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2007 8 November :: 4.06pm
thanks for ruining my day.
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2007 7 November :: 7.22pm
I'm pretty sure Natalie Portman's Shaved Head started the whole sideways pony tail thing, and not Katelyn Eyford.
It must be hard for her though, with people wearing the same hair style and all. God forbid.
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2007 6 November :: 8.13pm
i just want it back.
i just want to be able to sit and talk and laugh.
and not have to hide all the time.
i want to feel safe.
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2007 6 November :: 7.18pm
what career are you going to pursue?
a logger. what else am i going to do with a saw for a foot?
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2007 6 November :: 5.43am
"The best thing, though, in that museum was that everything always stayed right where it was. Nobody'd move. You could go there a hundred thousand times, and that Eskimo would still be just finished catching those two fish, the birds would still be on their way south, the deers would still be drinking out of that water hole, with their pretty antlers and their pretty, skinny legs, and that squaw with the naked bosom would still be weaving that same basket. Nobody'd be different. The only thing that would be different would be you. Not that you'd be so much older or anything. It wouldn't be that exactly. You'd just be different, that's all. You'd have and overcoat on this time. Or the kid that was your partner in line last time had got scarlet fever and you'd have a new partner. Or you'd have a substitute taking the class, instead of Miss Aigletiner. Or you'd heard your mother and father having a terrific fight in the bathroom. Or you'd just passed by one of those puddles in the street with gasoline rainbows in them. I mean you'd be different in some way--I can't explain what I mean. and even if i could, I'm not sure I'd feel like it."
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2007 4 November :: 3.25pm
This would not have happened if I hadn't missed my plane
I would've been there when they told you I'm the rat within the grain
Within this big misunderstanding now, I'm being misunderstood
I'm thinkin' someone's trying to fuck with me and set fire to my wood
I wouldn't want you to want to be wanted by me
I wouldn't want you to worry you'd be drowned within my sea
I only wanted to be wonderful, and wonderful is true
In truth, I only really wanted to be wanted by you
It's a stupid situation now where everything goes wrong
If you can't tell if I am lying, then you do not belong
In my bed, go rest your head upon the bones of a bigger man
And he can cover you with rockwool and you can close up like a clam
'Cause I wouldn't want you to want to be wanted by me
I wouldn't want you to worry you'd be drowned within my sea
I only wanted to be wonderful, and wonderful is true
In truth, I only really wanted to be wanted by you
So go play with your piano and write a mediocre song
About this shell of mediocrity
And pretend there's nothing wrong
I never thought you were a chicken shit
I never thought of you at all
Until you asked me to be part of it
And now you're showing me a wall
I wouldn't want you to want to be wanted by me
I wouldn't want you to worry you'd be drowned within my sea
I only wanted to be wonderful and wonderful is true
In truth, I only really wanted to be wanted by you
La la la...
In truth, I only really wanted to be wanted by you
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2007 30 October :: 5.58am
this week is going to be so shitty.
1. write personal essay by friday
2. write proposal essay for senior culminating project by friday
3. figure out what to do for senior culminating project
4. finish biome project for neff
5. halloween
6. birthday
7. talk to councilor about senior culminating project & college shit.
8. buy some knives
9. edit my senior pictures and turn them in (SOOOO LATE)
10. figure out senior quote and turn it in
slkdjflsdkjflskdfj
oh well, life goes on.
:D
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2007 24 October :: 5.58am
I am waiting for something to wrong
I am waiting for familiar resolve
I am waiting for another repeat
Another diet fed by crippling defeat
And i am waiting for that sense of relief
I am waiting for you to flee the scene
As if you held in your hand the smoking gun
And on the floor lay the one you said you loved.
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2007 21 October :: 2.53pm
i hate this.
i'm done.
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2007 18 October :: 7.51pm
i wish running away from your problems really worked.
why does this have to be so difficult?
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2007 17 October :: 6.54pm
i feel sick
anxious sick
sldkfjldkj
i hate people
a lot.
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2007 3 October :: 6.34pm
(And I know...)
State is not an ocean, not an island, not a road
If I don't know where I come from
How do I know where to go?
It's not where you're from, not where you're at
It's where your going... and I am going home...
To the land of the lost souls
Feeling a loneliness that really only exists in abandoned foster homes
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2007 15 September :: 12.02am
sdlfkjsadlkfjsdlfkjsd
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2007 13 September :: 8.34pm
blahhhhhh..
tomorrow
will be epic
hopefully :)
eastman
and
no fi soul rebellion
:D:D:D
woo
i loves me some no fi
maybe i'll even see jake there,
who knowwwss
but i'll have fun with katie and raelynn
and then ambure and stina
:D
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2007 6 September :: 7.42pm
:: Mood: lost
i need to get over it
i need to get over it
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i need to get over it
i need to get over it
i need to get over it
i need to get over it
i need to get over him
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2007 28 August :: 5.22pm
:: Mood: curious
one time my friend matt showed me how to call yourself on your landline phone
by dialing some special number
but i forgot it
and now i'm sad
because it was funny everytime morgan would pick up
and no one would talk back to her
:]
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2007 27 August :: 10.46pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
i've got my train tickets
two more days
today was an odd day
a lot of thinking about how things used to be
it was nice
but kind of sad
i miss him
and i hope one day he can be who i remember him as
and we can hang out and have fun
with our bear trap proof pants
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2007 9 July :: 1.32pm
love is how it's lost, not how it's found.
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2007 7 July :: 11.45pm
i want to pretend like nothing ever happened.
like i never knew you.
and i never loved you.
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2007 7 July :: 9.32pm
everyday it hits me harder.
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2007 6 July :: 12.03am
i feel like throwing up.
can i disappear now?
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2007 3 July :: 10.36am
this is the story of the boys who loved you
who love you now and loved you then
and some were sweet, some were cold and snuffed you
and some just laid around in bed
some had crumbled you straight to your knees
did it cruel, did it tenderly
some had crawled their way into your heart
to rend your ventricles apart
this is the story of the boys who loved you
this is the story of your red right ankle.
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2007 3 July :: 9.45am
cliff jumping
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aerii
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2007 10 June :: 9.32pm
i miss you so much that it hurts my head.
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2007 8 June :: 10.44pm
:: Mood: sore
I'm so tired, I haven't slept a wink
I'm so tired, my mind is on the blink
I wonder should I get up and fix myself a drink
No,no,no.
I'm so tired I don't know what to do
I'm so tired my mind is set on you
I wonder should I call you but I know what you'd do
You'd say I'm putting you on
But it's no joke, it's doing me harm
You know I can't sleep, I can't stop my brain
You know it's three weeks, I'm going insane
You know I'd give you everything I've got
for a little peace of mind
I'm so tired, I'm feeling so upset
Although I'm so tired I'll have another cigarette
And curse Sir Walter Raleigh
He was such a stupid get
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2007 5 June :: 10.05am
"For I think it is Love,
For I feel it is Love,
For I'm sure it is nothing but Love!"
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2007 3 June :: 10.17pm
right now
i really want some oreos and peanut butter.
and loren.
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2007 19 May :: 11.42pm
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Take me back to the start
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2007 1 May :: 10.17am
my cheeks?
seriously?
AHAHAHA
<3
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2007 28 April :: 5.48pm
:: Mood: i feel like an asshole
someone should give me an amazing book to read.
and a really good hug.
and idk.
some nat king cole
or dean martin
or frank sinatra
albums.
idk.
i want to mellow out.
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