everyone keeps dying...
ok so...justins been gone like...
2 weeks now, i still cant believe how much
i miss him...a lot, i didnt think i would...
and now, my moms and my good friend died today...i guess we'll see how that goes...my mom doesnt know yet...hum...
yea...and i dont know what it is...i just dont have anyone close to me now...no one. i have friends from school...and then friends like...really far away. i need them :[...but i cant have that
and i have jason too...its a really long story...but uhm...yea...i guess we're together? i really dont know...its all just a big mess...so yea.
and ive been sick for like...the past week, ive been throwing up a lot...hum...lol thats kinda gross...im gonna shut up now.

so yea...i luv you jason...
also, i dont know what id do without you rach
and kate you're awesome :D
and yea...thats all...
bye

whit

hmm...
yea so...i am so0o tired...i had a long day at school
and i have a headache...hum...oh well..
i need to do my homework...maybe jason can help me...ill call him?
wow...im really bored to0...and there's not much to say...
i might even change the look of this thingy
...again...but i still dont know yet...so yea...
and i am getting my hair cut today..i dont know what im gonna do to it...but oh well...ill think about it later...and i could also dye it....purple maybe? hum...haha...i dont know
hum...i found this like....a week ago, im just now filling it out...KATE STOLE IT

A - Act your age?: hum...what do you think?
B - Born on what day of the week?: thursday....i think...i dont know
C - Chore you hate?: CLEANING MY HOUSE..OR ROOM...i have no problem cleaning someone else's house..just not mine...heh...lol im so0o weird...
D - Dad's name?: william
E - Essential makeup item?: black eyeliner
F - Favorite actor?: eh...i dont know...
G - Gold or silver?: silverness
H - Hometown?: raleigh...bleh...
I - Instruments you play?: nicole and i both play uberly cool *gee-tars*
J - Job title?: student...BAD..student
K - Kids?: lol you mean if i have any now? uhm...i dont think so...but jason and i were gonna have uh...2 kids...lol
L - Living arrangements?: i live with my mommie?
M - Mom's name?: jennifer
N - Number of people you've slept with?: ladedadedadeda...
O - Overnight hospital stays?: none...thank god...those places scare me.
P - Phobia?: spiders...uhm...heights...and OTHER things...heh...
Q - Quotation you like?: lol theres a *cluster* <===lee's word :D
R - Religious affiliation?:um..im prespitarian?
S - Siblings?: 1...pest..
T - Time you wake up?: 6 for school..gurrr...evol...
U - Unique habit?: well....i always carry around mints...is that a *unique habit*?
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat?: squash...eh....its sick :[
W - Worst habit?: procrastinate...or whatever...i dont know...
X - X-rays you've had?: like....7...and then like uhm...dental ones...yea...
Y - Yummy food you make?: uhmm....grilled cheese :]
Z - Zodiac Sign?: cancer


and thats all for now, byeeee

whit

gurr...i hate you.
yea...so im changing this journal again...coz im so bored
and fuck missing someone...im mad now...i dont miss you
i hope you fucking die.
i hate you...yea so...im ok....
im going to calm down.