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:: 2004 28 May :: 3.40 pm
:: Mood: excited

ALLISON! U'LL NEVER BELIEVE THIS!
omg allison! omg! i just counted those mail thingys and guess what!?! 353! we have 353 of those stupid things and we have no idea what to do with them now. lol. wonderful huh? i got really bored so i went thru and finished numbering them. craziness. wow this is fun eh?

~Cha-re~

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:: 2004 27 May :: 3.37 pm

last night was graduation. it was awesome seeing everyone graduate but it got pretty long. basically everyone said the same thing as everyone else and so yeah it was kinda boring until people got to walk across the stage and what not. then it was cool i guess. yup..... so i'm kinda really bored now. i just got done watching boohbah tho. that show is way weird. its craziness. meh, i had to ride the bus today. it sux. i think i have to ride it for the rest of the year now. like 3 days. lol. i shouldn't be complaining but i really don't like my bus. the people on there are super stupid except for like 3 people. *sigh* oh well. i should get going now, not like i have anything else to do but ya know...

~Tree~

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:: 2004 26 May :: 4.16 pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: AFI

today was good i guess. kinda boring.. same old stuff ya know? yeah so graduation is tonight. any ya childrens goin? i'm going with megan to watch her sis brittany graduate among others. yup. soooo i guess i'll get going then. even tho i don't have to be there for another hour.... yeah.

~Cha-re~

someone say moo


:: 2004 25 May :: 7.36 pm

i'm so sick of people. its like i'm not coming in clear to them. like i'm not there yet they say they can hear me. they talk to me but i don't really count. friends. yes. maybe no. i don't think they care, thats all. its pissing me off. i'm sick of it so i think i'll just stop talking to them. they wont hear me anyway. they wont miss me anyway.

~Cherie~ (omg i signed it my real name!)

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:: 2004 25 May :: 7.12 pm

yeah so.... not much happened today. hung out after school. talked to some people. that was fun i guess. then i went to the varsity soccer game. hazel suckered me into being the ball person. he pulled the whole guilt thing cuz no one else would do it and i should support my team. *shakes head* it was a boring job. but they tied 1 ta 1. it was a good game. very interesting as far as watching soccer goes.

this is to allison, thanks bunches! ur entry made me feel so special! yay!

uh other than that, i got nothing.

~Sherry berry the cherry fairy~

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:: 2004 24 May :: 10.09 pm

yay! we won our last soccer game. 1 ta notta. it was awesome.

yeah so ben and megan r going out again. wont go into that one. best to leave it at that or i'll never shut up.

yep so... school is almost over. its good yet not good. same old same old. *sigh* i guess i'll go now...

~Re~

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:: 2004 23 May :: 8.17 pm
:: Mood: sad

painful memories came back today...
lovely day i suppose. it was my church's 5 year anniversary today.... brings back sad memories. *sighs* i miss rachel. then it rained and that made it all the worse since... well i wont go into that. see, normally i like it when it rains but thats every other day. not today. and yes this all does have something to do with my church's anniversary but i guess u wouldn't know what i'm talking about unless u've been going to my church for all those 5 years and before that (its possible). ok i think i'll go now.


~Re~

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:: 2004 18 May :: 1.34 pm

just to let ya all know, i'm gonna be venting so if u don't wanna here it, don't read it.



i guess its all getting to me. everything everyones been saying about me... to me... just everything. i know it shouldn't matter what they say about me cuz i'm happy with myself but the truth is i do care. and i shouldn't. some of the things they say ARE true and theres no getting aroud them. like ok i'll admit i can't keep a steady realtionship going. my mom says i get bored easy. so ok, i get bored easy and that means i've failed in the dating world. i'll never get married. i'll never have a long realtionship. yeah that helps me. bottom line, who cares right? i mean why should i listen? i shouldn't. its just bringing me down and all that crap. but i do listen and that angers me. i mean, i know its true. i cant keep a very long relationship going but that doesn't mean i never will. i guess its just getting to me... idk. i'm not sure of much right now. in middle school everything was fine but once high school came... its like i'm never happy any more. i was so much happier with the simple things. i didn't have many friends but the ones i did have, we were really close. now its like i have a lot of friends but we're all distant. i wanna go back but i know i never can. anyway i guess i'll stop having my self-pitty-party. no one likes those anyway.

~Tree~

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:: 2004 17 May :: 10.03 pm
:: Mood: super-de-dooper!

IHOP!!!!!!!!! yay!
yeah so half day tomorrow. yay! me and liz r skipping and going to IHOP! half days r a waste of time anyways. plus that stuffed french toast...mmm mmm mmm! lol.

just for all of u who care, we lost our soccer game against lowell 2 ta notta. but we did pretty good considering they're the best in our league. ha... varsity got killed by 'em tho. 8 to 0! we did better then them i guess... but kinda not really cuz lowell's jv isn't as good as varsity but hey i can think what ever i want to right!?! i'm out!


~Tree~

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:: 2004 15 May :: 9.07 pm
:: Mood: distressed

someone rescue me please!
meh... so bored trying to stay alive in this place of great dislike, even hate, that i think i'm gonna die anyway and i just wanna go home.......... please let me go home!!! i could never live here, ever.

~Re~

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:: 2004 13 May :: 8.22 pm

*sigh* can't wait until friday.......

~Tree~

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:: 2004 12 May :: 9.47 pm

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Your first full name
Your personality rates a6
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:: 2004 12 May :: 9.35 pm

well another good day gone bad. y does this always happen to me? rah! it makes me angry! my dad messes up everything. he made my mom cry again. i just want to kill the guy sometimes ya know? if u would have seen my mom u would know what i'm talking about. but enough about him, hes a waste of time and space to talk about.

i got my colored contacts today. i hate em. they suck. i can see the gray on my eyes. meh i don't like it. oh well tho......... i guess i'll stop complaining now cuz yeah i don't want to complain anymore.

~Re~

someone say moo


:: 2004 11 May :: 7.14 pm

The Generic Teenager Stereotype
Do you drink [alcohol]?:no
Do you party a lot? How often?:nope
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?:nope
How often do you use the word like in an average hour?:mmmmmmm depends
Do you skip classes? How often?:uh not really
Do you have casual sex? Protected?:sex can wait!
Do you steal?:no
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?:depends on what u mean by inapproriate
Do you drool over celebrities?:lol no
Do you watch a lot of TV?:sometimes
Do you ever watch the News?:not really
Do you even care about world issues?:nope
Do you read books often?:all the time
Are you failing a lot of your classes?:just algebra, wait no i have a D+ thats still passing!
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?:yeah
Do you smoke cigarettes?:no
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?:i wish
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?:not really
Do you cuss a lot?:if i get really mad
Are you desperate to fit in?:no i'm good
Are you intelligent?:hahahaha..... u can answer that one for yourself
The Goth Stereotype
Black lipstick?:no
Black eyeliner?:yeah
Black eyeshadow?:yeah
Black trenchcoat?:no
Black boots?:yeah
Black fishnets?:nope
Black nail polish?:my mom would kill me
Cigarettes?:nopers
Heavy metal music?:oh yeah
Marilyn Manson?:no
Kittie?:no
Cradle of Filth?:no
Constant frown and perpetual angst?:no
Do you like to be seen as:huh?
Are you an intellectual?:uh..... not really
An atheist?:nope
Horrible home life?:at my dads
Hopelessly depressed?:used to be
Suffering with suicidal idealations?:used to
Self-mutilation?:used to
The Punk Stereotype
Plaid?:i like plaid socks and hats
Big black boots?:i have some
Mohawk?:haha yeah right
Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]:nope
Loud, confident and opinionated?:meh.. depends
Wild hair colors?:i want to but my mom... enough said?
NOFX?:huh?
Rancid?:huh?
Well versed on political scandals and outrages?:that current events will do it to ya everytime!
A:?
The Jock Sterotype
What's your IQ?:118
Do you watch a lot of sports?:no
Play a lot of sports?:only soccer
Talk a lot about sports?:nope
Do you do anything, really, but think about sports?:i do lots of stuff
Are you arrogant?:i don't think so
Are you a male or female whore?:no
Are you homophobic?:yeah..
Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident?:no thats horrible!
But really you're a quivering mass of insecurity?:that i am but i don't make fun of people
Boobs = yes?:i have them...
Parties = yes?:meh
Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = yes?:no way
The Girl Stereotype
Do you spend a lot of time on your appearence?:yes as stupid as it sounds i do
Have you ever been on a diet?:no
How much did you lose?:u mean gain?
Was it not so much a diet as it was an eating disorder?:like i could give up food? HA! u gotta be crazy!
Make yourself throw up?:sick
Make-up?:i only wear it on my eyes
Low-cut tops?:no
How big are your boobies? [Cup size]:a
Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?:sometimes not often tho
Giggle a lot?:yeah
What's the deal with boys?:meh.... some r ok some suck
Thongs?:what about em?
Pretty bras?:yay!
YM, Teen, Cosmo, et al?:no
Who's the weaker sex?:girls
Are you a feminist?:no
Do you think Brad Pitt is hot?:meh hes ok
How often do you shave your legs?:about everyother day unless i don't feel like it
How about your armpits?:same ^
Are you emotional?:when its that time of the month
Especially when on your period?:haha^
This Or That [Oh, that old coconut.]
Originality or Acceptance?:originality
Independence or Companionship?:companionship with independance
Stability or Freedom?:stability
Personal or Interpersonal?:personal
Introvert or Extrovert?:intovert
Popularity or Isolation?:depends
Unique or Loved?:both
Understood or Individual?:meh...
You or Them?:us!

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:: 2004 11 May :: 6.54 pm

wow i had a really good day today! yay! i'm happy! :)

~Re~

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:: 2004 10 May :: 8.07 pm

hello my lovely friends. yesterday was awesome wasn't it!?! i love it when it rains. its raining right now as i'm typing this. i love the sound and the smell and just everything.... except when the power goes out. it would be ok since its all like dark and such but i had to miss the season finally of the only show i ever really like to watch and that pissed me off. but other than that it was good i guess. i mean i lived so it wasn't that bad.

!Re!
or (i'm reminded of what adam called me last year... funny how these things get brought back up huh?) u can just call me
~sherry berry the cherry fairy~

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:: 2004 7 May :: 10.11 pm

yeah so lifes getting better again i guess. not a bad day to day compared to all the rest. except we got murdered in soccer by unity christian. who would of thought.... 9 to 0. man we suck. no team work i swear. if we get that all together and work on our first touches we'd be a pretty decent team but we're out on the feild getting in stupid little fights. thats not what i call a team. *sigh* oh well. we'll work on it. hazel will have us do some team building crap i'm sure. but its all good.

heather and korey kelly just got back from a date. its funny. it was her first date.... *sniff* my sister is finally growing up! *cries* i just don't know if i'm ready for this! haha. yeah it was crazy cuz i was giving her tips i guess u could call them. maybe i'm wrong but i always thought she was the one who was supposed to give me tips considering shes my big sister. lol. well i must be off!

~Re~

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:: 2004 5 May :: 8.42 pm

canada rocks! i had so much fun! but the play was kinda...idk.... strange. like it was ok, fer surely better than stupid romeo and juliet but it got so boring sometimes. other than that and the whole no sleep thing it was pretty awesome. the best part was going to a canadian thrift store and getting this super kewl old man hat that totally rocks! yeah and it was only $1.00! i win! yay! lol. well i'm off to bed now wonderful people! have a nice night!

~Re~

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:: 2004 2 May :: 7.29 pm

yeah so i made it thru the weekend without dying. nice to know huh?

~Re~

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:: 2004 1 May :: 5.42 pm


Your Existing Situation
Feels obstructed in her desires and prevented from obtaining the things she regards as essential.


Your Stress Sources
The tenacity and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties has become weakened. Feels overtaxed, worn out, and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground. She feels this adverse situation as an actual tangible pressure which is intolerable to her and from which she wants to escape, but she feels unable to make the necessary decision.


Your Restrained Characteristics
Has high emotional demands and is willing to involve herself in a close relationship, but not with any great depth of feeling.
Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Sensitive and sentimental, but conceals this from all except those very close to him.

Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.




Your Desired Objective
Needs a change in her circumstances or in her relationships which will permit relief from stress. Seeking a solution which will open up new and better possibilities and allow hopes to be fulfilled.


Your Actual Problem
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She reacts by seeking outside confirmation of her ability and value in order to bolster her self-esteem. Inclined to blame others so that she may shift the blame from herself. Anxiously searching for solutions and prone to compulsive inhibitions and compulsive desires.

someone say moo


:: 2004 1 May :: 5.28 pm

i would like to take this time to thank all of u who gave me ideas on how to not have to go to my dads house but they didn't work cuz guess what!?! im still here. meh, will things ever get better? prolly not but one can hope right? heather didn't have to come this weekend... again. my dad came to our house like idk sometime during the week to pick up jonathan for some reason and he told heather not to come to his house. lucky her. i think i should get in some big fight with him over something stupid and just leave so he can tell me not to come back. yeah that would be awesome!

~Re~

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:: 2004 30 April :: 4.28 pm

trying to figure out a way to not have to go to my dads house. *thinks* i got nothin. any ideas cuz i really don't wanna go.

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:: 2004 29 April :: 9.23 pm

lalalalalalalalalalalalala.......... ya know what? life never gets easier. man, that took me 15 years to figure out!?! yeah shut up i'm slow ok?

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:: 2004 27 April :: 8.41 pm

yeah today was better i guess. dave talked to that lawyer and if we do end up taking my dad to court and what not we're pretty sure we can win, in fact we're almost positive. so i guess thas good. i don't even know what else to say about life... it kinda sux again. i know we all go thru ups and downs in life and i was on an "up" for a really long time. it was like a record for me. but then again i was on a "down" for like 6 months b4 that so its not like its even or anything... but i don't really deserve an even. i don't know... i'm just rambling on so i'll stop now i guess.

~Re~

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:: 2004 26 April :: 9.22 pm
:: Mood: indescribable

today sucked. thats all there is to it. it started bad and its ending bad. from the minute i got out of bed i knew i should just stay at home but no. what do i do? i go to school and have such a sucky day no one could ever believe so much crap could happen in one day. like fer real, i got up and everyone in my family was mad at eachother for no reason. that just started my day with yelling and arguing. then i get to school and break up with Dustin. yeah that made me feel even worse. i hate breaking up with people! it just makes me seem like i'm such a loser. then my mom took me to the doctors to check out my ankle and he said i cant play soccer for a while. that pissed me off. i really want to play. i hate sitting on the side not being able to do anything.... grrr! and u'd think it'd stop there but no the horror continues. heather called my dad cuz she has a meet on his weekend so she wanted to ask him if she could go (not like itd stop her if he said no which he did) and i'm not exactly sure what her said to her but she came out of the room crying about it. he just makes everyones day bad. so daves getting a lawyer and we might not have to go over to his house every other weekend anymore.

~Re~

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