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:: 2003 19 November :: 7.42pm
:: Mood: crushed

What the fuck is with people these days?!
Dear Jocelyn,

Today was fine wasn't it? Just a chipper day for you. Right? Today I went to the guidance counselor. She suggested maybe I talk to Kristin or Morgan about the whole thing. Me and Eldis.. Feh. Right. I hate everything about everyone at the current moment.

Couselor: Well, have you ever considered maybe she is feeling the same way?
Me: I honestly have.. but by the way she looks at me and acts like I don't even exsist, I really don't think she cares.
Conselor: And how do you feel about this? I'm getting the sense that you feel betrayed because you thought this was someone who you could trust.
Me: I honestly did think I could trust her.
Conselor: Maybe you should make some new friends.
Me: It's quite honestly scary. I mean, I never made friends well to begin with and now this... it makes me even wonder if there really are such things as friends... at least with her.
Conselor: And you never noticed any kind of behavior like this before?
Me: No.. even when she WAS with Morgan. Anyways.. It's not like it matters. Morgan comes before friends with her all of the time. But the real reason I think she isn't talking to me was because he threatened their relationship.
Conselor: Oh?
Me: Yes... A year and 2 months.
Conselor: Well.. I think you should confront her and talk to her about it. Maybe we could call her down and--
Me: No no no no no... I would never want to confront her.
Conselor: Why not?
Me: It'll break what precious little we have left..
Conselor: Maybe Morgan?
Me: No.. I really don't even care anymore.
Conselor: Well. You should try to talk it out with her. You have to go to class now.
Me: Okay.. bye.

And that was it in a nut shell. so I grabbed my books and walked into Mrs. Vitale's class. Of course, I couldn't do my reading log because of the counselor but its my own fault,I guess. So I went to meet you guys ver by the gym and as I walked past Mrs. Vitale, she grabbed me and asked me if anything was wroing....
Her: Alexa, are you okay?
Me: Yes.. I'm fine.
Her: Because when you came in it looked like you were really upset.
Me: Yea.. I know.
Her: Are you sure your okay? You don't wanna talk about it?
Me: Yea.. I don't have time to explain now.. maybe later.
Her: Okay.. well. I didn't want to say it in class. I was really worried about you.
Me: Okay.. bye Mrs Vitale!

So.. it seems even the teachers can tell when I'm depressed. Mr. LaGrange can tell.. Mrs. Vitale can tell. I wonder who else can... maybe everybody else? I really question the fact that only adults can befriend me.. I really do. I just want to be a normal kid.. is that to much to ask?

On a lighter note, I got a date on Saturday with my crush so I'm hoping I get happy before then.

Word for the day: Neko -In Japanese, neko refers to a cat. A popular example is Kuro Neko from Trigun. his name literally translates to Black Cat.

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:: 2003 19 November :: 6.46pm
:: Mood: Pissed off shitty blah whf mood
:: Music: F-minus

Hate you
...okay all, this is Sayna again, i just wanted you all to know that im not in a good mood, life is sucking and im depressed and all i want is some fucking ass...n/r, j/k. i really want to go out with this kid named greg, he's awesome but i am stuck with Aaron-taku, until i can break up with him...but greg is going out with another girl and i don't want to break them up..so i guess i'll wait til they break up before making my move..we already flirt alot.. (any comments or advice would be real real nice!)

Dearest Bunny, i am very sery about your troubles..who ever these damn people are who are spreading lies about you.. i wish them to burn burn burn until they can't burn no more...nasty lieing bitches deserve to die..so when they relize what they said isn't true..or when it comes to judgement day..they will either get what they deserve, or repent to you my Ke'Chara...tootles to all

:: 2003 18 November :: 6.04pm
:: Mood: Fuck the World
:: Music: I Hate Everything About You : Three Days Grace

Everybody can just go and shove s tick up there asses. I really don't care anymore.
Dearest Jocelyn,

Is it such a sin to be weak? Is that why they think it doesn't matter? To stop being my friend.. they think its not a crime. That it won't hurt. They're wrong. All wrong. Thats okay, I've never really had a true friend before you really. What do they think I did with the stranger? They were watching me the whole time.. why now would they spread a story untrue? Kristin, if you do not wish to be my friend, than just say so. Do not beat around the bush and drop subtle hints. I wished you would be there for me but your just like them! Just a sunny day friend! Well you can take your words and eat them up because I will not believe anymore lies. I will not tolerate anymore of this 'friendship' that is based upon nothing but hatred. So goodbye to you. Goodbye to you. I hope your friends leave and you'll see what its like. Living your life only trusting one person.

In commemeration to my life at this curent state, here is a poem.

I watch you laugh.
I watch you smile.
Oh, how it sickens me.
Our friendship, you defiled.

I will cut. I will cry.
I will bleed. I will lie.
A devil's scar has been awakened.
An angels song will fail.

For once I am the outsider,
Looking into your twisted little game.
I see what your doing, I see all to well.
I know all the shame.

So, take everything you've said.
Take it back; eat your words.
I don't need you! No I don't!
Shut up! Shut up! No more cords!

Cords saving lies, to that disk in your head.
Bloody handprints on the glass.
No more hiding behind your mask,
I ripped it off for you to last.

Bye bye bye bye
Falling forever in an eternal pit
Bye bye bye bye
The question is posted, the fire is lit.

By Alexa Rae

I know it is not that great, Jocelyn. Yours are better. That is my bleeding heart. It is down on the floor. Shes stepped on it to many times for it to be ignored.

Thought for the day: I question God and the little things He makes us suffer through..

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:: 2003 17 November :: 9.33pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: "silver and cold"

I MIGHT GET TO GO TO AFI CONCERT!! YAY!!!! i love my life!!!! and ll these other bands are gonna be there too!!! im so happy today!!!......and i just found out that soo many people kno somethin they schouldnt kno! but its k....life will go on....i shall live on as my boring self still..........and i got new clothes!!!1 and i finished my science project at last and it dont look too much f***ed up!....i might actually pass!......and my evil demon hell spawn reading teacher finalyl quit! thank god!...evil biotch.....therefore my life cant be better!.......well it can.....i guess.....if my computer class teacher quits or soemthin....but that wont happen
no, no way no how, now my next trick would be getting another girlfriend....i hate bein single...for some reason i get so damn lonely....

:: 2003 17 November :: 6.16pm
:: Mood: About to cry..
:: Music: Linkin Park; Faint

People are pitiful
Dear Jocelyn,

Pitiful beings these creatures called humans are. What makes me think I am better, you ask? Nothing. I AM human..I know I am pitiful. But is being weak and innocent an excuse for walking all over someone?

You know, dear sister, I would never kiss anyone I didn't know. I'd much rather save it for someone I loved or knew. So who has been saying I kissed a complete stranger? Someones thrill for excitement has gotten me into trouble with the strangers significant other. Is that why onee-sama was being so mean today? I think I might take refuge with you..

Thought for the day: Lifes a bitch, then yah marry one.

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:: 2003 16 November :: 12.25pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: My Will;First season Inuyasha ending theme

I wonder..
Dear Jocelyn,

Nothing happened much at the party. I got to see Kristin's house. It is actually very nice and lavishly furnished. My father is really upset with me because Kristin's mom forgot to call and leave her number. He was yelling at me over the phone. It's amazing how easily you actually can cry. Please do not tell, Jocelyn. But.. yes. I burst out in a fit of tears. Kristin offered to take the blame..but I would not let her. Chantelle is alot nicer than we take her for, you know? Maybe, if I'm really good, I can come and sleep over with you. Would you like that? Anything to get out of this damned house..

Thought for the day: Oh my gosh! Lestat from Queen of the Damned is sooooooo HOT!

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:: 2003 15 November :: 10.01am
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: Faint by Linkin Park

Sorry I haven't posted! Been really busy!
Dear Jocelyn,

I am sorry, sister, for not writing to you in so long! I will tell you what happened from the 13th- today..

November 13, 2003
Today was no acception from any other day. It was the same. Boring. So, not much to write here.

November 14 and 15, 2003.
Today was actually pretty fun. I think somebody told Kristin how left out I've been feeling because shes been paying alot of attention to me and being very nice, Onee-sama. Morgan was in a very good mood today and was actually nice. He gave me a hug to(which is odd considering him). Onee-sama Kristin got her eyebrow pierced. It looks cool! Shes coming to pick me up laterfor her party. The theme is gothic, so I gotta dress as old fashioned goth as possible! I'm thinking about wearing a violet sports bra underneath of my black fishnet shirt and then wearing some type of pants and my cloak. I love my cloak..it smells like pasta and cigarettes for some reason though.. So, I'm gonna go curl my hair. Wish me luck! Hopefully, I won't scald myself with the curlers!

Thought for the day: How can someone get turned on by READING or WATCHING porn? I just don't get it.. *virgin mind*

:: 2003 12 November :: 7.07pm
:: Mood: predatory
:: Music: The Distillers: Hall of mirrors

Sayna's bit
well ladys and gentlemen, this is Sayna, umm, bunny said i could and should post a few things now and then..so here my first post:
...i really have nothing to say.. i probably won't have much to say really...heh heh, love my bunny...and uh...well ...i should probably shut up now..its not like im even saying anything...well tootles everyone..be safe and have fun?
(except for that stupid robert kid, you can get killed..i hate you)

:: 2003 12 November :: 5.59pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Linkin Park:Lying From You

Yesterday and today.
Oh Jocelyn, why must we be fated to such cruelty? Why must everyone hate me so? My own father..why can he never let me do it the way I want? Is the way I want..really that bad?

I just wanted a pair of boots,father? Why may I not have them? I almost broke my ankle once,you say? Why does that matter? It was just clumsiness you know. The clutziness of a 9-year-old child,living a lie. You don't like what I've become. Its to spite you. Its to make you pay from causing me misery!

Flowers..pretty purple flowers. I carried them in my arms today. The sweet scent wafting upon the air. It truely was a sight, ne, sister? Do not feel obliged to buy me anything..please don't. All I want is your friendship. Your shoulder to cry on, your ears to listen, your words of understanding and your arms of reassurance. Thats all I wish, sister. Now please, let me dream just a little longer so that I may live the life of lies.

vamp
You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.

"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."

Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.

As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
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You represent... anger.
Mad at the world, eh? You have a tendency to...
freak out easily. Overly emotional about
everything, you're most prone to bouts of
cruelty and moodiness. Other people may be
afraid of the fact that you explode so easily,
but at least you're honest... even if you're
honest about not liking anything.

What feeling do you represent?
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daria
You are Daria from Daria. You are full of sadness
and everything bad. You love to read, and you
are very smart. However, you are cool to
others. Even though you are so smart and quiet,
you seem cool to others. You get mad at others
quickly, but you only show it in your face. You
are very anti-social, but you do have a couple
of friends one or two. You are pretty
depressed. You have very little happiness in
you. You are very different from others. You
make the school seem much better because you
are not the exact same as the other girls. You
are not very religious, however. Actually, you
are not religious at all. Most likely, you are
going to die of cancer - sorry for that. Good
luck desperate person!

What Cartoon Are You?
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GAME BOY - Born to Play
A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of
sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have
your electronics you feel you can cope. Time
goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room
hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your
favourite collection of guitar-driven albums.
Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour,
individuality.
Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life,
action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.
EXTRA: Your personality type is the only one on
this quiz that would enjoy www.life-
blood.cjb.net. Check it out!

What kind of girl are you?
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Comment of the day: (For those of you who know Brittany H..we crack on her all the time. It makes me feel really bad but..) You know how women get breast implants..well do you get penis implants?

:: 2003 11 November :: 8.11pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: cheery crap

got new stuff!
today i traveled to the mall and went to hot topic! i bought a new ring that like covers my whole finger and i bought a choker! it looks soo kewl on me....shame i cant wear either of em at skool...:sniffle:

:: 2003 10 November :: 8.44pm
:: Mood: chipper

It was my birthday today
Dearest Jocelyn,today was my birthday. I had fun, didn't you? I wonder what Bunny-chan got for me. What do you think?

Today I dressed up nice and pretty. I had brown make-up, a khaki skort, a brown pheasent shirt ad khaki sandals. My hair was in pigtails. Everybody was happy to see me happy I suppose because everyone was happy! Morgan dumped an ice pop all over me!!! He got it on you too,Jocelyn!! I'm so sorry to cause you trouble! I thank you for making my happy today, Jocelyn..and dear sister,Bunni-kun.

What did I get,you ask? A complete make up box. Yes, Jocelyn, I did get Manga to. I got Chobits 5 and 8. I got Inuyasha 6. I got 3 How To Draw Manga books. I called you today,Jocelyn. I love you sister. I love you.

Thought for the day: Be content with friends. Do not pick out their flaws,for they could one day be the people your life depends on.

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:: 2003 9 November :: 12.10pm
:: Mood: sleepy

Bunny's b-day party!
It's funny how my father's mind works. Its a fasinating feild of endless nothingness and anger. Yes, dear Jocelyn, it is true that he is never satisfied.

The first to arrive was Brian, then Brittani, Margeaux, and Cheyanne. Finally Shannon showed up. No one excluded themselves from the party but Brian..he felt as if he didn't belong with a bunch of freak girls I suppose.

So, in an effort to quail my uneasyness,we went to Publix to see if there were any skaters up there. Sure enough,there was. One in an old people cart kept following us around. He would sit there and stare. Probably just at Brittani..I'm no hottie. We left and as we were walking down the street, a ferrari or something kept turning around and passing us,making wolf howls as they went. How idiotic, don't you think sister?

I then opened my presents. Only two, only two dear Jocelyn. But I didn't need presents. I would have been fine without them. Margeaux and Cheyanne had gotten me those new spikey gel earrings. What joy I felt to that. I turned to Brian's huge box-like gift. I cautiusly opened it by taking off ribbon and paper and inside was Trigun book #1. I am glad now that I did not buy it..yes, glad indeed.

But now is not the time to be so selfish, sister! No, selfish is never good, now is it? So we went into my room and did each others nails and hair. Then, it was time for cake. My father, being the ignorant pig-headed jerk he is,TRIED to give us more than we could eat. (He did give me one present btw becaue I annoyed the hell out of him until he did). Even when its MY party, he still has to have things his way.

The evening ended,dear Jocelyn, by being outside and playing. Playing like little children. After all,we can never get to old to still be a child...

Thought for the day: Never hold in your farts. They will go up your spinal colom and into your brain and rupture your brain!

Word for the day: Doomo arigauto gozaimasu - The Japanese words for a very formal 'Thank you very much!'

Quote of the day: It is better to be hated for what you are,then to be loved for something your not.

With lots of love, Little Dark Child.

:: 2003 8 November :: 5.21pm
:: Mood: excited

My PARTAY!!!
Fweee! My party is today! In 30 minutes to be exact! I'm sooooo excited! Heheheh I went to that gay girl scout thing and sweat my butt off. Seriously though, it was so dumb. Last night I got eaten alive by gnats..I got 2 million red dots all over meh legs!!!! So..today I went earlier at like 8 and we left a half an hour before we were supposed to. lol So now I'm here and now I'm gone because I gotta get ready!!! Byes!!

Word for the day: GINORMOUS 1- Being extremly large. Larger than humonguos.

:: 2003 6 November :: 7.11pm
:: Mood: numb

Emotionless..
I feel totally..emotionless. There is nothing left in this rotted wasteland..nothing to quench me. All I know now is anger..(If its okay I'm now going to write this like a story.) People who call themselves friends turn on you and join the enemy..the enemy which you've been fighting against and they leave to fight against you. Those are the friends of today..friends who are never there..desert you..

When I first met her, Shannon, she was nice..she was always friendly and caring. She soon adopted me as a little sister and we hung out together all of the time. But..as of late..shes started screwing up.like the who Halloween thing for instance.

The day was cool and crisp and I wore my usual baggy black freak pants(I don't like stereo typing but..)and a black Trafalgar shirt. I walked to my bus stop after stopping by the local grocery store to buy some film. I walked to the bus stop and everything seemed to be fine,I was happy..laughing. When I got to school and walked as usual to the breezeway,I looked for Shannon but found her not there. So,casually I walked to language arts and it was there I felt my sudden outburst to cry coming on. Sitting before me were Jocelyn and Kristin,talking about Shannon. At first,I was glad to talk about it and blow off a little steam but then I became more sensitive and prone to crying. I wanted to hit something...anything. Thats what I always do..I always hit people. Slap them..kick them.. scratch them. Its only to get out my anger. I am sorry to those I hurt..I truely am.

By lunch,I was absolutely distraught,trying to fight back tears I ran into the bathroom and stayed there for 10 minutes,trying to get the tears to leave me,but they just wouldn't come. Why did I want to cry in front of others and not myself? It was because they had friends..they trusted. Not the sick, disgusting. wretched one that I have. Jocelyn..dear, sweet Jocelyn. One who cares for me..one who understands..please tell them! Tell them how hard it is not to cry! To feel hated and betrayed. For you have also been here..in my shoes. Why don't they understand,Jocelyn? Dear, sweet sister Jocelyn. What have I done wrong? Loving, loyal Jocelyn, to what do I owe the pleasure of being your friend? You had a quarrel with the same friend, so tell me, to what avail was your apology?

Everyone think shes a slut..so is she? Is what people say really true? Is she a sunny day friend..yes. Shes only there when convenient. Shes never there when you need help..only when its fun. Only when she feels like it. So tell me, Jocelyn, why am I still her friend? Why do I still love her so..still even care? It's because of you isn't it? It's because of you I fight back death..I fight it back to make you happy..to see your face oh dear sister. Yes, I love you. Sister, sister, sister I love you. But now its time to go. Time to go and rot. Bye bye dear sister, for now its time to rot.

Thought of the day: And by the strong arm of flames he shall strike down thy enemies. He shall wrought them with plague, shall strike them down.

:: 2003 5 November :: 7.14pm
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: The music on 99X

Kristin's Birfday!!!!
So I got up this morning..yea yea I know. A big accomplishment for me. My alarm clock wasn't set but I woke up at the exact time I set it for,weird ,huh? I dressed in stokings (I put them on my arms..you cut the crotch out and wear it like a shirt.), a west coast choppers shirt and a velvet skirt.

Twas Kristin's birfday todaaaay! Me and her were all happy and shared cheetos. My dad is so stupid! He said I couldn't open my presents at my party I had to wait until Monday. THERE MY PRESENTS DAMN IT!! LEMME OPEN THEM!!! Took a quiz...check it.

What is your favorite color hair on a member of the opposite sex?: Black
Who is your daddy, and what does he do?: Richard, works at Lowes
What's your favorite coin operated machine?: Video games!
Can you sing the speed racer theme song?: Hell yea I can!
What's your favorite old nondisney/nonlooney tunes cartoon character?: Cosmo;the fairly odd parents
How do you feel about the government?: It sucks.
If you had one wish, what would it be?: To have a person who loved me for me.
Would you enjoy a riot?: FUCK YEA!!
Is the word "fuck" funny?: Yes it is....
What are your feelings on techno remixes?: They can go bite monkey balls for all I care.
Canada or Canadia?: Canadia!!!!
Would you rather be canadian or mexican?: Canadian..they speak french.
How much do you weigh?: 135..Damn I'm fat.
Could your mom beat up your dad?: YEA! Shes got the claws of a tiger and the fangs of a wolf

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current clothing: Black tank top and blak and red, KIKGIRL freak pants
current mood: Depressed...
current taste: Ranch chips O.O;
current hair: Short, red(needs to be re-dyed), in a pony tail.
current annoyance: The people who keep pranking my house...LOL
current smell: The stench of my dads room...
current thing you ought to be doing: Cleaning my room..
current jewelry: 6 black bracelets on each arm, moon necklace, wolf necklace, cross w/ leather necklace.
current book: Romeo and Juliet
current refreshment: Diet Sprite
current worry: People will not accept me for who I am..to be shunned by those I care for.
current crush: Eli..
current favorite celebrity: Amy Lee from Evanescence
current longing: For someone to love me as I love them...
current music: Gothic Rock..Any rock is great ^^
current wish: I wish that I knew my 'someone just for me'.
current lyric in your head: I hate everything about you. Why do I, love you? You hate,everything about me! Why do you,love me?
current makeup (if you're a girl!): Black eyeliner extended out at the corners, pale face powder, black eyeshadow
current undergarments: White bra and frilly daisy thong ^^
current regret: Being born.
current desktop picture: SESSHOUMARU!!!!!!!!!!
current plans for tonight/weekend: Have my birthday party without interuption.
current cuss word du jour: Fuck..its just the way I feel.
current disappointment: Being turned down twice by the same boy I like.
current amusement: Taking this survey,of course.
current IM/person you're talking to: Gene,Tenchi, Crystal, Alex, and Matt!
current love: Love is a word we use to freely..
current obsession: Anime..its so cool I mean..look!
current avoidance: TOMMY MARCELL!!!!!!!!
current thing or things on your wall: Posters and paint..
current favorite book: Cut
current favorite movie: Queen of the Damned

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:: 2003 4 November :: 6.46pm
:: Mood: peaceful
:: Music: Hirru no Tsuki

I have an obsession with the word PENIS
I can't get over the word 'Penis' its soooo funny >__< Okay..so I handed out all the invites today..hehe ^-^oo I added a new backround! You guys like? I hope you do..I changed my roleplaying site to. Please join..I need more active members TT___TT

www.avidgamers.com/Waterwan

So I was in science and Mrs Johnston yelled at me and Alexis for not 'paying attention'. Kristin had these HUGE frikin boots she got from Morgan..I wish I could get her something she liked. Is it to much to ask for to make someone happy?
Thought for the day: Can anyone say...PENIS?!

:: 2003 4 November :: 6.25am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Fishtank and the steady hum of the 'puter

Dad's a penis head!
Last night I was on the phone with Ronnie and my dad got on speaker phone and embarrassed the crap outta me. Probab;y won't be on tonight because of penis head but nothing really cool wil happen today anyways. Uhm...so yea I gotta go make b-day invitations.

BTW Robert..I don't hate you and I'm sorry. I hope you read this because I am.

Thought for the morning:...damn it...I can't think....need....coffee...

:: 2003 3 November :: 7.24pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: Hiiru no Tsuki (Daytime Moon)

OMFG!!!
I'm hyper because I took HAPPY pills!!! Well..chocolate really but you know..its all the same! I was flirting with every guy I saw today..it was so hilarious! I just went around and laughed and glomped people..truely an accomplishment for meh since I'm always a depressed, derranged, pshychotic bastard! Anyways...err right.

So...Brittany H. went to the coselor because her abusive father..almost worse than mines >__< He hit her with a baseball bat..do you believe that?! So..er..I kept calling people fat. I scared Kristen..she was like: "You're scaring me! Get away!" It was great!

Nothing really interesting happened..err..So I came home XD (Told you I was HYPER!) I finally got Inuyasha book 6 on Saturday if I neglected to mention and I was writing more poems for my book! I gotta do 2 more by tomorrow! Grrrr and I gotta do that vocab thingy for Mrs. Johnston. Bitch..FAT bitch! I swear, if she ate anymore she'd EXPLODE!! I told this kid, Braxton (What the hell kind of a name is THAT?!), if he didn't shut up and go away I'd kick him in his man vagina..LMFAO! In Geography I was sitting in the back with Jenna and I was like..I turned to Zack and I'm like: "I like......penis'.....especially YOURS,Zack!(Meanwhile hes scooting away) I'm just kidding!!!!" Jeez...sugar pills are the shiz. I need me somemore..HOMEADE SUGAR PILLS!!!!!!!!

So,I was really cool when I got home. Dad started to bitch at me about my birthday. He was all like: "Well fuck your birthday." And I was like: "Well you didn't give me the chance to make the invitations now did you?!" And then he was talking to Kathy and he was all like: "I'll smack her in the fucking face next time she talks to me like that! I'll fucking smack her across her smart ass mouth."

Last night he yelled at me cause I told him I didn't do anything at Margeaux's house.
Him: So what'd you do at your friends house?
Me: Nothin'...
Him: Thats all you ever do isn't it? Nothing, right?
Me: Uhm..sure.
Him: Well..you did do something. A person told me and either you lied and told the lie to them and they told it to me or your just being a smart ass and won't tell me.
Me:.......
Him: Whats the matter,not so brave anymore are you?
Me: I'm EATING. You don't chew with your mouth open..cow. ::watches tv in other room::
Him: ::turns tv off:: I solved that fucking problem real quick didn't I??
Me:.....::gets up and washes dishes::
Him: And don't you dare go in there and call your mother or friend in Ohio,because your going to pay for it.

Hmm...then he came in my room later.

Him: What the fuck is your problem?! You;ve been a little bitch for two and a half weeks now. Whats up?
Me: Nothing..
Him: So what DID you do at her house?
Me: Well me and Brittani are new lesbian lovers. ::sarcasim::
Him: I kinda figured since you aren't allowed over Kalyanee's house anymore.
Me: Mind your own buisiness,MY GOD!
Him: Anyways its Kathy's anniversary, so you ARE going to come out there and eat some cake.
Me: I'm not hungry and I gotta finish this..its due on Tuesday.
Him: So? Finish it tomorrow.
Me: JUST GET OUT!!!!
Him: Come out there and do it or I'll smack you.
Me: FINE! ::storms out and does as told::

Isn't he such a penis headed oinker? LOL! I like that word..penis head I mean. Anywho..before he starts with me about SCRUBBING THE BATHROOM (Yes,on hands and knees with a rag) because its not done to his liking,I'm gonna go.

God...I can't wait til my mom comes to get me.

Thought for the day: How come girls get their periods? Is it supposed to be hell on earth?!

:: 2003 2 November :: 2.45pm
:: Mood: Childish
:: Music: Serenity by Godsmack

Sleepover!
Halloween was a total dud...not alot of candy for me. Nothing to rot my teeth with..::sigh:: Me and Margeaux got lost, don't ask me how,we just did. So Brittani found us and we walked to the house with the party. So many little kids! O.O I got yelled at for swimming by the frickin skitzo there..I SWEAR TO GOD!! He let his own flippin kids in the damn pool and then yelled at ME!! What in the world did *I* do?? Ugh..so I got redressed and me, Margeaux and Brittani Costa were all sitting in the van talking. We went back inside and watched 2 Fast, 2 Furious. Gay...
So we went back to Margeaux's house at like...2 in the morning? We were practicing wicca..ssshh! We fell right asleep meow! I'm such a kitty...lol
We woke up at around noon the next day. Carrie and Cheyane went and got trophy's and later that night we went to the mall! I didn't have any money with me..so I told Margeaux to buy my Inuyasha comic 6..she did so I'm paying her back later. That night,at like 3..Brittani went off on Margeaux cause supposedly she'd been lying. She locked herself up in her room that day after Brittani threw Pepsi on her XDD
Anywho..thats it. Talk to yahs later!

thought for the day: You ever notice how popular people are always flat?

:: 2003 31 October :: 10.15pm
:: Music: eerie halloween music

happy!
i just got back from trick-or-treatin....it was soo much fun! i went with kalyanee.....and Armando......i was klaha from Malice Mizer (may he rest in peace)......it looked like i was wearing a robe....

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