.. i was thinking about her today and decided that im going to start writing her a letter for when she's allowed to get mail. it's going to be SOO long by the time it gets to her.. but i gotta stop writing now... bells going to ring soon..

continuing last entry
well i'm not sure exactly where i left off but i think it was when the guys left on saturday night and jessie slept over... well kristen was dead tired, so she went right to bed, and so me n jessie stayed up later... i ended up going to bed around like 1ish.. and woke up at like 8ish... poppy made breakfast for everybody... then i think we just chilled around for a while... kevin came over... and then laura n kenny came over...then we all decided to go to the pier before we left to go to sams house... well the plan was to go to the pier... then to take jessie home then go to sams and kevin was gunna take me home at like 9:30... well everything went as planned until i didn't wanna go home... rian, bridget and jeanna were all at sam's house too, and i wanted to stay because i hadn't seen them in a while.. plus it was my first time meeting rian... well kristen was like "you should stay you should stay... we'll find you a ride home" and it was all good i was like fine... so kevin stayed til like 11 and then he left... then rian n bridget left around like 12:30... and jeanna slept over with us... well uhh.. we didn't sleep... we stayed up ALL night playing around in the back room with the karioke machine lol... then jeanna left at like 2ish i guess in the afternoon... and then kristen fell asleep... and we needed to find a ride home... well my dad ended up coming to pick me up.. and my parents were PISSED to find me in williamstown especially since i was supposed to be home the MORNING before... well it turned into a whole big fight, and kristen got pissed off at me for some reason but idk.. i haven't talked to her since then... and i got grounded... and i flipped out and i got my cell phone taken away, my computer privaliges taken away, and my dad took my phone out of my room.. so i have NOTHING.. i'm like on lock down.. but i can deal with it for now...

then tuesday, yesterday, i got home from school and my dad was home so i couldn't really do anything... i ended up going upstairs to my room and just falling asleep. i slept from like 4 in the afternoon til about 11... then i woke up, got a drink and checked my email.. then went back to bed... mike called me and left a msg and was like "steph its mike gimme a call when you get this i kinda gotta talk to you" but since i wasn't allowed to use the phone, i couldn't call back... oh well.. not like i really care.. nothing important..... but to make it simple.. my life sucks right now...