my life should just end
i hate this, i dont know what to do.
if i didnt have someone, i feel as if i couldnt live, but without this one other person...everything is dull. i need them.

i now love poems

it seems as if poems are everywhere lately...in all the songs...im listening to them, really listening. and two people wrote me poems, i didnt diserve it...any of it. it makes me want to cry just thinking about how sweet they are. why dont they just forget about me...
they played eminem and the white stripes on top alternative today...kinda scared me, im not used to hearing them on there.
i am such a drama queen...and i dont care...

krissssssssssten
ok so...im at kristens house with cashwell too...she keeps stealing MY ball, haha!
ok so a few things to say...
-- I LOVE SEAN!!!!!
-- I LOVE KENNY TOO!!!!!
-- lol and im not as obsessed as kristen ish with justin timberlake...haha, its just sick!
-- but really, justin is way hott and stuff, ya know? i really ...dont listen to kristen...thats all her talking...i dont find justin *attractive* like she does...but oh well.
-- i need some new surveys to do...blah, its so boring w/ out surveys.
-- im listening to *stacys mom* now...i know horribleness...but ish so catchy! lol anyways
i think im gonna go now...i <3 you all!!!!
you know you love me,
whitney

EMO-tional tears...
ok so, im updating...
my mom told me to get off...like i actually listen to her or something.
so...newness...
--ive developed a new hatered for ms. ellison
--know not to fuck with me, im in a bad mood lately...ever since school started, so im serious, dont mess with me...and unlike raneem...dont call my boyfriend invisible ++
--my black nailpolish broke...the bottle...its all over my floor, oh well...
--i found my damone cd...long lost, so happiness...
--i havent talked to twinny in a long time...shes avoiding me i think...oh well.
--i think that *she cries* by rufio has to be my new favorite song...but *left coast envy* never gets old.
--my day sucked, i was happy...talked on the phone for about 4 hours...*someone special*...now im in a bad mood again.
--im going to the movies tomorrow with kristen....no one will come with us. ive never felt so alone...hah right...just another thing that proves im a loser.
--i got so upset when i saw madonna kissing britney spears and christina aguleria tonight at the vmas that i want to throw up, first of all its not only disgusting, but she just ruined her rep...big time__+
--thoughts of suicide fill my head...its not right.
the point:
-+-[i .c.a.n.t. be {suicidal}...]-+-

i need friends...and i need [sean]...
you know you love me,
whitney