i hate you so0o much.
grr...im mad.
im really really hungry...and i cant have a grilled cheese because we have no cheese.
so im mad at my mom, im telling her if she loved me...she'd go to the store and get some cheese.
lol wow...im not serious but she said she was sorry and that she really would but her back hurts...oh well.
gingerbread had an accident, her hair and hand are now seperate from her body and nowhere to be found...and david and billy made fun of her...well fuck them, i love here and thats all that matters.
jonathan didnt help at all with the project...he dropped my baby...and so i hate him and i need some grilled cheese.
hum...not much to say.
i left school early...something happened and its very embarrassing...so yea.
and danny has still not read my palm...he said he would yesterday, but he never did, *sadness*...but i got a hug the other day... YAY
kenny called the other day...that was cool.
he is hot, he sounds hot... and i worship him...so it was a very interesting conversation we had...yup it was.
la la la la la...i love way too many people.
i love jess, jeni, rach [i miss her terribly], kate, jenni, madison, and thats all... in a nonlesbian way of course.
and i love sean, jason, danny, the other danny, kenny [more], bryan, and lee
the sad thing is that i really do love all of them...even if i dont like them all in that way...i still love them.
did i tell you my rachie moved away to isreal?
im so sad...she left me...but thats ok...it could be worse....i guess.
we switched to only email now...and its like shes not even there at all but whatever.
madison never called me and so i hate her too, call me damnit!
and im surprised that jg hasnt called at all either in the past few days...hes so desperate...haha.
which is why hes going after me, i just insulted myself but its true, so ok.
i would never actually go out with him so thats ok too.
sean just put his away message up for no reason at all...i was going to say something very meaningful..when all of a sudden there is an away message up...that pissed me off.
but im weird...so ok.
oooh! its down now...so i will share my meaningfulness with him now.
that was...beautiful.
lol ill write more later...i always say that but then i dont...so yea.
bye

whit

i have a surveys! from bzoink! andy's spiffy site! YAY ANDY!

+ Basics +
Are you emotional ::	sometimes
Do songs make you cry? If so, name a few ::	again...sometimes but it depends [thanks youre the best mostly]
What about movies ::	hmm...i cant think of a movie i saw that really made me cry that much
What emotion do you usually feel ::	depressed or sadness
+ Sadness +
What does it take to make you cry your heart out ::	a lot usually...but its pretty easy lol
How many times have you done that ::	a lot...lol wow, im pathetic
Where do you cry ::	usually in my room, or i cry with other people...lol like if something happens that makes me sad
Do you hate crying ::	not really
Do you like it when others cry ::	NOT AT ALL
Do you think tears make eyes look pretty ::	err...sure.
Who looks good when they cry ::	hmm...i bet conor looks great when he cries...lol
How else do you express sadness ::	i usually keep it inside, or i cut, which i am trying to stop doing
Are you sad all the time ::	nope! right now i am happy! lol for once...yay
+ Anger +
What does it take to make you mad ::	certain things, if you know me you should know what gets me mad
What do you do when you're angry ::	same as sadness...i usually keep it inside or cut
How short is your temper ::	not very, it usually takes a lot to get me MAD im usually more of a sad kind of person
How long does it take you to calm down ::	not very long, if jason is there to hug me im fine usually...i like hugs...
What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad ::	cut [but again thats mostly for sadness]
Do you freak out when others are angry ::	not usually
Has anyone ever recommended anger management to you ::	no
What's the worst thing someone's done to make you mad ::	cheated on me
Do you anger people ::	i sure hope not, and if i do i am sorry :[
+ Joy +
How often are you happy ::	not that much...not that little..hard to explain...im like.. normal. lol
What makes you happy ::	jason, music, friends, jellybeans, and love
What do you do when you're happy ::	it depends lol..
How optimistic are you ::	not very :]
Do happy people make you mad ::	sometimes
What's the worst thing someone can do while they're happy ::	talk to me, annoy me, touch me...why dont they just be on their merry way and leave me alone?
Ever been so happy you were dying to tell everyone ::	YES! lol wow...
Ever been so happy you cried ::	hah...yes actually...a long long long time ago
Do you smile a lot ::	no
Kiss people a lot::	jason
Who really makes you happy ::	jason of course
Do you like doing things for people when you're happy ::	sometimes, but it depends what it is lol
+ Fear +
What do you do when you're scared ::	i call jason and tell him to come over and hold me...lol
What scares you ::	spiders, heights, clowns, florescent clothes/make up, ugly people on the tv, not taking showers, smelly stuff, bugs, small dead things, animals of some kinds, being lied to...
Do you like scaring people ::	muahha...sure.
Do you like the trill of being frightened ::	sometimes, and its *thrill* lol
Does fear accompany anger in your case ::	err..no, are you bipolar?
Ever been so scared you couldn't breathe ::	this one time...well lol, if you know what im talking about...good for you, because if you dont...too bad, its too long to type lol ...and that made no sense
How often do you panic ::	not very often
What's the one thing that scared you more than anything else EVER ::	err...that car! lol remember kate, we took our ice cream and sat out on my driveway at midnight and then that car from the drive by shooting came! ahahah...wow...lol ...
What do you do to calm your nerves ::	i light candles, fire is good...
Do rollercoasters scare you ::	NO! FUN!!!
+ The strongest emotion +
What song never fails to get your strongest emotions going ::	err...i dont know...
Movie ::	again i dont know lol...you are boring me...
Commericial ::	grr...i just dont know. leave me alone!
Person ::	oh i know this! jason...lol
Thing ::	err...lol...thats a weird question...
Sight ::	hahahah...err...i dont know...lol
Sound ::	hah...err...music?
Food ::	i like cucumbers, what about you?
Thing you're looking forward to/want ::	i cant say what i want, lol
+ What do you do +
When the emotion suck ::	*emotionS* you have bad grammar, tsk tsk, but i do too...so its all good, and uhm...i hold it all inside
When the emotion rocks ::	i have kinky wip cream sex...lol no, im kidding.
When there's no emotion ::	i...go to sleep lol...or think about something intersting
+ Would you rather +
Never feel again ::	i dont feel much as it is...
Feel loneliness or anger for the rest of your life ::	anger
Be happy forever and never experience bad times ::	no way
Cause misery ::	no way
Feel misery ::	yes yes yes...i would rather feel it.
Be alone ::	no..
Be with everyone you know ::	ahhh NO! this survey is bullshit...its in the wrong format and everything...im just lost, but no i would not want to be with EVERYONE i know...
+ Who +
Cheers you up more than anyone else ::	it depends who at the time..lol sometimes, jenni, jason or sean...or sammy, joey or jamie...or kate...lol
Angers you more than anyone else ::	hah...lets not go there
Scares you more than anyone else ::	people lol
Makes you think about your emotions more than anyone else ::	sean
Makes you really care about how they feel and what they think ::	jason or kate

Emotions brought to you by BZOINK!

another one...lol

Who's yo daddy?:	your mom...err...i dont know
If you were a body of water, what kind would you be?:	i would be a nacho cheese infested body of water...mhmm...thats right.
Tell me you love me, baby:	ohhhh yes, i love you...lol wow.
Does anybody like me yet?:	err...who are you exactly?
Comment
Save me Jeebus!:	ill pass...
Do you like...
cheese?:	sure
montreal steak spice?:	no, but thats canadian...so i bet kate does!
me?:	why not.
Star Trek?:	NOT AT ALL
people who like Star Trek?:	coach baugham likes star trek...*shudders*
this survey?:	sure...but it has no point :[ ...im a little disappointed
Ok, I'm done making your life miserable... are you happy yet?:	thank you, and goodbye

Crazy Monkeys Will Rule The World! brought to you by BZOINK!

haha...and another...lol

Favorite thing about your boyfriend?:	everything...lol
What color are his eyes?:	blueish grayish
What color is his hair?:	its blondish now...lol
Whats his favorite color?:	black
Whats his favorite movie?:	lol he doesnt have one...that i know of...probably some porno flick...hah
When your alone what do you do?:	err...nothing 0:]
Whens his birthday?:	december 17th
Whats his nationality?:	hes irish, werd.
Does he play any sports?:	he skates...lol
Whats his favorite number?:	7
Does he like candles?:	im not sure...he likes fire though.
Ever done anything kinky?:	now, what do you think?
Taken a shower together?:	again...what do you think?
Are you in love?:	YES.

Survey about your boyfriend brought to you by BZOINK!


thats right...lol
whit

i dont know...
ok so, i change this thingy.
i ususally update a bunch ...so yea.
just go back entries to see...becoz if you dont, you'll be missing a lot.
not that you care...but yea.
im just gonna go...bye.