Songs From the Ugly Organ

Songs From the Ugly Organ

:: 2004 19 August :: 11.52pm

For being completely spontaneous/random, tonight was a blast. Originally, Lauren and I planned on going to the art museum together because thursdays are free and we are intellectual like that, but some special event was going on so we couldn't get in. Instead, we walked around downtown muskegon looking for something to do, and if you know muskegon, you know the downtown is pathetic. We found a "secret garden" to explore before walking through the "historic district" in search of "Alladdin's Magic Shop," which unfortuneately is VERY closed, as in hasn't been in business for years. So...we returned to the museum parking lot where some poor black guy approached us. Funniest thing ever. I could hardly understand what he was saying. Something about being bitten by a dog (didn't see any marks) therefore needing money for food? Yeah, I don't really understand the logic there either, but lauren and I each gave him a buck or so. What made it funny was that he told me he would pay me back...and then he went galloping away. Ahh, memories. After having a good laugh, we decided to hit up tcby and valueland. Deja-vuish from last week, but this time we came early enough to actually walk around and look at everything. A lot of stuff there is hilarious (like a decapitated bambi perfume bottle that some lady ended up buying) but some stuff seems pretty cool, like an old film projector and some old-school camera. They had a sale on books where you could buy one and get another for 10 cents, so you can guess what we bought. I got this book called A Matter of Honor by Eugene Izzi. It takes place in chicago and deals with race issues and the escalation of hate. I dunno, but it sounds really good. The other one WAS going to be Airframe by Michael Creighton, just because I used to read his stuff in the past and liked it. This book didn't seem too interesting though, so lauren gave me the ingenious idea of scratching the price sticker off another book that I wanted, which was selling for almost $5. (We were both dirt poor after contributing to the hungry-dog-bitten man and tcby, so $5 was a lot). Anyways, the replacement book I got is called Day of Confession by Allan Folsom, author of The Day After Tomorrow. Yeah, I don't know if that's related to the movie or what, but this book sounds really interesting. It deals with some cardinal in the vatican that get's assinated and then the priest they think did it supposedly gets blown up, so his brother goes to investigate. Our night wasn't over when valueland closed, though, so we headed over to Meijer to chill on the futons while reading magazines. I swear, someone was being paged and the person doing the page added some weird, funny tone to the end of their name when he said it. It was like he was joking around, but otherwise it's hard to explain. Also very funny. That was about the extent of my evening. It's weird because 3 things lauren and I talked about earlier, showed up later on the books and magazines at valueland, including The Secret Garden, an Alias book with Jennifer Garner on the front, and an AARP magazine. Then, people we saw earlier in the evening seemed to connect. Like we saw this kid at tcby and then at valueland. Then we saw this guy at valueland before seeing him again at meijer. Probably not that strange, but it's weird because maybe this happens all the time and we just don't pay attention to it? Well, I'm spent. Good times...

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jburt1

:: 2004 19 August :: 2.05am

Tonight was....interesting, to say the least. I hesitantly planned on going to the beach for a bonfire with Katrin and some of the other regulars. It started sprinkling, though, so we decided to head on over to the Egg Roll House just to hang out. Everyone left, so I ended up driving katrin and katie, but when we got there we discovered it closed at 8:00 (at this point it was 9:30). So...we called Trey and he told us to just go over to A.rod's house. That's where it got very interesting. It was katie and her boyfriend, katrin, trey, allen, allen's cousin mike, tom burger, julie struve, devin kolenic, david rice, and me. Well, if you know me at all, those aren't the kind of people that I usually hang out with. I mean, I knew everyone there (with the exception of mike) but I had only talked with any one of them very briefly throughout high school. The only reason I was there, pretty much, was Katrin. I didn't have a terrible time hanging out there, it's just that it was a bit awkward. I talked with Tom for a little bit, and appearently we were both cooks at G&L and could agree that it sucked. By the way, it's only been 4 days since my last day and it already feels so far behind me. I officially leave for chicago in 6 days and some hours. Right now it seems surreal. I hope it all works out. I have to maintain a 3.5 gpa or something like that to keep my scholarship and stay in the honors program. I never really thought I'd have a problem with it, but I guess we'll see...I hope not!

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jburt1

:: 2004 18 August :: 3.00am
:: Music: dashboard "vindicated"

driving under the fog at 80mph is beautiful
Tonight was great. Katie called me up, and we went to the drive-in with katie t., rebecca, jordan, leah, 'toni, and some other people. The first feature was Princess Diary 2. Decent movie, but not my first choice. Second feature was Anchorman. Still as funny, but this time I talked with Jill a little bit in the middle of it. Afterwards, when Katie was driving back to her place (where I parked my car), she got pulled over! I was a bit surprised - no, I was very surprised - but katie kept her cool and the police officer didn't give her a ticket. Appearently, she forgot to turn on her headlights after the movie. When we finally made it back to her place (and after a slight crash into the garage) Katie and I spent some time talking about the future. Next summer we're gonna try to go backpacking in europe together. That'd be so awesome! I'm also supposed to go to europe with emily sometime, but hopefully after graduation. I called her today, but it doesn't seem like things are going her way yet. I hope things pick up for her. I guess we all have our problems. Wether it's good or bad, this place is feeling less and less like home, and more and more like a place I just eat and sleep at. Maybe that's a good thing. I just realized today that I leave NEXT WEEK for college. After that, my life will NEVER be the same again. There is so much I hope for, for this upcoming year, but I suppose I should just hope to survive it. I only got my credit card a week ago and I'm already charging like crazy. I gotta write down everything I've charged so far, like my cell phone bill and my trip to american eagle today. Plus, I plan on buying some new shoes this week. Ahh, at least tomorrow is pay day. Unfortuneately, I've probably already spent my entire paycheck, and I don't want to start off with poor credit skills. Well, off to catch some olympic gymnastics and swimming...

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jburt1

:: 2004 16 August :: 12.30pm

weekend update
It feels like I haven't been online in days, but I believe that I last updated saturday night about the bon fire and 'Toni and whatnot. So...last night I went to Katie's house. At first it was just her, me, and nicole, but then other people started showing up. We watched some movie with that lady from My Big Fat Greek Wedding about "girls pretending to be guys pretending to be girls." I'm happy for Katie because she is estatic about going to college. I guess I am too, but I've been to busy to really think about it. I definitely going to miss people from muskegon, though. After everyone left katie's, I stayed a bit longer and we just stayed up talking and playing sorry. I gotta bring myself to sit down and write her congratulations on graduation/birthday/college note before I can actually give her the stuff I got her. Well, I better going going. Today I'm supposed to go to "Buyback" at community, clean the house (I guess my dad's brining over company?), and mail The Purpose Driven Life to tom burger. Hmm...I had some weird dreams this morning, but I don't exactly recall them, just that they were weird.

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Fatman

:: 2004 16 August :: 9.24am
:: Music: Eve 6

Beautiful Oblivion
Now I go on to a job interview at Walgreens, and hope to bid my life as a bum farewell. But, then again, Kiel is a very good friend, and God hates him. Maybe I'll sneak through the soliciter hatred. Oh well, if I get the job, I get munny! Yay!

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jburt1

:: 2004 15 August :: 12.36am

Six Degrees of Separation
For starting out with no plans, tonight was actually pretty fun. I headed out to do some school shopping and ended up at the beach, meeting 'Toni, the Alexander's german exchange student. She's a nice girl, very optimistic about America. Plus, I love her accent. It was a little hard to understand her when she said pronounced "graduation" as "accredatiation" but it's still very enticing for some reason. As far as G&L goes, I'm glad to finally announce that, yes, I have survived the summer there. Today was my last day. It was nice because I got to tell everyone "nice working with you" and they got to wish me "good luck" at college. So now I can't bitch about G&L anymore. Although today, something funny/disturbing occured when I pulled this long, curly hair out from between two buns. We don't know how it got there because no one in the kitchen - let alone staff - has long, dark, curly hair. On to less disturbing news, I sold my first item on ebay for a meager $2.24. It was some laundry bag my dad bought me for christmas. It's not like I was going to use it. So this way, someone will use it, and I become that much richer.

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jburt1

:: 2004 14 August :: 2.03am

Friday the 13th Madness
I'm not the superstitious type, but it's still fun to hype up Friday the 13th. Tonight Lauren, Andre, and I went to some cemetary in roosevelt park/lakeside just to spook ourselves out and take some pictures. Unfortuneately, it wasn't very spooky, and the flash on my disposable camera died. I'm hoping to still be able to catch some orbes or something. I took some on my phone, but they didn't come out too well. About the creepiest thing to happen to us was hearing an unidentified noise, which later turned out to be a sprinkler hitting a tree. There was also a cop that drove by, which kinda scared the shit out of lauren and andre. So much so that we ran back to the car. Andre also brough his Quija board, but we didn't really use it. Earlier in the evening, Lauren and I parused the "vintage" selections at ValueLand, where Lauren ended up buying this pretty pimp hat. Looks like something Gwen would wear...or Lil' Kim! Oh yeah, I got my credit card today. I applied for two, so I'm not sure if it's the other one I'm think of...but one of them I selected my own credit limit. However, this one has a MUCH higher one. What is it about credit cards that make people think they can just go out and buy things? Right now I'm trying to limit my spending to strictly school stuff that I need. Hopefully that'll last.

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jburt1

:: 2004 11 August :: 10.56pm

I am getting sleep, verrry sleepy
I can't seem to keep my eyes open. I was only half-awake at work, due to the fact that I stayed up until 3:00am reading Nickel and Dimed, Loyola's summer reading. Yes, I have summer reading. At least there is no assignment other than reading the book...yet. I also had a dentist appointment today. I am happy to report that I am cavity-free (that's a change!), but unfortuneately, I have to switch to a soft-bristle toothbrush because my gums are showing signs of receeding. After my appointment, I headed over to the library since it's right by it. I got some travel book on Chicago and a fiction book called Paris in the Twentieth Century. It was written in the 1800s about what the 1960s would be like. Sounds Interesting. I guess it's by the same guy that wrote Twenty Thousand Leagues Under the Sea. His stuff is supposed to be "prophetic." Besides the lack of energy, I feel pretty good today. I spent a good portion of the night cleaning out my dresser, but now it's all organized. For some reason, I can't bring myself to throw away any of my science portfolios or math notebooks. I HIGHLY doubt I'll ever use those things again. Oh well. I'll let them collect a little dust, what's it going to hurt? Well, I gotta ebay it up (trying to sell some random stuff that I never use before I go off to college). Until next time...

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jburt1

:: 2004 11 August :: 12.48am

this about sums it up...
Emboo: whered u go?
Skudo85: my comp froze
Emboo: did u gewt what i said?
Skudo85: no
Emboo: Emboo1969: im not drunk, but im tipsy
Emboo: im not tipsy when i say this.........
Emboo: i love you justin
Skudo85: okay, well from what I know of you...you become overly affectionate when you're drunk
Emboo: so u dont believe that i lvoe you?
Emboo: love*
Skudo85: yeah, I do...but I'm not sure if you're just saying that
Emboo: do u think that im IN love with you?
Skudo85: no
Emboo: how do u know?
Skudo85: I don't
Skudo85: are you?
Emboo: i dont know
Emboo: its possible
Emboo: b/c everything always comes back to u
Skudo85: I can't think right now
Emboo: if i werent, do u think that i would become?
Skudo85: possibly in the future
Skudo85: emily, I don't know what's wrong with me tonight...I'm just in a weird mood
Emboo: i dont know if u couild ever love me
Skudo85: emily, I already love you
Emboo: IN love with me
Skudo85: I dont' know
Emboo: y r u in weird mood?
Skudo85: I just am
Emboo: y am i so hard to fall for?
Skudo85: but I gotta go because I promised liz that she could go on 15 mins ago
Emboo: i dont want u to go
Skudo85: I'll explain it to you when I figure it out for myself
Emboo: is it cuz of me
Skudo85: is what because of you?
Emboo: ur weird mood
Skudo85: no
Emboo: y am i so hard to fall for?
Skudo85: like I said, I'll explain it to you when I figure it out for myself
Emboo: what does ur mood and that have anythign to do with eahc other?
Skudo85: I'm lost
Emboo: what does ur mood and me saying that whats soi ahrd to fall for me have to do wit each other?
Skudo85: nothing
Emboo: cuz i asked u and u didnt answer
Skudo85: well, mostly nothing
Emboo: it has to do with me being tipsay
Skudo85: I'm just trying to sort out the whole issue of love
Emboo: with me?
Skudo85: love in general
Emboo: u love someone else?
Skudo85: and I guess the fact that you're tipsy doesn't make me feel like I'm really talking to you
Skudo85: no
Emboo: im still here for you
Emboo: u can call me 2mmorow if u want though
Emboo: i get outs of work at 2-3
Skudo85: okay
Emboo: do u need to talk to me?
Skudo85: I don't know
Emboo: oh did u read my journal?
Skudo85: I'm readnig it now
Emboo: what do u mean u dont know if u need to talk to me?!
Skudo85: I gotta sort things out in my head, perhaps it would help to talk to someone
Emboo: well if it makes u feel any better...i wrote my journal entry completely sober!
Skudo85: lol, okay
Emboo: sort things out with love....b4 u levae?
Emboo: leave*
Skudo85: before I die
Emboo: b4 u die? wtf u talkin bout?
Emboo: if ur fucking with me...dont even go there....talking about killin urself
Skudo85: no, I'm not suicidal
Emboo: then "b4 u die"?
Skudo85: I just feel like I have too many questions and too few answers
Emboo: 2 many ???s from who?!
Skudo85: and I feel this pressure to figure life out before...it's over?
Skudo85: questions from myself
Emboo: do they involve me?
Skudo85: yeah, I suppose they do
Emboo: about??
Emboo: love?
Emboo: u and me?
Skudo85: yeah
Emboo: so is it what u gotta tell me...good or bad ?
Skudo85: I don't have anyting specific that I have to tell you
Emboo: oh.....u mean u just gotta figure out if u wanna be with me?!
Skudo85: I feel like I gotta figure out a lot more than that
Skudo85: but for now I gotta go
Emboo: like what?
Skudo85: life
Emboo: alright well call me after 3 tommorow
Emboo: three*
Skudo85: okay
Emboo: night night
Skudo85: ttyl
Emboo: bye

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Fatman

:: 2004 11 August :: 12.27am

x is true...
(X) I have never been drunk
(X) I never have smoked pot
(_) I never have kissed a member of the opposite sex
(_) I never have kissed a member of the same sex
(X) I never crashed a friend's car
(X) I have never been to Japan
(X) I never ridden in a taxi
(X) I never have had sex
(_) I never have been dumped
(_) I never shoplifted
(X) I never have been fired
(_) I have never cut myself on purpose
(X) I never have been in a fist fight
(X) I never snuck out of my parent's house
(X) I never have been arrested
(X) I never made out with a stranger
(X) I never stole anything from my job
(X) I never celebrated New Year's in Time Square
(X) I never went on a blind date
(_) I never lied to a friend
(X) I never had a crush on a teacher
(X) I never celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
(_) I never have been to Europe
(_) I never skipped school
(X) I never have thrown up in a bar
(_) I never have purposely set myself on fire
(X) I never have eaten sushi
(X) I never have been snowboarding
(_) I never have been happy with myself
(X) I never have met a movie star
(X) I never went to a prom
(X) I never bungee jumped
(_) I never have been to a pop concert
(_) I never have dated someone for over a year
(X) I never ate a mango
(X) I never killed anyone before
(_) I never went sailing
(X) I have never had a job
(_) I have never told someone how much they meant to me.
(X) I never have gone sky diving
(X) I never ran outside and danced in the street naked.
(_) I have never had a lesbian/gay close friend.
(X) I have never watched C-SPAN for over an hour.
(_) I have never been out of the country
(_) I have never made out in a carwash..
(X) I have never had cum come out of my nose during a blow job
(X) I have never gone night swimming with a hot person of the opposite sex
(_) I have never eaten peanut butter.
(X) I have never seen Citizen Kane all the way through.
(_) I have never broken a bone.
(_) I have never enjoyed eating veal
(X) I have never been whale watching
(X) I have never stayed up until 10 AM listening to music
(_) I have never seen real boobies
(_) I have never been happier in my life than I am right now
(_) I've never been involved with a complete jackass

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jburt1

:: 2004 11 August :: 12.00am

It feels good to laugh. Jay Leno is hilarious himself, but with Damon Waynes, I'm cracking up more than I should be. Tonight I went to Melissa's and just hung out with a bunch of people. Imke is in town, and she can drive. I feel bad but I never got to know her that well. Katrin, I got to know a little bit. I feel like I knew Annette the most, but I have only emailed her a few times. Now that I think about it, there's a lot of people that I've lost touch with. I should just spend a day next week sending random e-mails. Anyways, it was good to go out tonight. Both Katies were there, both of whom I haven't seen in forever. For some reason, I feel like one of the katies doesn't like me, like she posses the courtesy to be decent to another human being, but that if it weren't for her own code of ethics, she wouldn't give me the time of day. For all I know, she'd start talking about herself and her watch. Maybe I'm just being paranoid. I tell myself to stop thinking thoughts like that, to put it behind me...but I can't. Well, that's only the least of my problems. But right now I have a headache and have to be up early tomorrow. I have so much more that I want to say - mostly feelings that I need to put into words - but that will have to wait for another day.

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jburt1

:: 2004 11 August :: 12.00am

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Fatman

:: 2004 10 August :: 3.55pm

Another belated update. Not much has changed since my last one. Don't even have anything to rant about, really. Although, I did recently meet a girl, and it seems that there might be something there. But, hey, it'll fall through, in probably about a week, because dammit, that's just how it happens.

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jburt1

:: 2004 9 August :: 11.33pm

Today was my last day closing at G&L. Finally. Now I just have three more shifts to get through before I'm done. I find it odd that my shifts were exactly the same tonight as the first day I started. I've never had a 4-Close shift any other time inbetween. My mom and dad are both pissing me off today; they're just realllly annoying. My dad, for one, is his same old overly-curious-about-MY-class-events self. Tonight he watched my senior video, before even I did! Then he asks me if I went scuba diving at the all-night party.
"Uhm, dad, no, I didn't." "Well from the video it doesn't look like you did anything because they never show you." "Good."
And my mom...where to begin with her? She's being her overly-redundant-Christan self. For example, she wants to buy a christening gown for our cousin. In other words, she's trying to impose her own sense of religion on her sister's kid...without either's consent. Yes, I'm sure my aunt plans on getting Rachel baptized, but when she's READY! If they had gotten her when she was a newborn, it might be different. But to baptize a 2 y/o?? I think they need to wait until they can explain to her what's going on. In addition, my mom's trying to tell my sister who she should go out with because she considers herself a "good judge of character." Well, mom, just because someone "looks nice," doesn't mean they are! She wanted my sister to get to know some 19 y/o manwhore. Uhm, yeah, mom...GREAT choice of character. Back to the religion thing, she feels this need to drill into me the fact that I HAVE to raise my kids (if and when I have them) in the CHURCH. I have to give them the GIFT of the gospel. I have nothing against christianity, but I CAN'T STAND IT when others try to shove their beliefs on you. It's like I want to discover the world for myself, you know? I mean, would you rather believe because someone told you to or because you actually believe?? This shit is getting redundant, like I said before. I see chicago as an escape to these poor family relations, but that won't change the fact that I'm related to these people. I just hope that my parents don't try to rule over me while I'm at college. I have more to say, but I'll save that for tomorrow....

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jburt1

:: 2004 8 August :: 9.01pm
:: Music: modest mouse \

Tomorrow begins my last week in hell, otherwise known as G&L. Okay, maybe that was a bit of an exageration - I actually surived this summer (hmm, perhaps I should wait until NEXT week to say that!). The people that work there - wow. Just yesterday, one of the waitresses was saying how she snuffed cum when her partner's dick went up her nose. Okay, that wasn't as random as it probably sounds, but it's gross nonetheless. Outside of work, not much has happened. I had what might just be my first dream about college. It was about the first day of school. I can't remember specifics, but I remember the day felt rigid, awkward, stiff, dictated, overly organized. In short, it wasn't the freedom or contrast to high school that I thought it would be. We'll just have to see about that; Two weeks and three days before I leave. After that, only God knows where my future will take me. Lately, I've had this odd notion that I might just be possible for me to do something "big," such as develop my acting skills and make a small career out of it. That would be the life. Perhaps. I don't plan on going anywhere without my degree. And as much as I like acting, unless you hit the big time, it's not something to pay the bills. Well, off to catch whatever's left of the 4400.

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