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2003 25 September :: 12.03am
quizzes
more quizzes to pass the time so i don't make myself study for biology...2.5 hrs in 2 nights and i barely know anything...more tomorrow...probably at least 2 tomorrow...ugh!!!
You're a CASUAL AIM-ER! Congrats, you're
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What US city are you? Take the quiz by Girlwithagun.
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2003 24 September :: 6.54pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: lahs marching band-invictus march
today was okay. not great, not horrible. i sure felt horrible for a bit today, though. just one of those moody teenager moments, i guess.
got asked to homecoming by jeff. accepted. duh. but it has a stupid twist to the whole thing. so it's kind of poopy. eh, idk. we'll see...
nothing much else happened today. oh, i scored my first goal in field hockey in p.e. wohoo. *insert sarcasm here* i should be studying. i'll get to that.
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2003 23 September :: 9.06pm
:: Mood: patience my ass (heehee)
:: Music: lahs marching band-alegria
homecoming woes...HE WILL ASK ME!
WHY DOES EVERYONE DOUBT THAT HE'LL ASK ME?? GIVE ME A LIL FAITH!! HONESTLY!! IT'S DEGRADING!
okay, so. i almost got asked AGAIN today!! i was at the 'interact' meeting, watching a touching video about people with polio and other diseases that have lost their mobility and their only hope is a wheelchair. we're fundraising for wheelchairs. so yeah. jeff comes up to my group of friends who eat in the 500 wing with me and asks where i am. he's alone with terrance. they say i am at a club. they leave. FUCK!! i really would rather have ditched the meeting to be asked to homecoming. really! and i might end up having to if we do fundraising a lot...i just don't have the time!! if gay/strait alliance is less of a commitment i'll just go to that instead.
got a WORKING cell phone today!! i have unlimited incoming text messaging, unlimited night/weekend minutes, and 100 outgoing text messages. idk how many minutes i have...but i won't use them all anyway. my number is:
*******(650) 823-1137*******
so call me tomorrow, k? it needs to charge overnight... ;-) i'm so excited!!
ummmm french test tomorrow. bio/world studies test friday. should be fun fun fun. essay due thursday, lit. paragraph due next monday. mhmmm, sounds like a party.
again, anyone want to organize a biology study party??
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2003 21 September :: 10.25pm
QUIZZES!!
i think maybe i've done enough for one night...
Protector
The ULTIMATE personality test
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congratulations. you are the kiss my ass happy
bunny. You don't care about anyone or anything.
You must be so proud
which happy bunny are you?
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narcissistic
Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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Taking Over Your lyrics
You don't remember me,
But I remember you.
I lie awake and try so hard,
Not to think of you.
But who (who) can (can) decide,
What they dream ?
And dream I do...
I believe in you.
I'll give up everything just to find you.
I have to be with you, to live, to breathe,
You're taking over me.
Have you forgotten all I know,
And all we had ?
You saw me mourning my love for you,
And touched my hand.
I knew you loved me then.
I believe in you.
I'll give up everything just to find you.
I have to be with you, to live, to breathe,
You're taking over me.
I look in the mirror and see your face.
If I look deep enough.
So many things inside that are just like you are
taking over.
I believe in you.
I'll give up everything just to find you.
I have to be with you, to live, to breathe,
You're taking over me.
I believe in you.
I'll give up everything just to find you.
I have to be with you, to live, to breathe,
You're taking over me,
(You're taking over me),
You're taking over me,
(Taking over me), Taking over me.
What Evanescence song are you?
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I'm sure it's no big surprise to you that your
romance is The Princess Bride. A heartwarming
tale of "Twue Wuve" that has giants,
Spainards and swashbuckling. You really do
think that love can overcome anything. You may
be a touch naive but your heart is certainly in
the right place. You've probably got one of
those relationships where proper nouns have
been replaced with "Snookums" and
"Pookie Pie". Eww. Beware a cuteness
overload.
What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
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-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to
stay that way. Sorry,listened to a bit too much
Jewel there. You're sweet and very emotionally
charged. You definitely love the person you're
with, and always want to know how they're
feeling so you can make sure they're happy.
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2003 20 September :: 8.40pm
:: Music: lahs marching band-alegria
life
saw 42nd street today at the golden gate theatre. okay theatre, BAD part of town. possibly the first time i've seen ppl rolling up joints and selling drugs right in front of me and known it. it was pretty scary. a real eye-opener. as for 42nd street, it was okay. not great. i think i've already been singing with mr. shaull too long...it was probably character singing, but some of the chorus girls were SOO bright and flat it was disgusting. after the show, my dad and i went to mel's drive in. yay...fat, greasy food... i've already gained back 3 pounds...hopefully in muscle...(probably...) but all this crap doesn't help any.
during dinner, i weasled my dad into buying me a cell phone. he flips out his cell and i'm like 'so when are you buying me one of those?' and he dials my mom and calls her to ask if he can buy me one. no joke! so now i have a cell phone. i'll see how it is for like 3-6 months and then we'll change my plan or buy a diff. phone or something. but damn...that was easy!
thanks to heather, i am now listening to the 2000 field show, cirque du soleil. it's fucking awesome. very very very neat. funky.
ummm...i still miss jeff. a lot.
omg! i saw a hayman real estate building today!! didn't help the jeff-missing, but still...
o and i know about homecoming stuff. (jeff doesn't read this anyway, so it doesn't matter...right?) thanks, ********. :0D
anyone have solo clarinet music that i can learn in an evening? claudia?? jeff (if you do indeed read this)??? i need something to audition with for the community performing arts group... i'd WAAAY rather sing and dance, but i have neither a song nor a dance prepared. damn these short-notice auditions!! oh well, whatever.
WHY IS IT MSS CAMP WEEKEND?? NOT FAIR NOT FAIR!! I'M GOING CRAZY WITHOUT MY FUTURE HOMECOMING DATE!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
o and everyone, amanda now has a journal. props to ali for publicising the trend.
haha...okay, because i said i like ponies, music, 'yeah' to sex, and 'yeah, so?' to getting in trouble, my inner child is... even with all the pony answers?!?! whatever. i'm definately not 1, 5, 10, or 45.
My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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2003 19 September :: 5.41pm
:: Music: yo-ho-yo-ho, a pirate's life for me
ahoy! arrrrr!!
TODAY WAS TALK/DRESS LIKE A PIRATE DAY!! woohoo!! there were only like 10 ppl in the entire school dressed up, but i was one of them!! heehee!
what happened today? well...i have a B in math, a B- in history, and that sucks. simple as that. haha. they will both definately come up, and i'm actually pleased with my history grade...(i sort of went into 'fuck you, mr. freeman' mode and started failing quizzes...) the B in math is only because of another failed quiz, which almost everone got 60% or less...but still...it was stupid. i think everything else is okay. i know i have an A in biology...A in marching band probably and A in girls' ensemble...A in english i'm almost certain....french II idk, but madame youatt likes me, so i think i'm okay...
umm...yahya came today. it was umm..interesting. i had all this dark eyeshadow under my eyes ('stolen' from kylie after p.e.) and was the only one in the entire class (not uncommonly today, as NO ONE dressed up) who was wearing pirate garb. so uhhh...yeah. got my hug. not too exciting. could have been better, but whatever.
now for the BIG news: HE IS GOING TO ASK ME....HE JUST HASN'T YET. but there's a 'yes, but' aspect to it. terrance says he'll make a deal with me...and he's gone all weekend at main street camp (probably THE ONLY conflict that i would have accepted) so i won't know till monday. HE HAD HIS CHANCE TODAY, THOUGH!! he was totally walking around 'aimlessly' and alone and i went up to him ALONE!! we got to talking about jeanette leaving, and he ended up NOT ASKING ME! arg. so frustrating! but he WILL ask me, just not necessarily till next week. i'm gonna try to weasle it out of terrance though...i think...
i'm going to see 42nd street avec mon pere tomorrow. should be fun. apparently there's some really good tap in it...(great, another reason to get back into dance...) but yeah, it should be fun. matinee show and then dinner in the city. sunday is church, choir, and youth group, as usual. it'll probably be 'venting about jeff' time, too. or 'bragging about jeff' time. :0D i luv my youth group...heehee.
okay so i'll update more on this once i ACTUALLY HAVE A DEFINATE HOMECOMING DATE...but homecoming dress?? hmmm?? $$? nonexistant, especially because of the recently purchased 3 musical theatre tickets... anyone have a beautiful dress that a sexy (but not entirely thin) blonde could wear to homecoming?
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2003 17 September :: 7.08pm
:: Mood: disappointed
well, not too much happened today. marching band was sort of amusing, and less painful than the last few days...i think my leg is healing. it ended before we could actually make music though...:-/ p.e. was normal/boring. everyone kept asking me what was wrong. it really depeds on what people i'm around, but in p.e. today i was just really spacey. just out of it. i've been so IN to it lately, that i just need some time to relax. girls' ensemble was okay, we got to look at all of the prettyful new pianos and he explained to us how they work and stuff. it was neat. as for my voice, i'm still dissapointed in myself, hence the mood. m. youatt was fine, as ususal...i really don't hate her yet. our class is tiny and a lot of fun.
after school i went to egan. saw ms. cullimore, went straight to the band room, and talked with ms. spector for like 3 minutes and then ross showed up. soon afte ross, jeff arrived. with the three of us, plus some sevie who is a clarinet prodigy, we had some stuff to talk about. we talked for about an hour and a half. then i walked to jeff's house with jeff, ran part of the way because i realized that i was late, and nearly had a heart attack when i saw my mom's boyfriend, brian, already at the door talking with his mom. i feel even worse now because she did not know that i would be over there in the first place. well, that's understandible, i guess. my mom did not tell me that i should just go there after going to egan until this morning. but nevertheless, i feel REALLY REALLY bad.
my voice lesson wasn't all that bad, and mr. troll's actually pretty impressed because i'm consistently opening my mouth now. it's still just really really dissapointing that my voice is so fucked up, though. i still crack at a D, and its still a mystery why i am not able to push my break up. can't i be fucking normal? and there isn't even certainty that i'll grow out of it during high school!! i don't ONLY care about getting into mainstreet, i ALSO care A TON about how i sound when i sing. it just pisses me off. it's really frustrating, and there's literally NOTHING i can do about it.
you all know my feelings of HATE for anime, but i feel it adequately describes my feelings.
You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.
What feeling do you represent?
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2003 17 September :: 9.18pm
:: Music: burgundy
marching band music
i just downloaded the marching band music, 'colours' by roger cichy. it's fucking awesome. need i say more? i'm sooo excited for everything!! the oboe and the bassoon really add color to it, though...haha color. i didn't even mean it to be a pun! okay well anyway it's just great. i luv how burgundy encorporates everything and gets all jazzy for the part of blue sapphire...soo awesome. ohhh man. yeah. i'm happy. :0D o and about homecoming, i'm thinking i'll wait it out and see what happens. its still WAY early, and i could be asked by any number of guys between now and the dance... i'll just sit tight and wait for whatever comes.
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2003 15 September :: 7.36pm
:: Mood: discontent
i'm procrastinating
biology sucks. its SOOOO boring. it's even more boring (but quite amusing) with mrs. williams as a teacher. she's dislexic and completely scattered. we went from hydrogen bonding to how to cure herpes. yeah. and did we EVER get back on topic? oh, it only took us about half an hour. i looked at the girl next to me and we just started laughing. mrs. williams is such a nutcase.
she's not as bad as the book, though. the book is almost unberable. and science is one of the subjects where i find it hard to rephrase the definitions and all because there really aren't that many synonyms that fit the definitions. therefore, i do not learn the material, and do not want to study it. well, it's been half an hour...i should just go finish my notes....i'll go into my room so my oboe CD can keep me company.
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2003 13 September :: 2.14pm
:: Mood: contemplative
I thought this was interesting. I've always been proud of this. It was my resume that I wrote the first week of 8th grade. I don't know why, but I like how it summarizes me. The only major thing that it doesn't mention is instrumental music. I'm not sure why I didn't include it. Probably because I'm a horrible summarizer and tend to write much more than is needed. Or maybe I just didn't know I valued it so much until the end of 8th grade...
Three words that describe me are determined, polite, and busy. I am determined to get good grades and succeed in all of my athletic activities. I try to be polite to my teachers, friends, and relatives, and take pride in my ability to behave in all situations. *note: not that i necessarily DO behave all the time* I am busy participating in one of more activities outside of school per day. My free time is very limited. Sometimes it is a lot of work to be determined, polite, and busy.
I enjoy singing, talking, going online, and shopping. I also contribute my talents to organizations, such as the California Youth Soccer Organization, First United Methodist Church, Penninsula Youth Theatre, and Los Altos Youth Theatre. I play oboe and clarinet, *hey, i did mention that!* and horseback ride at Stanford Equestrian Center. Competing in these activities has given me a chance to win awards. I have won 9 first place ribbons in horse shows, and 8 'A' Honor Roll awards at school. My soccer team just placed third in a tournament and second in our league last Fall season.
I have lived in California all my life. My only moves have been local. I have been to New YOrk, Vermont, and many other states withint the U.S. I have also been to Maui on vacation numerous times. My farthest travel was to Barbados. I would like to travel to France, the Bahamas, Australia, and Italy one day.
I admire Kelly Clarkson, (winner of American Idol 2002) Karen O' Connor, (member of the USA Equestrian team) and Gene Wilder (actor). I admire them for their great success in the profession they have choses. I feel that my personal strengths include the study of English and music, and my weaknesses are in the areas of mathematics and athletics.
I want people to know that I am hard working and determined to be the best I can be at everything I do. I wold like to be a member of the Main Street Singers, an internationally touring group of singers at Los Altos High school. I aspire to go to Stanford, Princeton, or Harvard, and become a junior high or high school councilor, while also contributing my talents as a youth grou p leader to the future youth of my church.
well, there you have it. my interpretation of me as an 8th grader. pretty accurate still, i must say. i just thought it was interesting.
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2003 10 September :: 4.36pm
:: Music: jeff's piano duets-V-new version
i have a dilemma
so...there's like still 3 weeks till homecoming, right? my dilemma: not WHO to ask (i figure i'll have to do some asking to get who i want) but WHEN to ask. why is this an issue? i don't want to dissapoint anybody. i'm starting to get seriously afraid that if i don't ask sooner rather than later, i'll be asked. what to do? WHAT TO DO??
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2003 9 September :: 9.51pm
:: Mood: crushed/depressed/scared/uncomfortable/sick
:: Music: i might be able to listen to something good if JEFF BURNED A CD!!
i feel like crap
wow. today was crap. like really really REALLY crap. nothing much happened that was bad except for maybe...marching band! ya think?
so yeah. since i've relived it about 3 times now, i'll make this as short as possible:
laurel fell today in marching band. she popped out her knee. i saw it happen. she was basically in shock. (as were the rest of us) we inwardly panicked while florendo called 911 and tried to reach her parents. we broke into sections and practiced horn manuals for amber until the paramedics came and took her away on a stretcher. then we tried to resume practice.
all of us were affected, especially christiana and i. it was just...scary. really really socking and scary. i still feel physically sick, as well as mentally awful and confused. as if we don't have enough stress in our lives...
a few good things that happened today:
-i sort of played match maker (and it worked!)
-mr. smith sang for us in girls' ensemble today...nice...
-we learned tai-chi and laughed about repulsing monkeys and stroking manes...and the football players joined the mockery...(hey, tai-chi is great, really relaxing, but repulse the monkey??!?! it took a lot to stay mature after the intensity of the day)
-the world studies test was generally easy
ok i'm done. still feel like crap. need a hug. need a boyfriend. hmm...i know exactly who i need too....ya know who? i think sarah does...haha lmao sarah. ;-)
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2003 8 September :: 11.57pm
one thing i've learned so far this year is: life is what you make it. really. life is SOO what you make it. i had like absolutely no plans last weekend besides church and the sectual and i went to a soccer game, saw my first grade teacher, took a yoga class, bought gum, and hung out with ali all day. sunday i just totally had a blast. it could have sucked cuz i got sick during choir, but i loved it.
now i'm making even more plans for myself. i'm gonna go flying in a couple of weeks with my friend (yeah, he can fly, isn't that awesome?!?) so we're gonna go somewhere. some choices are san francisco to see the golden gate bridge and alcatraz, the most expensive homes in the US, (flying over them), flying along the coast, flying above san jose and looking at all the cool stuff, etc etc. its soo cool!!
i'm also goin to a bday party this weekend, WOOHOO!, and have a horse show and a pool party!! sweet! i know.
so yeah. it's really really awesome. i'm happy!
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2003 7 September :: 7.23pm
the sectual
ya know, i just relalized that i haven't updated on the sectual! well anyway, it was muchos funnos. we hung out, got a tour of the house (i sat on scott's bed!! ahhhh!! jkjk,but i did sit on the bed) and played piano for a bit. well, jeff and lisa and christiana and tom and jeff did....i watched. haha. and i listened...mmmm...it was nice. we were extremely hyper and walked down to jack and the box (well actually, we marched and danced to terrance's house first...i dont remember why, exactly, but we did. and i sat on his bed too. haha. that's number 2. he has an AWESOME sterio speaker system thing...its cool. (but then again...mine's pretty dang awesome too...) but ANYWAY, we finished whatever they had to do at terrance's house and went to jack-and-the-box. woohoo. we ummm...ate. yum. food. and i guessed what jeff would order...after quite a struggle remembering HOW i should know this. we then skipped/danced/ran to terrance's house to pick up Dogma, and then sprinted back to jeff's house after he scared us. good times. we then procrastinated doing anything with a point and finally got in the pool and hot tub. we hot tubbed for like 2 and half hours. truth or dare...virginal 10 fingers...haha. it was fun. nothing major happened. talked about some pretty deep stuff though. well, personal. not necessarily deep. uhhhhhhhhhh then we watched a movie. baby steps. i didn't finish it cuz my parents wouldn't let me stay till 12...its too late for a 14 year old. bs. i was pissed. but it was okay. it turned out we had 2 FLAT TIRES as we pulled out of the street. great!! i got to watch about 15 more minutes of the movie. :-D so that turned out better than expected. but anyway, i had to leave early-ish and i was still pissed. i guess it was okay, though, i had a good time and got some sleep. yay for sectuals!!
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2003 7 September :: 12.56pm
:: Mood: hopeful
rally day
today was rally day. the annual church-goers day of IT'S BACK TO CHURCH!! YEEEAAAAHHHH! now you may wonder, why would ANYONE be excited about going to church? well, i can't exactly explain that to you. i CAN say that my church is an actively social church, and my youth group is more of a party than a study. it's definately a party, actually. we have lock-ins (our equivalent to sleepovers...and yes, these ARE coed) and plan constant outings, such as bowling, ice cream, movies, boardwalk, lazer quest, etc. it's awesome. does this sound like something you would want to do? yeah. me too. that's why i go. well, AND for the spiritual well-being and growth and all that.
this year also happens to be my first year with the high school group. me and my church hommies definately lived it up in junior high, but the high school group is definately more respected. so that's awesome. i am also starting training to be the youth/pastor liason, and the head of the acolytes. this is also very exciting. i enjoy responsibility because i gain respect from it, so it's gonna be fun.
church choir also starts today. can i say HELL YESSS!! it has been like...10 minutes since i sang 4 part harmony! okay, but still...this is all youth and satb music and fun fun fun! too bad sexy thomas won't be there, though...our guys'll have to rely on andrew this year. oh well, we WILL SURVIVE!!
so, that's the plan for today. choir, youth group....and study. joy. i have a bio test monday, world studies test tuesday, math quiz and project due next week, and yeah. i should hit the books. maybe i can break them... haha. adieu!
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2003 6 September :: 5.51pm
:: Mood: alive
:: Music: 'i feel so alive' -the composer in my head
soccer, almond, study, yoga
got up and started doing hw. got a bit done. called ali about yoga times, ended up going over to almond to study/watch laurel's soccer game/walk around almond. turned out we walked around almond the majority of the time. it was really awesome! it's my first time back since the remodel. saw mrs. roberts. she's teaching third grade now!! 11 years in first grade and she needed a change... hehe. she was super nice as always and remembered ali and me. it was great. i love the memories of that place. almond was good to me. :-D
after the game, we walked/jogged to ali's house and chatted for a while. soon it was lunch and we made mac n cheese and ate. laurel had a great time quizzing ali on the periodic table of the elements (something she apparently has to know for her bio quiz) and hung out in her room while we did homework and studied. it was great! i actually finished my bio notes and started my math project! very productive.
then we walked downtown (cheering all the way: 1! we are the eagles! 2! a little bit louder! 3! i still can't hear you, WE ARE NUMBER 1) we are the eagles 2) a little bit louder! etcetc) it was amusing. we bought grapleberry and strapleberry gum at walgreens and then headed to the yoga place.
it was their grand opening, and there were free classes all day. we signed up and took a free class!! it was really really REALLY fun. well, yoga IS fun, but we did a few more things than we did at camp, and it was a lot more formal. concentrated too. i definately got a workout and had some time in corpse pose (although she called it the indian name, something i can neither pronounce nor spell). the only bad thing was that we 'OOOOMMMMMed' 3 times at the end. i don't think i'm big on OMMMMMMing yet. not yet. that might change... but anyway, lauren w. started cracking up, totally shaking, so it was REALLY hard to concentrate. i gave Ali a look and she was surpressing laughs too. it was ummm...interesting. it tried my maturity, lets say. apparently afterwards though, the lady who teaches teen yoga (mondays from 4-5 on second street downtown la) said she'd give us teens a free lesson if we e-mailed her. how nice!! so yeah, emily's busy on mondays (sorry em!) but maybe heather, lauren, ali, and i can try it! or we can get more ppl too! it would be very fun!!
well anyway, I FEEL SO ALIVE!! yoga is amazing. you should all try it. it's not weird...xcept for the OOOOOMMMing. but yeah. it's totally worth it. you feel so...ALIVE.
gotta go to a sectual. yes, i DID say sectual. haha. mrs. olson was kinda freaked out...lmao. bye!
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2003 4 September :: 12.33am
:: Mood: surprised
:: Music: Evanecence-Tourniquet
woah...i know SOO many people!! it's hella weird and it's freaking me out...
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2003 3 September :: 11.03pm
:: Mood: pissed the fuck off
BITCH!!
remember when i had a conversation with nicole somewhat like:
m:what a bitch!
n: i know! that bitch! i
m:i can't believe it! it's just so bitchy!
n: THAT F-ING BITCH!
m: i know!! it was just SOO BITCHY!!
well i'm feeling that similar bitchy hatred for someone right now. (i know rachel, hate is a strong word, but this is bitchy hate, it's not quite as serious)
this one person cannot leave me alone. she just can't stop dissing me. i don't know why. and i just can't believe it. it seems like every single fucking thing i do is bad and 'no offense, but' she tells me all about it. i don't need that. who does? seriously, people need to GET A GRIP on themselves!!
and another thing, does jealousy have to come off as bitchiness? really, i'm not THAT unmodest, and you really all have your qualities. there is no reason to want to be like me. be yourself. it's better that way. honestly. SO GET SOME GODDAMN SELF CONFIDENCE AND LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!
and another thing, CAN A BOY LIKE NOT STARE AT ME FOR ONCE? I MEAN, CAN YOU JUST PLEASE STICK FOR YOUR FEELINGS FOR YOUR GIRLFRIEND?? HONESTLY!! i'm not used to all this attention, and it SERIOUSLY CREEPS ME OUT!! i can't take it!! so once again, unless i am showing serious interest for you (mentioning you in my last post or asking for your screenname) LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!! THERE A MILLION OTHER PRETTIER GIRLS AT LAHS!! YOU DON'T NEED ME!! I SWEAR TO GOD, YOU CAN DO BETTER FOR YOURSELF!!
thanks for listening.
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2003 3 September :: 6.11pm
:: Music: TATU-All The Things You Said
yeah, i'm a band nerd
ya know what i just realized? the greatest honor i can bestow on any guy that i'm serious about is creating a folder for them in my music section of the computer. that way, i put all of the songs that remind me of them/are representative of them/songs they have sung in it. So far i've only created 2. If you know me, you can probably guess which two people i'm talking about. (hint: the guy i was obssesed with in 7th grade, and the guy i was obsessed with in 8th grade...) i think it's time for me to make another one... (yeah, now you don't know who it is, do you?? DO YOU?? no, you don't. i've been checking out WAY too many guys for you to know. actually, christiana, sarah, and apparently eleanor and terrance might have a pretty good idea... haha.)
wednesdays are great for me. besides long periods of marching band and p.e. back to back, thus making me EXTREMELY lethargic for the rest of the day, i get virtually NO HOMEWORK (except for french II) and participate in ALL my electives. but i've mentioned that before. the other good part is, besides a voice lesson, I DONT HAVE TO BE ANYWHERE AFTER SCHOOL! thus giving me extra time to do the hw i didn't do last night for my 'hell' day, aka thursday.
it's a good deal. it also means that i have a class/elective/class/elective schedule. pretty lucky!
the only thing that continues to annoy me is that FOOTBALL HAS PRACTICE EVERY SINGLE DAY AFTER SCHOOL!! and guess what? THE HOT ONES GO LATER!! (varsity, in case you didn't catch that...) and then, they're all juniors and seniors (do me now...jk jk!!) so they have a TON of hw on top of that! making their online time limited, sporatic, and generally between the hours of 12 and 3. that doesn't exactly fit in with my schedule, sorry.
so this creates a question: how am i supposed to get to know a guy i have talked to a grand total of 2 times??? hmmm? any ideas??? yeah, didn't think so. unless my popularity level shoots sky-high, (which it won't because i'm not THAT slutty and THAT preppy) i'm not about to walk up to him at school and make him look bad in front of his super hot friends. no way. i'm nicer than that. :-) oh well. i'll find a way. i have backups for homecoming anyway. JK! SHEESH! you know i'm not that shallow. it's the blonde hair, seriously. takes over my raging hormones sometimes...ya know?
make my day a little happier
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2003 3 September :: 9.28pm
:: Music: 102.1
my day in a nutshell
i promise you, the only reason i am able to be online is because i have ENTIRELY ELECTIVES tomorrow. my even schedule rocks... and plus i didn't get a ton of homework for thursday, anyway.
my day actually basically sucked. it was all pretty average, but there were quite a few major bad things that happened. (like my grammar? i thought so.)
so i'll just go through this quickly. i'm sooo tired.
*i swear deb yowell is staring at me all during girls' ensemble. it creeps me out! she gives me all these weird looks!! like she's trying to telepathically tell me what i'm doing wrong or whatever. first of all, you all know about my general feelings for the woman, and i really don't want her advice. mark (mr. shaull) is teaching the class. i would like to hear advice from mr. shaull and mr. shaull alone. (unless i'm at a voice lesson. then i'll listen to everything that mr. troll says. mr. troll can be trusted. he's awesome.)
*marching band was near hell today. it was sooo fucking hot and we were learning drill of all things. AND mr. florendo was getting tired and short tempered. he can be quite intimidating and degrading when he's short tempered. not fun. and i couldn't tell which football player was 'mine'. haha. mine. i've talked to him TWICE.
*i got a random fucking call from the school saying i was absent. i was not absent, i was not late. i figure it's for advisory cuz they fucked up my advisory class so i joined a diff. one for orientation. (actually, i wasn't in ANY advisory class officially in orientation, but i WAS officially added to the list today. and before, actually...WTF?? the office can go to hell)
*speaking of ppl who can go to hell, the office can join MR. FREEMAN. i almost started hysterically crying in 7th period because of him. he specifically told us to LEAVE OUR HISTORY NOTES/BINDER AT HOME ALL THE TIME!! then he gives us a reading quiz that WE CAN USE OUR NOTES ON. after forbidding us basically to bring them. his theory is, what if you lose it and there's a final? sucks to be you! so, i took his advice and left it at home. as well as my beautiful reading notes. I DID THE FUCKING NOTES. I READ THE FUCKING PAGES. DID I GET 100% ON THE EASY AS FUCK QUIZ? NO! I FOLLOWED DIRECTIONS AND LEFT MY BINDER AT HOME!! so i got hella pissed. i politely asked him if i could bring my notes tomorrow and retake the quiz at brunch/lunch/when he was free. i even offered to have my mom write a note that proved that I INDEED had done the notes on time. his answer? NO. in my face. he came up to my desk, pounded his fist ON my desk, looked me straight in the eye, and said 'no'. FUCK YOU, MR. FREEMAN!!
*dinner wasn't ready when i got home. i know i'm a silly little bitch for caring, but when i get home, tired as fuck, from a 2 hour HELL rehersal, i want my food. plus, the longer i wait, the less time i have to do hw.
well, the day wasn't ALL bad. i got scott's screen name, saw darin at school (he lives!), and continue to understand geometry HONORS. (haha ali.) and, tomorrow is my elective day (marching band, p.e.,girls' ensemble, french II) and i have a free-ish day to do hw! o and i took a bath and shaved with my last bath bomb. ahhhh...basins is the best store ever! besides anthropology, that is. and now i'm going to go to bed. yes, it is 9:40. but unlike you, I WAKE UP AT 6am!! so don't make fun of my self-made bedtime! i doubt you do 9.5 hrs of marching band per week PLUS 7 classes (2 honors) and succeed at it all!! haha, well neither do i, but i can try!
so bonne nuit, everyone! je dois dormir!
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