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fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 14 December :: 2.33pm
:: Music: The Yeah Yeah Yeahs-Modern Romance

list (continued)
I had to finish my list..this time i really am done. skip over it again if youd like.

-I hate selfish people.
-I hate when guys flirt with other girls when they have a girlfriend.
-I love music more than anything, I really do believe i would die without it.
-I am scared of rollercoasters
-yes, i listen to Avril Lavigne and i like most of her lyrics.
-I do not think i dress different, but I am different.
-I have only dated 3 people. and only one of the relationships were serious.
-i am comfortable with who i am as in my personality, but would still like to change how i look.
-I get crushes on guys very easily.
-I think some girls are hot. and i am not a lesbian or bi.
-I think Tom Delonge is the sexiest man alive.
-I am too mean.
-I use the word gay too much.
-I read everything i write atleaste twice.
-My friends are the 2nd most important thing in my life (music is first as wrong as that may be)
-I want my lip pierced.
-Eventually i want my left arm sleeved with tatoos.
-My favorite band used to be be Good Charlotte. I have found much better music, but their still alright in my book.
-I currently have a crush on like 7 guys.
-I listen to Tool every morning.
-greenday makes me happy.
-I hate when people always mention who they are in love with. its annoying.
-When it comes down to it i am extremely perverted.
-James is the smartest kid i know.
-I have never taken a pill in my life.
-Im done with this list. I feel like a bitch for talking about myself this long.

..and cool kids, they belong...together-The Yeah Yeah Yeahs/Modern Romance

6 *ride*s | *ride my star*


fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 13 December :: 4.12pm
:: Music: The Pixies-Bleed

I copied Kate..cuz i thought it was interesting..skip over it if you wish.

Things about me you may not know

-i like to hang out with guys rather than girls.
-i really do love my mom even though i say i hate her a lot.
-i really do hate my dad.
-i have a step brother.
-when i know the answer to a question i dont answer it because i think it will be wrong.
-i dont tell a guy if i have feelings for them, unless they tell me first (if i feel the same).
-i hate my hair.
-i trust guys easier than girls.
-i have never done any drugs. and i dont plan on it.
-some of the people i hug everyday i cant stand.
-i used to lie about everything. not sure why. i dont anymore.
-i hate when people on chat say "fine..dont say hi"
-i hate when people say "sounds like a personal problem"
- i hate sitting in the front of the class. (like in second hour)
-i fall asleep a lot in class.
-i constantly need to know what time it is.
-in my head i schedule my day before and after school. (example: when i will do my homework, and what i will do first) its crazy.
-i am extremely organized.
-i write poems and songs daily. most of them suck.
-i keep a lot of things to myself.
-i dont have one person i tell everything to.
-i cant concentrate in classes if i have good friends in that class.
-if i tried, i could understand math.
-i have a lot of maturing to do. but i dont want to.
-once someone lies to me i have a hard time talking to them again.
-i dont trust anyone completely.
-i love darkness.
-i take a shower everyday because i like the smell of my soap. *laughs
-i havent played my guitar in weeks. due to frustration.
-i love to wrestle with my friends. even though im weak. its just fun.
-if i dont hug people or dont get hugs at school its a bad day.
-i wake up throughout the night. all the time. i have to lay in bed for an hour before i fall asleep.
-i keep every cd i have ever received or bought.
-i own 132 cds that i actually listen to. i have about 30 or more i dont listen to.
-while chatting on messenger i forget im talking to people and just stop.
-i havent watched tv in weeks.
-i like having posters all over my walls.
-i have to straighten my hair, its naturally curly.
-i want to learn how to skateboard.
-i am unsure of my religion and beliefs.
-i love acoustic songs.
-i listen to music everyday. for atleaste 3 hours.
-i spend way too much time on the internet.
-last week on friday i was online for 12 hours straight.
-i have 2 smog journals and 4 woohu journals.
-i like blue jeans. but they shrink up or dont look right. so most of the pants i wear are black.
-people sing the song "stacys mom" by fountains of wayne to me atleaste once a day. i hate it.
-i get weak in the knees when a singer screams (a good scream, example: the used, or tbs scream).
-i eat chocolate chips out of the bag.
-i hate the crust on bread.
-in the morning i usually dont know what shirt i put on..i just throw a hoodie on.
-i hate when shirts dont fit me anymore. like my system of a down shirt *frowns
-i like when the bottom of my pants are ripped.
-i hate to tie my shoes.
-i hate talking on the phone.
-i like when guys hair is messy and hangs in their face.
-i dont get scared easily.
-i like to break rules.
-i say fuck all the time.
-i have tried to stop swearing. i cant.
-i think its sexy when guys wear pink. and if they wear colorful bracelets.
-i love to watch guys play guitar.
-i can ride in a car for hours if i have a cd player and my cds.
-i only drink water and chocolate milk.
--i have a lot more to write but my hands hurt. and you pry dont care.

..i hope others do this so i can learn about them. ;)

2 *ride*s | *ride my star*


fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 12 December :: 11.49pm
:: Music: Tool-H.

Leaves me cracked and empty. Drags me down like some sweet gravity.
well. today turned out alright. i ended up going to brads to hang out with all the guys..i was the only girl, hah. im used to that though. it was entertaining watching them play Halo and hear their random, rather amusing comments.

now im home. burning cds. im so dead tired, so i guess im gonna get some sleep. night kids.

1 *ride* | *ride my star*


fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 11 December :: 9.49pm
:: Music: Thursday-I am the Killer

he had a lot to say. he had a lot of nothing to say. we'll miss him.
christmas cards suck. theres no money. and there always about joy..happiness..bla bla.

its fucking cold.

i might hang out with some people tomorrow after school. if i do mom will kill me. she said i couldnt. *shrugs*

i better get going...yeah.

9 *ride*s | *ride my star*


purplesmurfs

:: 2003 10 December :: 7.06pm

That night I met you
I felt so warm inside
The sound of your voice
So soothing and deep
Being able to smile
And have a reason for it
Made me like you even more
Got a glimpse of your eyes
And I fell into something
That I dont want to get out of
Just wish I could be with you
Right now, in your arms

*ride my star*


fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 9 December :: 3.02pm
:: Music: AFI-Miseria Cantare

in 5th hour i look over and see mitch drawing a horse hanging from a rope.
things that annoyed me today
1. Norm Cole saying "b e a utiful".
2. Norm in general.
3. Algebra.
4. people being annoying as hell, when they know im pissed off.
5. the girls in 6th hour.
6. learning how to judge a cow..than watching a video about it.

yeah. today was alright, coulda been better. i have loads of homework, so i better get started on that..yeeaahh.

10 *ride*s | *ride my star*


fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 8 December :: 3.58pm
:: Music: AFI-Bleed Black

i know i died that night and I'll never be brought back to life..once again i know.
so i was thinking..whats the point of my journal? or any one elses for that matter?
if you write about how your feeling and what your confused about, etc. people think your trying to get attention.
if you write about what you did that day/weekend whatever it bores people.
if you write something about a person it starts a huge fight.
if you write something funny..usually only you think its funny.
if you talk about something your having trouble with people say your complaining.

yeah..i guess im lost as to what i should ever write about. *shivers* its cold.

38 *ride*s | *ride my star*


fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 7 December :: 4.52pm
:: Music: The Beatles-come together

this conversation is just so...true.
Ben says:
your my hero.
you know why your my hero stacy?
because if there was a company who made somethin that made millions of people happy and really helped out you would find some way to shut it down and stop the making of that product for good.
Stacy says:
*laughs
Ben says:
i can see you now..
a doctors like i've found the cure for aids and you kill him and burn his research.

2 *ride*s | *ride my star*


fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 5 December :: 11.30pm

sooo....i was random journaling due to the extreme boredom i am facing..and i came across many intelligent statements. they are as follows:
mah bitches.
down ass bitch.
go 2 were i wuz.
Ima be a single chicka... ima live it up.
i started diz journal 2daii..and can u puhleaze tell me.. iim siitiing mii azs here beiin bored..dis be crazii.
whudz up?..nada ladaz here juss chyln.

..and the best quote of the day would have to be..
"I want to be different...just like everyone else"

10 *ride*s | *ride my star*


fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 5 December :: 5.23pm

i hate her.
my mom is so stupid. i cant go to brads party. even though she said i could the other day. i ask her about it today and she acts like i never told her. so yeah. i cant go.

1 *ride* | *ride my star*


fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 4 December :: 7.29pm
:: Music: Sugarcult-memory

can i be your memory?
i liked today. nothing bothered me. i was happy. it was great.

Even if her plane crashes tonight she'll find some way to dissapoint me, by not burning in the wreckage or drowning at the bottom of the sea- Brand New/Jude Law and a Semester Abroad

3 *ride*s | *ride my star*


fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 2 December :: 12.12pm
:: Music: The Used-on my own (live cd)

knowing nothing is better than knowing at all
stayed home today. didnt feel the need to go to school. the only thing i enjoy is seeing my friends, and thats not even worth it lately.

nothing to do really...so yeah, im gonna go.

5 *ride*s | *ride my star*


fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 1 December :: 7.26pm
:: Music: Matchbook Romance

question..
does anyone feel like they cannot have a serious conversation with me?

7 *ride*s | *ride my star*


fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 1 December :: 4.00pm
:: Music: yellowcard-empty apartment

you forget where the heart is
school can die. yeah. the one day i ride the bus, it breaks down, so we had to sit there for a half hour...chris wrote if we go down we go down together on the window for some reason i couldnt stop laughing at that.

anyways.

no one is online so im gonna go. talk to ya kids later.

*ride my star*


fadingfallenstar

:: 2003 29 November :: 2.50pm

You've got me right where you want me. Let's never talk, let's never,
let's never talk about this again because...
I didn't want it to mean that much to me-Taking Back Sunday/Bike Scene

*ride my star*

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