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2008 14 November :: 10.44 pm
finally broke down and went to the doctors wednesday.
sinus AND respiratory tract infection.
lucky me.
1 *gazer* |
*watch the stars fall* |
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2008 9 November :: 11.15 am
I feel like I have a lot of emotion to pour out.
But I don't know how to put a lot of it into words.
It's been so long since I have vented any of my emotions.
I think that its because Im gradually getting better at telling Mike how I feel instead of bottling it up, and then just lashing out at him the next time he pisses me off.
Its kind of pathetic that after 3 years I still have a hard time telling him how I feel about certain things.
Most the time I am just trying to spare him the hurt, because I am a harsh bitter person.
I used to blame his daughter for every little thing, and I'd hide out in the bedroom when she'd come over.
But I've overcome that, and I think that I am even coming around to the thought of having kids eventually.
I think I'm growing up..
*watch the stars fall* |
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2008 4 November :: 9.11 am
So I've basically spent the last day and a half in bed..
I made an attempt at work yesterday. I felt perfectly fine, then all of a sudden I'm sweating profusely, feeling like I am going to vomit, and then I passed out.
I've been shakey, cold, then extremely hot.
The littlest movement makes my head throb so bad I start balling.
My head hurts even more when the lights are on.
I feel like ass, and look just as worse.
My sister, Derrick, and Seth are coming up in a couple of weeks.
Im really excited about that because I miss them all..
2 *gazer*s |
*watch the stars fall* |
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2008 22 October :: 6.16 pm
So after a lot of discussing, we have highly considered moving to Wyoming..
The final decision isn't going to be up to me, because I am not the one that has a child.
Also, we are looking at getting an english bulldog puppy.
Im still waiting for my civil service date.
And at this rate, I don't think I am going to get in to take it until december.
2 *gazer*s |
*watch the stars fall* |
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2008 25 September :: 9.13 pm
Im headed to Ohio in the morning.
My Grandma is in the hospital..
I hope my cat survives this weekend.
And I am really really excited about meeting my nephew!
There is a picture of a picture of Seth Ryan! He is absolutely perfect, and adorable.
*watch the stars fall* |
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2008 21 September :: 10.51 am
SETH RYAN DECKER WAS BORN THIS MORNING AT 4:51 AM.
WEIGHED 7LBS 15 OZ
20 INCHES LONG..
WHEN I GET PICTURES I WILL POST THEM AS SOON AS POSSIBLE..
i am finally an aunt! :)
4 *gazer*s |
*watch the stars fall* |
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2008 14 September :: 8.36 pm
So my nephew has roughly 19 days before he enters this world.
And I am so flippin' excited, I couldn't even begin to explain.
And I have a cat now. And she is so flippin' adorable..
I love her to death.
She cuddles with mike and I when we are sleepin'..
*watch the stars fall* |
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