:: 2009 20 April :: 10.55 pm

So right now out of all the things that were bugging me the only thing left is how emotionally disconnected I feel from my family. Well, I guess you can add friends to that too.

I feel like everyone is against me. Sometimes when I spend time with my family I feel like they aren't even my family and it is a horrible feeling.

Will it ever go away?

*watch the stars fall*

:: 2009 17 April :: 11.50 am

Things are better already..
It took them forever to get my check thing situated and really it didnt get situated but whatever..
The owner of the company gave me cash.. Went to the bank, withdrew money and said "here you go, when you get your check in the mail just cash it, and give me back the same amount I just gave you."
Because my check went to my old address it will take up to a week for the tranfer of address to go through or whatever..
Yay!

2 *gazer*s | *watch the stars fall*

:: 2009 16 April :: 7.39 pm

Things in my life couldn't be any more crappy..
I have a bitch trying to aggravate me to leave Mike, because she thinks I am not qualified to take care of her sister..
I want to buy a house, but that is not going the way I had planned..
I barely have credit, so I can't get a loan, they want me to get a credit card, but I can't get a credit card because I barely have credit..
I didn't get my paycheck today, and who knows when I will get one..
Apparently it got mailed out, or so they think, they aren't really sure.. My check NEVER gets mailed out..
So I have to wait until tomorrow to see if I get it..
But here is the real kicker, they asked me to verify my address, and they only have my old address on file.. So my check was sent to that address.. Delaying it just a couple of more days..
I asked them to re-issue me a new one and void the one they sent out..
But their response was "we have to wait and see if you get it"
Leaving me to wait until fucking MONDAY to see if I get a check and if I don't then they will re-issue me a new one, and have someone from Owosso drop it off at work for me..

Fucking A.. Not to mention, my boss and I have been going rounds all week because he is a fucking moron..

So I right now, I am ready to just quit life. I want to cry, curl up in a ball and sleep for like a month..

3 *gazer*s | *watch the stars fall*

:: 2009 12 April :: 7.20 pm

So I had Easter dinner with both my parents, at my moms house..

Apparently hell froze over..

4 *gazer*s | *watch the stars fall*

:: 2009 8 April :: 5.45 pm

So I put an old mixed cd in my cd player today on the way home from work because I needed some new music, and I forgot what was on the CD..
And all these memories hit me like a ton of bricks..
Some good, some bad, and some that I can't seem to get off my mind.

This CD had songs that describe so many things in my life..
One song in particular hit home.. Well actually two songs hit home..
And now I can't get the one song out of my head..
And its probably not the best idea for it to be there..

Ugh.. this is why people label should label their cd's..

4 *gazer*s | *watch the stars fall*

:: 2009 4 April :: 9.59 pm

I seriously feel like I am losing my mind.
And one thing I hate more than anything, is when people don't listen to me, or acknowledge the fact that I am talking to them..

Not to mention I have other things on my mind that are making me want to throw up and crawl in a corner and cry because that is the only way I know how to deal with them, have known how to deal with them for a very long time..

How fucking lame..

*watch the stars fall*

:: 2009 30 March :: 5.13 pm

I feel like all my friends worlds are falling apart and there is nothing I can do about it..
How fucking shitty..

1 *gazer* | *watch the stars fall*

:: 2009 28 March :: 6.22 pm

Bowled a 300 on wii!!

1 *gazer* | *watch the stars fall*