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2006 9 April :: 1.07pm
i really do not want to do more wasl testing.
oh lauren, did you know it was me and ori that pulled up next to you and ryan the other night, cause it totally was. we followed you all the way up the hill.
p.s. i am hungry-ish
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2006 5 April :: 10.55am
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umm, yeah....
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2006 4 April :: 10.45pm
:: Mood: sad
When there is nothing left to burn
You have to set yourself on fire
God that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said "yes I think we've met before"
In that instant it started to pour
Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of that time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name
This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
You tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in
And now you're outside me you see all the beauty
Repent all your sin
It's nothing but time and a face that you'll lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard, I'll send you the news
From the house down the road, from real love
Live through this and you won't look back
Live through this and you won't look back
Live through this and you won't look back
There's one thing I have to say so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted, I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save
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2006 4 April :: 10.19am
it would be nice if my mom left me notes when she leaves the house before i wake up.... because right now i'm home alone and i dont know why...
its kinda sad and lonely...
but meh whatever.
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2006 31 March :: 6.01am
i took pictures yesterday
it was fun
then i pushed nik down a hill.
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2006 26 March :: 10.50am
i wanted to see something that's different, something you said would change in me.
wnted to be, anything different, everything you would change in me.
got this way, upfront but never true.
god i'm wrong, it's just the way i am.
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2006 23 March :: 6.57pm
where'd your myspace go?
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2006 20 March :: 7.05pm
I love Adam, my widdle azn bebbeh.
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2006 20 March :: 6.37pm
GOSH THE 24 IS COMING SOOO FAST.
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2006 19 March :: 8.23am
Hey ameila, whats with you using the word justifications so much lately?
It a weird sounding word now.
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2006 19 March :: 8.18am
im happy/excited.
yeah.
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2006 17 March :: 5.15am
haha, thanks for being nice to me when i was a baby these past few days
(yesterday in particular)
<3<3<3<3
i appreciate it
<3<3<3
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2006 16 March :: 7.22pm
i feel worthless and unloved.
i wish casey would come and cheer me up
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2006 16 March :: 7.09pm
What the fuck am i supposed to do.
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2006 16 March :: 6.43pm
"okay.
i love you.
i don't want to be mad at you, but i can't help it.
whether you meant to or not, you HURT me.
but i still care about you, so...i don't want to slit your throat. please."
EXACTLY! I love brooke.
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2006 16 March :: 6.31pm
i need to go driving right about now....
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2006 16 March :: 5.58pm
I AM A FUCKING BITCH.
I HAVE NO PROBLEMS.
I AM HAPPY ALL THE TIME.
THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH ME OR MY LIFE.
EVERYONE HAS IT WAY WORSE THAN I DO.
I JUST WANT ATTENTION.
I ONLY MAKE UP PROBLEMS BECAUSE I HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO.
I DON'T NEED COMFORT.
I DON'T NEED FRIENDS.
I DON'T NEED LOVE.
I WOULD BE HAPPY IF YOU PUNCHED ME IN THE FACE AS HARD AS YOU COULD RIGHT NOW.
FUCK ME AND THE HIGH HORSE I RODE IN ON.
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2006 16 March :: 5.21pm
i was sticking up for my friend
and there's nothing much to defend
it's a lost fight
it's a lost fight
cause when I talk to you on the phone
well it's just like being alone
it's not half right
it's not half right
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2006 15 March :: 10.45pm
"dont take it personally"
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2006 15 March :: 10.02pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable
god, i feel like a villian....
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2006 14 March :: 9.35pm
:: Mood: jealous
god, now i hate myself even more...
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2006 13 March :: 9.18pm
i wrote more postcards than hooks, i read more maps than books, i feel like every chance to leave is another chance i should have took.
every minute is a mile, i've never felt so hollow, i'm an old abandoned church with broken pews and empty aisles.
my secrets for a buck, watch me as i cut myself wide open on this stage as i am paid to spill my guts.
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2006 13 March :: 8.47pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: hear you me
i hate...
myself
when i try to do something good and it blows up in my face
wasl testing
school
boys
myself
Christina Marie Pena
and the fact that she is so much better than me
Mr. Eastman
Jed Zillmer
tofu
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2006 9 March :: 8.58pm
:: Mood: amused
"As someone whom lost their Grandmother to emphysema i can tell you it's confusing and that i dealt with it by learning to smoke.
because i fucking love the irony"
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2006 5 March :: 5.21pm
stab my back, it's better when i bleed for you
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2006 19 February :: 11.24am
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: the shins
one by one all day
"howdy, lem," my grandfather said with his eyes closed
wiping the eastbound dust from his sunburned brow
a life before doubt.
i smell the engine grease and mint the wind is blending
under the moan of rotting elm in the silo floor.
down a hill of pine tree quills we made our way
to the bottom and the ferns where thick moss grows
beside a stream.
under the rocks are snails and we can fill our pockets
and let them go one by one all day in a brand new place.
you were no ordinary drain on her defenses
and she was no ordinary girl
Oh, Inverted World
if every moment of our lives
were cradled softly in the hands of some strange and gentle child
i'd not roll my eyes so.
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2006 12 February :: 8.55pm
:: Music: placebo
drag
You're always ahead of the game
I drag behind
You never get caught in the rain
When I'm drenched to the bone every time
You're the first one to swim across the Seine
I lag behind
You're always ahead of the game
While I drag behind
I drag behind
I drag behind
I drag behind
I drag behind
You're always ahead of the pack
I drag behind
You posses every trait that I lack
By coincidence or by design
You're the monkey I've got on my back
That tells me to shine
You're always ahead of the pack
While I drag behind
You're always ahead of the rest
When I'm always on time
You got As on your algebra tests
I failed and they kept me behind
I just gotta get off my chest
That I think you're divine
You're always ahead of the rest
While I drag behind
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2006 7 February :: 5.52pm
:: Mood: stressed
i hate.
the fact that i just spilled milk on myself.
science homework.
that i'm not driving right now.
that ori won't take my driving even though he isn't doing anything, and can't do anything.
my hurt back.
that I'm not listening to POWERMAD.
Mike Lyons.
the dewey decimal system.
not being little anymore.
the fact that me and Chris to the tina didn't Tae-Bo with Billy Blanks today.
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2006 7 February :: 5.14pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: stereophonics
my throat hurts like i've been crying/screaming all day.
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2006 28 January :: 7.22pm
:: Mood: disappointed
i hate how i can't be who i want to be
i hate how i don't want to be me
and i hate how i'm not important to them
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