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Iron-Cipher

:: 2007 13 April :: 8.47pm

why do I feel so alone lately? I know it sounds emo but I really do mean it since I have been hanging around 40 feet in the air on a power line the last couple days. If I died would anyone know? No seriously how long would it take for anyone to even find out, it would be the end of the day before my supervisor did if not longer prolly not till the next day when I don't come back or the day after. Then they would have to call my parents if they are even on my emergency contact list. Then who knows rachel is in France and my parents wouldn't know how to get ahold of her and might not even tell her till she got back and everyone else only heres about me if I say it or it goes through the grape vine. Like I said it is a little emo but I really do wonder what if my ladder gave way, or the line snapped, or if there was too much aprerage on the line or a thousand other things like getting in a car accident. I don't know, I just know I feel really alone right now.

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snowman

:: 2007 12 April :: 2.05pm

I Don't use woohu anymore. i use faceass... if you are not on my faceass then there are 3 possible reasons why you are not

1) you don't have a faceass
2)i forgot to add you or i haven't found you yet
3)(most likely) i dont like you and i dont want to be your friend

have a good day!

someone say moo


ladybug04

:: 2007 11 April :: 9.08pm

Gotta love Friends




Sam says:
but.. i'm just average..

"Obviously this blue portion is the land." says:
no, you're not

"Obviously this blue portion is the land." says:
you are not just average

"Obviously this blue portion is the land." says:
you're special, you're great and you're wonderful

"Obviously this blue portion is the land." says:
you are currently and will continue to kick life's butt when it tries to knock you down.

"Obviously this blue portion is the land." says:
you make the great seem average and the average seem crappy

"Obviously this blue portion is the land." says:
smart, beautiful, funny, down to earth, relatable and able to do whatever the hell you want. That's fucking exciting.

someone say moo


snowman

:: 2007 11 April :: 9.46am

i cant ask for anything more, i have no money, but who cares.. life is great

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m&ms487

:: 2007 11 April :: 1.44am
:: Mood: cold

The crisp air feels soothing coming through the window this time at night. It penetrates the room with a sense of belonging.

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joeydomina

:: 2007 9 April :: 10.34pm

It Happened.
It finally happened. It's only a matter of time. Soon my life will be as complete as it can get for now.

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Iron-Cipher

:: 2007 9 April :: 8.43pm

just in case I didn't mention it I work at Comcast now. I am a technician. Anyway now you know I have been quiet about it for the last month and a half but I figured I mine as well mention it.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 9 April :: 3.36pm
:: Mood: amused

The only way to behave to a woman is to make love to her if she is pretty, and to some one else if she is plain.

-Oscar Wilde From The Importance of Being Earnest

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m&ms487

:: 2007 8 April :: 5.10pm

stupor.

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ladybug04

:: 2007 7 April :: 9.08pm

"True love is your souls recognition of its counterpoint in another"

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joeydomina

:: 2007 5 April :: 8.05pm

Graduated
I have now graduated and can become a truck driver. You name it I'll drive it.... Minus a bus with children.... those are targets to hit. but yay go me.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 2 April :: 3.25pm

Today has been one of those days that float by without much thought or interest. At least in classes. I left my flute in one of my English classes, and I didn't realize it until I was getting my stuff to leave the class afterward. Luckily, someone turned it in to the English Department office, and all was well.

I have so many papers to write and assignments to do, but I'm lagging a bit behind. I like the feeling when I'm finished, but I just can't seem to get up the motivation to do it. I have all the ideas in my head, and I actually do enjoy writing them, I just have to make myself sit down and do it. I know, it's a common problem for many people.

I'm coming home next weekend for Easter, so that should be fun, except my family doesn't really celebrate Easter any more. I also get to hang out with pips and just have a weekend away from the dorm (yes!).

I haven't had much to say lately, I'm in a state of paralysis, emotionally and intellectually. I don't know how to describe it much more than that. It's nice, I don't really worry about much, or think about things, and it's less stressful, but it makes me feel like a bad person, a waste, merely floating by watching the scenery. Inactive. I think most of my [our] generation is in this paralysis, but they don't realize it. It seems much better to sit back and watch life go by, filling the hours with jokes and friends, and avoiding any real intellectual stimulation for the simple reason that it hurts. It hurts to realize that you could be wasting your life. It hurts to question your faith and your ideals and your direction in life. It's much more gratifying to sit back and enjoy life, accept, assume, do nothing.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 31 March :: 10.22pm

Yeah, that's right. I'm EVERYWHERE.


HowManyOfMe.com
LogoThere are
1,166
people with my name
in the U.S.A.

How many have your name?

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m&ms487

:: 2007 31 March :: 12.53am

Talking to Rueben who is walking back to the towers after a night of fun.

He is complimenting my body parts. Oh goodness.

He just quoted Green Eggs and Ham...and can't remember it. :)

kiddypoo's.

kiddypoo's are evil, I guess.

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joeydomina

:: 2007 1 April :: 11.51am

Perfect Zero
Yeah this is a perfect alley dock. I'm so good at this truck driving thing why I didnt do it before is a question I need to ask myself

http://x89.xanga.com/80dd443a78032114528617/z81888712.jpg

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m&ms487

:: 2007 26 March :: 3.27pm

hair is gone. very short. pictures later.

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ladybug04

:: 2007 25 March :: 9.03pm

I had a fantastic weekend. I hung out with Lindsey and Alyssa friday, and got some cold stone icecream it was delicious.. We ended up seeing Premonition at celebration. It was really good.
Then saturday I was literally babysitting from 5 am to 130 am sunday morning.. for 3 different people and made a total of 110 dollars
And then today I went running and then went and had dinner at my sister's house. Which was also delicious.

And next weekend Justine and I and some people will be hanging out hopefully.

I love the weather, it is fantabulous and i'm in an excellent mood.
I couldn't be happier!

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m&ms487

:: 2007 25 March :: 1.59pm

Happy belated fifth birthday, journal!

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m&ms487

:: 2007 25 March :: 1.21pm
:: Mood: busy

Today is a super busy day. I woke up at nine and cleaned the dorm, went to breakfast (where there was a fire alarm and I had to stand in the rain for ten minutes with two really drunk girls who couldn't walk), and went to the music building for the KKPsi bit class service project. We polished the marching band tubas and faltos and all those good things and enjoyed some silver polish fumes. Now I'm in the UC (university center) studying for my KKPsi final exam and waiting to get my hair cut! I made an appointment for five and I'm getting about eleven inches cut off. I will have before and after pictures on facebook eventually.

After this I have my final exam and I'm a bit nervous. I'm the only one in the entire group that hasn't been in marching band, and thus, I don't know the fight song, or the Alma Mater, or Go Chips. We have to sing it (as a group), and I'm going to look like an idiot because I forgot to listen to it when I was at my dorm with a computer that has speakers!!! GAH!

Anyway, after my meeting, I have an annotated bibliography to do and who knows what else I forgot.

I'm just having some odd days lately. Not sure why. Silver polish fumes, perhaps?

Michelle

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m&ms487

:: 2007 23 March :: 12.19pm

I'm really tired and this chair rolls very smoothly. It's an office chair and I'm ALONE in the computer lab. It's Friday, so OF COURSE I'm alone in the computer lab. No one has FRIDAY classes except for me. Exception. Exceptional. Exceptionally tired. Gah.

I have a quiz in fourty minutes. It's extra credit. But it is of vital importance to my grade. VITAL. I haven't studied much. Rolly chair. I'm dysfunctional today. They shouldn't have let me outside. On the PROWL. Eh, cats?

You know, they outlawed the sale of "tobacco" pipes and bongs on Tuesday (well, that's when it went into affect, at least). You can't buy bongs anymore. You can't buy crack pipes anymore. At least not in Michigan. Do they think that making paraphenlia illegal is going to reduce illegal drug consumption??? I've seen a bong made out of an Aunt Annie's salad dressing bottle. No. It's not going to reduce it. GAH. If anything, it's going to make the general population more creative. Stupid.

Quiz in thirty five minutes. Who knows what neutral omniscience is off the top of their head? Ooohh, me. wait. no. never mind. but it was right next to the Oedipus Complex in the book. That's when a guy wants to get rid of his dad so he can take his place with the mom. Mother/Son sex. The Electra Complex is the feminine form of that. Good to know.

it's nice outside. a tid bit windy, but that's okay. i can see the catholic church from here. it's a small red brick building with lots of bushes. i hate those people who got to church on sundays because they feel bad about partying the night before. they ask to be forgiven for there sins. how can those people think they are better than anyone else?

Quiz in thirty minutes. better study. printer activated. vocabulary words out of a list. bowling tonight, though, and i have a faint craving for a hotdog. one of those nasty ones that you get a football games wrapped up in aluminum foil, all smushed and gooey and warm. one of those.

i'm so tired. i need to go to bed. how am i going to make it through this class? i already acted like an idiot in my last class. the prof asked why the great gatsby was a great book, and i said because people can relate to it, all people do in it are drink and party, and because of the clear modern language and descriptions riddled with metaphors and similes, it's easy to understand and relate to. in the back of my head i though "you can't argue that a book is great, there is no way to prove it" and there isn't. there is no way to prove one thing is better than another. it might be more symmetrical, more correct in language usage, it might employ dramatic irony, metaphors, similes, but to someone, a technical car manual may be the best piece of literature they ever read and for another it might be Shakespeare, or Judy Bloom, or some trashy novel they got at the grocery store for five ninety nine. You can't say that something is the greatest book, or the best, or good, or not good. you can't prove it. you can argue, but you can never prove it.

twenty five minutes.

michelle

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joeydomina

:: 2007 23 March :: 11.27am

Hover mouse and other comp accessories
I'm not sure if these are real but it would be cool for some but bad for others for these certain items for pc gamers. (joe)

http://www.crazypc.com/other/misc/hovermouse.htm

http://www.crazypc.com/other/misc/lanpotty.htm

http://www.crazypc.com/products/8177.html

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m&ms487

:: 2007 22 March :: 11.21am

I called Rueben and he was in class. Opps. My mistake. Never mind.

Listening to bad nineties music. Makes me laugh. Blink 182. Fuel. heh.

There was a lovely thunderstorm last night at four in the morning.

someone say moo


snowman

:: 2007 20 March :: 11.37am

you want a rant???

well look else where!

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m&ms487

:: 2007 19 March :: 8.34pm
:: Mood: aggravated

I just got done screaming at the top of my lungs for ten minutes, so I thought I'd share:

On CNN tonight (w/ Paula Zahn), there was a panel of professionals (lawyers and such) commenting/discussing the war.

Paula: How do you justify what we are doing in Iraq right now?

Conservative Constitutional Lawyer: Well, I can tell we're succeeding because there hasn't been a terrorist attack on United States soil since 9/11.

[michelle screams for ten minutes]

First of all, just because we haven't had an attack doesn't mean the war in Iraq is preventing that. Before 9/11, the previous attack was in 1993 (the first time the WTC was attacked). Let's do the math, shall we? Eight years. We've only been in Iraq for five years [note, this is the start of the fifth year]. Plus, did we forget that Iraq had absolutely NOTHING to do with the terrorist attack on 9/11. Did we forget that the bombers came from Saudi Arabia and Afghanistan? NOT Iraq.

Last night on CNN, Col. Alan King was asked why we shouldn't follow a strategy that outlines prompt withdrawl of troops (the plan made by the Democrats):

[Paraphrased, but close]

"We shouldn't withdraw troops because it will cause a huge outbreak of violence and gas prices would go up, and that would be a huge inconvience/hardship on our economy right now."

Jesus Christ.

Only 50% of troops believe that we will succeed in Iraq, and only 32% of the American people approve of the "war".

What happened to a government BY THE PEOPLE?

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m&ms487

:: 2007 18 March :: 12.18pm

St. Patrick's Day didn't end so happily. It started great, though. I bought a blue male beta and his name is Patrick, and got other provisions from the store. My roommate and I got pizza from Hungry Howie's and watched Finding Nemo (in honor of Patrick, of course). Then Rueben started drunk calling me. We walked to McDonald's, then some guy's apartment, had a few, walked back. I stayed with Rueben until nine and I came back to my room to find my roommate had just puked all over, including my bed. All I wanted to do was sleep in my BED!

So I put on my pajamas, trekked back to Ruebens and slept until one. Came back, told her that she puked on my stuff and she apologized and left me to clean all of it except for the exceptionally big chunks on my lit book and my flute case.

If you can't hold your liquor, don't drink! It'll save me from a dorm that smells like puke and bed and books covered in brown chunks.

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