:: 2008 27 March :: 9.55 pm
:: Mood: giddy

HeY ThErE!

well.. today was definitely a thursday. [ class. work. gym. supper. homework. sleep. ]

pretty content though, excited for tomorrow. basically 3 classes tomorrow morning until 11am.. then i get to do what everrr my heart pleases for the rest of the day with my love Josh.

josh and i might get together with a couple of guys we met at the gym we go to. real nice people. it'll be good for us to hang out with other people than the norm. throw back a couple of drinks.

we'll see if they call. :)

got paid today. i am the definition of a working poor, college student. got more time than money & bills to pay. happy though that i have enough money to pay my bills with money left over. that's ALWAYS a good thing. mmhm.

well, just thought i'd update.

i dare ya.

:: 2008 26 March :: 1.22 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: ben folds

i dare ya.

:: 2008 26 March :: 12.58 pm
:: Mood: amused

So MuCh hAs ChAnGEd
my last entry was january 23, 2005. it's now march 26 2008. I can't believe I actually found my old journal. i love woohu. i remember when it was still free -- then we had to send in money so the creator could keep the site up and running, it was worth it. this place is not commericalized like facebook, myspace, xanga and the countless blogging & social networking sites are: that's probably what i love best.

where do i start? it been over 3 years. josh & i have been together since january 14, 2005. i could not imagine life any differently. im now in college.. high school is forever beyond over, it was great & all, but was also pathic and felt childish. drama. bullshit. lies. too many classes jam packed into one day. no, thank you.

josh & i have been living together since june, 2007. life on my own with him is an amazing feeling, that sometimes i take for granted. we both probably to do sometimes.

don't get me wrong, though.
i loved living with my parents, but i was so ready to start my own life story. begin my own journey. and that's what i'm doing. the money situation has been tough. i havent had a lot of extra money since i've been on my own.. but that's probably a good thing. so many kids my age spend the weekend blowing their money on alcohol and other worthless stuff.

i'm not sure what else to rant about without getting completely lengthly.

i just can't believe how long it's been since i've seen this journal. wowww.

so much has changed. i've changed. good old woohu hasn't though.

until next time. hopefully not another 3 years :)

i dare ya.

:: 2005 23 January :: 1.35 am

yeppp. rebellious nites. that's for sure.

cerfew & exibition driving tickets. yeeaa.

freakin sucks.

i'm dizy & starving. i'm making cheese ravolis, just waitin for the wata to boil. definitely 137 in the AM.. hunngrrryy ass shiiit. and im actually making something, haha.. i guess im just that hungry enough or thats about my last resort because we have no food in this friggin house.

i dont update everrrr anymore. mainly in my xanga, only to talk about josh. he's kick ass shit.

well i just ate and stuff, so im good now.. so im off to bed.

nightynight.

i dare ya.

:: 2005 17 January :: 9.52 pm

sad... i miss this journal.

my xanga has taken over my life. haha.. really, it has.

so, i can't remember if this has been brought up in here before but kayla & chase introduced me to chases uncle josh, who is 19.. and quite possibly the most kick ass wonderful down to earth guy i know. and now we are together!! haha, this is like 2-3 weeks old news, about meeting him, but the getting together is recent, like 3 days recent. so, since this has always been my first love [ journal ] and where the best of the best thoughts and heart touching, life affecting moments are spoken of i figure i better tell you all know. since i have an imaginary crowd and all .. hahaha.

josh is the greatest.

other than that nothing is really new.

lifes changing and so are the people. i feel like i'm living in my body in 3rd person point of view, just watching everything thats going on around me and stuff.. other than w/ josh & those that are closest to me. but hearing about everybody else is like wow, whats going on with everybody else. shits getting so twisted and its really not cool, people arent who they used to be and life isnt run the same way as always. i hear about things that go on from other people and say nothing but "wow, seriously, geez, i can't believe it"

that and first semester is over, we are offically halfway done with this year and have one half to go, i cannot wait for SUMMER '05. i'll be content with april or may at the lEAST.

okay, that's all for now, i'll try to get back here as much as possible.

much love.

i dare ya.

:: 2005 4 January :: 7.18 pm

HAHA

In the year 2005 I resolve to: Have at least one orgasm per hour. Get your resolution here

In the year 2005 I resolve to: Stop exercising. Get your resolution here

In the year 2005 I resolve to: Swallow more, spit less. Get your resolution here

HAHA

In the year 2005 I resolve to: Wear more lacy black lingerie. Get your resolution here

i dare ya.

:: 2005 1 January :: 2.47 pm

back
i sort of neglected my journal for awhile here. i'm sorry.

i just read kaylas entry from thursday nite, and i agree.. people aren't who they used to be & we all do change, to some for the better, to some for the worse. but that's life, you can't expect everything to stay the same the whole way through,but we all know this and are aware and it some situations it's quite disappointing.

i can't say i've changed dramatically, although i've made some really stupid decisions along the way. i've tried to keep myself in line and away from the some trash. but that's what ive made myself aware of, i don't know what other people think in their point of view.

well, i don't feel like getting too indepth here because i could probably go to china with this. and it's really icy out so i hope i do something fun today or this is really going to blow.

if anybody wants to hang out today let me know, we'll walk if we have to.. haha. Ü

i dare ya.

:: 2004 28 December :: 11.33 pm

SHA BAM!

>> > > . i can't go on not loving you

hello children.
what's going on. whole lotta nothing here actually & it feels quite good. back from my grandparents. got back today around 1. and damn that feels good too. came back 85 dollars richa, baaaby. mm mm. my brother is friggin cool shit. my brother charlie anyway. my other brothers suck ass.

IM HOOKED AND I CANT STOP STARING! hahaha, dude.. okay, i went bowling with jason and braxton and there was this other guy that had the niiiicest ass, omg.. it was beautiful. but then he left :(

christmas was lovely, omg.. funniest story:

my cousins boyfriend sam, totally plastered right, tickled me earlier and later i was walking into the kitchen and i stopped because my family was playing texas hold'em and sam was standing watching, well he grabbed my side.. and i freaked out and turned around to walk away/get away and whatnot and i smacked into the wall.. fucking hilarious.

laughed for a good 10 minutes. and sam was drunk so it was 10x more funnier to him & for me too.. hahah.

hmm.. i dunno what else. i suppose i'll talk about tonite.

sat around and did nothing really all day, watched tv.. called a handful of people but didn't answer, couldn't do anything, had to work, ect. and a few hours after i call jason he calls me back and asked if i wanted to go bowling with him and braxton, so we left & ect, bowled, they did.. i was lazy & i suck waay bad compared to them.. so i watched which i enjoy more than playing.. they played like 4 games and we left and randomly drove & fuckered around, then went to braxtons and jason played football on xbox and then they played halo, and then jason took me home and went home. which leads me here :) > !! <

funniest thing this weekend though, sunday.. justin calls me and asks if i can do anything, then later around 12, jason and a bunch of random people w/ him call me and want me to hang out with them.. still at my grandparents here.. and then monday kylee calls me & says shes by my house and wants to hang out and ect. and i told her we'd do it another day since i wasn't home, ect. and then jason & braxton called and said they were coming to get me >thinking i was home< and i was like okay, at my grandparents 2 and a half hours away, kaaayy. haha it was fun and entertaining and it was a bunch of random people i never talk to, it was weird.

austin talked to me online today, what a fucking bastard, i hope he motherfucking dies. if he EVER READS THIS FUCK YOU AUSTIN YOU DIRTY LITTLE FUCKING HORNY BASTARD, KEEP YOUR DICK IN YOUR PANTS.
our conversation consists of him IMing me saying hey, me saying hey back, him asking whats up, me saying nothing you, him saying bored and horny, me going that's suprising and that was basically the end of our conversation. who the fuck does that, seriously. that's like something guys did in 7th grade. i'm bored and horny. and i'm fucking sorry buddy i'm fucking over your bastard ass [actually that was a long time ago, but i'm just restating it.] and anything that has to do with you. i'm fucking tired of guys like him, i know what he's said, i know what he's after. FUCK YOU. i'm done with that shit, it'll never happen again. i don't care what anybody thinks. i will not do anything with him.

rant of the night.

theres something else i could go into, but i don't want to say it publicly. i told karlie about it. and i'll post it on here, but so nobody can see it and then whoever can ask about it.

okee, going to bed now, gotta hair appt at 8 in the morning tomorrow. yay for highlights. nightynight

i dare ya.

:: 2004 24 December :: 7.59 pm
:: Music: country

i dare ya.

:: 2004 21 December :: 10.50 pm
:: Mood: good Ü
:: Music: tim mcgraw, bayyba

i dare ya.

:: 2004 19 December :: 7.55 pm

Ins't it wried taht you can sltil raed tihs eevn tohugh the ltetres are mexid up? it's bceuase the hmuan mnid olny fcouses on the frsit and lsat ltetres of the wrod. It's like beauty, people only pay attention to the outside.

and sublime..

I smoke two joints in the morning.
I smoke two joints at night.
I smoke two joints in the afternoon, it makes me feel alright
I smoke two joints in time of peace, and two in time of war
I smoke two joints before I smoke two joints,
and then I smoke two more


LAST PERSON WHO
x. Slept in your bed: ME!
x. Saw you cry: my mom
x. Made you cry: who knows
x. You spent the night with: karlie jenn and liz
x. You shared a drink with: my mom
x. You went to the movies with: eh, zach
x. You went to the mall with: mi familia
x. Yelled at you: my dad
x. Sent you an email: some random site
x. You kissed: eh, justin


HAVE YOU EVER
x. Said "i love you" and meant it: Yep.
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: Hell yeah.
x. Been to New York: i wish
x. Florida: nope
x. California: fo sho
x. Hawaii: nope
x. Mexico: nope
x. China: nope
x. Canada: nope
x. Danced naked: possibly ;)
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day? Yes
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: Naah
x. Had an imaginary friend: Yes
x. Fought with your parents: Yes

WHAT IS

x. Worst feeling in the world: Hurting the person you love or losing the person you love.
x. What is the first thing you think when you wake up: OR NOT.
x. Future daughter's name: I dunno.
x. Future son's name: I dunno.
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: nope
x. What's under your bed: drawers
x. Favorite sport to watch: Baseball
x. Current Age: 15
x. Siblings: nadda
x. Location: SoOoOoMewhere.
x. Piercings/tattoos: ears, navel
x. Do you do drugs: nope
x. Do you drink: Once in a while
x. What are you most scared of: Not being happy. Failure.
x. What clothes do you sleep in: shirt & sweatpants
x. Where do you want to get married: A park maybe... Something pretty. Outdoors.

FAVORITE

x. Room in house: my room, since that's usually where i am
x. Type(s) of music: lots of different stuff
x. Color: Green
x. Perfume or cologne: Sheer Freesia, Adidas for her, August
x. Food(s): CHINESE FOOD!
x. Month: May, October, Dec
x. Day: Friday, Saturday
x. Gemstone: Diamond

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU

x. Cried: No
x. Bought something: Popcorn, Powerade, Propel, Donuts,Pizza, Super Rope, Taco Johns, Dennys, yep, all food.
x. Gotten sick: No thank god
x. Sang: Yes
x. Met someone new: No
x. Talked to someone: Yes
x. Missed someone: Yes
x. Hugged someone: Yes
x. Kissed someone: No

1 braved it | i dare ya.

:: 2004 16 December :: 10.18 pm
:: Mood: content

hello.

well its about that time of year where ice is thin and all hell feels like its going to melt it away.

doo da doo da.

i dare ya.

:: 2004 14 December :: 6.12 pm
:: Mood: full / lazy
:: Music: BEST shit. the good old BEN FOLDS.

i dare ya.

:: 2004 12 December :: 10.58 am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: whole lotta nothing

i dare ya.

:: 2004 11 December :: 6.33 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: country

i dare ya.