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2004 18 May :: 6.39am
:: Music: Brand New-good to know if I ever needed attention all I would have to do is die
lets all be dramatic, because we are all so fucking good at it.
School is almost over, I won't have to be around these people, I won't be hearing all this drama, maybe people will even stop fighting about stupid shit (ha, right like that would ever happen). I have to keep telling myself this in order to not completely go insane.
How hard is it to be a logical person? To just not be so dramatic, to think of others before yourself here and there, to not be jealous, to let things go, forgive, or to just shut the fuck up.
I'm starting not to care about other peoples problems because half of the time they are the ones making it worse every day. I guess the world teaches me how to be a terrible person, or these stupid fucks I'm surrounded with every day.
I'm not about to fight for something I'll lose.
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2004 16 May :: 3.38pm
:: Music: Pedro the Lion
"I have a neice here that doesn't even know what to say to me."
I know what to say, only it would not be all that nice. A simple "fuck you" would work wonderfully.
I hate when family visits me. I'm forced to talk to people that know nothing about me. Then they give the 'you act like you don't even know me, or want to talk to me' speech. That's because you don't know me and I don't want to talk to you. A visit twice a year doesn't show you care, sorry. It's more like a time for them to make fun of me for not being in any sports and spending all my time on the computer. Then they make me hug them when I'd rather stab myself repeatedly. Ah well, as soon as I am 18, I'm gone. If any family members besides the ones I live with and my step-brother (Keith) think I am staying in touch with them they are going to be greatly dissapointed.
Today is terribly dull, but it's not raining, there's a change.
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2004 15 May :: 12.27pm
New TBS Album..
eeee! :)
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2004 13 May :: 9.21pm
:: Music: Bright Eyes
i saw a dog on a roof today.
so.. four days of drivers training done. two to go.. (if i don't need an extra hour). driving has been frustrating lately. i can't pay attention with so many things filling my head and clouding my eyes. i know the instructor is there to help, and without him i'd pry crash.. but when he tells you what to do then, what you're going to be doing, what you did wrong, where to look.. etc, all at the same time it makes me want to crash the car into a tree. ok.. i'll stop ranting now. (driving is going to be the death of me).
soo.. the seniors leave tomorrow. doesn't effect me too much, but i will miss a select few.
i get to be certified in cpr tomorrow. hardy har har..a fucking joy.
anyways.. i have realized this is much too long of an entry and lacks far too much importance. night.
oh and.. seeing you sad, makes me sad. you can make it. *hug
(not that it even matters)
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2004 11 May :: 3.58pm
But I was wrong
5-11-04
I thought he was different
From all the other ones
But I guess I was just blinded
By the games he played
The lies he told me
I thought it was cute
That he said he'd do anything for me
Like buy me the Mackinaw Bridge
What a joke that was
Thought it was sweet
When he looked straight into my eyes
And said all the things
That a girl wants to hear
I wonder what line he used
On all the other girls
I wonder how long it took
For them to realize he was a sham
Or was I the only one
Who fell right into his trap
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2004 9 May :: 9.27pm
His lies...
3-31-04
His lies play in my head
Backwards, forwards
They all mean the same
Get the same laughs
They've been playing so long
I dont know what to believe
When he said he'd do anything for me
Was that just a line to get to me
Like when he said he'd buy me the bridge
Because I deserved it for being so wonderful
If im so wonderful, why all these lies
Why all the games to mess with my head
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2004 9 May :: 6.24pm
:: Music: Cake - The Distance
storming...again.
a wonderful weekend was exactly what i needed and i got it. :)
it's raining..i love the rain..but the power going out from time to time doesn't entertain me too well.
well.. off to read. night kiddies.
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2004 7 May :: 7.03am
:: Music: The Used - Choke Me
you're so crazy.
good morning.
drivers training is.. ehh. driving isn't too bad, kinda fun actually. four more days of driving and two more weeks of class and im done. until segment two.
well this saturday and sunday are open, so whoever wants to hang out please tell me. i don't want another dull weekend.
time to go to that wonderful place..
later.
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2004 3 May :: 10.46pm
:: Music: At the Drive-In - Alpha Centauri
haha, Brent is so great.
So here i am..whining to Brent about driving.. and he kinda just makes fun of me..
stacy says:
how long does it take to pretty much learn what you're doing
Brent says:
4 seconds?
Brent says:
red light = stop
green light = go
yellow light = floor it
stacy says: haha.. i know thaaat.
but like parking, and backing in.. i'll pry hit something.
Brent says:
..maybe if you floor it going backwards.
its a thing called a steering wheel, it helps you out in those situations.
stacy says:
haha..im not that stupid!
Brent says: i know. i'm trying to show you how easy it is, and how much of a big deal your making it.
stacy says:
haha, i know. but im a girl, thats my job
Brent says:
and i'm a boy, i punch girls in the face for being stupid
stacy says:
you wouldnt
Brent says:
i know ^^
haha. so yes, tomorrow. driving. lets just hope i don't hit anything.
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2004 30 April :: 1.56pm
:: Music: The White Stripes - There's No Home for You Here
i would have rather walked there.
yeah so.. that was no fun at all.
i don't enjoy half days much. if i have to get up early i would much rather spend the whole day suffering in school.
anywhore.. i hope all you kids have fun at prom. later.
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2004 28 April :: 3.51pm
lets go our seperate ways, we'll be just fine..
i seriously can't wait until i am out of highschool and i won't have to deal with all this crap and these stupid people.
I'm not complaining, simply just saying i would rather be somewhere else wasting away my school days.
bleh..
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2004 26 April :: 3.33pm
:: Music: The Cruxshadows - Here Comes the Rain Again
mmm.
kaaate...I stole YOUR orange magnet! BA HA HA. it smells like oranges and its kinda squishy. i bet you are freaking out right now because you dont know where it is well its MINE so dont go looking for it!
yes well, today was awesome. im not sure why it just was.
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2004 24 April :: 7.00pm
:: Music: The Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Tick
eye tests make me laugh.
so i got my eyes tested..the doctor was like "you have perfect vision" and im all..umm no..i cant see then hes like "..with glasses." hardy har har. fucker. messed with my mind. so yes..i need to suffer a few more weeks before they come in and such.
i bought a very interesting book, Revolution On Canvas [poetry from the indie music scene]. so that will take up some of this ever so boring free time on my hands.
later.
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2004 22 April :: 3.09pm
a taste of what i live for..
the Against Me! concert was last night. it was awesome. feeling the sweat and spit, being so close to the stage you could touch the band members, getting pushed non-stop, feeling the ground shaking as people held the amps so they wouldnt fall because of all the energy, studying how fast they ream on those guitars. its what i live for.
i love music. i wish i could go to shows like that every night.
i fell in love with a boy named Nick ..not really, hes just...*sighs*attractive. and thats the understatement of the year.
love.. stacy
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2004 17 April :: 12.34am
:: Music: Bright Eyes - Nothing gets crossed out
lets make this simple now kittens..
ask me three questions about anything..
yeah. i want to be like the cool kids, don't make fun of me.
s to the tacy
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