What does it mean?
I had a pretty crazy dream last night.

Ok so I go to the Circus you know. And at the circus there is a dunk tank. And in the dunk tank there is King Montofort the III, Gandhi, and of course Boy George. I was going to take my turn, when this guy behind me shoots Gandhi. I get arrested.

My cellmate in prison is the ghost of Jake Cousto. He was giving me a funny look so I had to escape. I walked through several open doors. And out into the woods. That’s when I met up with the dread pirate Robertson. He kept the Rodents Of Unusual Size off my back.

That’s when I got to a clearing. There was a road in the middle of the clearing and standing in the middle of said road was a baby deer. I called to its mother and she ran and saved it. Then a cop car hit her. The car stopped and rolled down its window and threw out my tied up dog. It then took off, running over the hindquarters of my dog. That’s when I started to sing NIN – Piggy (Nothing can stop me now). I met up with someone else who wanted to take down the establishment. The only thing I remember about him was he had a blue crew cut.

Anyway, to make a long story short, he killed a few cops, and then we both got shot and died.

Oh Happy Day!
The class I thought I was failing, I pulled a B in! I didn't make the dean's list though. I got a 3.28 over all. But that's ok, because I don't have to take ECE 210 again!

On an unrelated note I had a Conversation with my friend Dan today...

polishpimping: Just so I know, so unconfortable scilences do not occur in the futre, are you dating Stacey?
DEW458: yeah, i thought u knew
DEW458: but yeah, i am
polishpimping: I had a general Idea, but no confermation. You dating Stacey, is a lot like Iraq having WMDs.
DEW458: yeah, i dont know about all that
polishpimping: I mean, I generally believe it was happening, but I had no proof, or whatever.
DEW458: i get ya

...

polishpimping: I just want you to know that just because you're dating her, doesn't mean that WE can't be friends
DEW458: ok, thats good to know...i figured u would hate me for dating her
polishpimping: Hate is a strong word. I would use the word pity. j/k

It's been a good day

Nothing much happened today.

I mowed the lawn.

I called my old boss, I’ll be starting again soon.

I went shopping with Aaron. I bought two DVDs and a CD (Resident Evil, The Crow: Salvation, and NIN-Further down the spiral)

My life is so dull.

Goodbye's
I went bowling with my firends, and ran into my former best friend Dan, and his new g/f. Did I mention it's Stacey?

Here goes

Jason: You are a true friend. Thanks, for always listening to my constant bitching and never saying "Shut the Fuck Up". That means a lot. You taught me the true meaning of listening.

Andy: Thanks for always being there, even when I am a dick. Because when I am a dick, that means I am having issues, and that's when I need friends the most. You taught me the true meaning of hummility.

Joe: If you were a girl, yeah... deffinately... Thanks for complementing me, because I can trust your opinion more than others. Thanks for never sugar coating. You taught me the meaning of kindness.

Stef: Thanks for being just enough girl, that I value your opinion as one, but not enough that I can't talk to you. You taught me the true meaning of Clitoris.

No thought was put into this...
Little did I know that my new found happiness would stick. Sure I made mistakes this year, but it looks like everyone is adopting the "forgive and forget" mentality.
This summer is going to be a blast, for the first few weeks, anyway. I will miss everyone more than they know. But hey, at least now I can find out if I was ever more than a "situational friend" to any one on first fox. I sure hope so. They ment a lot more to me.
gotto go

Dorms unload & your heading out.
I don’t know why she gets to me so much. Girls like her have crossed my way in the past. Scratch that. I have never met anyone quite like her. I have, frequently, chased girls, who for one reason or another would over look me for some other guy, or whatever. I should be used to it, but I’m not. It’s my problem not her’s. I’ll deal.

Someday, she will make some lucky guy extremely happy. She is the most perfect person I have ever met. It would be incredibly selfish to me to stand between her and the person she’s meant to be with (I just hope it’s not Jeremy). Besides, she’s already made me happier than I could ever repay. She restored my faith in so many things. I am a much better person having met her.

If you see Melissa, wont you tell her, because I’ll never be able to.

The questions I'd love to ask...
"I'm dying to know
do you do you like dreaming of things so impossible
or only the practical
or ever the wild
or waiting through all your bad bad days
just to end them with
someone you care about
and do you like making out
and long drives and brown eyes
and guys that just
don't quite fit in
yeah do you like them?"

sigh

For the first time in a long time, I feel happy. I mean sure I've been happy, but it always just on the surface, something to help me get through the pain. Things ARE going to be alright. Honestly. I feel like He really cares. Things will come clean in the wash. I wont be so dependent forever. I will stand on my own two legs, and say "I will not go quietly into the night. I will not vanish without a fight".

And its all thanks to my friends (and yes He is included in my friends, I mean He has always been there for me, even if I never listened)