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2003 10 November :: 7.40pm
life is crazy.
i was reading over my past entries.
they are all stupid and pointless.
from now on..my entries are gonna be more of my thoughts..not what dumb shit i did that day. yeah..thats all.
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purplesmurfs
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2003 10 November :: 7.20pm
Your Kiss
You kissed me here
You kissed me there
Each time was more wrong
Everytime it got harder to say no
Wish it had happened more
So i can gloat to my friends
That you have the sweetest
Most admirable lips
That make me dream at night
About the first one the last one
And the one Im going to regret
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purplesmurfs
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2003 10 November :: 7.18pm
Your eyes
10.2.03
Your eyes are so beautiful
Like the moons reflection
On the still glass-like water
I can see them twinkle
Like the bright night stars
When I gaze into them
I get lost inside
Could sit here forever
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purplesmurfs
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2003 10 November :: 7.17pm
Untitled-
9-4-03
When I feel your lips on mine
I want to quick pull away
But it feels so nice
To have this emotion
Running through my body
Dont want to ruin its flow
Or interupt its path
Suddenly it stops
Because you pulled away
When you realized you were wrong
To be doing this to us
We'll never be together
But we always find a way
To get that feeling
Back in business
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purplesmurfs
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2003 10 November :: 7.15pm
The way you got me
10.7.03
All I feel is pain
Stabbing into my heart
Its been led on
By the endless emotion
You've poured out to me
Why cant you just leave
Me be, alone in the dark
Thats all I ask
All I've ever wanted
You've made me suffer
Long sleepless nights
Filled with the salty tears
That have been shed
From my innocent body
Cant take this anymore
Just want to escape
The 'love' you feel
Its eating away at me
I have these impure thoughts
Of your slow painful death
Stabbing you over and over
Until the blood accumulates
In puddles around your body
Waiting for your very last breath
When you squeel as you're tumbling over
Yanking the kitchen knife from your throat
I quick wipe it off on your shirt
Watching you lay there in complete silence
Realizing I cant live without you
I jab the knife into my heart
Twisting and turning it as it goes in
Collasping onto your cold stiff body
The knife being forced through
Deeper as I lay there
Never should have tried to run from you
Wish I would have listened
Please forgive me and let us be
Together in the hands of God
*ride my star*
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purplesmurfs
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2003 10 November :: 7.15pm
Life after you
9-6-03
Can't seem to get un-confused
It's like my only state of mind
Since that night you left me
Standing there on that bridge
With tears running constantly
And my heart shattering
Don't understand why it lasted so long
So many questions running through my head
Hope I never see you again
Because all you did was tear me down
I lost every battle with you
Got nothing left but scars
Thinking maybe it will all go away
Would be like falling for another game of yours
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purplesmurfs
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2003 10 November :: 7.14pm
Heart filled Travesty
9-4-03
When you smile
it brightens my day
Makes me wonder
Why we arent together
Then I remember
That I'm not good enough
Not as bright as the stars up high
Or as big as the grin on her face
But atleast I know
that I have a bigger heart
with room in it for you
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purplesmurfs
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2003 10 November :: 7.13pm
Happiness
10.2.03
You and I together
Are like no other pair
We go together like
Stripes and Polka dots
People laugh and point
But we just hold hands
And ignore their even there
Because we're too busy
Looking into each other eyes
Exchanging "I love you's"
Cause we know our love is real
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purplesmurfs
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2003 10 November :: 7.11pm
Absent state of mind-
I stumble across the knife you hid
Taking it from its leather case
Gripping it tightly
Running my fingers gently down the blade
Eyeing it like no other
I lightly drag it up my arm
Making my way across my chest
Just the right move, and it slowly goes in
Thinking to myself that was a stupid mistake
Slowly ripping the knife from my heart
I run my fingers across the opening
Looking down at the blood leaking out
I smile and fall to the ground
Laying there breathless
Wanting to come back
But now its too late
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fadingfallenstar
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2003 9 November :: 2.10pm
Excuse me while I fall apart.
Don't flatter yourself sweetheart.
Let me take the wheel and I'll crash this car.
Why do you have to make this so hard?
You're so good at pretending everything is alright.
You're as welcome as cancer, but my door is always unlocked.
-Matchbook Romance/Playing for Keeps
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fadingfallenstar
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2003 8 November :: 5.46pm
:: Music: Matchbook Romance
I finally got the Matchbook Romance cd i have been wanting...*smiles* it makes me happy. i reeaallly like it.
yeah..im bored.
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fadingfallenstar
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2003 8 November :: 10.37am
:: Music: Motion City Soundtrack-Cambridge
you say that no one cares..but i do.. i doooo. hehe.
well yesterday was fun..stayed after school just to hang out with some people. than me brad and dustin went and played around in the auditorium...that was fun. we found the room under the stage and ran around in there..than ran around with the lights off..lol..its fun you must try it sometime. and bradley played his guitar...that was cool..i didnt know he was that good. made me jealous. heh. than me brad and my brother went to my house for like 5 min to eat burger king..than we headed to the park
to get kelly and neilee and walked to kayleighs..im suprised we lived..it was SO fucking cold. after that we all went to the concert at the high school. it was alright. i didnt care much for the first two bands. the bands were good..i just didnt like the vocals. broken sunday was alright..i wish the lead singer would have screamed more. after the concert becky came over and..that wraps up my night...i better get going...talk to ya'll later..
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fadingfallenstar
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2003 5 November :: 4.48pm
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday-Summer Stars
today was an interesting day. there was a fight on my bus..it was awesome..ahaha..nothing like immature girls cat fighting. bradley finished my tbs pic..yay..its so pretty!! thank you bradley!!
some funny quotes from today..from random subjects..
"When you think of sex, think of me" Mr.Reyburn
me:"look at Arden..hes so gay..look at how he walks..look at him"!
ben birk: "your right...hahahaha"
arden: "my mom says i walk like my grandpa"
me: "was your grandpa gay"?
*laughter*
Mrs.Ahmed: "people in the middle east cant prevent pregnancy"
me: "dont have sex so damn much and they dont have to worry about it...damn whores"
Mrs.Ahmed: "excuse me"
me: "dont have sex, theres your protection"
Mitch: "release more wolves..than the deer will be eaten"!
me: "than the wolves will eat people"
Mitch: "than release bears, they'll eat the wolves"
me: "than the bears will eat us! what about we just release dinosaurs"?
thats all today kids...i can only waste your time for so long..heh.
if you are FOR SURE going to the Broken Sunday thing Friday leave a comment!
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fadingfallenstar
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2003 5 November :: 6.16am
I love this song...its awesome because it actually tells a story..read.
| The Used - Poetic Tragedy [Lyrics: Click + to display] | +- | the cup is not half empty as pescimists say
as far as he's sees nothings left in the cup
a whole cup full of nothing for him to induldge
since the voice of ambition has long since been shut up
a singer, a writer, he's not dreaming now of going nowhere
he gave heed to nothing, and all that he was....
is just a tragedy
so he voyages in circles
succeeds getting nowhere
and submits to the substance
that first got him there
than in violent, frustration he cries out to God or just no one
is there a point to this madness and all that he was....
is just a tragedy
he feels alone
his heart in his hand
he's alone
he feels alone
I feel....
then on that last day he breaks
and he stood tall
and he yelled... and he takes his life
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its crazy..whenever im sad, happy, whatever.. i turn to music.its always there..one thing i can rely on..as corny as that may sound..so true.
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fadingfallenstar
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2003 4 November :: 6.25am
:: Music: Matchbook Romance-Hollywood and Vine
yet another awesome song by this band..
my daddy cooked me breakfast..eggs, bacon and toast...this shows todays gonna be a goood day..unless hes missleading me..ha ha ha.
yeah..
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