Christmas
Well, Christmas Was pretty great... I got lots of stuff, got to hang out with my family, sleep, eat, and make Smores!!! One of the gifts my sister and I got was a Smores maker kit... at this resteraunt in the District last year called Cosi... they had these little hand carved lazy-susan things for your table where you could roast marshmellows on a small butane flame , and put the graham crackers and chocolate with it... for your individual table. We got a less coffee-house vogue, more Bed Bath and Beyond-style one, but hey, it works. I got a nice sweater and a rugby shirt, some cash and travelers checks for my trip, a razor, booklight, Cappucino (!!), a Poe collection, and several CDs including "Achtung Baby" and "Best of 1980-1990" by U2, Howie Day's Cd, Jason Mraz's, and Coldplay Live. Some of the other highlights included Mario Kart: Double Dash for my GC, the graphic novel "Batman: Haunted Knight" (kind of a compendium to the 2 part series I have, "The Long Halloween" and "Dark Victory"... I highly recommend all three of these books even if you have a slight interest in Batman. this one is just 3 unconnected stories, including one like the classic story, "A Christmas Carol"), Pirates of the Caribbean on DVD, and to top it all off... a new stereo! It's small, can be mounted on the wall, which i will do, but this thing has sound quality like a Bose

I'm almost ready to pack for the trip... We've finally decided where we're going... including NASA, the everglades and maybe the Mouse. So, I'm out... Hope everyone has a great new year... When I get back if I have the time I'm going to post the "Year in Review" stuff I've been writing up... mostly stuff like music, movies, "idiots of the year", etc. Peace, Love, all that Good Garbaaaage

C U R R E N T-
CLOTHES: World Cup 2002 Germany Shirt, Jeans (I'm doing the Mraz... this is my 5th day of wearing them)
MOOD: blah
MUSIC: Some Evanescence, Guster, Something Corporate, and Electric Six
TASTE: Roast Beef, Turkey, and Mustard (lunch)
HAIR: washed it today... so it's kinda dry and puffy
ANNOYANCE: I hate the aftertaste of roast beef, turkey, and mustard
SMELL: dust (in the basement)
DESKTOP PICTURE: 24Seven cast publicity photo
FAVOURITE GROUP: Currently, it is Cursive
BOOK YOU’RE READING: Phantom of the Opera by Gaston Lereoux
CD(s) IN PLAYER: "The Ugly Organ" "The Joshua Tree" "Waiting For My Rocket to Come" "Hail to the Thief"
DVD IN PLAYER: Man On the Moon, Castle in the Sky
COLOUR OF TOENAILS: uh... toenail color?
REFRESHMENT: Diet Caffiene Free Ruby Red Squirt (Longest name I could think of... no actually I am drinking Caffeine Free Mt Dew... Which mother picked up. I find it kind of redundant... Mmm Crab Juice *drools*... Sorry, had a Homer moment there)
WORRY: that my lava lamp will burn down the house




I saw "Requiem for a Dream" last night... it was a drama about four people who were struggling with their drug addiction... the last 30-40 minutes are pretty intense... It was really good, if bizarre at times.. rent it (don't let the kiddies see it tho, of course)

Natalie and I got in a fight last night... a HUGE one. It was terrible. I wish it had never happened. But I had to vent. I felt so pulled down by her... always feeling brought down, insignificant whenever I said something. I said some stupid stuff, but I was angry. We fought badly around this time last year, and the reason wasn't too much different...I wish she would talk to me...



On a lighter note... I saw Austin City Limits on Sunday night... It was great! Jason Mraz and Fountains of Wayne were on. Mraz is great in concert, and FoW is alright. Mraz really has some serious musical talent.

I got a Lava Lamp!
just got in from Dayton... was a pretty good trip. Saw Return of the King, got money and a lava lamp, and FRAPPUCINOS!!! EIGHT OF EM! Got my first lesson in bartending too...


















***************Spoiler Alert....






Where the hell was the elves' boat going at the end of the movie?












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Okay, anyway. yep. Ohio was okay. The fields are still fields, my cousins still look all the same, and my grandmother still makes the worst pancakes. But oh well

Woah...


I just saw the Spiderman II trailer... and I have to say... I am thoroughly amazed... I just wish Robin Williams was cast as Doc Ock... But oh well... they cast a good guy from what I've seen

I've been listening to "I'm With You" by Avril Lavigne. Sure, laugh. I think she sings some pretty good stuff. But that song really speaks to me right now. I must've listened to it 20+ times in the past 2 days...

There are some I've listened to a lot lately too... I listened to "Iris" by the Goo Goo Dolls a lot after the dance... and "Numb" by Linkin Park (I swear that is like one of their few really good songs, though a lot of their material is really good)


I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
Theres nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but theres no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you

im looking for a place
searching for a face
is anybody here i know
cause nothings going right
and everythigns a mess
and no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you

*sigh*
Well, school's out for the winter... I suppose that's a good thing. And the week where the world turned over to crazyness is over...


With mixed results.




Some people broke up (bad), some people are talking again (good). Some people told the ones they have feelings for how they felt(good). Others stopped relationships they couldn't start before they got too far (eh... It could've been great to see it work). Some people stalked others (bad). And half the school dropped dead (bad). Christmas break started (good)...

*sigh*.



well, i'm tired. I'm sick. I rented "Castle in the Sky" and "Man on the Moon" tonight. I leave for Dayton tomorrow afternoon, and I'll be back late Tuesday i believe. I feel stoned minus the drugs, so gimme a call if u wanna talk to me. God, I am so sick... and no I didn't go to Snyder's party last Saturday.

Christmas dance was pretty fun last night. I had a good time for the most part. I failed to tell her last night, and I'm kicking myself for it, but at the same time I didn't want to ruin the moment. She seemed to run away a lot... like 2 minutes dancing, 8 minutes in the hallway talking and taking pictures.




Rinse. Lather. Repeat.




I think she had fun with me.




The world is a better place. Saddam's been captured, she might've had fun with me last night, and even after 3.5 hours of sleep last night, I guess I'm still on a high and I don't feel tired. It's strange; I think about last night and I don't feel incredibly bubbly about it, but I still seem to feel drenched in the afterglow.

Well, I got "The Reporter (Charlie)"... I guess I have to get used to sticking a microphone in people's faces, having Brandon Meier be my shadow with a video camera, and say "More on this story at 11!"...


I can't be bitter/sad/angry about this... Gary got it... now if someone like Tom/David Wilson/freshman or younger got it... I would feel robbed. I just feel let down... I'm not saying chorus is inferior when I mention this, but it's going to suck going back to chorus, because I much preferred the more independent line-learning and blocking of having a lead. I guess I'll make the best of it. If Mark, Jimmy, Breed and Wilson aren't full-time parts, and come back to chorus, I'll be happy. People to hang around with. Yay! Because Sprague is gone this year, so she and I cannot talk like we used to.


On another note, I haven't given up. Unless I feel different later, tomorrow is the day when I tell her. I feel that already she never talks to me, and my friendship with susan and natalie seems so hostile that I really have nothing to lose/people to hurt if I tell her. But that's not a major thing. I don't think me saying I like her will upheave mountains.



"Staying Alive" by Cursive. Fatman, you have it. It's euphoric.




Thought of the day: My way of getting rid of Al-Qaida is to give Ted Kazinski (sp?) a mailing list.

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

The Tickets have been secured.


Damn... I have a chem test tomorrow.



The battle has been lost.. Unrequitted love sucks.


Oh shit. My "Staying Alive" euphoria is wearing off. Guess I have to listen to it again.



Oh and in related news: my arizona CD player looks like it may give up the ghost soon.

There's the good, and the not-so good...


Good:

-You are reading the journal of a probable Capital One Bowl (Doesn't have quite the prestige or glory of The Fiesta Bowl or Sugar Bowl, but hey.) ticketholder (That means if our fax gets thru, I'm going to Orlando, Baby!)...
-Floodlight went off almost without a hitch
-We got a christmas tree... Nice blue spruce.
-Thanks to Mark I have almost all of the characters in SCII unlocked... (Including the OTHER hot ones besides Talim... Seung Mina and Sophita)


Bad:

-The worst words a guy can get: "I just want us to be friends"... or any reasonable facsimile. And, tho i didn't get them directly, I got those words Friday.

-lost my glasses

-I need to practice my part for tryouts... and I really haven't yet. It's tuesday.