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2004 29 July :: 10.23pm
:: Mood: tired
::yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawn::
Grr.. you know, I planned to wake up early today so I could start getting in the mood for school and whatnot, but I ended up being woke up by my mommy at 11.. When my alarm was set for 9. Honestly, I dunno what I would have done if I woke up that early, but I'll be sleepin when my head hits the pillow, that's for sure!
So, after I did all the fun stuff after you wake up, me and the mother went to the high school to get me registered. I REALLY like the guidance counselor, she's really nice and has been at Central for 5 years now. She told me if I feel flustered or I can't handle walking into the lunchroom and whatnot by myself then I can just fake some tears and I can go eat with her. Gotta love any teacher who says that! And what's worse is I have no friends here.. :alone:
Blegh, then we had to go back for me and my sisters orientation and ended up standing in a fricken locker line for an hour and a half behind this girl with her crack showing and just.. no meat on her at all. It was really.. gross. But some guy livened it up by running down the line giving people high-fives. I think he was on something.. no one can be that happy! Legally.. My mom had to do the fricken locker thing for me and the worse part is my locker is on the bottom!! I have to bend down everyday to get my crap, oh and does that suck.
I think people are going to be more intimidated by me anyways, sometimes a good thing.
Still gotta read Huck Finn. I don't wanna read, I just wanna fall on my bed and SLEEP! School hasn't started and I already wanna be out again! I got Art too :smiles: I'm glad about that.
I'm going to try to start working on the third page of my fan-fic manga thingy tomorrow when I wake up or whatever. Like when I'm not tired or busy..
Someone send me an angel :sigh:
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2004 25 July :: 2.53pm
:: Mood: tired
Mm hmm..
Dear Yue,
If you ever read this, I hope you understand what I am trying to convey to you. Ever since I lay eyes on you, I loved everything about you. Your long black hair, thoughtful black eyes. You are like me, lost. That's why we always got along so good together. I can come to you about anything in the world and you would think no differently of me. And I don't care if people say it's wrong to love you, or that it's against God. It just feels so right when I'm with you, when we talk..
We're so close, Yotan. I never wanted to leave and you were the main reason why. If you asked me to save you, I would. I would die to protect you. You are one of my best friends, Yotan and I love you very much.
Love forever, Kyoko
And for anyone else reading this, you can think what you want of me, but I don't care. I can't deny my feelings.
And this is not to say I don't love Nick or Jocelyn, I just felt like I needed to get this off of my heart.
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2004 21 July :: 4.29pm
:: Mood: poetic
:: Music: Papercut-Reanimation, Linkin Park
Konnichiwa!
Dear all you happy, perky and.. dandy readers!
I've been really busy the past few weeks with the whole moving in thing. We finally painted my room, though we're still going to do more to it. The walls are like scarlet and the trim is a deep garnet.
Got three packages from the folks. They're just burning those bridges, I swear.. Anyways, I got a bunch of clothes that I'll never wear for as long as I live -_-x And some things that I had forgotten about.. and some things I didn't even know I had! Anyways.. I'm sure you don't want to hear what was in those boxes, but I did get something I just have to tell you about..
For all of you who actually know me in person, you probably know about Brian Silverio, the kid that followed me around creepily like and had this huge crush on me and everything. I mean.. he was like.. obsessed. And I can't say I didn't like it, though sometimes it did weigh on my nerves and made me feel uncomfortable. Well.. the day after I left, he came over my house with a gift for me. I felt really guilty after all the mean things I did to him, but I got it in one of the packages today. It was in a small white box wrapped with purple plastic stuff and a silver twist tie. I opened it and it was this gold keychain purse. I thoguht that was all and I was like: ..how lame. But I noticed it opened and when I opened it.. there was a handmade charm bracelet in there.. I felt even MORE guilty.. but at least I know I'll never leave his thoughts. Though.. if that's a good or bad thing, I cannot say. Still, it's nice to know someone cares.
Yue got a computer, yay! ^^ For like... the first time in a year! And I'm all excited-ish and waiting for her email reply.. Oh, there it is! I'll ttyl!
Oh, btw, I got my hair loped off. Nick was all grr about it, but you know. What am I gonna do?
<3 Little Dark Child
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2004 21 July :: 10.04am
OW.
-Robert
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2004 18 July :: 9.56am
a sensation through my body
i'm in love...
and i'm scared
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2004 16 July :: 2.44pm
tis been a loooonnnnggg time...
yeah its been awhile since i've updated this thingy......might as well tell ya meh week, eh?
starting with sunday, i guess...
Sunday: went up to sarasota, and visited my family from virginia, at the beach thats up there.....my god, eye candy everywhere X'D like everywhere i turned there was hottness..after that i went home, and took a nice long nap from the swimming-ness....
Monday: went to sun-splash, and saw a lot of people from school..it was creepy...and omg theres one lifeguard there, i was looking around and i swear i saw this topless woman! and i float past it in the river..and its this guy, with the most girly hair...im like O.O;;;;;;;.....but he was rather cute....so eh...
Tuesday: i had guard practice...it wasnt too bad, it was actually fun..until it came to marching left and right while spinning....that was confusing...lol.....but i got it right after awhile ^_^;;;
Wednesday: i woke up at 3:30! ^_^ hehe..than i went swimming!!!! and went out to practice...wasnt too eventful...
Thursday: eh, Practice.....which was actually fun! we learned the first set of flagwork! my god it was hard though...but i took a flag home and i'll work on it today ^_^;;;
Today: nothin has happened at all....hehe.....im still waking up X'D.....
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2004 16 July :: 8.05am
Advanced Big 30 Personality Test Results Sociability | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| | 86% | Aggressiveness | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 78% | Assertiveness | ||||||||||||||||||||| | 70% | Activity Level | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 74% | Excitement-Seeking | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| | 90% | Enthusiasm | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| | 82% | Extroversion | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 80% | Trust | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 74% | Morality | |||||||||||| | 38% | Altruism | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 74% | Cooperation | ||||||||| | 30% | Modesty | ||||||||||||||| | 50% | Sympathy | ||||||||||||||||||||| | 70% | Friendliness | |||||||||||||||||| | 56% | Confidence | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 78% | Neatness | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 78% | Dutifulness | ||||||||||||||||||||| | 70% | Achievement | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 78% | Self-Discipline | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 78% | Cautiousness | ||||||||||||||| | 46% | Orderliness | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 71% | Anxiety | |||||||||||||||||| | 58% | Volatility | ||||||||||||||| | 42% | Depression | ||||||||| | 30% | Self-Consciousness | |||||||||||| | 38% | Impulsiveness | |||||||||||| | 38% | Vulnerability | ||||||||| | 30% | Emotional Stability | ||||||||||||||||||||| | 61% | Imagination | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| | 86% | Artistic Interests | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 78% | Introspection | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 74% | Adventurousness | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| | 82% | Intellect | ||||||||||||||||||||| | 70% | Liberalism | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 74% | Openmindedness | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 77% | | Take Free Advanced Big 30 Personality Testpersonality tests by similarminds.com
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2004 7 July :: 6.44pm
Advanced Big 30 Personality Test Results Sociability | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 74% | Aggressiveness | |||||||||||||||||| | 58% | Assertiveness | |||||||||||| | 38% | Activity Level | ||||||||||||||| | 42% | Excitement-Seeking | |||||||||||||||||| | 54% | Enthusiasm | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| | 90% | Extroversion | |||||||||||||||||| | 59% | Trust | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 78% | Morality | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| | 82% | Altruism | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 78% | Cooperation | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 78% | Modesty | ||||||||||||||||||||| | 62% | Sympathy | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| | 86% | Friendliness | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 77% | Confidence | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 78% | Neatness | |||||||||||| | 38% | Dutifulness | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| | 90% | Achievement | ||||||||||||||||||||| | 66% | Self-Discipline | ||||||||||||||||||||| | 62% | Cautiousness | |||||||||||||||||| | 54% | Orderliness | ||||||||||||||||||||| | 64% | Anxiety | |||||||||||| | 34% | Volatility | ||||||||| | 30% | Depression | ||||||||| | 30% | Self-Consciousness | ||||||||||||||| | 42% | Impulsiveness | |||||||||||| | 34% | Vulnerability | |||||||||||||||||| | 58% | Emotional Stability | ||||||||||||||||||||| | 62% | Imagination | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| | 86% | Artistic Interests | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 74% | Introspection | ||||||||||||||| | 50% | Adventurousness | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| | 82% | Intellect | |||||||||||||||||||||||| | 78% | Liberalism | ||||||||||||||| | 50% | Openmindedness | ||||||||||||||||||||| | 70% | | Take Free Advanced Big 30 Personality Testpersonality tests by similarminds.com
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2004 6 July :: 3.38pm
Personality quiz thingies O.O
Free personality analysis from ColorQuiz.com.
Generated on Tue Jul 6 12:30:07 2004.
Your Existing Situation
Acts in an orderly, methodical, and self-contained manner. Needs the sympathetic understanding of someone who will give her recognition and approval.
Your Stress Sources
Eager to make a good impression, but worried and doubtful about the likelihood of succeeding. Feels that she has a right to anything she might hope for, and becomes helpless and distressed when circumstances go against her. Finds the mere possibility of failure most upsetting and this can even lead to nervous prostration. Sees herself as a 'victim' who has been misled and abused, mistakes this dramatization for reality and tries to convince herself that her failure to achieve standing and recognition is the fault of others.
Your Restrained Characteristics
An unadmitted lack of confidence makes her careful to avoid open conflict and she feels she must make the best of things as they are.
Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity but tends to hold aloof emotionally.
Your Desired Objective
Suffering from the effects of those things which are being rejected as disagreeable, and is strongly resisting them. Just wants to be left in peace.
Your Actual Problem
Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety, emptiness, and an unadmitted self-contempt. Her refusal to admit this leads to her adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude.
Your Actual Problem #2
Depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation, or demands on her resources. This feeling of powerlessness subjects her to agitation and acute distress. She reacts by considering that she has been victimized, and insists--with indignation, resentment, and defiance--on being given her own way.
our distinct personality, The Benevolent Ruler might be found in most of the thriving kingdoms of the time. You are the idealistic social dreamer. Your overriding goal is to solve the people problems of your world. You are a social reformer who wants everyone to be happy in a world that you can visualize. You are exceptionally perceptive about the woes and needs of humankind. You often have the understanding and skill to readily conceive and implement the solutions to your perceptions. On the positive side, you are creatively persuasive, charismatic and ideologically concerned. On the negative side, you may be unrealistically sentimental, scattered and impulsive, as well as deviously manipulative. Interestingly, your preference is just as applicable in today's corporate kingdoms.
You value a natural style and love that which is uncomplicated. People admire you because you have both feet planted firmly on the ground and they can depend on you.
You give those who are close to you security and space. You are perceived as being warm and human.
You reject everything that is garish and trite. You tend to be skeptical toward the whims of fashion trends. Your style is easy and elegant.
Although the name Alexa creates an interest in the deeper aspects of life, we emphasize that it limits self-expression and friendly congeniality with a moody disposition. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the heart, lungs and bronchial area. The name of Alexa gives you a clever, quick, analytical mind, but you suffer with a great deal of self-consciousness, lack of confidence, and much aloneness because of misunderstandings. Your idealistic and sensitive nature gives you a deep appreciation for the finer things of life and a strong desire to be of service to humanity. There are times when you experience inner turbulence at your inability to say what you mean. It is far easier for you to express your deeper thoughts and feelings through writing than verbally. You find pleasure in literature, in poetry, and in your ideals and will turn to them when you feel you have been misunderstood. You are deeply moved by the beauties of life, especially nature.
...Are they all contridictions!? I dunno.. weird..
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2004 6 July :: 1.52pm
If you're wondering why the background is gone it's because I'm spiffing it up again ^^; I'm never happy with the same thing.
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2004 6 July :: 11.14am
Quiz
I AM 76% METROSEXUAL! Well, aren’t I fancy? Mr. Fancy Pants! People think I am very stylish… and gay. They may be right on both counts. But don’t mind them, the ladies love me, and so do I! |
L.M.A.O
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2004 5 July :: 2.14pm
You are a Silent Dreamer...
Some say your a freak, others say your very blunt, but the truth is your just misunderstood. You understand a lot more then you let on, but that doesn't stop you from letting them think what they want. Who cares? Your you, that's all thats importaint.
What kind of Dreamer are you? brought to you by Quizilla
I found this.. very interesting. The 'highest rated' on quizilla sucks. If they really want to write a fan fiction, they should write it on a fan fiction WEBSITE not on a damn QUIZ website! LOSERS!
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2004 5 July :: 9.39am
Happy 5th of July!
Yeah. whatever.
I worked at the "Red, White and Boom!" last night till...10:30? Yeah, my shift was supposed to be from 3-7:30... but I couldn;t leave amanda there all alone with those loser customers. (we worked one of the lemonade stands there! it got fun after awhile.)
Oh Oh!! I saw Nana and Sarah there. But then I saw some assholes too. :-/
Well, my hands are sore from preparing lemonade... it's harder than you think. Gonna go see what's up with all the other online things I do.
pain and suffering are a resort of what you've hidden all this time
-Robert
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2004 2 July :: 10.02am
By the way, I saw Spider Man 2 yesterday.
once again, fuck you
-Robert
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2004 2 July :: 9.57am
:: Mood: stressed/sore/tired
:: Music: NOFX: She's Nubs
Why am I faced with such challenges?
It seems that almost everything has been handed to me on a silver platter... everything coming so easily to me. Whether my parents bought it or it jsut came easy to accomplish. But wiht this whole Marching Band thing going on... I feel like I can't do it.
Why is it so hard? Is a few steps to the elft and right, back and fourth so hard? Well, actually, it is. Keeping everything above the waist straight while the rest of your body turns. GOD! I'M SO LAME!
fuck you
-Robert
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2004 2 July :: 9.14am
:: Mood: working
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I've been doing some serious thinking..
Well, I have, none of it's good thinking, but I guess some of the things are what I need to be hearing. I was thinking.. alot of the times me and Nick are fighting. Mostly because one of us doesn't agree with the other or get our way. I'm really kind of tired of it.. being treated like that, I don't want to talk to someone I love like that and end up feeling like helpless. Because he tells me his problems and as much as I wish I could, I can't help. I can't offer words of advice. I've been in similar situations but my words go unheeded.
I've just never been good at verbal comforting. It's more of a physical thing, you know? Like hugging, or patting someone on the back. And what am I really good for?
I was also thinking.. if I start going to school, will anyone even accept me? Mom says they will, but I'm sure most of them will turn me away. Just because. Oh, you're gothic, I can't be friends with you. You're a satan worshipper. You like to cut yourself. Blah blah blah. No, I don't worship satan, I am a wicca. And I don't LIKE to cut myself, it's an escape. I don't think about suicide often and when I do, it's for good reason.
But anyways, I need to finish getting dressed so I can get to work. Getting paid today so I cna buy that cute cherry dress at hottopic.
http://www.hottopic.com/store/product.asp?LS=0&ITEM=281715&RN=146
http://www.hottopic.com/store/product.asp?LS=0&ITEM=271733&RN=134
or
http://www.hottopic.com/store/product.asp?LS=0&ITEM=288717&RN=134
http://www.hottopic.com/store/nodepage.asp?LS=0&RN=130&START=41&OTH=F&MG=&ITEMCOUNT=66&SB=1 (the first two on the second row, I haven't decided which yet)
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2004 30 June :: 4.32pm
:: Music: Headstrong;Trapt
Quizzes!
Your soul is DARK. You aren't too happy with your life, though you may feel you should be. You're probably solitary, pessimistic, brooding, possibly nocturnal, but mostly a general unknown. You might have a hidden liking for pain and destruction, but you're probably more masochistic that sadistic if that's true. (look it up if you don't know what they mean!) Those that think they know you tend to place you closer to evil on a scale of good and evil, which might not be true. What people see may not be who you actually are. Some people fear you and others mock you. What isn't really known, though, is that you're not pure evil. You're just a mysterious, misunderstood - and sadly, forsaken - soul.
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2004 29 June :: 9.02am
:: Music: Monica: Angel of Mine
I see others in pain and I don't know what to do.... can i mkae it so that i feel their pain?
How I wish the subject were true.
An indescribable feeling captures my soul. I have no other choice but to write about it.
Again, I'll use yet another famous quote to end my journal... and maybe help tell you what I am feeling.
"Water, water everywhere.... and not a drop to drink." Maybe not to spare either....
-Robert
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2004 28 June :: 7.07pm
You are a Day Dreamer..
Daydreamers tend to be away from the normal, and have a deeper aspect when looking at things. Most of the time, thier outcasts of the social society, but don't worry. It just means your so deep it scares thier simple little brains.
What kind of Dreamer are you? brought to you by Quizilla
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