okay...this will be in fragments and bits and pieces since im in one of my rampage pissy modes and i need to write badly...okay here it goes...im sick of being called a fucking bitch because i wont let my sister skip school...i dont think im a bitch for stopping her...plus i dont think im a bitch for not wanting her to skip...its fucking gay as hell...now i have mike and crystal on my ass...mike wants my sis to skip and go to a friends house...umm i think not...never goin to happen unless im dead...which i wont mind right now but im not getting into that...my sister is only fucking 14 and has done more than me which im 16 and trys to act like she is fuckin 18...she is acting pathetic...everyone told me in the past what the hell is wrong with your sister why is she acting like that why is she so controlling...lets see she gets it from our farther...she needs to get what she wants when she wants our hell is paid...i talked to my mother about her skipping so she said she will take care of it...well i dont see it but oh wellz...my sis can handle my dad next...man people called her a whore, bitch, slut, and numerous other things and she comes to me for protection...hmm im not doing any protecting you brought it onto yourself...then she starts fights with people and then makes me lie and makes me try to stop it...umm no not anymore...you started it so you will ended it...your fucking 14 so u can do it yourself...im not your protector...im not your mother either...so she needs to set her priorities straight...school first over guys...plus she supposedly can get into the air force with bad grades umm yea right...and she wants to get out of this hell thats another yea right for her...she will be stuck living at home until she finds another loser to marry (no offense to mike)...

okay new topic...hmm guys...i hate them but you got to love them...its one of those love and hate stuff...i talk about how i dont believe in love...well i kinda dont but then i do...i dont believe in it by the degree of my parents and i believe in it by the help of my grandparents...okay well i can sit here and think and think of how many guys i have a chance to go out with and pursue them into more than just friends...i can list at least 10...i was talking to puja and jerrica about it...and i was like i really dont like it...i mean why me...im not great...im nothing...im fucking waste of time...that simple...i just dont get it...i can list about 1 or 2 guys im actually willing to go out with and they dont want me...and the 10 guys that i have a chance with dont have any with me...man...i have like 2 or 3 friends that are almost perfect...and they cant seem to get guys...it pisses me off how many guys waste there time on me...and wont waste a second on them...they deserve them more than me...i just cant stand that at all...man it worrys me so much how me and some friends may like the same guy but he begins to like me...trust me i know how it is...its like crash in ur heart...it hurts soo bad...man now old fuckin memories are haunting me...arg...anywho...it just makes me more of mess...

next topic...hmmm...fighting...hmm...thats gay...that simple...

oh yea my friend brought of the topic how girls are saying they are bi such of a sudden...hmm thats another thing that ticks me off...girls are only doing that to either look cool or turn a guy on...if you want a guy to like you act like yourself and they will come...that simple dont change yourself for a guy ever...its dumb...but if your seriously bi well congrats! i have nothing against people who are bi or fully gay...they are probably the best people you could ever know...

okay the last thing which is short and funny so for a happy moment...well i was leaving for a club during 1st period and well i went to blow a kiss to cesar out of boredom...i do that to carrie and jerrica all the time...well freddie...me and him have been eyeing each other...he noticed the kiss blown and blew a kiss to me...and i was cracking up...i didnt tell him though cause i didnt want him to be embarrassed...hehe he thought i blew the kiss to him...so that was great...oh wellz...anywho ill let you guys go...bye bye bye!

omg i want to kill something...im soo pissed...whosh...hehe...tomororw morning i wont be there...so score...but the bad part is that my group is gone...no more group in the morning...oh wellz...sad my sister has no one...like i care...i might not even come to school..and if i do i will be back by 4th period...we all will see if i come..i dont know..i dont feel like it...i dont know but im goin to be online all morning untill i leave..damn it....ahh...hehe...bye bye

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