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:: 2009 8 October :: 8.24am
:: Music: The Killers- Read My Mind

I never really gave up on/ Breakin' out of this two-star town./ I got the green light/ I got a little fight/ I'm gonna turn this thing around.
on the corner of main street
just tryin' to keep it in line
you say you wanna move on and
you say I'm falling behind

can you read my mind?
can you read my mind?

I never really gave up on
breakin' out of this two-star town
I got the green light
I got a little fight
I'm gonna turn this thing around

can you read my mind?
can you read my mind?

The good old days
the honest man
the restless heart
the promised land
a subtle kiss
that no one sees
a broken wrist
and a big trapeze

Oh well I don't mind
if you don't mind
coz I don't shine
if you don't shine
before you go

can you read my mind?

it's funny how you just break down
waitin' on some sign
I pull up to the front of your driveway
with magic soakin' my spine

can you read my mind?
can you read my mind?

The teenage queen
the loaded gun
the drop dead dream
the chosen one
a southern drawl
a world unseen
a city wall
and a trampoline

Oh well I don't mind
if you don't mind
coz I don't shine
if you don't shine
before you jump
tell me what you find
when you read my mind

Slippin in my faith
until I fall
He never returned that call
woman, open the door
don't let it sting
I wanna breathe that fire again

She said
I don't mind
if you don't mind
coz I don't shine
if you don't shine
put your back on me
put your back on me
put your back on me

The stars are blazing
like rebel diamonds
cut out of the sun
can you read my mind?

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jedibumblebee

:: 2009 12 September :: 2.47pm
:: Music: The Features- Lions

Oh, girl what are you thinking
I'm thinking that we
Should stick together
I reckon that we
Should follow our hearts

Let's stick together
Let's follow our hearts
Not even lions can tear us apart

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Upchuck

:: 2009 25 August :: 10.20pm

There�s no earthly way of knowing
How much Obama�s spending
There�s no knowing which industry we are owning
Or how big the deficit is growing
Is it crashing?
Is it smashing?
Is the economy a slowing?
Ahh! Very little hope is showing
Of a market that must get going
So the danger must be growing
�Cause Wall Street is bowing
YES! The danger must be growing
Because the government keeps on spending
And they�re certainly not showing
Any signs that they are slowing
Because the Red Ink keeps a growing

This has gone far enough
STOP THE BOAT!

I tries posting this on FB, but it just wasn't working.

Ahhh! I want a golden ticket. Me and Obama can ride in a glass ICBM for him to tell me he's giving it all to me. "All to you Charlie. I need a child because the adults would just ruin it all."

Wow, I'm drawing some realistic parallels.

Don't mind my satire. I just don't like all my taxes for the next fifty years foing for needless debt service.

jedibumblebee

:: 2009 24 August :: 9.49pm
:: Music: Regina Spektor- Folding Chair

i'm not gone.
Let's get a silver bullet trailer and have a baby boy,
I'll safety pin his clothes all cool and you'll graffiti up his toys.
I've got a perfect body, but sometimes I forget,
I've got a perfect body, 'cause my eyelashes catch my sweat.

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jedibumblebee

:: 2009 3 August :: 9.41pm

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jedibumblebee

:: 2009 3 August :: 8.51pm
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie- Little Bribes

You said this city has a beating heart/ That pushes people down the blvd/ They're all hoping for a wish fulfilled/ In a desert for a dollar bill/ Those foolish dreams, you know they plague me still
The Eiffel Tower built to smaller scale
The freshest oxygen I'd ever inhale
I tapped a bottle against the safety rail killing time

And you were like a walking compliment
Tall in stature and exceptionally read
In dummy glasses and a cardigan
Oh, come on

And oh so empty were the faces of the dealers and the waitresses around

You said that all these things you've learned to ignore
The hidden cameras on the casino floor
And what gets paid for behind hotel doors
Oh, come on

Pretend every slot machine is a robot amputee waving hello
The people stare into their eyes
And they feed them little bribes and then they go

The never-ending twilight
In a basement where the sun has never spilt
You said that you were lonely
And then we kissed like lonely people do

You said this city has a beating heart
That pushes people down the boulevard
And they're all hoping for a wish fulfilled
In a desert for a dollar bill
Those foolish dreams, you know they plague me still
Oh, come on

And oh so empty were the faces of the dealers and the waitresses around
And oh so empty were the faces of the dealers and the waitresses around

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Upchuck

:: 2009 16 July :: 2.26pm

If I didn't come up as an ass from time to time, I wouldn't be me.

Additionally, I did not have all the facts, but needing to be an ass does not require all the facts either.

Part of me wants to continue, wiht much to say. But I do not have the will power for that (because it would be bunch of unfounded claims that would be nothing more than ficiton).

So instead I will say I am sorry and disappear again.

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Upchuck

:: 2009 16 July :: 11.35am

So I feel bad for whacking her with it, but it was just to hard to pass up.

The conversation went like this:

(She) is in need of a web designer to redo her website.

I said: How unfortunate. Don't bite the hand that fed ya.

Her response: Charlie, it's a long story.

Now, I do not wish to further antagonize the situation, but I just couldn't help it.

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jedibumblebee

:: 2009 13 July :: 10.04pm

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jedibumblebee

:: 2009 10 July :: 10.38pm

"what were we just talking about?"
"......... holy shit. i dunno. we need TIVO for our conversations."

jedibumblebee

:: 2009 5 July :: 7.29pm
:: Music: The Limousines- Very Busy People

And when we're done sleeping/ we'll stay busy dreaming/ of the things we don't have yet...
we'll end up numb
from playing video games
and we'll get sick
of having sex

and we'll get fat
from eating candy
as we drink ourselves
to death,

we'll stay up late
making mix tapes
photoshopping pictures
of ourselves

while we masturbate
to these pixelated
videos of strangers
fucking themselves

we are very busy people
we are very busy people

there's crusty socks
and stacks of pizza boxes
making trails straight
to the bed

and when we're done
sleeping we'll stay busy
dreaming of the things
we don't have yet

well there's a long
long list of chores
and shit to do before
we play, oh let's just
piss away the day

crank call the cops
down at the station
just for friendly
conversation requesting
songs they never play

let's hear the one
that goes like
we are very busy people
but we've always got
time for new friends

so come on over and
knock on our door
it's open, what's ya
waiting for

we might be spawled
out on the floor
but we still make
lovely company

pull up a chair
i'll pour some tea
we'll shoot the shit
'bout everything
til you get sick
of politics and
flip on the tv screen
we stare at the tv screen

that donnie darko DVD
has been repeating for
a week and we know every
single word

i've got an ipod
like a pirate ship
i'll sail the seas
with fifty thousand
songs i've never heard
all the best of them
go fa la la la la la la la...

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jedibumblebee

:: 2009 15 June :: 12.51pm
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional- The Swiss Army Romance

Making up a history, it's nothing from the life you lead/ But man, will they buy all your lines...
Sleep with all the lights on. You're not so happy. You're not secure.
You're dying to look cute in your blue jeans, but you're plastic just like everyone.
You're just like everyone.
And that face you paint is pressed impressing most of us as permanent and I'd like to see you undone.
College night will draw the crowds. Dorms unload and you're heading out.
Here is your moment to shine. Making up a history.
It has nothing from the life you lead.
But man, will they buy all your lines.
Sleep with all the sheets off your bearing your mattress, bearing your soul.
And you're dying to look smooth with your tattoos but you're searching just like everyone and could be anyone.
And those friends you have are the best impressing most of us as permanent and I'd like to see you undone.
Youth's the most unfaithful mistress.
Still we forge ahead to miss her.
Rushing our moment to shine.
Making up a history, it's nothing from the life you lead but man, will they buy all your lines.

We're not twenty-one, but the sooner we are, the sooner the fun will begin.
So get out your fake eyelashes, and fake I.D's, and real disasters ensue.
It's cool to take these chances. It's cool to fake romances and grow up fast.

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upchuck

:: 2009 15 June :: 11.13am
:: Music: None, listening to NPR

Beautiful Day
So after all the stress of life, and the disappointment of still having to go to a job that I dread, I took a walk this morning.

Sure the economy is horrible. Sure my life could be put together a little bit better. And sure, it would be great to get absolutely zero responses after sending out resumes for more than two months. But nothing can take how beautiful it is today.

I decided to take a walk this morning. The other day, I think it was on GMA, I heard a lady say to try to get your activity in for about an hour in the morning, then eat breakfast. Seemed okay to me. Since when I have nothing to do on a given day, I do have problems getting going (damn those West Wing re-runs on Bravo), I went for a walk.

The plan was to just walk around the block. Since I live in the city, this shouldn't be that difficult right? Well, my block is huge and I know it. Right down the street is a ravine, and I am not sure where it goes. In my younger days I would have just ploughed through the ravine. However, I am not as young as I used to be and its not like I am back out in the woods in Cedar Springs. I still am in the city. So I took to the streets. I made left hand turns where I could. However, at the end of Carlton, I found a sidewalk the kept going where the road ended. Curiousity got the best of me. I planned on only being gone for about 40 minutes.

I followed the sidewalk and it came out right on Diamond I think. Right at Huff Park. Well, the park looked inviting, a genuine nature walk. So I entered the park, ended up on a boardwalk through a marsh. It was great. Fortunately, it was cool enough this morning to keep the mosquitos away. I saw a few squirrels and rabbits. I came across a duck and her babies. I also saw a small doe who was bedded down right off the trail. She just watched me and never ran off.

I enjoyed letting curiosity take over. It was great. I guess it was my way of allowing myself to be me for awhile. Don't plan, don't think about it, just do it.

Anyway, after such a nice walk, I came to the self-realization of reality. No matter how bad the economy is, no matter how many mistakes all of the corporate executives have made, no matter how corrupt our government, no matter how violent the world is, we still have the beautiful day. And that is a great reason to celebrate.

jedibumblebee

:: 2009 3 June :: 7.27pm

Heartbeat with a high demand/ Often will go hand in hand/ But I'm sick of just starting plans/ I wanna spend the rest of my life...
again tomorrow.

jedibumblebee

:: 2009 22 May :: 11.18pm
:: Music: Modest Mouse- She Ionizes and Atomizes

She ionizes and atomizes/ Then turns to sunlight/ He realizes and itemizes/ Pulls harder than gravity...
i am certain that i am a serious hypochondriac.

Among several other things, I've recently discovered that I have Precordial Catch syndrome.

Freakin sick of going to the dr office like 12 times a month. The girls at Bronson even know how to spell my name, CORRECTLY.

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