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2006 16 January :: 2.49pm
Stop doing this. It's getting so annoying. You don't get that.
Everythings about you. It's always about you. You think the world revolves around you. You're selfish and I can't stand it any longer. Maybe you should just listen to yourself. I think we were right.
You just made everything a lot easier for me, so thank you for pretty much proving everything we thought.
My dad and Kelli are coming to see me tonight :)
Aww yesterday I got flowers and then today I got more!!
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2006 15 January :: 10.20pm
i LOVE every other saturday...... they're always perfect. ALWAYS, and yesterday was no exception. i say everyother saturday because i dont work every other saturday and keegan never works saturdays.. so we get to be together all day long.
we're both semi broke right now.. so for most the day we just lounged around his house. i got teh 8th season of friends, his mom made one of my favorite dinners (tatertot caserole) and it was just nice to be home all day. then we met stacy, dani, dustin, devin, and brandi downtown and saw that pink floyd laser show at the planetarium (sp). which was most deffinately an acid trip... lol. i dont think you get the full effect if you're not stoned.... which heaven knows we werent... laughs* but it was pretty cool. WAY to much stimulation for the eyes though. ouuuch. after that me and keegan went to oasis which was wonderful. we got there around 12 and had the greek room reserved which i've been wanting to see since prom last year. it was amazing. (keegan popped his OTHER shoulder out of joint a few days ago.. so its been pretty sore.. hense us going to oasis and me having an "excuse" to get a new bathing suit.... giggles) but yeah... it was awesome. i thought it was an indoor room, but we walked in and theres murals all over the walls and a fire place and statues.... but no ceiling. it was just beautiful. the perfect end to the perfect night. then we went home and fell asleep and got up this morning to go to a new church. we're looking for a church. we went to Sparta babtist this morning... which was nice, but we wanna try a bunch of different ones.. so if you have an suggestions... comment. we're looking for a contemporary service with contemp. music. and we're not looking to become involved with a youth group... just sundays.
everything just feels so right. not only are we going on 14 strong months.. but we're still so incredibly happy. never have we almost "broke up", because we're mature enough to handle our arguments. i've never felt this way before. EVER. i thought i did once... i though THAT was love... and i couldnt have been more wrong. now, i find myself falling in love with my best friend... and although its a process that may take anywhere from a month to a couple years to fully develop... im looking so forward to that moment that i've been dreaming of my whole life.. where i can look that ONE person in the eyes express that age old 3 letter phrase that people have been saying since the dawn of time.
we're so on track with eachother. and i think its awesome that we're growing spiritually together.
*smiles* i admire you!
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2006 15 January :: 7.40pm
Okay so I'm going to try to make this short because I'm about to fall asleep.
Last night I woke up around 4am and I started crying because I couldn't breathe or swallow any liquids. My mom gave me some kind of medicine to calm me down and it wouldn't help so we went to the hospital. When I got there they told her I was dehydrated and they gave me a breathing mask and they tried putting an IV in my arm, but they couldn't find a good vein so they had to keep trying. I was getting so pissed because it hurt so bad. Finally they found one and they had a huge bag of some kind of liquids connected to my IV. They said it would take over an hour to get it pumped into my IV and into me and then they put Steriods *sp* into my IV to take down the swelling of my glands so I could breathe better and apparently I'm allergic to w/e kind it was and I had a major allergic reaction. I almost passed out and then I got all these weird pains everywhere and it felt like someone was stabbing me with all these tiny needles so I was screaming and crying and I really don't even remember what happend after that because they gave me something and it pretty much knocked me right out. I was so scared though. My machines I was hooked to were beeping and I hated being on a stretcher. I seriously felt like I was going to die. Anyways I don't know if I said it or not, but I do have mono so I probably will be out of school for a while. Who knows what's going to happen. I think when my dad walked into my hospital room it scared the crap out of him. When he seen me he just kept looking at everything I was hooked up to and all the IV's and he was like "God this is awful" and I can tell he felt bad because he isn't going to be here for me since he's leaving for Pittsburg tomorrow morning. Oh well though. My mom has to pretty much force me to eat and drink. I can't even stay awake long enough to eat anything, but the doctors said that I have to because all the medicine I'm on right now will make me sick if I don't. But I'm getting too tired so i'm going to go take a nap.
Thanks Stacy, Dani, and Dustin for coming to visit me today. It was awesome. I <3 you!
ashley
Oh yeah and Stacy I don't know why I was thinking about this, but when you seen me today where did you say I looked like I came from..idk it was some movie or something...haha I don't remember what you said, but it made me laugh at the time when you said it.
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2006 13 January :: 3.12pm
I missed school again today. I've been sick for the past few days, but this morning it was really bad. I woke up at around 3:30am and I had a fever, I thought I was going to throw up, I couldn't breathe, etc so I just started bawling and this morning I wanted to go to school, but then my mom seen me and she wouldn't let me go. We went to the doctors and at first they tested me for strep throat and it came back negative and the doctor said there is also a differen't kind that I could possiably have that doesn't show up on tests, but since they weren't sure they wanted to test me for mono and draw my blood and get a blood count. So anyways my mom and I are sitting there in the doctors office and then my mom was talking on her phone and they have a sign saying that you have to turn your phone off and we were waiting for the lady to come in to draw my blood and I thought my doctor said her name was Dino, but her name was really Dina and anyways I was being completely serious at this time because I seriously thought it was her name and i'm like "Mom, put your phone away, Dino will be here soon" and my mom just busted out laughing and she's like "Dino? Dino is a dinosaur! Her name is Dina, not Dino" and so then I was laughing because thats what I thought her name was and then all of the sudden she walked in and my mom hurried and put her phone away and she hung up while she was talking to my sister and I was laughing hysterically because I knew "Dina" was going to walk in and so then my mom goes "oh sure you laugh about it now but wait until the needle goes in" and she was trying to cover up and make it sound like I wasn't laughing at the lady and then I kept laughing still at how dumb my mom sounded and how she was lying lol. So I was pretty pissed off that they had to draw my blood because I'm scared of needles and it wasn't as bad as I thought but they don't know what I have until Monday. It really sucks because I'll fall asleep and when I wake up I always feel worse than I did before I fell asleep and I just start bawling again. It hurts so bad. I hate this. I hope that I don't have mono because I'm pretty sure I wont be at school for a long long time....
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2006 13 January :: 8.58am
ok, so yesterday i was furious.
but i realize that it wasnt about talent....
and at least becky and i gave a piece of our minds and got to see the large animal turn red in the face and squirm like the pathetic lowly person she is.
AND i schedualed a facial yesterday... and after that, who could be upset?!
my skin feels so rejuvinated. everybody should experience one!
orgasmic... really.
*giggles.... later kids
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2006 12 January :: 7.57pm
:: Mood: complacent
:: Music: Syrinx by Debussy
I'm listening to syrinx by debussy, which is my solo for solo and ensemble. I think I've gotten myself in fairly deep this time, I have two weeks to learn it to a good level. That means listening to different recordings of it many times a day a practicing for god knows how long. That reminds me, I have to go to the KDL website and find the recordings of it.
Semester is almost done with. That's a good thing, I think. I'm looking forward to bioethics. Eventhough it's a college class, I'm fairly sure I'll enjoy it quite a bit more than AP bio. I'm still stuck with Dolbee for AP lit, but I guess I can suffer through for another semester.
My duet with Rob (and with Jenny's accompiment) is going along quite well for the challenging level of it. It's not too hard in sections, but all together it's quite imposing, at least for me. It has a ton of runs and whatnot.
Today was sunny and warm and I was pleased with it.
Perhaps later.
Michelle
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2006 12 January :: 10.07am
School. I hate school. I don't want to go. It's lame lame lame.
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2006 12 January :: 6.39am
:: Music: Ani Difranco - Not a Pretty Girl
Sorry.
I'm not a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere.
Don't you think every kitten figures out how to get down whether or not you ever show up?
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2006 11 January :: 5.22pm
God, you're pathetic.
I'm in a really bad mood today again and just about everyone is bugging the shit out of me.
Why can't people just mind their own fucking business?
Please stop asking me. It's rude and it annoys me since it doesn't concern any of the people who have asked me in the last week.
School sucked today. My grade in english is now a 93% which isn't bad but I can do better than that and the only reason that it's lower is because we are reading a dumb book and I sleep all hour so she gives me zero's but I wasn't aware that I'm not allowed to sleep considering that I do the homework that's due anyways, but Ms. Eilola just love's being a pain in my royal ass and that's all there is to it.
I feel like crap once again......
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2006 10 January :: 9.43pm
i tried out today. i reallly want wendy. sooo incredibly bad. but i guess we'll see what happens.
talk about one hell of a night... and nobody could EVER know what i mean by that.
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2006 10 January :: 8.15pm
well today is my and jess's 4 month anniversary..... i dont get to see her at all or even talk to her which is complete monkey junk.... yeah i can understand its her sis's birthday but why cant i at least talk to her for 5 mins.... oh well i dunno what to do... i guess just wait
well i'm gonna go i need to find something to do.... maybe play i love katamari.... i dunno
Joey
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2006 10 January :: 7.35pm
"Well he looks like a douche bag, should we write that down?"
Haha I love you Stacy. We are such bitches. When he was barking i'm like "Ugh, that makes me sick!"
I was only being honest!
...five million more years until the weekend....
Alriiight....
This whole thing is just inside jokes that only a select few people understand.
We all took our bitch pills today...
And I definitely don't feel good right now and half of my family is sick so I'm going to go take some Nyquil and go to bed.
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2006 9 January :: 9.13pm
Yay I'm on the internet on my laptop!! How exciting!! I need to download msn messenger though which is going to take five million years. Oh well I'm happy!
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2006 9 January :: 9.03pm
:: Music: Pink Floyd
I have come to the conclusion, and reshaped it.
It is finally done and I will never look back on or think about it ever again.
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2006 9 January :: 8.49pm
I'm in a really bad mood tonight and anyone who talks to me pretty much annoys me.
Tonight when my sister and I were on our way home from shopping she was trying to do something to my mirror and I wasn't paying attention since I was driving and she pushed the on*star button because she didn't know what it was and that was a bad idea lol. My radio all of the sudden turned off and then this weird music started playing and then a lady started talking to us and I didn't know what was going on and she was going to send help but then we said it was an acciden't and she said something to us and she turned it off, but it was pretty hilarious.
School is so stupid I just want it to be the weekend again. I always have fun on the weekends.
My sister Danielle dyed her hair dark brown so now we have the same hair color and now all I keep hearing is how we look like twins....
And Stacy was everyone being serious when they said were hanging out with Big Nasty this weekend? Haha I love Ben he's so cute!
I know this is hurting you but it's killing me.
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2006 9 January :: 5.00pm
Gah i need more hours so i can get more money.... damn effing two men and a truck gah. well hmmmm i'm gonna try for trucking.....theres a place that'll pay no less than 650 a week so yeah i might just go with that if i can get in..... its easy work too... not much different than i'm doing when i'm on the road with my dad
well yeah i love my jess and thats about it for my update so long kiddies....
JOey
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2006 8 January :: 10.53pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: The Strokes - Razorblade
The caution and fear of growing up displayed with pillow and blanket forts
This weekend was pretty good, except for the past few hours when I was doing my homework. This research assignment is driving me mad. I need one more outside source, and I need to figure out how to cite the ones I already have.
I'm trying out for the musical on Tuesday. We're singing Tribute by Tenacious D. Oh, and I'm also learning out to play the guitar. It'll take awhile, but I think it will be cool once I get good.
Oh, and if anyone works at a fast food restaurant and wants to be on Hawk Talk, let me know.
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2006 8 January :: 3.31pm
What did you say...that you only meant well and this is supposed to be for the best.
This isn't what we need..but you decided this.
Well last night..on the way to Stacys house I was in the front seat and Danielle was driving and Sam Foley and I were talking and she was saying what if a bloody guy just walked in the road and we hit them and all of the sudden something ran in the road and I wasn't paying attention and Danielle started swerving all over the road and I just seen this huge shadow and I don't even remember what happend after that but when it was done and over with Sam and Danielle said I was screaming bloody murder but I don't really remember because I was so scared we were going to crash and die. That would probably be unfortunate.
Somehow when I'm with Danielle, we almost always die. One of the days we probably will.
We went to tgi fridays again last night even though I was just there with Em, Logan, and Justin and I had to get the cheesecake again. It's sooo good.
Well I hope everyone had a good weekend but Em just called and wants to hang out tonight so were going to go out with Logan and Justin so I'll ttyl.
Ohh I'm so glad Devin finally skanked for me and Sam lol.
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2006 7 January :: 11.49pm
:: Mood: peaceful
:: Music: OZMA
this song is so beautiful
Ozma - Utsukushii Shibuya
i've been thrown the gaijin glare for so long
by now i take the scorn in stride
got no time for pride that only serves to divide
got no time for miscommunication
i've been trying to set this straight for so long
trying to hammer out what's bent
you trust in my intent
you must be heaven sent
and i've been trying to let you know that i love you so
i've been trying to find a girl for so long
that tears have often filled my eyes
under azure skies as we said our last goodbyes
i was trying to let you know that i love you so
i love you so
you'll never know
but i love you so
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2006 7 January :: 5.34pm
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Wanna makeout?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you have a crush on me?
9. Would you kiss me?
10. Would you hug me?
11. Physically, what stands out?
12. Emotionally, what stands out?
13. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
14. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
15. Am I loveable?
16. Describe me in 3 words.
17. What was your first impression?
18. Do you still think that way about me now?
19.Have we ever hung out?
20. What makes me happy?
21. What makes me sad?
22. What reminds you of me?
23. If you could give me anything what would it be?
24. How well do you know me?
25. Do you wish to get to know me more?
26. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
27. Do you think I could kill someone?
28. Whats the first thing that comes to mind when you hear my name?
29. What is your favorite thing about me?
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2006 7 January :: 5.07pm
And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
But I don't.
When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today.
I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day
It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
Gimme a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today
and I know I'm not ready,
maybe tomorrow
Tomorrow it may change
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2006 7 January :: 1.40am
Tonight was fun. I went to the basketball game at Forest Hills Central with Emily, Justin, and Logan. We definitely got lost on the way there. We even got directions and Logan is a moron and we were supposed to get off at exit 40B so what does he do? He gets off at exit 39 that takes us god knows where. We finally ended up at the game after like an hour of driving.
The game sucked. We lost.
After that we went to tgi fridays and we about died getting there. I'm not even going to get into that. When we were walking out Emily and I were reading something and I ran into a car. Emily said it was probably the funniest thing that shes ever seen. We just about died laughing.
Then we just went to Justins and watched Wedding Crashers or something. I don't even know. I just fell asleep anyways.
Logan said that Emily and I are exactly the same. Which come to realize after this whole past year after everything we pretty much are. We've been through alot together and somehow at the end, were even better friends than we were at the begining. We can't even listen to the same songs or it will make us cry. We pretty much should be twins.
Anyways after tonight I had tons of fun and I'm glad everything can just be back to normal for good.
Yes, each new day brings with it a new set of lies.
The worst are the ones we tell ourselves before we fall asleep.
We whisper them in the dark, telling ourselves we're happy.
Or, that he's happy.
That we can change.
Or, that he will change his mind.
We persuade ourselves saying we can live with our sins.
Or, that we can live without him.
Yes, each night before we fall asleep we lie to ourselves...in desperate, desperate hope, that come morning...
It will all be true.
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2006 6 January :: 5.23pm
I almost didn't go to school today again. I couldn't fall asleep last night either and my alarm started going off this morning and I pushed snooze and then all of the sudden the buttons froze so I just turned it off and went back to bed and my mom came upstairs at like 7:10 yelling "Why isn't anyone up in this house yet?" so I pretty much was ready in like five minutes.
Today was a pretty boring day. I was just going to skip fifth hour because Brittani and Dani wanted me to go to Yesterdog with them but I figured I probably should make up all my missed work.
The Spring Hill meeting was today and I'm pretty excited for that. It's in a month.
And well I guess I don't really have anything to write about at the moment. Emily is almost here and we are going to Logans for a while and then going to Justins and then going to the game and then afterwards I was just going to come home but Emily wants me to hang out with her so we'll just go hang out with some people. I don't really know what else is going on this weekend but I should go.
<3 Ashley
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2006 6 January :: 2.12pm
joe got that one.... well narrowed down at least... haha
i got my superman hoody from hot topic in this morning.... i havent taken it off minus getting a shower.... which would have been wierd lol..
anyways i'll talk to you all later k bye JOey
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2006 6 January :: 9.14am
i just about have the best most wonderfulest boyfriend in the entire world.
everyday he amazes me in a whole new way.
last night my sister was sick. (she's 5) and if you know me at all... im the same as my mom. we dont take to well to.... errmmm.. you know ( i dont even like to say it) i remember this because it was the same way when i was growing up. call it weak stomachs i guess...... but keegan stayed at our house last night and helped take care of shelby.
everytime she had to get sick he stood behind her stroking her little back and telling her that it would all be ok. then he cleaned her little face off and talked to her about random things to get her mind off it. just watching how good he is with her makes me want to melt. he could have just left, no one asked him to stay... but he cares about her so much that he wanted to help.. and he wanted to help my mom.
how many guys would do that? i really did get a good one and will by no means let him go.
and waking up this morning was so much nicer knowing i had someone by my side.
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