good day sunshine

:: 2006 11 February :: 10.23pm
:: Mood: amused

Vampires
Je suis le vampire, Lestat.

Fuck yea, vampires are awesome.

:: 2006 18 January :: 5.08pm

J'ai bonne.

(Sorry, I posted the male form of the adjective.)

:: 2006 8 January :: 3.38pm

I dreamed that Kyra fought Lacey on the top of a billboard. When Lacey got punched she fell down and hit the ground as nothing but a prety stain. And, even though I hate how big her head has become, I couldn't help but cry.

Kasey took me back to her house, then the aliens attacked and that was that.

:: 2006 3 January :: 4.49pm

I wish I was extremely significant to someone.

Like in my dream, I was the only thing keeping him from a sex change operation. Weird...

:: 2005 13 December :: 12.59am
:: Mood: contemplative

I don't feel I can connect the dots any longer. The books filled up, there are no more puzzles. Now I am bored, alone.

Maybe I should have done things a little differently.

:: 2005 23 November :: 3.18pm

I just read a post on someone's journal about a suicide that happened awhile ago. Strangely enough, I still feel very apathetic about it.

I know I'm a heartless bitch, but, oh well. Maybe you should read my live journal more often.

:: 2005 30 October :: 9.41pm

Lately, I've been obsessing over vampires.

Maybe it's because Halloween is tomorrow?

I actually made an effort to get a costume that wasn't something similar to a vampire. I ended up a pirate. However, I didn't get to wear my costume anywhere. D:

I still feel like a turd in a toilet bowl.

:: 2005 10 October :: 12.00am
:: Music: Overburdened-Disturbed

Same old, same old.
Now I know how it feels to be a piece of shit floating around in a toilet. Thanks for nothing.

School starts again tomorrow and I didn't do any of my homework. I'm totally going to flunk this year.

:: 2005 6 October :: 12.35pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Decadence-Disturbed

The new Disturbed cd is awesome.

If you don't have it, you're not living.

:: 2005 2 September :: 8.18pm

Just something random because I haven't written anything in a while.

So... the world ended. Good-bye.

:: 2005 6 August :: 12.38am
:: Mood: Everything
:: Music: Queen of the Damned Sountrack

Too Much Difference
I'm over it. You see I'm falling in a vast abyss. Driven by memories of the past. At last, I see... I feel it fading, I can't speak it, or else you will take my place. Feel if finding always winding, take my hand now; Be alive! You see I can not be forsaken, because I'm not the only one. We walk amongst you, feeding, raping. Must we hide from everyone?

You think you're smart; you're not. It's plain to see that you want me to fall off. It's killing me! Let's see, you've got the gall, come take it all. The jury is coming. Coming to tear me apart. All this bitching and moaning.. come on, it's on. I'm trapped in this world; lonely and fading, heartbroken, waiting for you to come. We are stuck in this world that's not meant for me, for me. So what you got? One last shot. It seems to me that you're not needed. Come on, it's killing me. Let's see, you've got the gall, come take it all.

I took you home... set you on the glass... I pulled off your wings... and I laughed.

I've slept so long without you, it's tearing me apart to.. how to get this far, playing games with this old heart. I've killed a million pansy souls, but I couldn't kill you. I've slept so long without you. (Touching you makes me die inside) I see hell in your eyes. (Touching you makes me die inside) Taken in by surprise. (Supriiiise) Touching you makes me feel alive. (I see hell in your eyes) Touching you makes me die inside. (Touching you makes me die inside...)

Just some different emotions and thoughts running through my mind that can't be expressed in my own words.

1 meter | roll it

:: 2005 22 July :: 10.27am
:: Mood: pissed off

I just found something that both made me very angry and made me HATE yaoi fangirls all the more. And I'm not talking about ALL of them because I know there are some that aren't constantly... drawing pictures of two characters that would NEVER in their entire life dream about being with that other person. (Sesshoumaru x Inuyasha, Virgil x Dante, etc) I mean, if you're going to draw hentai of any variety, DRAW IT OF INUYASHA AND KIKYOU. We know the real reason he killed her was because she was pregnant with his baby. I think that's the funniest I've ever been on this journal. Who knew?

Oh, yes, I'm getting off subject. The picture was dear Sephiroth in a maids dress putting on lipstick. YEA RIGHT. Sephiroth who wants to destroy the world to gather life stream and fuse with it to be able to get into Paradise, so FUCKING the entire human populace putting on lipstick? Yea. Burn in hell, bitch.

...Yes. Uhm, I have anger issues. So deal with it. AND GOD DAMN IT IF I HEAR ONE MORE BEEP FROM AN IM FROM THAT SELF-LOATHING SON-OF-A-BITCH I'M GOING TO FUCKING KILL SOMEONE.

Have a nice day because obviously I haven't.

:: 2005 1 July :: 12.56am

It wasn't enough.
Nope, it sure wasn't.

:: 2005 26 June :: 1.29pm
:: Music: I Never Told You What I Do For a Living- MCR

Weird.
Last night I had a dream.. it was about a guy I didn't know, but he reminded me so much of someone very close to me. Kalyanee was there. He pulled me down to sit in his lap in front of everyone... I think he was a skater. I don't remember all that well. But if I died in my sleep and could dream on for ever, I think I would opt to. If I could keep that feeling of warmth and being close to him without having to worry about his secret hatred... or what other people thought.

It didn't matter to him how messed up in the head I was. How much other people hated me. If I couldn't skateboard worth a shit.

Kalyanee, I'm sorry I dreamed you got molested... twice. But don't worry, I beat the fuck out of them for you.

:: 2005 22 June :: 7.10pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Helena-MCR

Matches
Just like a match you try to incinerate the lives of everyone you know.

:: 2005 21 June :: 7.48pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: I'm Not Okay(I Promise)-My Chemical Romance

Falling
I've finally lost my fear of falling.

:: 2005 15 June :: 8.35pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Stray-Wolf'sRainOST

Open
I would like to find a way to open to you. It's been a while, don't know if I remember how to.

:: 2005 14 June :: 3.18am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Love Is Not Enough: Nine Inch Nails

Apology
What I really meant to say is, "I'm sorry for the way I am."

:: 2005 10 June :: 5.20pm

A bullet to the head
Do you still think that we're not brave if we don't bleed?

:: 2005 4 June :: 2.17pm
:: Music: Cloud 9-Wolf'sRain OST2

To dream is to live.
I dreamt about you last night. I wish I really could have savored a kiss like that.