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:: 2005 18 November :: 5.44am

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything, either good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you!

:: 2005 16 November :: 8.54pm

i cant wait till this weekend.

oh yeah.

:: 2005 12 November :: 10.07am

whats new?

:: 2005 11 November :: 10.25pm

i saw this guy i knew back in middle school. he didn't recognize me so i didn't say anything. i always do that. i'm always scared of the stupidest things.

:: 2005 6 November :: 8.17pm

shane is actually nice. i guess i didn't expect that.

p.s. that picture he has as his icon isn't him (i asked)

:: 2005 5 November :: 2.01pm

i just approved shanes friend request. he sent me another message saying "if your dad is brent then your my sis and you should add me so we can talk." whatever. i'm just tierd of thinking about it.

:: 2005 5 November :: 9.56am

berliouz is freaking out and peeing everywhere so my mom is either taking him to the pound or making him an outside cat. he isn't a fucking outside cat. he flips out when he goes outside and when hes not with dutchess. jesus fucking christ

:: 2005 3 November :: 3.28pm

...
OH MY FUCKING GOD!
so did i ever tell you that i had a half-brother? well i do. his names shane. i never talked about him because we haven't heard from him in 5/6 years. he wanted to go to this 30thousand a year college but my dad couldn't really afford that at the time so he told shane to find another school. he told him they'd pay for a state or community college but not a private fancy smancy school. shane got really pissed and he sent us an e-mail back saying that he hated my dad and a bunch of shit like that. that was 5ish years ago. the closest hes come to contacting us was last spring. he called my grandma and asked about us and where we were and such.

then today i was checking my friend requests on myspace(i know, i'm a stupid conformist) and BLAM. there he is, wanted to be added to my friends list. i checked his blog and apparently, he makes chain mail and jewlery for a living. and hes taoist. is that like buddist?

I have no idea if i should answer him back. i don't know why he'd try to contact me. i just remember when he used to come visit us, and i'd annoy the hell outta him. he had these saftey pins on his pants and i used to ask him what they were for and he would try to explain that there was no use for them, but i never got that.
my parents say it's my choice if i want to answer him back or not, but i don't know what to do.

:: 2005 3 November :: 8.29am

i'm at home 'cause i have a fever. blegh.

:: 2005 2 November :: 9.32pm

rawr
roar
ro4r

angry angry angry

hangry

hungry !!!

:: 2005 2 November :: 3.03pm

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:: 2005 30 October :: 3.48pm

im thinking of waiting till wednesday to open my presents just to make my parents angry..

fricken book reports.

:: 2005 30 October :: 3.37pm

some hot columbian guy is hanging out with my brother right now.....he's REALLY hot.....the guy...not my brother. erics ugly.

:: 2005 28 October :: 4.15pm

i am so depressed. i have to call you and fill you in.

:: 2005 26 October :: 2.43pm

I FIGURED IT OUT!:

"Ex-Nirvana drummer Dave Grohl was very vocal in the press about his admiration of the Queens of the Stone Age, which led to an invitation for him to join the group for the third album's recording and, subsequently, supporting tour. Surprisingly, Grohl accepted, putting the Foo Fighters on hold (despite having a new album completed and ready to go). One of the year's most eagerly anticipated hard rock albums, Songs for the Deaf was issued in August of 2002."

hehe i feel smart. so dave grohls not in the queens of the stone age any more....i suppose.

:: 2005 24 October :: 7.18pm

concussions make you sleepy.

:: 2005 24 October :: 3.40pm

get on aim.....NOW!

:: 2005 22 October :: 9.36pm

allan is comfortably.

i only eat on the right side of my body
and its only 9 30 and a half.

allan is touching my butt. i will kill him

:: 2005 22 October :: 10.10am

my room is orange....yay. but its the wrong orange. hrm. its too neonish for my taste.....my mom keeps saying how it goes perfectly with everything but shes just saying it so i'll stop bitching.

:: 2005 22 October :: 10.06am

i started school on tuesday. it wasn't fun. people are kinda crazy. but i painted a pumkin. that was fun.
oh...and we moved in on tuesday too. my room is a mess. blegh

:: 2005 21 October :: 11.17pm

lets get away tonight
from the late night twists and turns
from dizzing heights and warm hands
they tear me apart

:: 2005 21 October :: 10.13pm

i feel utterly alone.

and im content with that.

:: 2005 21 October :: 10.05pm

Meh..

blah blah blah. i have nothing important to say.
plus, i feel im lacking on the coolness.

whatever, whatever.

:: 2005 18 October :: 3.41pm
:: Mood: hurt

die.

:: 2005 17 October :: 9.16pm

cant wait till lion king with banana and ~~stina~~ cookie.

:: 2005 17 October :: 9.12pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: tortures of the damned

look harder.

I am blue leaves falling off my legs
poetic retellings of ones we can never love
with fake rings and fake smiles
everything is a blur
alive with the mish-mash of broken verbs
messy hair and fading tattoos
the man whose elbows were swallowed by the night
girls dripping with emotions
bleached blond fireballs, with melting hearts
like the leaves, i turn sour and fall
like garbage, shoved into a bag and sent away
and when the dreams come, you dont know what to believe
is it the stars or his eyes
(but whats the difference?)
im broken down and love has lost my heart
and if its true, when you look at the stars, you're really looking back in time

:: 2005 16 October :: 11.13am
:: Music: zolof the rock & roll destroyer

my hands hurt.

today is weird. i dunno.

Monica, call me or give me your cell number. Cause i mish you ever so much.
oh and by the way, i have a picture of you in my binder. im so evil. haha <3

two weeks.

:: 2005 15 October :: 2.04pm

I GOT A CELL PHONE!!!!!!

it's pretty and blue and flippy.....yay!

:: 2005 15 October :: 2.03pm

nothing has happened....so i have nothing to update about...

:: 2005 12 October :: 5.34pm

monica you called me!! tell me your freaking phone number bitch!!

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