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2007 2 February :: 8.51pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: Crystal Ball - Keane
kasdjflskdjf
so basically
i forgot what i wanted to say.
but i feel good.
life is good.
and you should feel good too.
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2007 2 February :: 5.24am
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: longest winter - pedro the lion
my daddies birthday is tomorrow.
im so sick of being grounded.
i just want to leave this place.
uslkdjfsklsskjfjfjfksloooplsdj
anyway, im glad its friday. i'm really starting to not like school. a lot. i just want to give up. thats bad. hmm. and i hate riding the bus yuk yuk yuk.
so basically i dont know whats going on with me anymore.
i feel like i dont know myself and i feel lost.
but i feel content too.
my stomach is twisting around and driving me crazy.
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2007 1 February :: 7.30pm
:: Music: you will never take me alive - the paper chase
today was... different
and i don't really know how i feel about it.
so many things came at me.
i feel happy
i feel.... new
im wearing a big grin.
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2007 30 January :: 6.33pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: how can i tell you - cat power
i feel like no one cares what i say or what i do
or who i am
i feel forgotten
and hated.
i feel judged and i feel like they're all mad at me.
i feel immature and gross.
i feel like a fake.
and i dont want to anymore.
i want to be me
i want to be real.
help.
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2007 30 January :: 5.01pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: we got to get away - caesars
learn to take a joke.
and stop assuming things about me.
im pretty fucking complicated
and its hard to read me
so dont just go around preaching how i feel
when you dont even fucking know.
but im super excited for thrusday
AHAHAHAHlkdfjslkdfjlskdfjlskd
butterflies
major.
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2007 29 January :: 5.26am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: the killers
if the answer is no, can i change your mind?
p.s.
Samantha had her freaking baby!
ahahahaha
ima go see it today!
yay!
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2007 28 January :: 11.07am
:: Music: tokyo police club
i'm scared.
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2007 27 January :: 4.05pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: maria taylor
i really should be writing that paper.
right now i just want to drop out.
bleh.
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2007 26 January :: 8.46pm
:: Mood: anticipating
I can't explain the state that I'm in
The state of my heart, he was my best friend
Into the car, from the back seat
Oh admiration in falling asleep
All of my powers, day after day
I can tell you, we swaggered and swayed
Deep in the tower, the prairies below
I can tell you, the telling gets old
Terrible sting and terrible storm
I can tell you the day we were born
My friend is gone, he ran away
I can tell you, I love him each day
Though we have sparred, wrestled and raged
I can tell you I love him each day
Terrible sting and terrible storm
I can tell you...
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2007 26 January :: 7.26pm
:: Mood: disappointed
this sucks.
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2007 25 January :: 5.28am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: The One I Love - Sufjan Stevens
i didn't know that the score you got on your IQ test depended partly on how long you took.
maybe thats why my score went down last time i took one
ahaha
i would answer a question then walk away for 5 minutes
im cool
haha
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2007 24 January :: 4.46pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: Am I Wrong - Love Spit Love
shes like a clone.
eww.
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2007 23 January :: 5.06am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: St. Ides Heaven - Elliot Smith
I had a scary dream last night, and I thought it was real :(
I was hanging out with Jimmy and all of his friends and we were running around in some forest up on the south hill. We keep seeing smoke over to the north so we run over to pioneer park but its in the middle of manito for some reason and we look and see that all of hillyard is on fire.
then i'm at home and i'm watching the news and some kid threw a bomb into an open water tower (dont ask me how that works) and the fire was raging out of control. So now downtown is on fire and everyone is freaking out and for some reason me and Ori are down in bowl and pitcher in the middle of the night and we find aubrey and some other girl and we escape from there because the fire is spreading and there were all these fire flies and flare signals going off. then we get home and i try to find my shoes but i cant find them and all these people keep saying they wont let the south hill catch on fire but i dont believe it and i got scared and woke up.
then i realized that its the middle of winter and spokane couldnt be on fire.
:S
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2007 22 January :: 10.06am
:: Mood: dizzy
:: Music: Soundtrack For Our Movie - MAE
jordan has a nice MacBook. i like it a lot
his computer even has spell check
i love it
hold on he has to show me something.
it was fucking sweet, it has a camera and you and use all these cool effects
i'm in love with this computer
i want one maybe i'll steal jordan and he can bring his laptop
:D
i love little kids
i want to major in early childhood development right now
awwwwwwww
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2007 22 January :: 6.21am
:: Mood: rushed
:: Music: In The Morning Before Work - Owen
i dont understand how i break my alarm clock sometimes.
i dont think it likes me, so i just decides not to work.
whatever.
i hate school.
i feel like hating things today.
i really want a good hug.
not a half assed hug
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2007 21 January :: 4.44pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: Dogs - Page France
so what if you catch me,
where will we land?
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2007 20 January :: 11.30am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Inmates - The Good Life
a huge branch broke off of the tree in my front yard and got stuck between the deck and the tree.
its scary, i dont want to walk under that tree. the branch might fall on me.
:(
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2007 19 January :: 5.44am
:: Mood: confused
i hate it when teachers don't respond to your emails.
i should get ready to go to school.
yuck.
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2007 18 January :: 3.11pm
I think Paul is right. God does hate me.
I got a concussion in Eli's car today when it slid into some rocks and my head hit the window.
:(
and i really dont want to go to school tomorrow.
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2007 18 January :: 6.25am
:: Music: Time After Time - Quietdrive
i feel kind of stupid.
i stabbed myself in the eye with a needle.
but i think it was destiny or something
because if i hadn't, i wouldn't have called morgan and woke her up
and if morgan hadn't woken up i couldn't get to school.
so yeah, everything happens for a reason.
but now my eye feels all fucked up and i'm worried i'm going to go blind
and i cannot see well out of it
AHHHH.
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2007 17 January :: 8.12pm
:: Mood: scared
I'm staring at the asphalt wondering what's buried underneath where I am.
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2007 17 January :: 4.13pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Wolf Like Me - TV On The Radio
I hate empty stomachs.
They make too much noise.
And they ruin my day and make me feel sick.
So I've decided I'm going to go into my kitchen and find some food.
yes yes.
Today was uneventful in an eventful way.
If that makes sense..
I made some new friends, and I did good on my logic quiz.
Eli broke a table.
I was sophisticated. Hells yes.
I talked to square head kid on the bus ahaha that was fun.
But I really am hungry.
So I'm going to go eat some stuffs.
:D
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2007 16 January :: 8.36pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Agenda Suicide - The Faint
i am so tired
and sore
and i dont know why
and im really pissed off.
lets go punch infants.
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2007 16 January :: 4.50pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Books Written For Girls - Camera Obscura
so i guess i'm grounded for another five weeks.
which is pure shit.
so what, i failed english but im doing it again. im not giving up.
jesus christ, this wont fuck up my future forever.
let me go.
to get ungrounded i have to have a B average.
so i have a B in math and a B in american studies
and i have proof of those grades.
but they want me to wait until winter quarter grades are posted to unground me.
winter quarter just started.
that seems unfair.
or am i just crazy?
maybe im just crazy.
ahahahahaha its not like i dont learn from my mistakes.
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2007 16 January :: 5.20am
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: Float On - Ben Lee
i have a quiz in logic today.
and i hope seeing beau wont be akward.
it wont be.
i just have to tell myself that.
i want to see nicole
and katie
and ksanka
and a whole bunch of other people.
and brookelynn :)
so last night, my dad had the "what are you going to do when you grow up" talk with me. im getting kind of sick of these.
so now i have to make a list of colleges i want to go to
and i have to find scholarships and i have to make a plan
and i dont want to.
its a scary feeling not knowing what you're going to be doing for the rest of your life..
and its just starting to sink in i think.
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2007 15 January :: 7.16pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: A Movie Script Ending - Death Cab For Cutie
sd uggh
sldjfslj
i want to get away from here
just drive away
get on that highway and never look back.
i want to see it all, i just want to soak everything in and admire the beauty thats around me. see all the things that everyone else is too busy to notice.
and i want to be listening to amazing music while i do.
like elliot smith.
and i know who i want to go with.
[edit]
you have to accept people for who they are
and they decisions they make
you cannot control them
if they have their heart set on doing something, they're gonna do it
its their life, let them live it.
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2007 15 January :: 1.37pm
:: Mood: refreshed
:: Music: let it rain - ok go
ukhkjhkj
mmm pot stickers
im so glad i dont have english this week.
ahahaha
and i should be ungrounded by tomorrow
yay
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2007 13 January :: 4.24pm
:: Music: Open Face Crab Sandwich - Seaweed Jack
ahhhhh.
too bad seaweed jack is playing on friday.
or else i would go.
that sucks.
stupid catarina.
i want to dance :S
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2007 13 January :: 3.46pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: If You Want Blood (You Got It) - AC/DC
today is a lazy day.
its snowing
and i just want to take a nap.
but i have to finish cleaning my room
and write a freaking essay about fear in the media.
poop.
ah well.
i should be ungrounded soon.
crap, i have to remember to do that freaking math binder stuff.
im looking forward to friday :D
ahaha, im pretty pathetic. oh well.
THANK GOD FOR 3 DAY WEEKENDS!
seriously.
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2007 12 January :: 10.20pm
:: Mood: sick/calm
:: Music: fruit bats - lazy eye
life is one confusing mofo, but i'm glad i got it sorted out.
im grounded :S
which sucks.
my best friend moved across the state.
boyfriends are trouble :P
haha
bad habits get worse.
stomachs growl louder when you dont feed them.
you dont feed them when you cant find food.
crushes complicate a lot of things.
especially when you cannot stop thinking of them.
college is complicated
high school is complicated
but i cant choose which i like better or want more of.
i want spring.
i want food.
i want st. patricks day to come
i cleaned my room finally.
you re-meet people in the oddest places
ice cream is good, but dont get large. its just too much.
its not hard to make things right with someone.
parents are crazy in good ways :D
ah
well
i dont know
i just felt like i neglect this thing.
and it needed some love.
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