Update:

Yesterday, I went out with some friends and here where things are with my “Finding Nemo” quest.

Jessi: She’s pretty cool. Another time, another place we might have had something. She has seen the movie before and sees no reason to go see it again.

Lauren: I went with a lot of people to see Pirates of the Caribbean, and she was one of them. On the way home (I’m told) she was freaking out because she thinks I’m in love with her. Life is to short to spend it with crazy bitches. There are 18 million reasons why I don’t love her, and those greatly outweigh my need to see “Finding Nemo”.

I may very well have failed my quest. No big thing. The best thing about breaking promises with yourself is that no one will hold it over your head latter. Well, other then the million people on the Internet right now reading this.

Damn, I knew I should have made this "Friends Only".

Quiz time


Angel Goth -- Something about the fallen angels
calls to you. You might even name your first
child Lucifer, regardless of sex.


Which Gothic Stereotype Are You?
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As if there was any doubt.



Psychological Nightmare


What sort of Nightmare are you?
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Let me describe a few of my more memorable ones when we get a chance.



Unreciprocated Love


Which Life Stage Are You?
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Yup... that seems about right... Every day it's different though...



You're not really hateful, no, you'd hate much, you
just...dislike. You're cool, I guess.


How Hateful Are You?
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Jesus told me not to hate, but I am human...

What Do You Wear to Bed?

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Well I would, but I have a metical condition that doesn't allow me to.



You are asexual.


What is your sexual orientation?
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Ok, that one was a big surpise to me.

What a night…

Where to start?

D.D. called me up, and asked if I wanted to go bowling with “some people”. This took me off because that was going to be the double date occasion. But he didn’t mention Jesse’s name, turns out she was working. It ended up being him, me, Kate (his fiancé), and a guy he met at basic training (Snowball, funny name eh?).

Anyway Snowball showed up after to games of D.D., Kate and I. He was kinda depressed because he had just broken up with his g/f. She said he’s “too good for her”.

Anyway after a bit it came out that D.D. has been using chewing tobacco. Kate was mad because she had asked him several times to stop, and he had made promises to do so. So yeah, she was getting over it. The only thing that stopped her from getting over it was the D.D. was mad at her for no reason (apparent to Snowball or I). Then she tried to fix the hole that was starting to appear, and he just ripped it apart.

D.D. : It was only chewing tobacco, what’s the big idea?
Kate : I’m just upset that you lied to me…
D.D. : *Grumble

Later on…

D.D. : You and Mike should go out then, you have so much MORE in common than we do…

(We really do, but that’s not important)

D.D. : Well then… fuck it… get a ride home! I want my ring back!
*he storms off

Kate went after him. Snowball and I sat stupefied, wondering if we should finish out the game.

Later we went out, and saw that D.D.’s truck was still there. They were talking.

Anyway, Snowball didn’t want to be alone. So we went to Meijer (in separate cars). When we got there he was talking on his cell phone. It was his ex-… they were getting back together, somewhat. Anyway, I showed him the magic that is the $1.99 single rose. Anyway on the way out I got hit on by a rather attractive woman… of course she reeked of alcohol.

Anyway, I was gonna show him back to I-94 (he lives in battle creek). Half way there his car dies… well his battery anyway. Completely dead. We tried valiantly to jump it, but it was too far gone for a side of the road job… so we pushed his car off the road and we took his battery to my house (it was well after one by this point).

Long story short I used my battery charger to charge it, and that took 7 hours. We stayed up and watched some movies, went to the 24 hour McDonalds, and so on…

We had a good time…

Not bad for a guy I hardly know.

Sudden Change

Recently it was touched upon that the music you listen to can greatly affect your state of mind.

“Rob: What came first, the music or the misery? People worry about kids playing with guns, or watching violent videos, that some sort of culture of violence will take them over. Nobody worries about kids listening to thousands, literally thousands of songs about heartbreak, rejection, pain, misery and loss. Did I listen to pop music because I was miserable? Or was I miserable because I listened to pop music?”

So I just bought White Stripes’ Elephant. All of a sudden things are different. I no longer am into perfect. Perfect isn’t human. To be perfect is inhuman. I just want to have fun while I’m on this earth and I don’t want to have to deal and struggle with everything having to be just right every day in my life. It will be impossible to live up to my high standards set forth by past successes. I want my life to be more of a struggle. I want to have issues that I must work through to get the happiness I deserve. I want an uphill battle with resistance. Not this total lack of everything I have now.

“I wanna feel passion, I wanna feel pain,
I wanna weep at the sound of your name,
come make me laugh, come make me cry,
just make me feel… alive”



I will now be accepting applications for my Mrs. Wrong.

Update!

It’s been a while so I’ll try to catch you all up.

My friend D.D. is gonna try to hook me up with a girl named Jesse.

Jesse just graduated from Hacket Catholic Central. I met her once, but to be honest I don’t remember anything about her. The only thing I remember is that I said something about liking pants without back pockets, and I didn’t realize that she didn’t have back pockets… so she thought I was talking about her butt which made her insecure.

Anyway Her, Me, D.D. and his fiancé are gonna go bowling sometime next week.

Meanwhile…

My friend Aaron (the douche) and his girl broke up. The final blow caught me by surpise, but that’s a secret that I wont post on the Internet. Her and I talked for a long time about her break up. Anyway I brought up my double date with Jesse.

Her (Lauren): You don’t seem so enthused.

Me: Well… to tell you the truth… I have this plan of seeing “Finding Nemo” with a girl sometime this summer, and going bowling doesn’t accomplish that goal.

Her: I’ll go see it with you.

Me: I didn’t mean to imply…

Her: You didn’t, I am.

Just so you know if I seem quite sad, I just lost some one very dear to me, my friend David (Jumbo)’s mother. She referred to me as “her other son”, and she was my second mother. She went suddenly, and without pain. She is with God now. If you feel like praying, though… pray for Dave. His father is really old and can’t do much of anything since he had a stroke several years ago. So now, he’s practically an orphan. His life wasn’t on the best track before… I don’t know what this will do to him…