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2003 27 April :: 1.08am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: The White Stripes- Hotel Yorba
I wonder how long it will take till we're alone...sitting on the front porch of that home...stomping our feet on the wooden boards...never gonna worry about locking the door...
Being home is so boring.. I spent five hours driving around the greater Grand Rapids area and essentially accomplishing nothing. I'm actually looking forward to starting at work. Scary thought for me.
Had a cute date today..the lazer light show. Darlin, I really did enjoy it a lot. Thank you. Even though the spinning stars made me sick to my stomach and the talking skull scared the shit out of me. It was still a lot of fun.
Ugh. I'm cold. And I want some lovin. And my keychain back. Also need to sleep. Sigh.
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2003 25 April :: 9.49pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Barenaked Ladies- Some Fantastic
Some day I will find the secret to your social chemistry...then I'll print it on a T-shirt...
So, um....real entry....yeah...
This is hard.
Anyway, I'm HOME now. Like, the one with the parents and stuff. I didnt realize how much shit I acquired this year until I tried to shove it back in my (shared) room.
Along with the new house, I got a new job... I transferred back to Menards as planned, and went in to get my hours, and....surprise... I got moved to the electrical department. So that could be cool, I hope it will be but I'm scared because I don't know all that much about the products and stuff. And I have to go buy some damn belts because I need to carry a knife for boxes, maybe a tape measure, but how often do you need a tape measure with circuit breakers, I dont really know. I think I need to go review my employee manuals because I'm like, freaking out. So I'll start tuesday, its crazy because there's only like 6 people in the whole department... I'm mad nervous, but I think it'll be a change for the better.
Sold back my books and got mad cash, I think I may have actually MADE money this semester (well I know I did because my scholarship paid for the books anyhow) because I bought them on Half. Its a good feeling to have a couple hundred bucks in my wallet.
Of course, I have to spend a good chunk of that on the books for my summer classes, three of them. Ugh. But at least I'll have it done, only a few classes from finishing my Sociology major. I tend to forget that this was supposed to be my first year of school.
I'm glad I'm not living in the dorms. No offense guys. Most of you I'm gonna miss super major a whole big lot. And some others, I won't. But they ought to know who they are and if they don't you all know who I'm talking about anyhow. I'm quite surprised that the semester ended without it coming to blows.
I've met a lot of interesting types of people this year. Unfortunatly, I don't think I can really say that I changed (other than the fact that I've learned to stick to ONE guy). I realized at the end of the year, that its really hard to actually change yourself. You really just end up changing your perspectives on yourself, or on your life. (In other words, I've come to the conclusion that I will always be a nerd. No matter how cool I think I am.)
Keep in touch, ya'all. Sorry that my "goodbye" entry wasnt as personalized or as mushy, touching, heartfelt, as Jason's. I guess I'm just too masculine for that. :)
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2003 24 April :: 4.55pm
i realize that things never really get any better. its all a matter of perception.
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2003 18 April :: 11.53am
[ series 1 - your ]
-- Name : Stefanie Anne Wilde
-- Birthday :Auguat 17th 1984
-- Birthplace : Grand Rapids, Michigan
-- Current Location : Kalamazoo, Michigan
-- Eye Color : Blue
-- Hair Color : umm....i'm a redheaded blonde
-- Righty or Lefty : Righty
-- Zodiac Sign : Leo
-- Font : Bookmans Old Style
[ series 2 - your favorite ]
-- Music : Ben Kweller, Modest Mouse, i'm hooked on the White Stripes right now
-- Cartoon : dexters laboratory
-- Color : olive green
-- Slushy Flavor : lemonade
-- Magazine : .....maxim.....
-- TV Show : i still really cant claim one
-- Song at the Moment: There's No Home For You Here- the White Stripes
-- Language : english
-- Spice Girl : Scary Spice
-- Food & Beverage : pizza and alcohol of any form....har har har
Subject in School : sociology
-- Weekend Activity : sleeping
-- Ice Cream Flavor : moosetracks
-- Roller Coaster : i dont have a favorite
[ series 3 - what is ]
-- Your most overused phrase on aol : so...
-- The last image/thought you go to sleep with : usually staring at the darkness...
The first feature you notice in the opposite sex : i notice hair and eyes.
The Best Name for a Butler : Leonard
-- The wussiest sport : curling
-- Your best feature : my hot ass.
-- Your bedtime : somewhere between 1:30 and 2:30am
-- Your greatest fear : that someones hiding behind my shower curtain
-- Your greatest accomplishment : well i guess i'm gonna be lame and say my scholarship, because it changed a lot of things for me, even though there was a lot that I DID to accomplish it.
[ series 4 - you prefer ]
-- Pepsi or coke : diet coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King : McDonalds if i have to pick one
-- Single or group dates : it really depends on who the group is.
-- Adidas or Nike : either
-- Chicken nuggets or chicken fingers : either
-- Dogs or cats : kitty
-- Rugrats or Doug : rugrats
-- Single or taken : totally taken (can you believe it?)
-- Monica or Brandy : eh?
-- Tupac or Jay-Z : I’m white
-- Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes : Shania
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea : yuck
-- One pillow or two : no pillows, just my blanket
-- Chocolate or vanilla : chocolate
-- Hot chocolate or hot cocoa : Hot chocolate
-- Cappucino or coffee : neither
-- Boxers or briefs : doesnt matter too much
[ series 5 - do you ]
-- Take a shower everyday? : yes
-- Have a(any) crush(es)? : i suppose you could call it that
-- do you think you've been in love? : yep
-- Want to go to college? : well lets see here...i hope to come BACK next year...
-- Like high school? : likeD
-- Want to get married : yeah sometime
-- Type with your fingers on the right keys? : kindof
-- Believe in yourself? : sometimes
-- Have any tattoos/where? : nope
-- Have any piercings/where? : yeah….one in each earlobe, two in the left cartilage, one in the right
-- Get motion sickness? : not usually
-- Think you're a health freak? : no, not at all
-- Get along with your parents? : I don’t live with my parents. So it works out pretty well.
-- Like thunderstorms? : I love em
[ series 6 - the future ]
-- Age you hope to be married : when I’m good and ready
-- Number and Names of Children : I’ll probably end up with like 6 kids, at least 4 though…a boy named Donavin and a girl named Sera Alizabeth
-- Where do you see yourself at age 20? : hell, I’m just about there
-- Describe your Dream Wedding : I don’t have dreams like that
-- How do you want to die? : driving a really fast car off a really high bridge
-- What do you want to be when you grow up? : still not there yet
-- What country would you most like to visit? : spain
[ series 7 - opposite sex ]
-- Best eye color? : I’m a fan of blue
-- Best hair color? : I don’t really care
-- Short or long hair? : not too long
-- Best height? : taller than me
-- Best weight? : if it fits their body
-- Best articles of clothing? : eh?
-- Best first date location? : something simple
-- Best first kiss location? : doorsteps are fun.
-- What facial feature do you find the most attractive? lips
[ series 8 - other ]
-- When's the last time you slept with a stuffed animal? : last night
-- How many rings until you answer the phone? : my answering machine picks up at 2
-- What's on your mouse pad? : cedar springs red hawks
-- How many houses have you lived in? : 4
-- How many schools have you gone to? : 2, if you count colleges then 5
-- What color is your bedroom carpet? : cream
-- Would you shave your head for $5,000 dollars? : totally
-- What was the best time of your life so far? : I don’t know for sure…some concert sometime
-- Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? yup
-- Would you marry for money? : no
-- Have you had braces? : yeah
-- Do you pluck your eyebrows? : sometimes, I AM a girl after all
-- Do you ever cut or hurt yourself? : no
-- When was the last time you had a hickey? : I don’t think I’ve ever really had a hickey. I have a birthmark that looks like one…
-- Would you live without a computer? : it would be difficult
-- Do you drink enough water? : not normally, but lately yes
-- Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: take em off
-- What is your favorite fruit? : kiwis and strawberries
--Do you eat wheat bread or white bread? : White
-- What is the last movie you saw? : umm I watched the last three minutes of GO in video hits
-- Do you kiss on the first date? : usually
-- Are you photogenic? : I don’t really know
-- Do you dream in colour or black and white? : both
-- Are you wearing fingernail polish? : not anymore, just took it off
-- Do you have any dimples? : yeah
-- Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most? : sunsets
-- Do you want to live to be 100?: I wont. Lets just say no.
-- Do you think women should be expected to shave their body hair? : I think women AND men should be expected to shave their body hair.
-- Do you like salty food or sugary food the most? : depends
-- Is a flat stomach important to you? : oh god, lets not go there
-- Do you or have you played with a ouija board? : yes
-- Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs? : yeah, unless they believe in not tolerating others beliefs
-- When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off? : off
-- Do you believe in magic? : nah
-- Do you have nightmares frequently? : sometimes
-- Do you like your nose?: Its ok.
-- Do you think you can draw well? : No
-- Do you listen to music daily? : just about every second that I’m not in class
-- Do you like to watch cartoons? : sure
-- How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? : at home, somewhere between….50 and 75. At school right now I have cut down to 7, I took most of them home for moveout.
-- Do you like your friends? : occasionally. Some of them suck.
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2003 14 April :: 4.41pm
You are Carolyn Burnham --- everyone hates you. no one appreciates you. doesn't it suck? yeah, you know the world isn't beautiful but you try to fake it with flowers anyways. Your flowers suck. and quit selling houses. you suck at it. after awhile you get sick of giving and giving and giving and getting nothing in return and you will go screw your rival and fire some guns because YOU ARE NOT A VICTIM!
Which American Beauty Character Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
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2003 12 April :: 12.36am
:: Mood: super awesome
:: Music: AFI-Exsanguination
skin the woods dark whos browned their under pants
Wow tonight was so much fun and would like to thank everyone who was involed because i had so much fun. And this is how things always should be just hanging out and having fun. I needed to have fun really bad and today thats basicly all i did was have fun. I love all of you guys and i really enjoy your company. And hilary jess and casey i hope you didnt get introuble
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2003 11 April :: 10.50am
:: Mood: annoyed
nothing more annoying than when you make an appointment, and arrive on time (five minutes early no less!) and the person still makes you wait because they are preoccipied with insignificant personal matters...grr....
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2003 11 April :: 12.43am
:: Music: taking back sunday- cute w/O the e
her is a converstion i had with my mom tonight
Man my mom it wierd but so am i so i geuss it runs in the family.
vmc188: Hey what are you doing up so late?
blitzkrieg689: late?
blitzkrieg689: you didnt even come home last night talk about late
vmc188: Well it's after midnight isn't it? Did you let the electriction in today. What makes you say I didn't come home?
blitzkrieg689: i spent the night at your house
vmc188: Oh, I tried calling you today and you didn't answer phone. I thought you were going to dads. If I would have known I would have been here.
blitzkrieg689: what time did you call?
vmc188: 10:00 , 11:00 12:00 1:00 1:45 many times.
vmc188: Did you see the electrician?
blitzkrieg689: the electrician called and i helped him get to the house
blitzkrieg689: last night as i was leaving to go to dads jess called and i ended up talking with her untill like 12 ish and i did relize it was so late so i just stayed there but i left in the morning around 10:15
vmc188: I see, Glad to know those were you're socks in my bed. Hope you're not too mad at me.
blitzkrieg689: i didnt care i thought your were bowling
blitzkrieg689: but then i didnt see the car so i was like i geuss she didnt come home
vmc188: I was.
blitzkrieg689: when i woke up i took a shower and then i left
vmc188: Maybe i got home late. And then left very early in the morning.
blitzkrieg689: yes sure
vmc188: It's my story. Do you remember that hammock in the attic?
blitzkrieg689: ?
vmc188: Never mind.
blitzkrieg689: oh yeah the attic
blitzkrieg689: with the rat
vmc188: huh? that country song. He fell asleep in the hammock. It's his story and he's sticking to it. Then his wife tells him she put the hammock in the attic.
blitzkrieg689: you are wierd mom
vmc188: Ok, I admit it.
blitzkrieg689: Hey go to www.brucesaidcheckers.tk it should work now
vmc188: I'm at the home page.
blitzkrieg689: isnt it awesome
vmc188: Yes should I click on something else.
blitzkrieg689: yeah
vmc188: I checked calander. what should I ck next?
blitzkrieg689: the lyrics
vmc188: Any w/ pics?
vmc188: Which is the newest?
vmc188: Are you practicing tomorrow?
blitzkrieg689: im not sure
vmc188: I'm going to bed soon. I thought you were spending the night tonight. Will you be able to help me anytime Sat or Sun. with putting some siding stuff up?
blitzkrieg689: im not sure but probley
vmc188: Ok. knock knock
blitzkrieg689: whos there
vmc188: olive
blitzkrieg689: olive who?
vmc188: olive you!!!!!
blitzkrieg689: good one mom
vmc188: yea I know. Talk to ya later. Have sweet dreams, sleep tight, and don't let the bed bugs bite. If they bite, bite them back harder.
blitzkrieg689: ok mom i will
vmc188: XOXO
vmc188 signed off at 12:34:14 AM.
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2003 11 April :: 12.25am
:: Music: the used- pieces and mended
Noise And Kisses Lyrics
look in my eyes
I'm jaded now whatever that means
by sharing these things
I rip my heart out
it's worth my time
whatever that means...
hard to see up
my neck feels stiff until I wake up
the orange i choked
and back to my neck
it's worth my time
whatever that means....so
share with me
cause i need it right now
let me see your insides
or write me off
cause I'd rather starve now
if you won't open up
give it to me
give me all... whatever you want
it's never been me
to want this much from you
I can see
it tears me up
i really enjoy this song
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2003 9 April :: 9.32pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Taking back SUnday- Head Club
Dont call my name out your window im leaving, Im sick of writing every song about you
Man no matter how much i listen to that song it never gets old. I can relate to that song in so many ways. Well so far this spring break has sucked. I have done a lot of think and figured some things out now all i have to do is tell them to the people that need to hear it, which will be the hard part. Over the past month or so i have learned a lot about life. This hole thing helped me find out who my friends really are. And something i just resently learned is that nobody is going to look out for me and that i need more proof than just words and even actions inorder to belive or trust whats going on. Man you are really happy when the things that are being said are the things you have dreamed of and thought that they would never be said. And when you know they mean what they say and that all those feelings you 2 feel are real. You have to be the most confusing person on earth. I really hope i get more time to talk with you because i have so much to say that i need to get out. 9 hours in a month isnt very much. And dont worry about me i will be fine
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2003 8 April :: 10.34am
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday-You know how i do
Last night i waited for a phone call that never came went to bed aT 9. Today Dusty cant play so sit around and do nothing called jess shes to busy to talk and most like wont call me back so looks night will be another boring night. Well i always have work for fun Yippy
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2003 7 April :: 10.11pm
:: Mood: contemplative
oooohh....my headache is getting worse....
funny that when all the stress is over i feel worse than i did when it was in full swing.
i think getting through that little incident brought us closer, made us stronger, all that jazz. there were rewards hidden there. sometimes i think that maybe i do believe in fate, maybe things happen for a reason.
so i got a role in a production at school...its community health theater, a production about "healthy sexual choices". i'm going to be a sexual health peer educator...har har har. it sounds naughty. anyway, i get to do it for credit...its a helluva lot of work but i hope it will be worth it, plus all the changes i had to make to my schedule....blaahhh...
wednesday is my audition tape to get a shift at the station...i'm wondering how it will go. but if you are ever in k-zoo (or on WIDR.org) listening to 89.1 FM and hear a dj who goes by "Bunny Foo-Foo", you'll know that I got in...
i think i'm supposed to go tanning tonite. i love places that are open 24 hours. they allow me to get the most out of life.
big test tomorrow in social psychology. last real test before the final.
i work a lot this weekend. and i think my parents are coming up to move out some of my furniture, and take down the loft.
i have a paper due in a week and two days for sociological theory.
jason and i are at three months in two weeks.
i have a 'C' in math. Pretty much no matter what. My grade is set right there unless i totally bomb the final, the last one that i have in finals week.
two weeks and 4 days until i move back home...sheesh.
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