I can hear your heart slowly breaking before me. I love it...I love to hear you in pain. To know your killing. That my words can bring you down you knees. All this time I was the one at fault...I was the one who fucked up in your eyes. The times you tied me up, beat me to the floor and screaming my faults. Who needs who now?! Maybe you didn't notice all these fucking bruises the first time, I hope you do now! I need you to crawl...How fucking dare you make me look like its my fault once again? Dare you! I'm so fucking sick of your lies...so sick of your abuse. All those times I begged for you not to, you did it anyway...because you’re the one always on top and the one who’s always the boss. Damn you...Now it's my time...my time to see you fucking crawl...I know you'll make me pay for this like always...but right now...my time...never mind my karma...

I see: pain

I need: answers

I want: to find what im missing

I have: no-one

I love: things way too much

I hate: this world

I miss: my childhood

I fear: lonelyness

I feel: emotionally tired

I hear: tv

I smell: food

I crave: some happiness

I wonder: what im missing

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last cigarette: omg yuckyness

last car ride: mall to me casa

last good cry: i dont remember its been awhile

last library book checked out: white orleandor

last movie seen: bingo

last book read: umm something

last cuss word uttered: i dont knw

last beverage drank: chocolate milk

last food consumed: pringles

last crush: ummm daniel

last phone call: this morning with carrie

last tv show watched: even stevens

last time showered: few hours ago

last shoes worn: converse

last cd played: finch

last item bought: american eagle

last downloaded: something for my sister

last annoyance: sister

last disappointment: hmm life

last soda drank: eww

last thing written: song/poem

last key used: car

last word spoken: my head hurts

last sleep: umm i took a nap

last im: carrie

last ice cream eaten: rasperry sherbert

last time amused: carrie did that today

last time wanting to die: yesterday

last time in love: umm awhile back

last time hugged: this morning

last chair sat in: the one im in right now

last lipstick used: lip gloss strawberry

last bra worn: this wite one thats on

last shirt worn: im not wearing a shirt right now...its a tank top

last webpage visited: ummm my journal

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1.who are you? a dumbass

2.what are you doing while filling this thingy out? thinking about gay stuff

3.why are you filling this out? cause it was on a friends journal entry

4.what room are you in? my sisters

5.who is your bf/gf? daniel

6.where were you born? here in the good ol florida

7.how old are your parents? umm old

8.current music? none

9.one thing u would change about yourself? everything

10.how are you today? dazed and lost...hmm same thing almost

11.what did you do today? umm comp, nap, comp, and another nap...no point on being awake

12.what time is it? 3:09

13.what time did you get up this morning? 10

14.did you eat breakfast? yes

15.if so, what did you eat? pancakes

16.what did u eat for lunch? ice cream

17.who is your fav rock band? umm finch, blink 182, ataris, all american rejects, and a bunch more

18.who is your fav rapper? umm no

19. would you like to sleep with someone that goes to your school? sure if they got me drunk


GET SCARED EASILY? yes

CRY A LOT? not really

GET HURT EASILY? sort of depends from who

HAVE AN ENEMY? yea actually a few

SAVE YOUR ASSINGMENTS FOR THE LAST MINUTE? yup cant help it

PRETEND YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT A CERTAIN PERSON BUT YOU ACTUALLY DO? yes i do that too often

KNOW WHAT YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? hell the fuck no...all i know i better do something good

CMNT