Dried Tears... not in vain

:: 2006 15 April :: 2.04am

2 moos | someone say moo

:: 2006 15 April :: 12.16am

I woke up and wished that I was dead, with an aching in my head, I lay motionless in bed, the thought of you and when you're gone, but the world spins madly on.

And everything that I said I'd do, like make the world blend in, and take the time for you, I just got lost and stepped right through the dawn, and the world spins madly on.

I let the days go by, I always say goodbye, I watch stars from my windowsill, the whole world is moving, and I'm standing still.

I woke up and wished that I was dead, with an aching in my head, I lay motionless in bed, the night is here, the day is gone, and the world spins madly on.

The thought of you and when you're gone and the world spins madly on and the world spins madly on.

I miss you.

jacqui-chan

:: 2006 14 April :: 9.37pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: my mp3 player

Play it loud...
So, JD asked me to prom. Totally official. Ariana and Caleb are going together too. So it'll be all of us in a group, probably in my car, which by the was is totally almost done! Anywho, I enjoy that I'm going with three of my best friends in the world all together. It's kinda' nice. I wish I could understand J though. He's such a psycho. Like, lets ask Jacqui to prom, tell her I love her every ten seconds, go on dates with her, kiss her, and NOT ask her out! COOL! Not. What a dummy, seriously, who does that? I don't know. All I know is that I like him a LOT so he gets a chance to be good. But this time I'm not gonna' be the doormat. This time if he breaths wrong he's out. I can't stand the bullshit anymore. I'm stressed as hell with everything else right now without having to think about his crap. So that's that. For those of you who were freakin' out about it, I'm not pulling a last time gig here. I'll fricken jam a spoon in his eye if he pulls anything as stupid as he did before... that was bull.

Yep, that's my glorious life, have a good one peeps. Love ya'. Oh, and Happy Easter if I don't talk to any of you before that. Chao loves.
XOXO,
Jacquelyn

:: 2006 13 April :: 11.25pm

ok well i tried my first vegetarian burger...... and my decision is

NO MORE MEAT!!!!!!!!!!

they are so good its unbelievable...... i'm gonna get fat on them lol so ummm yeah thats my update

Joey

:: 2006 13 April :: 8.21pm
:: Mood: Confused

That was definitely a lot harder for me to handle than I thought.

I guess things change in time and not always the way I want them to. Oh well I guess. It's just something I'll have to deal with.

I never stopped believing in you and me.
Your leaving? It never changed things.

Ohh and we can't forget that akward moment at school today. I seriously about died. I think Stacy seriously about died witnessing this whole thing. That couldn't have happened at a worse time.

12 moos | someone say moo

:: 2006 11 April :: 8.06pm

"heyya i no him he 1 of my furends, we make brownE's together n the chocolattte spill on da shirt"

That's how some of you type. That's not my point but it's true.

Stacy knows. She's one meen bug. ahahahaha

17 moos | someone say moo

bleedingsun

:: 2006 10 April :: 10.00pm
:: Music: 30 Seconds to Mars

Smokey Surprise

That was about the best (and latest) birthday party I've ever had. Totally surprising.

I also had my first day of Drivers Training today, which went extremely well. I'm a better driver than I hoped. I only killed 2 kids!

9 moos | someone say moo

Jacqui-Chan

:: 2006 10 April :: 9.14pm
:: Mood: tired

Tied up in ancient history...
I am so lost. I hate it when he does that. He wants to go to prom with me, he wants to go with me only if his friends are going so he's not just stuck with mine. We barely see our friends at dances, we're focused on eachother. Plus even if they don't go I'm having a bonfire afterword that they're more than welcome to attend. He's such an idiot. I want to know where I stand, but that seems impossible anymore. Ugh, he said he hasn't yet figured out what I am to him. We kiss and hug and hold hands... even in public... yet we're not "together". The igit.

I hate hate hate this crap. I wish I was over him, because then telling him to take a hike would be WAY easier!

:: 2006 10 April :: 8.21pm

I spotted this in Detroit. Our plane just flew in, we left the aiport and were on our way to eat when we seen this. I have no idea what it is but it was dancing and I called it a douche bag and my dad got mad at me for saying that haha..it just makes me laugh because I have no idea what it is or what they are doing!?!?!

7 moos | someone say moo

:: 2006 10 April :: 2.15pm

Joey --

[adjective]:

Fuzzy to the touch

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

All i can say is wow

BigBen61

:: 2006 9 April :: 10.43pm

Ben --

[noun]:

A real life muppet

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

:: 2006 9 April :: 9.17pm

PICTURES FROM FLORIDA:

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19 moos | someone say moo

:: 2006 9 April :: 8.01pm

STACY I MISS YOU!

4 moos | someone say moo

brokenmentality

:: 2006 9 April :: 6.27pm

my voice is gone.

rampage game last night, bobby went with me. lets not get into the game though....

i stayed at keegans last night and this morning i woke up and one of my eyes wouldnt open. *sad face* what a BEAUTIFUL thing to wake up to... "baby, i cant open my eye" (keep in mind my voice sounds like a cat stuck in a metal pan) "aww, let me help you". i wont get into the sight he must have seen either... (now that HAS to be a test of our relationship!) i've got a really good one. and then of course his mom tells me to drink orange juice.. i think she thinks orange juice will cure everything. any illness... "ohh drink some orange juice." *smiles.... i love this family.

i went home while keegan went to work and my mom and me and shelby took jessie for a walk.. what a wonderful day. we even let shelbys bunny run around outside. then i took my NEWWWWW car in to town to vaccume it. THEN me and keegan brought shelby over so she could see sushi and we let him run around outside. he's not very fast.. it was so cute to see his tiny little self running around the grass. NOW we're waiting for keegans mom to get home to make us pork chops. i've been craving some pork chops for a couple days.. and sense im in NO condition to be seen, we're staying home tonight. i dont care though.. i just want to cuddle with my asian. :)

oh and stacy.. perhaps this will bring back some memories?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MAf8tNijuds&search=dane%20cook

2 moos | someone say moo

bleedingsun

:: 2006 9 April :: 5.47pm
:: Music: Nine Inch Nails :: With Teeth

Twelve Days

Lucky #Slevin is an awesome movie. Everyone, seriously, go see it. It's nice to be seventeen so I can easily see rated R movies. It was such a hassle glueing that beard on so I looked like the guy in my fake ID.

I preordered Ten Thousand Days yesterday at Best Buy. I seriously cannot wait for it to come out. The single goes on the radio the 17th, so, I'll be listening to KLQ the whole day.

2 moos | someone say moo

:: 2006 9 April :: 2.26am

ok well lets see i dont have my cell phone anymore so no calling me and ummm yeah lets see what else oh yeah my garbage company is off to a rough start. i need money and lots of it for jess's prom thing so i have to sell some of my stuff lets see what is the list oh yeah here it is.

encore electric guitar - 25 bucks

xbox with 2 airflow controllers and one full size controller plus ddr pad complete with halo 1-2 (special edition for 2) turok evolution dance dance revolution ultra ask for price (I'm thinking around 195 for the entire setup but i dont know if thats to steep or not)

electric organ- 30

telescope-15

go-cart frame (all it needs is a motor and possibly new wheels)-45

All of this stuff is of course best offer so let me know k oh and call my house to let me know and leave a message on the answering machine my rents dont like it when people call so they screen the calls

(616)696-5990

Joey

:: 2006 8 April :: 6.18am

Born2bOnStage x3 (6:14:13 AM): please tell me you are not up right now.
mish is electric (6:14:23 AM): I'm not up right now.
Born2bOnStage x3 (6:14:33 AM): me either. i'm sleeping.

ahaha I just had to.

7 moos | someone say moo

:: 2006 7 April :: 6.25pm

I'm happy about that but yet I'm not. I'm not waiting around again. Clearly waiting around doesn't help me at all. I waited around for months for someone and that just wasn't good enough for them. If there can't be any commitment made then what the hell are we both doing?

I miss you and as much as I shouldn't say that, it's true and it's even worse when I can't do anything about.

brokenmentality

:: 2006 7 April :: 11.07am

i just cleaned my little sisters room for 2 hours.... now im cleaning my room.

*thumb down

brokenmentality

:: 2006 7 April :: 5.21am

i went up to my grandma's yesterday.. she lives about 40 minutes away in whitecloud in the middle of the woods. and i was about to leave, it was around 10:00.... and she looked out the window and there was a BLACK BEAR!!!! OMG! it was HUGE and it was like 10 feet away from the window standing on its back legs reaching up at the bird feeder! it was SO cool! they get bear every year so they werent suprised or anything, but i was like HOLLLLYYYY... lol. when we would go to TN thats one of the things we'd look forward to, was seeing black bear.. and here i am in MICHIGAN, 40 minutes away from my house and theres a full grown black bear 5 feet away from my car! it was crazy! its a good thing she looked out the window before i walked outside... i probably would have had a heart attack. i couldnt believe i was looking at a BEAR! so yeah... that was my excitement yesterday..

jacqui-chan

:: 2006 6 April :: 2.13pm
:: Mood: grateful
:: Music: KISS

So cool
Ya' know, I'm really glad to be me. Seriously. I don't want to sound all conceaded or anything, but I feel bad for other people sometimes. I shouldn't whine about my life... it's great! I have parents who truly love and care about me. A sister who would give her life to see me smile and keep me safe. And I have the greatest friends imaginable. No, it's not always perfect... but it's close. People actually tell me they'd kill to have my confidence sometimes, and they think my hair is beautiful. But I never saw any of it. To me I'm shy, my hair is crappy and hard to work with, my looks are just not up to par, and my parents are too strict. It's all a lie though, and I never saw it. How could I have forgotten? I must seem like the biggest witch ever, not appreciating what I have. Well that ends now. From now on I'm loving my life, becuase it could be a LOT worse.

To my friends: I love you guys, thanks for making me happy all the time. You're all my heros.

Love,
Jay

Jacqui-Chan

:: 2006 6 April :: 1.55pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Kiss XM

I'm so confused...
So, I'm completely lost. JD calls me a lot from Florida, and that makes me way happy. But I don't know what to think about it. Sometimes he says he loves me, but he never says he misses me or anything. He says he misses everyone. He only admitted to missing just me once, and that was just because he doesn't want me to hang out with Tim and some people from his church on Sunday. JD is a crazy person! He actually told me he was trying to hook up with some girls, but then ten seconds later he was like "I love you, I want to come home". Bull shit! Ugh... you cannot try to go make out with random girls that you meet in Florida and then tell your ex-girlfriend how much you love her! That does NOT work out. Stupid kid.

Okay, and on top of the JD situation there's Cory. See, I have a small crush on him... and I have for a while. But I'm afraid. I don't want to lead him on, because I still like JD a lot... and if things are gonna' work out with him than I want to stay. But Cory likes me... he's told me that and that he'd ask me out if he knew I'd say yes. And for a while I might've said yes... but when JD was informed about the situation he was really angry and sad. He said he'd been thinking about wanting to date me again and stuff. So then we dated... and I ended it, because I didn't know where he was with liking another girl. I should just end the whole thing... but I have some sort of weird force holding me here. Keeping me in the JD zone... I HATE it. This is totally not even healthy. I think I'll give him one more chance when he gets home... but if it doesn't work out maybe I'll see what's up with my other options. Because this kid needs to work stuff out for himself before he can be in a relationship with anyone at all.

bleedingsun

:: 2006 5 April :: 8.51pm
:: Music: nin :: the fragile

It makes Creed not sound so bad

Clutch sucks.
Anyone want to buy Robot Hive / Exodus?

Includes:
-Allusions to sucky bands
-Real authentic klan rally shouting
-Horrible lyrics
-Stupid pictures of robots

For the low, low price of $13.00.
Brand new; perfect condition.

Also available, but actually not quite so bad, I just never listen to them anymore:
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snowman

:: 2006 5 April :: 7.28pm

hopefully i'm gonna get a job at a jail or prison soon, they start out depending on where you apply at between 10 and 16 an hour, but more then likley i will be makin about 13-14 an hour.