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:: 2004 26 June :: 4.37 pm

They're playing right now, right at this very moment... and I'm not there =[ Stupid jobs

Also... I miss you immensely =[ =[ =[ =[ =[

:: 2004 5 June :: 11.53 pm

Why does this feel wrong now? Maybe I'm just being selfish. And I'm definitely just being stupid.

Things are changing... I don't adapt to change well...

:: 2004 3 June :: 11.48 pm

That's ok... just take other people's stuff and set it on fire... I don't mind...

:: 2004 2 June :: 11.58 am

Yay...

I think...

:: 2004 29 May :: 2.31 am

Sometimes I wonder what you might still be feeling. I want to ask you but I get the feeling I shouldn't. I know there's something there, you get so angry when you talk about it. I think the anger is hiding different emotions. Maybe someday you'll read this and ask me what I'm talking about and I'll be able to talk to you about it then. But probably not, since I don't like talking about things like this online...

:: 2004 15 May :: 4.10 am

I think that's the greatest feeling in the world...

Thank you

:: 2004 14 May :: 3.22 pm

This makes me quite uncomfortable...

And now I'm crying... dammit

:: 2004 12 May :: 12.57 pm

I just realized it today. And I'm going to stop. I'm a mature 20 year old and I don't need to put myself through this.

I don't want to be like him...

19 Wheels is wicked awesome...

:: 2004 5 May :: 1.02 am

It bothers me, but it bothers me more that it bothers me....

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:: 2004 8 April :: 1.00 am

I've had a lot on my mind lately. I feel like I need to express it, but I'm not sure how to.

I want to tell you how much you mean to me...

I want you to remember how much you mean to me. You know it, don't make me work really hard to remind you...

I want you to know that I miss the way things used to be between us. Too much has gotten in the way...

And you... I'm sure you don't care what I think, or even care about me at all, but I think it's really sad, and a little funny. I know you're better than that, and I think now you're just doing the same thing you always accused me of...

And I'm sure there will be at least a couple of you who read this and ask me what I'm talking about. Well don't. If you don't know, I'm not gonna tell you. If you really know me, you'll know which one is about you. (And don't assume you know who/what the other ones are talking about)

:: 2004 5 April :: 11.27 pm

Hahahaha I think I just learned a little more about the previously mentioned situation.... and it's kinda gross. I never would have imagined this from him... hahahaha

And Friday is so gonna rock... an estimated 16 or 17 hours... awesome

:: 2004 4 April :: 11.41 pm

I don't really know exactly what's going on, but what I do know, I find hilarious. And a little sad (pathetic sad, not my puppy died sad). But maybe I totally misunderstand the situation...

I've been smiling a lot lately. Cried happy tears the other day. I haven't done that in a while. Not sure exactly what made it happen, but I know they weren't sad tears.

:: 2004 3 April :: 3.20 am

It's like ice cream... like having chocolate ice cream taken away from you. You replace it with vanilla, which isn't as good, but it's still ice cream. Eventually you get used to it and start to think it's pretty good. Then you get chocolate back and it's just like bam... wonderful...

Except this is no regular chocolate ice cream. It's like chocolate with fudge ripples and chunks of brownies...

And it's so good it makes you cry

damn I'm hungry...

:: 2004 20 March :: 5.35 am

It feels so good... It's been almost a year and I've been missing it. It makes me tingle...

Got the navel redone today too...

:: 2004 18 March :: 12.25 am

Mommy's t-bird
minivan
boom
airbags
broken glass
mangled metal
bye bye t-bird