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2005 11 April :: 9.25am
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
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2005 5 April :: 2.34am
:: Mood: stressed/depressed/anxious/nervous
:: Music: get up kids "is there a way out?"
something's wrong but I don't know what
My mind has been racing all night, all evening really. Even at theresa's surprise birthday party, I was pretty quiet. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I've been more tired than usual and I'm falling behind in my school work. I know that I'm happy here at Loyola. I was just thinking today about how much I've grown since high school, and it's incredible. I'm much more of a real person, although I'm sure I still have a ways to go. As bad as this sounds, I think new experiences, especially drinking, helped that. I was feeling bad about my drinking habits, but I've proven that I can exercise self-control so now it's not such a problem. I have a six-pack in my fridge. I think I'll have 2-3 beers this weekend, as long as I make it through this week of hell. I have to read an entire novel for honors, take a calc test, ace my econ midterm, and somehow do an honors paper by friday. Shit on me now. Tonight I walked down the pier with sara, theresa, and keith. It made me miss home and all the times spent at the beach in muskegon. Sara knew that something was wrong tonight. I tried to tell her there wasn't, but who am I kidding? Something's wrong, but I can't put my finger on it. I had an "undefineable uneasiness." So much so, that I decided to go out and buy a pack of cigarettes. I finally smoked an entire cigarette by myself, but it wasn't a pleasant experience. My throat hurts, my nose is runny, and the smoke still in my lungs is leaving a bad taste in my mouth. I thought it'd help to calm me. Maybe I did, but I don't know. Maybe I'm calm, but it didn't solve my problems. I should really give the pack to someone else. It's bad because at the same time I feel peer pressure to smoke, even though none of my friends do. And now I feel ike an idiot. I hope sleep will help.
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2005 5 April :: 2.13am
If I was Bob Marley, I said you "could you be loved?"
and if I was half pint, I'd ball the lord up above
and if I was Mike Tyson, I would look for a fight,
and if I was a hoodtown rat, I would be stayin up all night.
If I was the king of dark, I would get stupid-dumb.
If rhymes were valiums, I'd be comfortably numb.
If I had a shotgun, you know what i'd do.
I'd point that shit straight at the sky and shoot heaven on down for you...
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2005 1 April :: 8.08pm
I am the most unlucky man alive. My first date in five years, and I'm sick
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2005 31 March :: 11.39pm
Is it bad to have a cheap first date?
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2005 29 March :: 12.10am
Well, the previous post wanted to be gay, so here's the real thing. I saw her again today, for the first time in a long time. Yay!
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2005 29 March :: 12.08am
I saw her today, for the first time in a long time. Yay!
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2005 27 March :: 10.03pm
She came from Greece. She had a thirst for knowledge.
She studied sculpture at Saint Martin's College.
That's where I--caught her eye.
She told me that her dad was loaded.
I said, in that case I'll have a rum and Coca-Cola.
She said fine, and in thirty seconds time she said...
I wanna live like common people.
I wanna do whatever common people do.
I wanna sleep with common people.
I wanna sleep with common people like you.
Well, what else could I do? I said, I'll see what I can do!
I took her to a supermarket.
I don't know why, but I had to start it somewhere.
So it started there!
I said, pretend you've got no money.
She just laughed and said, oh, you're so funny!
I said, yeah? Well I can't see anyone else smiling in here!
Are you sure you want to live like common people?
You want to see whatever common people see?
You want to sleep with common people?
You want to sleep with common people like me?
But she didn't understand...
...she just smiled and held my hands!
Rent a flat above a shop!
Cut your hair and get a job!
Smoke some fags and play some pool.
Pretend you never went to school.
But still you'll never get it right.
When you're lyin' in bed at night,
Watching roaches climb the wall.
If you call your dad he could stop it all.
You'll never live like common people!
You'll never do whatever common people do!
You'll never fail like common people!
You'll never watch your life slide out of view,
and dance, and drink, and screw!
Because there's nothing else to do!
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2005 24 March :: 12.36am
It's late in the evening
She's wondering what clothes to wear
She puts on her makeup
And brushes her long blonde hair
And the she asks me
Do I look alright
And I say yes
You look wonderful tonight
We go to a party
And everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady
Who's walking around with me
And then she asks me
Do you feel alright
And I say yes,
I feel wonderful tonight
I feel wonderful because I see the love shining in your eyes
And the wonder of it all is that you just don't realize
How much I love you
It's time to go home now
And I've got an aching head
So I give her the car keys
And she helps me to bed
And then I tell her
As I turn out the lights
I say my darling
You are wonderful tonight
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2005 13 March :: 11.08am
If you woke up and I was in bed with you, what would be your first thought? (Now post this in your journal and find out what mine would be)
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2005 7 March :: 7.47am
So, didn't get a Spring Break. Yeah. Latest I slept in all week was ten o'clock.
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2005 31 March :: 2.24am
:: Music: motion city soundtrack "the future freaks me out"
my pulse
So life is busy, but good. Tomorrow I have my econ midterm which is 34% of my grade. Shit. This weekend I leave for Georgia. I'm going on an alternative break immersion to help build a house for habitat for humanity. The people are cool, but I'm going with a friend which hopefully will make it that much better. This month is going to be crazy. As soon as I get back, I have an honors paper due (not doing too well in that class). That weekend I have to go home and see catholic's play. Then on Monday I have to give a 12-15 minute speech which is 25% of my communication's grade. Don't know when I'm going to find the time to write and practice that one. Also that week i gotta apply for housing. Keith and I are gonna live together in the new dorm. If I get accepted into the Rome Program I'll only be here first semester, which is kind of sad, but something I need to do. I also gotta file taxes soon. More stuff to do. Then it's back home once more for easter. I don't think I've posted this on here, but saturday was crazy, and now I have a "pseudo-girlfriend." I'm paranoid and don't like titles so we're just not gonna label it and see where it goes. But it should be a fun ride. Also, two of my friends are in the same situation that we are. Weird. Let's just say saturday was crazy for everyone. To all my muskegon/michigan friends, I miss you tons. Chicago rocks, but it's just not the same without your familiar faces. If anyone's ever coming to Chicago, let me know and we'll hang out. Goodnight.
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2005 1 March :: 7.43am
I'm here now.
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2005 25 March :: 12.20am
She asked if I was okay, if I was upset about what they have been saying about us. I told her no, that I was just stressed out.
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