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2004 25 February :: 5.27pm
my hands are around your throat and i think that i hate you........
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2004 24 February :: 4.39pm
hehe yey...this summer i got the MDA thing plus a job....plus friends and my bg and ai pass...whosh i cant wait till school ends..and next month i get my license...woot woot for me...then vacation with my rents...i got to help my mom drive to new york or arizona...oh yea i might visit ryan up there...and when he comes down i got to see him...man i miss that boy...umm what else...senior year is coming...yey for me...umm i hope i get in nhs and i get treasurer...adn next year im doing powder puff...i really want to do a sport but im really bad in sports but like football...anywho im tired...it rained today which was awesome but it made me feel lonely...i hate people...they are gay...i hate how you know someone talks shit about you and all this crap and then trys to be nice...its like okay wtf...yea...i had no one to walk with during 4th...damn mikes oss...hmmm i hate people...2nd time i said that...i also hate when you try to talk to a person and they just like ignore you...its like fuck i have your attention..oh wellz...i wish i could something...i mean getting my anger out would be awesome...i remember when i was younger and i was really angry...i really hurt my sister...i seem to throw shit that are around me...i pushed my sis into a cage and she got a scar...then threw a weight to her eye and gave her a black eye for picture day...hmm i dont remmeber but there are more...oh wellz...im a bitch...i guess ill admit to it now...you know what sucks realizing that your friends are not really friends...im starting to really believe half the friends i have are worthless...because they dont fuckign care about anything but themselves it seems...just them being selfish...its like grr...oh wellz...i have a head ache...arg im really mad right now....i wish i had someone to talk to..i jsut dont fucking trust anyone...oh wellz im out......
cesar made me post this....hehe
Saddest Song
by Ataris, The
Only two more days until your birthday,
yesterday was mine.
You'll be turning five.
I know what it's like
growing up without your father in your life.
So I pretend I'm doing all I can
and hope someday you'll find it in your heart
to understand why I'm not around
and forgive me for not being in your life.
I remember waiting for you to come.
Remember waiting for you to call.
Remember waiting there to find nothing at all.
Maybe someday you'll really get to know me
not just from letters read to you.
I pray I get the chance to make it up to you.
We've got a lot of catching up to do
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2004 23 February :: 4.10pm
today went amazingly well...hmm i know good right...my chest itches...i know you guys wanted to know that....anywho...umm what happened today...i talked to mike a lot..he is not that bad...1st period i did nothing...2nd nothing...3rd i dont remember....4th hmm notes i think....5th umm poem thingy....omg and i won the stupid debate...damn it go me...look i did research.....and the poem "i know why the cage bird sings thingy" is symbolic...its about black slavery...i found my book and did research online.....gosh why cant people just like listen to my opinon...oh wellz over that...6th period umm spanish thigns....7th chemistry lab omg it was great.....too much to write...ugh...8th umm test.....im starting to hate that class...too many perverts...because me and jerrica are like the only girls in there....so we are like a piece of meat...its like arg...okay well im all excited right now...this summer i might go to a camp that helps disabled children...its for a week and its sleep away...me and jerrica are going hopefully....i get my community hours...and senior year im most likely haveing a car and only going to school for like 3 periods...and then go to HCC for the rest of the day because ill have all the credits i need and i can start taking college classes....i arleady talked to my guidance counseler so all i have to do is sign papers and shit next year.....so omg yey! for me....hmm what else is going for me....i might get some scholarships...cause i got to enter im them...and omg i entered in NHS and hopefully i get tapped....jerrica already found ou thtat she is in...so if she got in i will hopefully...soo hehe yey!....OUT! BYE!
Anthem Of Our Dying Day
by Story Of The Year
The stars will cry the blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
Here I am pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
Thats exactly,
Exactly what I need...
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day...
For a second I wish the tide will swallow every inch of the city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face if you were here
Cause then I wont miss a beat cause I never,
Never have before...
Of our dying day
Of our dying day
OF OUR DYING...
For a second I wish the tide would swallow every inch of this city
As your gasped for air tonight...
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