well well well...donna's first entry in a long time...and im actually realyl happy and free as you guys read from my other entry...im just like whoa right nowl...infacturated(sp) with life...i mean seriously its odd...i can be soo negative and hateful and angry for soo long and forget taht it does get better...and it does...its like wow...i lost a friend but i gained one...i lost carrie....but that doesnt matter does it...and i gained thaimi back...i mean we just talked a lil...even if we dont become friends again or anything...its nice having her again...being friendly...just its great...i missed her a bunch..we just been though a lot together...i just never had a friend like her...so then i have marcos too...i know he likes me and i know i like him...and its just really good...he waited for me to be ready and that just made me respect him and stuff...i just know he is a great guy...i will end up hurt i bet and i will end up emo at times...but hey thats the risk you take with stuff...and its worth it...wow things make sooo much sense right now...hehe...wow...donna is being soo dorky...i feel too right now.....im the only happy one in my family...because everyone is sad about my grandmother...oh yea i havent told you guys.,...her mass in her lung has gotten larger and they(docters) found spots on her lungs...so they are taking tests tomorrow and there is a huge chance its cancer...so my grandmotehr has lung cancer and basically only has a few years to live...becuase most people dont survive from lung cancer....80% of them die....so hopefully my grandmother is one of lucky to live....man i hope so i lover her so much and i worry about my grandfather...he is like my dad since my dad is an ass and dosnt care so i at least have my poppie hehe...right now im just denying it all....but its okay...i have to be strong for my mommy...since my dad has no sympahty and is treating her like shit....man i wish i could kill him.....i would with my bare hands...but jail...i dont want to be a virgin to guys and then be raped daily by woman...hehe great thinking for donna...go me...then jerrica man she is awesome...she is my turtle lover...then hmmm...i need to cheer up puja...got some things to do tomorrow.....yey...and then im mad too....driggers cheated on nessa...yes...she should have known if he cheated on me with her...but whatever...thats gay...hehe oh wellz...its all good...v-day is sat and i finally have someone for once in my life....and so sat we are all going out for like a v-day thingy..me and jerrica and everyone else...it will be very fun hopefully...brrrrrr im cold...someone warm me up...where is he when i need him...hehe awww....i dont think ill let him read my journal..oh wellz...i just cant stand people....whosh poor rotc lost i think....oh wellz ill find out tomorrow....i watched rotc pratice thursday afternoon and they were like whoa...i could never do that stuff...well im a sissy...hehe not really....i gave my sister a hicky...hehe i got a lil umm i cant say...so ya i kept biting her back and gave her a hicky...so yea.....well i got to go....bye bye my luvs...you are all great....muah!!!...bye bye !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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