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2003 6 September :: 6.16pm
today was good...went to Kellys and got my hair dyed....its so nice and black....thanks Kelly! ( i love your black hands...hehe) well now Im home cj and dj are here...hahaha....freaking j people...god....dj is having a alittle party thing tonight so im pry going...weeeee....fun...anyways im off...bye.
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2003 5 September :: 9.50pm
:: Music: adam sandler song....
tonight was SO much fun!!! i ended up going to the football game because I'm a loser and I had nothing better to do. So i wen to the game and paid four dollars for a stupid ticket then I left ten minuits earlier cuz people kept yelling at me to sit down and thier evil so they can die. So then I went and hung out with Kate, Jenny, Kelly, and a bunch of other people I dont know. I was greeted with a tackle and Jenny is convcined I tried to rape her *smiles slyly* hahahaha. We played Duck Duck Goose. I went to the gas station for 5.2 seconds. Then we just hung out. I didnt know anybody so I was kinda shy. Then I went and hung out with Kevn, Erika, Phil and Brandi and I slid down the slide a few times and played on the playground because i'm special. Just so you all know, I am Jenny's owner. Kevin brought me home. I had to lay across everybody and I was very "close" to all the people in the back seat. They enjoyed it. Kevin played an Adam Sandler song. Great song. *sings* Anyways.. now me and Becky are home and we're going to go eat some pizza.. so you all have a wonderfly enchanted night. *sqeaks like a bat*
I got more hugs tonight than I"ve got in my entire life. *smiles.. hehehe*
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2003 5 September :: 6.29am
:: Music: The Distillers-Hate me
*yawn* its TOO EARLY!! I say we go to school at 10 for now on...it would make things so much easier...*yawn* i dont want to go to school....dont make me go...pleeeaaassseeeee..*yawn* ok yeah im getting ready...
theres a game tonight, not sure if Im going...i dont give a fuck about the game, but i want to hang out...but now they have a fucking rule where you have to sit down the whole time. Fuck this peice of shit school...I hate cedar...its too early for the hate im feeling.
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2003 4 September :: 7.37pm
he has changed...and i dont like it...at all.
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2003 4 September :: 4.26pm
:: Music: Transplants-sad but true
...interesting...*grins mysteriously*
yet another person to make my stomach turn and make my face turn athousand shades of red...not on purpose of course and for a good reason, but I make everything more akward than it has to be...as I stare at my desk and choke out the words...*sigh*...wish i wasnt like that...its only around guys i guess...well certain guys in certain situations...ah well I think everything will turn out good, if only i could overcome my shyness when it comes to talking about certain topics...mmm hmmmm.
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2003 3 September :: 8.56pm
This is a very interesting quiz to take...so I posted it, plus i love thursday..so yeah.
What Thursday Song Are You? [Updated Images]
brought to you by Quizilla
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2003 3 September :: 4.24pm
:: Music: Kittie-Mouthful of Poison
uhh....
I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way-The Used
ehh....today was...alright, nothing special, one of those REALLY boring days...meh...
5:45am im freezing cold...and the fan is on making it even colder..i try to shut it off but im all too cold and too lazy to get up so i try to reach it from my bed, each time i reach for it it blows on me so i hide back under my blankets, i finally get ahold of it and it falls, and pulls the plug out of the wall...mission accomplished.
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2003 2 September :: 10.10pm
my heart is on my sleeve, oh what an over used line, but I cant think of anything to describe how I feel right now....everythings good, im enjoying my days spent at school as much as possiable but theres just something missing...i dont like that feeling, its always there, attached somehow...my smile resmebles my last attempt for someone to talk to me...or to know im not an evil satan worshiper...a simple "hi" in the hallway from certain people would be somewhat satisfying...just to know that they dont hate me...than again it doesnt matter, who cares if im not liked...I have the best friends in the world but a few more wouldnt hurt...i guess. im not sure how i feel exaclty, im not sad yet im not happy...im just kinda here.
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2003 2 September :: 7.30pm
*sings...hey mister, where you headed are you in a hurry, I need a lift to happy hour say oh no..* (greenday)...hahaha...its stuck in my head what can i say...im bored...like reeeaaalllllyyyy bored...so i decided to make you read how bored i am...yup thats right....its boring but your gonna read it anyways arent you...you just cant wait to see what im gonna say next...so your gonna continue reading...just to see if i ever say anything interesting...but im not...so your wasting your time...ok actually im wasting my time....ah well...
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2003 2 September :: 4.40pm
(sorry for posting songs a lot) read this song though...its awesome......read it...pleeeaaassseee...
AFI-File 13
I sleep until there is no light.
I'm wide awake all through the night.
Dinner may suck but i'll take a bite,
I do whatever i can.
My muscles stiffen through the day.
Discomfort never goes away.
Why dont u just throw me away
I feel like a garbage can.
Throw me away,
I've got no use.
Throw me away,
I'm nothing to lose.
Throw me away,
I feel like shit.
I am useless.
I know i know nothing at all.
I'd take a stand,
But i know i'd fall.
I'd run head-down into a wall and watch my blood run faster.
Girls laugh and pass me on the street.
I spook out everyone i meet.
I've got pink toenails on my feet,
I'm such a fucking master.
Throw me away,
I've got no use.
Throw me away,
I'm nothing to lose.
Throw me away,
I feel like shit.
I am useless.
I never seem to feel well.
I always seem to look like hell.
It seems like everyone can tell my mind is going numb.
My mom thinks i wear women's clothes.
I get dogged on at all the shows.
It seems that everybody knows, i look like a fucking bum.
Throw me away,
I've got no use.
Throw me away,
I'm nothing to lose.
Throw me away,
I feel like shit.
I am useless
--a lot better when you hear it so download it....NOW!
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2003 2 September :: 4.02pm
:: Music: AFI-File 13
rawr....
ITS CALLED A CALCULATOR MR.ANDRUS NOT A SPACE SHUTTLE...dear lord...HELP HIM!!!
anyways....I HATE LITERATURE...WHY dont they just call words fucking words...not adverb, and verb and pro noun, who gives a fuck, its just a damn word...GAH!!!!
rough day...
why do people care how I dress...im not "punk" or "goth" so why does it matter how I dress...im gonna dress how I want....fucking people....die die die....labels are for soup cans!!!!!!!
*bangs head into wall while screaming*
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2003 1 September :: 4.02pm
gentle criticism from my Czech rep emo kid...
keep_steady_diet_of_nothing says:
you sweet silly american...haha...dunno where Czech rep. is...
Hop AFI bunny...Hop! says:
ah ha ha
Hop AFI bunny...Hop! says:
sad isnt it
keep_steady_diet_of_nothing says:
haha
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2003 1 September :: 3.57pm
...its cold...im wrapped up in a blanket...and it makes me smile...
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2003 1 September :: 3.35pm
some songs...
The Distillers-Sick of it All
Murder murder a ripe blood stain
Pulled the fucking trigger cause Im sick of it all
Murder murder a ripe fucking hate
Pulled the fucking trigger cause Im sick of it all
I went to school today with an oozi
Theres this kid he teased me so i shot em in the face
All the worlds light wont ease my pain
It wont cease im diseased will you hang me please
What do i do im american youth
All my life ive lived in silence
Im gonna snap ill get you back
Im a girl im only 13 my body rots
Cause i wont fucking eat
Im a silent star on a b-roll
Im a mirror fucking image of no control
Give me the award i conquered food again
What else is better in life than to purge my pain
If i cut, i wont look like that
If i cut if i cut i wont feel like this
We are kids we think life is a scam
We come from wasted land
We are kids we play punk rock and roll
If we didnt we got no soul
We are different kids with the same heartbeat
We got one pulse running through the streets
They are our arteries
I am part of this
The Distillers- I am A Revenant
Another year has passed and im alright
I lick the salt from my wounds and run into the night
Its unknown why collusion goes on
It rapes like betrayal
And Im rotting in the squalor of some
Do you remember the rage?
I remember the hate
I remember it rained for years
And the blood had left a stain
You say i got karma to collect
I dig my grave and
Im here waiting for some kind of check
If i get one ill hold my breath
I racked my spine
It takes a year of you to warrant a test
As the years go by I wont cry
Its the year you walked into my life
I will despise
We are the revenants
And we will rise up from the dead
We become the living
Weve come back to reclaim our stolen breath
--great great songs...
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2003 1 September :: 1.32pm
:: Music: The Distillers- sick of it all
good news.....my hair shall be black soon...either wednesday night it will be done or by this weekend....*smiles*
I always win...
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