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:: 2007 16 May :: 8.36pm

I've been working for the past two weeks like crazy and what do I get? My first paycheck is 162.43 after all is said and done. I definitely don't make enough money.

I feel like a horse being broken in to ride.

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:: 2007 14 May :: 11.48pm

The doctors think my dad might have prostate cancer. I was reading up on it today and nowhere did I read that it could be fairly survivable the only thing I read was that people can live up to a couple years after they are diagnosed. I really don't want to lose my dad the same way I saw my grandfather go.

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:: 2007 13 May :: 7.39am

Happy Birthday to me......
Happy Birthday to me......
ummm Happy Birthday to me......

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:: 2007 12 May :: 8.07am

Lost and Found
Well all I'm very upset. I either left my new cowboy hat somewhere or someone stole it..... That was the first thing my dad's bought me in like 5 years. :( It meant alot to me because it was my favorite hat that I've owned. If anyone would like to help me try to buy a new one Please send money to my house just some spare change or something. Thanks if anyone responds and sends money my way.

2203 15 Mile Rd NE
Sparta, MI 49345

Bye

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:: 2007 11 May :: 3.03pm

I got a call asking me to work today from four to nine. So I'm going into work. I'm such a push-over, but I need the money. I listened to seventies rock and wrote all day. I think I produced some good stuff. I have even more of an idea where it's heading. Can't say anything about it yet, but maybe I'll have a few people read it and tell me what they think when I'm finished. Yes. That's just what I'll do.

Not a day goes by...

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:: 2007 11 May :: 7.57am
:: Mood: cheerful

I use to have all the right words...
Last night, in that moment before sleep comes, I had the perfect sentence. It's lost now.

I spent the night at Rueben's. The gazebo. It was entertaining.

Why do I always wake up early when I don't want to? I'm glad I did, because as the filtered morning sun came streaming into the gazebo, I looked up and watched a hummingbird gracefully flit around a tree branch with newly blossomed leaves. The sounds of the morning were almost deafening, and I layed back down, closed my eyes, and smiled to myself.

Summer is finally here.

someone say moo

:: 2007 9 May :: 2.27pm

I'm getting back in the swing of things. Working and all. Final grades are in: all A's and one A-. It was worth all the freaking out and late night studying I did.

Now, instead of analyzing Byron or Faulkner, I listen to old stinky men bitch that they got overcharged for their watermelon.

Who said life isn't fair?

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:: 2007 5 May :: 12.22am

I have work in 7 hours and i have to move 250 trucks in 8 hours.... sounds nearly impossible....but not for me mwahahaha because I am that awesome

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:: 2007 4 May :: 7.11pm

I'm home. I feel like I'm in high school again.

In other news, I'll be able to graduate college in four years instead of five.

Who's up for saving $7000? ME!

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:: 2007 3 May :: 10.52pm
:: Mood: Exhausted

March and April 2007
3/2
"Sorry, I'm feeling your apple." - Kate

3/9
"Let's have a taco-nightie party." - Brittany

3/10
"You think they're aliens?" - Kate
"I was thinking more like they're filming a porn." - Brittany

"I want to go to school as the Michelin man." - Prudy

3/30
"If I saw Ola today, she'd be in my bag." - Prudy

"Of course they know we speak English, we have a black guy with us." - Prudy

4/11
"My tongue is not going into that kid's mouth." - Prudence

"Your relationship has moved up a level. You went from bestiality to murder." - Kate

4/15
"My host mother doesn't want to kill me, she just likes butter." - Kate

"I can handle money when I'm drunk, high, or having sex." - Jeraldina (Mexico)

4/16
"Save me from the metrosexuals." - Prudy

"What does he hate?" - Kate
"Penetration." - Allie (Canada)

"I shaved my pubes this morning." - Malcolm (USA)

"Prudy's cute when she talks about cannibalism." - Brittany

"What your nuts, Prudy's out to get them." - Prudence

4/18
"Why is the vaginal disease girl volunteering here?" - Allie

"You know, I get the feeling Asians know what they're doing." - Laurence (Canada)

"Your legs are your future: open them and accept." - Prudence

4/20
"If makes you want to rub your body against a Hungarian boy." - Kara (Australia)

"What would it be like to be married to Malcolm?" - Prudy
"Lots of sex." - Brittany

4/21
"Let's just say I'd be happy if I was dead right now." - Rebecca (Australia)

"If you have the choice to kill a cobra or China, kill China." - �migiel (Poland)

"You should get a tattoo of a camera on your ass." - Allie

"We're not alcoholics, we're not very interesting." - Rebecca

"Period. Period. Period. Oh my god, hot French guy." - Prudence

4/22
"Why don't you take a hike to New Zealand?" - Brittany
"Because I don't screw sheep." - Prudy

4/24
"[If I had a dog,] I'd name him Buttons or Carlos." - CJ (Bermuda)

"Sexual frustration, I love that." - CJ

"To save the world, we need to get Adam to wack off." - CJ

4/26
"CJ dulled down my question mark with his period." - Prudence

"[Polish wine:] they just drop a grape into a bottle of vodka." - Prudy

4/27
"He thinks I want a nymphomanic pedophilic husband." - Prudy

4/29
"I'm a natural shit factory." - Malcolm

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:: 2007 3 May :: 12.52am
:: Mood: excited

So, this was a really exciting night for me.

I discovered Mike Gravel. I am in love with his stances on the issues. I think he might be a bit too extreme for the general population, which leads me to believe that he won't make it past the primaries, unfortunately.

Then, when I was reading the postings on Mike Gravel's site, I stumbled across Sugar City Cane. It's a company that is totally green. They produce ethanol by growing sugar cane with hydroponics on acre wide buoyant platforms in the sea near the equator. You should definitely check it out! The site takes a little while to load because of the background, but you can read the text if you highlight it with your mouse while you're waiting for it to load. This could be one of those great solutions to peak oil, while at the same time reducing global warming. Check it out and let me know what you think.

Michelle

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:: 2007 2 May :: 2.22pm

So, what is this saying about us?

CMU Students Find Work in Michigan

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:: 2007 2 May :: 2.11pm

I am done with exams. My brain hurts too much to describe. I just wrote ten pages (front and back = one page) for my two english exams that were back to back. My hand hurts. I am done.

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:: 2007 2 May :: 7.51am

one more day.

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:: 2007 29 April :: 12.48pm
:: Mood: distressed

Why is it that when everything feels like it's falling apart, we put on a smile and walk away?

The center cannot hold. Exams this week. I haven't studied yet. I will. I'll get to it. I feel like I'm in a Hemingway novel. Or Faulkner. Dewey Dell.

Will the circle be unbroken...

I'm ready to go home, but I feel like I'm sentencing myself to prison. It feels like a loss of freedom. But maybe I don't deserve freedom. Maybe I've never had it, just the illusion of it. Maybe.

someone say moo

:: 2007 24 April :: 6.37pm

Is there an impeachment in his future?

Perhaps.

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:: 2007 24 April :: 3.41pm

i'm sitting in the computer lab trying to finish my journal/critical analysis for my modern american literature class. it's horrible. my brain is being so stupid. i'm getting distracted easily, and i'm having problems comprehending the questions i'm suppose to use as prompts. i'm not stupid! writing these are so painful and tedious. i've gotten six done, and i only have two more to go, but they're on two novels, the sun also rises, and as i lay dying. stupid. i don't mind doing them, but i'm having so many problems concentrating! it's so frustrating!

that's all i wanted to rant about.
good afternoon.

someone say moo

:: 2007 23 April :: 8.00pm
:: Mood: amused

I think Patrick, my fish, is addicted to eating. He just ate twelve Beta pellets in two hours. He eats three in a normal day.

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:: 2007 22 April :: 6.11pm
:: Mood: amused

This was a long weekend. I went to the School of Music formal last night. It was really fun, but the room was super hot from all the people dancing.

Moved the room around today because of "Residence Life Order Day."

Basically had to put the desks and beds back in the same places they were at the beginning of the year. It was really gross. The bottoms of my feet were black from all the dirt on our floors that were under the rug and the beds. I sneezed a lot too.

In other news, during the ten minute walk from the parking lot to the dorms I got a pretty good sunburn.

It is summer.

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:: 2007 21 April :: 3.36pm

sometimes all it would take is to see the slightest difference... But as is life I suppose.

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:: 2007 21 April :: 8.26am

American Sign Language
Well I've been trying for a while now to learn something new that I can use if no one else knows it. I actually had someone yesterday that I randomly met try talking to me in ASL and I could speak very very little but enough to carry on a conversation. It's been really cool learning it and I definitely recommend it to anyone wanting to learn a new language.

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:: 2007 17 April :: 4.58pm

I'm sitting here, listening to music, burning a purple candle and reading over my term paper for literary analysis [see few posts previous]. I have more papers to write, but I haven't yet. I'm just enjoying playing with my candle wax. It's very soothing. And purple.

I was reading over my paper and thinking about what my professor said to me when I went to his office yesterday. He was telling me about how his wife was in Ohio defending her thesis. He said, "I'm telling you all this only because I have a feeling you will be doing this in the near future."

Doctorate. Getting a Doctorate. That's what he was talking about. Me. Getting a Doctorate. He thinks I could...I will...

I wish I had enough money. I wouldn't hesitate. I just...I don't...I can't. It's not feasible. I have to become a teacher and pay off my debts and become an adult, and, who am I kidding? What you truly want to do is never what you can do. It's what I learned in kindergarten:

No one ever said life had to be fair.

And it's not. We live in a society with a myth that's alive and well that you can work your way up. That may be true, but it's very unlikely. The rest of us just get to sit here, potential wasted, living at the hand of an unfeeling, unjust, and uncaring capitalist society.

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:: 2007 17 April :: 4.19pm

"Sex reminds her of eating spaghetti."

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:: 2007 15 April :: 10.47pm

For you, darling

Get Your Sexy Name

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:: 2007 14 April :: 11.57pm
:: Mood: calm

I officially became a brother of Kappa Kappa Psi this afternoon. Now I am an active member. There was lots of cool stuff that happened that I can't talk about, which is a little lonely, but understandable. I know I'm finally around people that understand how I feel about music, and that is the best feeling in the world.

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