Dried Tears... not in vain

:: 2005 25 November :: 2.49pm

the first year has come and gone... and couldnt have been any more beautifull than it was. you make it beautifull... well actually... together we made it beautifull.

yesterday was perfect. lots of food, family, and togetherness. exactly how it should have been. :)

:: 2005 24 November :: 10.33pm

So you got what you want out of me
Took me for the ride but you never
Bothered saying goodbye, No return
What I have, is all that I have
And Im so afraid of losing
And Im so afraid of bruising
Cause Ive been here before
But I still want more
And I'd do it all again.

Kate

:: 2005 24 November :: 12.35pm

I went to my old entries and looked at what I wrote last year:

Thanksgiving: done.

All I got out of it was food that made me want to throw up, an intense irritation, and the strong reminder of why I hate existing so much.

Oh my how time changes things... or rather doesn't at all.

3 moos | someone say moo

joeydomina

:: 2005 24 November :: 9.54am

Happy Thanksgiving
Happy Thanksgiving Everyone. I hope you guys are having so much out there. Ttyl bye, Joey

:: 2005 23 November :: 10.49pm
:: Mood: Sick

So much for all the promises you made, they served you well
and now you're gone and they're wasted on me.

Well As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
But as for me, I wish that I was anywhere with anyone
Making out.

One last kiss for you
One more wish to you
Please make up your mind
I'd do anything for you
One last kiss for you
One more wish to you
Please make up your mind

alastar

:: 2005 22 November :: 11.03pm
:: Music: the Mars Volta

There are no nets on solid ground

It's like walking on embers or glass or nails or razors.

These are the times that make thin ledges or tight ropes or balance beams seem easy.

I am confused and corrupting myself, wrapping me up in worry.

There is no need, go to sleep. You're giving yourself too much time to think.

What happened to chainlink? There is something in daylight that makes my armor fade.

:: 2005 22 November :: 3.32pm

So at strike on Sunday it was pretty fun. When H went into the girls dressing room he was shocked. He said that it looked like a buffet gone wild lol. There was food all over the floor and clothes and makeup. It was gross. It was 10 times worse than the guys dressing room. H was picking stuff up and I'm like "omg there is my other sock that I couldn't find" and then he picked up some food and I'm like "oh that was mine" so since alot of it was mine he made April and I clean it. It was sooo gross. Then he told us to go through the teachers lounge to go get the mop so we did but we found tons of food so we just started eating it and we couldn't figure out what chemical to put into the water to mop the floors lol. We are pretty dumb. We finally got the mop into the makeup room and we didn't know how to mop so he had to show us. Haha all in all we had fun and I'm really happy that April and I are friends now since we weren't last year. Haha I can't imagine why!?!

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:: 2005 22 November :: 3.31pm

Yeah so maybe you should call her again. Let's see where that gets you!?!?

:: 2005 22 November :: 9.35am

on a side note... can we say irresponsible.

*rolls eyes... moron.

:: 2005 22 November :: 8.58am

ok... in case anybody was NOT aware.. which im assuming most are not... the Holly Hop this year is a semi formal dance just like swirl or homecomming and is on saturday december 17th. yes ladies.. this means pretty dresses. ok, now im getting fairly frustrated.... and just for your further reference it is the freshmen that are planning this dance. if you knew about the dance prior to this entry please comment and tell me how you found out.... im trying to see how many people have actually HEARD hazels "announcements" because i havent... and he cant get it through his head that nobody is aware of when or what the dance is. most people only know of it through "rumors" or from me. so yeah... please comment on this issue.. EVERYONE... PLEASE.. because im very displeased with the planning of this event.

in other news.... *ponders if displeased is even a word* things have been going fairly smoothly. (in all aspects)

thursday is mine and keegans first year.... thats what we've decided to call it. why limit ourselves to "one" when we can say it's the first. its on thanksgiving.. so the day will be filled with family, food, and lots of US time. i think it works out nicely because we REALLY have something to be thankfull for. :)

GUESS what.... keegans dance crew (61syx technique) just got hired by the GR Rampage to dance at all their home games. its a paid contract deal and they're getting sponsered by a gym... they'll get jerseys with their BBoy names on em, 2 free tickets each to all the games and lots of publicity. im so excited for them! there's 5 of them... which just goes to show how good they are.. to get such an amazing opportunity... not to mention all the money they'll be making. *smiles....... as if enough people dont recognize keegan wherever we go... the guy told them that about 9 thousand people come to each game.. and there's 8 home game games.... say about 72 thousand people... yeah.. i'd say this is their big break! im so proud......

i'm VERY MUCH looking foward to sleeping in everyday of break. i have to work every day but thursday though.... aww well. i think friday im gonna get up really early and go shopping. i'd like to get a video camera for my mom for christmas.. figure that'd be the best day to get a good deal on one.

so yeah... i think that about covers it..

:: 2005 21 November :: 10.39pm
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: Anything But Ordinary-Avril Lavigne

So I was going to write this whole long entry but I don't really feel the need to anymore.

Friday-kids show, pizza, charlie & the chocolate factory, went home for two hours, show, IHOP.
Saturday-show, annalise's, show, cast party. At the cast party I cried for a long long time and so did April and alot of the seniors. I don't feel like explaining why so if you were in the play then you'll know why and if you weren't then don't bother asking.
Saturday night-Mikki's house.
Sunday-Aprils house then to Strike.

That was it I guess. I wasn't going to come to school today because I wanted to sleep in but then I remembered April I promised I would go and she promised me she would go so we both just, went.

I'm really happy that we talked today. I haven't talked to him in so long.

I'm happy that tomorrow is our last day of school.

Lisa and I are going shopping on Friday since it's the biggest shopping day of the year!!! I'm excited. We now have Lisa and Ashley days which are like once a week lol. We are dorks haha but I'm going to post pictures from the play soon.

Love always, Ashley

Your so predictable.

bleedingsun

:: 2005 21 November :: 5.43pm
:: Music: the Mars Volta

Always the optimistic one

So...biology. I have a lunch detention tomorrow, because I didn't finish my packet. First of all, I didn't know the packet was due. She says it was on the board. It wasn't. If it was, I would have done it. I'm not the kind of kid who just doesn't do a 100 point assignment. Second of all, even if I had known I had to do it, I wouldn't have been able to. This shit is so confusing. I have to read a paragraph like 4 times before I even begin to comprehend it. Oh, and guess what.

The test is tomorrow.

At least tomorrow is the last day before vacation. And today is seven months.

Time flies.

1 moo | someone say moo

:: 2005 21 November :: 4.02pm

Lost and broken
Hopeless and lonely
Smiling on the outside
But hurt beneath my skin
My eyes are fading
My soul is bleeding
I try to make it seem ok
But my faith is wearing thin

So help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
That I'm open
And I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me sew them up

I only wanted a magazine
I only wanted the movie screens
And now my mind is an open book
And now my heart is and open soul for all to see

I need someone to help me fill them
I need someone to help me sew them up

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joeydomina

:: 2005 21 November :: 10.18am

no cell phone anymore so if you want to talk to me you have to call nates house cuz my sister is a big douche. well um yeah thats the newest news for today so yeah buh bye, JOey

bleedingsun

:: 2005 21 November :: 6.20am

Good morning

I would like to crawl out of my clothes and fall back into bed and wrap the blankets around myself and just drift back to sleep.

Why? Not because I'm tired, no. It's just because I don't want to face the massive amount of homework I'll recieve, and the dirty looks I'll get from the homework I didn't even attempt. Oh, and the test I have today which I haven't read the chapter for.

Fuck.

:: 2005 20 November :: 8.37pm
:: Mood: Depressed

So I was going to write all about this weekend but now I'm out of time and I typed out everything and then I didn't like how it sounded so I erased the whole thing and then I typed it again and I still thought people wouldn't understand and I want them to so I just decided that I'm going to write it tomorrow when I have more time to think and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
<3 ashley

:: 2005 19 November :: 10.56am

This isn't going to happen.

I wont let it.

Now my whole day is ruined.

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:: 2005 19 November :: 10.06am

the play is going really well.

and if anyone ever goes to eat at the IHOP on the beltline i will personally kick your ass for being stupid. im sure ashley will too. that place can burn....

:: 2005 18 November :: 4.04pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: The Used

I have an hour before I have to be at school for our second show of the day and I don't even know what to do. I haven't had time to myself or time not to do anything in forever. Today we had to be at school before it started to get ready for the childrens show. After we were all ready April, Mikki, Megan, and I all watched Laguna Beach. I love that show. Anyways the show was so much fun. Little kids are so adorable. Afterwards we could pretty much do whatever we wanted so Megan and I hung out with Emily and Pam since they are office aids and they weren't doing anything. We got to go to our normal lunch in full costume and makeup and see everyone. Everyone was amazed when they seen us..haha like we wouldn't normally be wearing tutu's and monkey costumes? Kidding. Afterwards we ordered pizza and then we just watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory in the auditorium. Most of us fell asleep on the stage and when I woke up school was over so here I am now. Tonight after the show the whole cast is going to ihop to eat and we have to go in full costume and makeup again even though it's like 2 degrees outside lol. Oh well. Tonight at the play I have to wink at Emily when I'm on stage lol. She's such a dork but anyways I should get going.

<3 ashley megan

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alastar

:: 2005 17 November :: 11.34pm
:: Music: A Perfect Circle

The horns and hooves were dancing in headlight haze and then on the hood.

Dents caught fur and blood while paint was scraped and scratched off. A face full of glass cut bridges of noses and lips of mouths and brows of eyes.

What if..?
I couldn't..
This close..
I wouldn't..

I would never let you go.

The foreshadowing was everywhere, we surely must be blind.
We could have prevented this, if only we'd opened up our eyes.

Deer tied down with faces mortified.
Warnings to be careful.
A joke about running into traffic.
Warnings to be prepared.

bleedingsun

:: 2005 17 November :: 11.25pm
:: Mood: shocked

We hit a deer on the way to my house.

It was the scariest thing to ever happen to me.

We're okay.

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:: 2005 17 November :: 10.51pm

The play was really awesome tonight!! I wasn't even nervous at all but Annalise and I couldn't stop laughing in our munchkin house's. I got a dozen roses and then Missy gave me a single rose too. I miss her. She is one of the nicest people I know. Anyways tomorrow is going to be a long day but at least we don't have to go to any classes. Two shows tomorrow=tiring.

What the hell? You really upset me sometimes. I just need to go to bed. I have a long weekend ahead of me.

sweet sixteen . beauty queen looking
through her magazine && everyone
thinks she has everything while deep inside she�s crying

:: 2005 17 November :: 8.55am

yesterday was the first snowfall of the season... which marks the day keegan asked me to be his girlfriend.... it may not be the technical date... but its the symbolic day. I can't wait till the 24th when we can finally wear our rings engraved "the first year". just a symbol of our relationship.. not promise rings, just a symbol.

1 moo | someone say moo

:: 2005 16 November :: 10.14pm
:: Mood: Exhausted

I promise I wont let you down if you take my hand tonight.
I promise we'll be just fine this time, if you take my hand tonight.