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:: 2007 23 April :: 9.15am

"So I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them."

:: 2007 22 April :: 7.20pm

ahahahaha

strawberry milkshake oreos.

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today was a good day.
:D

:: 2007 16 April :: 10.22am
:: Mood: silly
:: Music: dogs - page france

i really want to love him.

"and im not sure what happens
when everything here ends
but i hope its like they said
and i hope it never ends."

:: 2007 11 April :: 9.19am

i've been waiting for this moment all of my life,
but it's not quite right.

:: 2007 9 April :: 6.25am
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: anberlin

i dont want to go to school today
alkjblksjdjjosidu7u98s9

yuck
i better go do my homework.

:: 2007 30 March :: 7.55am
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: safe and sound - azure ray

ahaha

man, i don't even understand where my dreams come from.
seriously
they don't make any sense at all.

anywayyyyyyyyyyy
eli's show is tonight
and i'm hoping to go with nicole and morgan.
and i want to hang out with loren today
so he can come to.

umm....

springbreak much?
indeed.
about damn time.

:: 2007 26 March :: 8.54am

i keep having these wicked awesome dreams
and they're all stuck on the tip of my tongue

but maybe thats best.
cause who knows if you would think it was wicked awesome

you know what you should check out though?
"Wincing the Night Away"
The new Shins album.
its rad
'specially Australia.

so like,
go listen
NOW!

ps. im so happy.
and its good
and uggh....

NICOLE COMES BACK WEDNESDAY
I GO TO SEATTLE ON SUNDAY (with nicole :D)
AND DLFJKSLDFJDLSFKJ
oh yeah.

dig it?
cause i do.

:: 2007 23 March :: 8.20pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: the format

had the strangest dream last night about hypodermic needles.
and that shout song by otis day....

anyway.. here are some photos:

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:: 2007 22 March :: 8.06pm
:: Mood: mischievous

so, thanks to christina
i've listened to journey

and now
its stuck in my head
forever

just a small town girl, living in a lonely world
she took the midnight train going anywhere
just a city boy, born and raised in south detroit
he took the midnight train going anywhere

and then there's this fucking wicked guitar part.

ahhh

journey, i wonder why i never listened to them before......

HA.

:: 2007 19 March :: 7.23am
:: Mood: sick

So, here are some photos from days I've missed:

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:: 2007 19 March :: 7.00am

"I have finally met someone who doesn't care what's on a pizza they plan to consume. Excluding (I'm sure) items you can't regularly get in a normal upstanding pizza establishment. Nope, no codpiece apples on that here pizza."

i guess this is some great skill?
haha
i just like pizza.

:: 2007 12 March :: 5.28am
:: Mood: angry

i really hate my computer.

last night i had 200mb of free space
and now i only have 1.96...
i didnt even put anything on my freaking computer

sdlfjeoifjseoijfsldkfj

and i dont even save any documents on my computer sldkfjldkfj

WHERE IS IT ALL GOING!?!?!?
I WANT TO SMASH THIS PIECE OF SHIT.

wtf... i want a new hard drive..

:: 2007 11 March :: 8.39am
:: Mood: sad

d4
i forgot to post yesterday.
:S
oh wellllll

these things happen, especially when you're busy watching breakfast at tiffany's.

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:: 2007 9 March :: 6.53pm
:: Mood: hopeful

d3

i hardly touched my camera all day, but this is what i got.
i didn't feel much today.

im kind of pissed at eli. :S

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:: 2007 8 March :: 6.15pm
:: Mood: content

d2

today was a fun day and i'm glad i got to enjoy it with a wonderful boy named jordan
he wrote me a beautiful song, about my hair and my brothers sweater.
it was lovely.

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:: 2007 7 March :: 8.52pm
:: Mood: scared

d1
uggh.... im so glad that ~~spring~~ winter quarter is almost over. seriously. lskdjf blah
im so tired of school, and i am so ready to be ungrounded.

blah blah blah....

i dont know what to say.

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:: 2007 6 March :: 6.23am
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: the sweets - the yeah yeah yeahs

he doesnt want to
he needs to.

come on.

:: 2007 4 March :: 9.21pm
:: Mood: anxious

im having a hard time breathing.

alsdkjf lskdfjsldkfj

panic attacks slkdfjslkdfj blahh

anyway

life is weird as of late
mostly involving the police

:: 2007 28 February :: 7.41pm
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: sufjan stevens

"Don't know about you.

But I believe every detail is a part of the picture. Leaving no stone unturned.

I also believe that your choice of title suggests where the words are coming from. And that the comment is part of the whole.

And yet, what has always intrigued me about all this are the stones themselves, and the unsaid carved into them, glowing faintly in the corner of my mind's eye.

It's opening a book for the first time and reading the ever mysterious dedication.

It's the first thought you have after saying goodbye.

It's the possibility that some day in some way that perfect stranger understands your perfect thought.

It's listening for secrets in the music.

I like that stone alot."

:: 2007 27 February :: 4.21am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: miss misery - elliot smith

i didnt know elliot smith was dead, that makes me kind of sad.

being grounded is a pain
college makes me more sad everyday
i have to write an essay four days ago, i dont even know what on...
lsdkjfsldkjf
i want to drift away right now.
i want to make my daddy happy, he needs it.
i want to see loren.
i want to see nicole.
i want to see the world.

christina is really starting to piss me off, all she talks about is sasquatch.. its really annoying. i dont care if you're going a you're going to see the beastie boys or interpol, so stop bragging about it.

sdjfhsldkfj
i am so confused with everything....

at least i have all science fiction novelists on my team.

:: 2007 26 February :: 6.29pm

i am the one who wants so much to laugh with you right now.

on a completely different note,
my dad should not go to this court hearing alone, jesus.
i feel so bad for him :(

:: 2007 15 February :: 8.38pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: at the bottom of everything - bright eyes

AHAHAHAHA

I LOVE NICOLE@!!!;sdjflksjdfoiwe

:: 2007 15 February :: 6.26pm
:: Music: portugal the man

SO MUCH EXCITEMENT

slkdfjslkdjflksdjflksdjf

i think i might explode

:: 2007 14 February :: 5.26pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: tear - red hot chili peppers

today was weird.
but good.
but sad.

i unno.

<3
i got butterflies.

:: 2007 12 February :: 7.34pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: shout out louds

today was totally not a bad day, im going to miss hanging out with all those people at the falls :(
they're wonderful.

beau was being an ass today.
but eli was really nice, so we hung out and watched Diego in the food court.

pshha.

AND I FUCKING PASSED PORTFOLIO. beat that bitches.
with a tough reader, and i got a mofo'in compliment. sheesh.
i rock.

mmmm, and i dropped logic today.
and i miss morgan
and oli

:: 2007 12 February :: 6.19am

i didn't know that...

:: 2007 12 February :: 3.43am
:: Mood: anxious

today feels so messed up.
i keep thinking that today is wednesday but its not, lsdkjflskdjfs.
and im all anxious to talk to my english teacher
im all anxious to drop my classes
i feel like im screwing everything up slkdfjs lkblehhh

idk lsdjfsldkfj
and i couldnt sleep

today is going to be a bad day.

:: 2007 10 February :: 8.20am
:: Mood: disappointed

i
really
wanted
to
go
see
the thermals
with
loren

but no

i had to go and screw things up.

:: 2007 8 February :: 6.44pm
:: Mood: scared

just tie the rope

and kick the chair

just leave me hanging there, gasping for air

yeah dont mind me three feet from the ceiling

:: 2007 2 February :: 10.59pm
:: Mood: crushed

i feel so alone

and i dont fit in anywhere.

sldkfjsldkfjsdlkfjsdlkf
can i disappear now?
please...

i hate this.

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