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2003 4 October :: 12.35pm
:: Music: The Used-Greener with the scenery
i was cleaning out my messenger bag and guess what I found...a pixy stick!! It made me smile...hehe.
im sucha dork.
mmm...
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2003 4 October :: 10.12am
:: Music: AFI-perfect fit
yesterday was fun...some of us hung out in the park. i was so cold tho. sorry about being in a bad mood at the last part of the night...i just wasnt happy...had a lot going through my mind...so im sorry. i got home last night...and i was trying to get my toes from being numb...anyways...my mom is yelling at me because i wouldnt get my dad a glass of ice water, because I JUST walked in the door. i was trying to get out of my wet clothes...so than she comes and yells at me, tells me shes sick of my attitude and that im grounded and cant go to red flannel...than my dad stomps out of his room and gets his water, while swearing at me. so im grounded because i didnt get my dad a glass of ice water as soon as i get home. i hate my parents. they think im some terrable kid...yeah whatever. well my mom is letting me go to red flannel, but shes being stupid about it. and im still grounded. meh. today will be good i hope. it better not rain. well see ya'll there, you better try and find me. yeah.
I wish i could move out of this house, I hate everyone here.
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2003 3 October :: 6.20am
im learning some things about people. i made a lot of new friends this year...and at this time im wondering who to trust, who actually likes me and who will really be there for me when I need them...
right nowwith all the fighting going on..it makes it unclear who to trust..whos a liar..and what not.
...just some thoughts going through my mind.
oh and everyone better get along today...if they dont..I bite..mmm. and no one whats that to happen...so get along...damnit!
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2003 2 October :: 6.33am
:: Music: Brand New-Seventy Times 7
not one of my best but im gonna post it anyways...
Go on and ignore me each day just like you always do. your tearing apart your heart...hope you know your tearing apart mine too.
I hope the next time you fall for a girl you fall so hard your heart breaks. All the letters you wrote and the countless times you said "I love you"...good to know it was all fake.
I ignored your corny lines and your idea of being in love I just didnt want to cut you deep and cause you to bleed. I blinded myself, went on each minute of the day thinking I really wanted you, your everything I'll never need.
I guess its ok I cried myself to sleep because of your harsh words...reality was just too much. It was pathetic, all I needed was your touch.
Getting to know people like you is what i fear. I hope i caused each and every tear.
I hope I never come across you again, this is the end. Yet another letter left I'll never send.
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2003 1 October :: 4.14pm
:: Music: smile empty soul-nowhere kids
today was good. this whole week has been...im just strangely happy lately...its nice. *sigh..I love Smile Empty Soul...check em out, their grand. anywaaayyyssss....im really bored...like usual. its fucking snowing...i hate snow...so much..it can like die. yes thats right, it can die. i dont know about friday...we should all still hang out..but somewheres warm...i am not gonna sit in the park and freeze to death...so think of a place people! well yes, enough of my ramblings...
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2003 30 September :: 7.17pm
:: Music: Thursday-war all the time
well today was good...not as good as yesterday but good. i got my id...ah ha ha...my picture sucks, but i must admit its better than last years...*sighs...I want all you peoples pictures when you get them back...so give me one...ALL of you! i got my progress report...no F's...wooo...that makes me happy. although i am now failing social studies but mommy doesnt know that, hehehe. i guess im hanging out at the park friday...leave a comment if your going...well im gonna go, later ya'll.
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2003 29 September :: 3.30pm
:: Music: Blink 182-First Date
mmmmm.....cheeze nips....mmmm
today was a good day. yup. pixy sticks (cant spell it) are grand. i was making little freshamn do work for me by giving them pixy sticks...im soooooo brilliant!!! hehe. now theres blue sugar in my bag cuz a damn pixy stick opened up in it...*shrugs
*wonders if people appreciate my suprise hugs* yeah im bored. thats why im talking about nothing....yup...ok...yeeeeeaaaaahhhhhh.
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2003 29 September :: 6.33am
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday-Summer Stars
soooo much drama going on in the circle....
someone save the drama queens from making anymore dramatized statements...for their own good.....
if anyone hates me, i give you the right to say so...it seems everyones being honest so its my turn.....uh....im at a loss of words...*shrugs...I'll be honest later...
yeah...later.
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2003 28 September :: 2.38pm
i love how i pour my heart out and no one seems to care.
fuck it.
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2003 28 September :: 9.08am
..its much too early but i cant sleep. heres a song...its amazing...yeah..just read..please.
Seventy Times 7-Brand New
Back in school they never taught us
what we needed to know
Like how to deal with despair
or someone breakin your heart
For twelve years I've held it all together
but a night like this is beggin to pull me apart
I played it quiet left you deep in conversation
I felt uncool and hung out around the kitchen
I remember I kept thinking
that I know you never would
And now I know I want to kill you
like only a best friend could
Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to...
As if it happening wasn't enough
I got to go and write a song
just to remind myself how bad it sucked
Ignore the sun, covers over my head
Wrote a message on my pillow that says
"Jesse, stay asleep in bed"
Don't apologize (I hope you choke and die!)
Search your cell for something which to hang yourself
They say you need to pray
if you want to go to heaven
But they don't tell you what to say
when your whole life has gone to Hell!
Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to...
(and I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to everything you do
(and I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to...
So is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause I've seen more spine on jellyfish
I've seen more guts on eleven-year-old kids
Have another drink and drive yourself home
I hope there's ice on all the roads
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
and again when your head goes through the windshield
Is that what you call tact?
You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
So let's end this call and end this conversation
And is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause you left the frays from the ties you severed
when you say "best friends" means friends forever
Is that what you call a getaway?!!
Tell me what you got away with!!
Cause I've seen more spine on jellyfish!!
I've seen more guts on eleven-year-old kids!!
Have another drink and drive yourself home!!
I hope there's ice on all the roads!!
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
then when your head goes through the windshield!!
(I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to everything you do
(and I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to...
(I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to everything you do
(and I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to...
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2003 27 September :: 4.48pm
:: Music: Brand New
its raining...i love it. i would go play in it, but its so cold and well im lazy. i have been thinking a lot lately...so heres what i have been thinking...
i was just thinking about how much i miss people from not seeing them for just one day. it worries me because i dont ever want to lose touch with anyone, ever. i love the people i talk to every day. getting hugs from them are one of the few things that keep me alive. i love hugs...it just makes living life worth it. i get to throw my arms around the guys stomachs, since im so short, heh and while the girls hug me, they say they love me. it makes me smile. i hope that moment for them is just as special as i treat it. each one of my friends makes me smile in a different way. i cant imagine life without them. i love all of you...im so thankful you took the time to get to know me. (directed towards the circle crowd)
and id like to thank erika, kevin, becky, and brandi for being here for me. i have put all you through a lot of shit. as i changed through the year, you have stayed there. most people would walk away, you havent. that means more than you will know. i love you guys. you kept me alive through my weakest moments. please know that. please dont ever leave me.
and jake...i think im making the right move. i hope you agree. erasing you from my life, will soon erase you from my thoughts. i have no hatred towards you. i just think its best we just stop before it ends up hurting either of us more.
sorry its so long, these things just needed to be said.
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2003 26 September :: 6.31am
:: Music: The Used-Say Days Ago
*yawn* im sooooo tired. well after school I get to go to my grandmas! yay, im just so exctied *note the extreme amount of sarcasm used. its bad enough I cant go to brads, but than I have to go to my grandmas....*smashes head against wall. there better be another time to hang out with the circle soon...since i cant go, i hope all you kids have fun. well i better be off, gotta go get ready.
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2003 25 September :: 4.54pm
my day keeps getting worse. my mom is home. she started yelling at me as soon as she got in the house and hasnt stopped. im so pissed. i cant even express how mad i am right now. im gonna go kill that stupid lady that told my mom that shit. (im not gonna say what, if you want to know ask).
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2003 25 September :: 3.09pm
i am so pissed. now i cant go to brads party. long story behind it. i think my parents goal is to ruien my life. they dont trust me at all. i hate them. gah.
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2003 25 September :: 6.24am
its so cold...even my ears are frozen. *fluffs up hair and puts on hoodie* hehe. gah...i honestly think im going to fail this year. for some reason I dont understand anything the teachers tell me. now its 6 in the morning and i have to force myself to study...meh. i hate when I dont understand something. its so frustrating. anyways i hope i can go to brads party. my mom said i can than yesterday she said i couldnt. i have been begging her. i think she'll say yes, but i know for sure i cant spend the night....i guess I'll have to say im staying at kellys...i'll get caught its just my luck. aanyways i better go get ready...i do apologize for this pointless entry once again.
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