:: 2003 10 November :: 7.15 pm

The way you got me
10.7.03

All I feel is pain
Stabbing into my heart
Its been led on
By the endless emotion
You've poured out to me
Why cant you just leave
Me be, alone in the dark
Thats all I ask
All I've ever wanted
You've made me suffer
Long sleepless nights
Filled with the salty tears
That have been shed
From my innocent body
Cant take this anymore
Just want to escape
The 'love' you feel
Its eating away at me
I have these impure thoughts
Of your slow painful death
Stabbing you over and over
Until the blood accumulates
In puddles around your body
Waiting for your very last breath
When you squeel as you're tumbling over
Yanking the kitchen knife from your throat
I quick wipe it off on your shirt
Watching you lay there in complete silence
Realizing I cant live without you
I jab the knife into my heart
Twisting and turning it as it goes in
Collasping onto your cold stiff body
The knife being forced through
Deeper as I lay there
Never should have tried to run from you
Wish I would have listened
Please forgive me and let us be
Together in the hands of God

*ride my star*

:: 2003 10 November :: 7.15 pm

Life after you
9-6-03

Can't seem to get un-confused
It's like my only state of mind
Since that night you left me
Standing there on that bridge
With tears running constantly
And my heart shattering
Don't understand why it lasted so long
So many questions running through my head
Hope I never see you again
Because all you did was tear me down
I lost every battle with you
Got nothing left but scars
Thinking maybe it will all go away
Would be like falling for another game of yours

*ride my star*

:: 2003 10 November :: 7.14 pm

Heart filled Travesty
9-4-03

When you smile
it brightens my day
Makes me wonder
Why we arent together
Then I remember
That I'm not good enough
Not as bright as the stars up high
Or as big as the grin on her face
But atleast I know
that I have a bigger heart
with room in it for you

*ride my star*

:: 2003 10 November :: 7.13 pm

Happiness
10.2.03

You and I together
Are like no other pair
We go together like
Stripes and Polka dots
People laugh and point
But we just hold hands
And ignore their even there
Because we're too busy
Looking into each other eyes
Exchanging "I love you's"
Cause we know our love is real

*ride my star*

:: 2003 10 November :: 7.11 pm

Absent state of mind-

I stumble across the knife you hid
Taking it from its leather case
Gripping it tightly
Running my fingers gently down the blade
Eyeing it like no other
I lightly drag it up my arm
Making my way across my chest
Just the right move, and it slowly goes in
Thinking to myself that was a stupid mistake
Slowly ripping the knife from my heart
I run my fingers across the opening
Looking down at the blood leaking out
I smile and fall to the ground
Laying there breathless
Wanting to come back
But now its too late

*ride my star*