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:: 2008 23 February :: 8.39pm

We did not end up going to the hockey game because everyone bailed on us.

Oh well. I went out last night so I didn't really feel like going anyway. It was meant to be or something.

waiting to grow

angel_bob

:: 2008 23 February :: 3.42pm

I got Raise High the Roof Beam, Carpenters and Seymour: an Introduction. Good old J.D. Salinger.

I am quite excited to read it but I might leave it for last and read the other two books first.

We are going to a hockey game tonight. Nick and I went to one last week and I had a lot of fun so I'm pretty excited for this one.

waiting to grow

angel_bob

:: 2008 21 February :: 9.06pm

The books I bought
Marian Keyes' Walsh Family Books (Anybody Out There?, Watermelon, Rachel's Holiday and Angels)

Ready or Not (the second All-American girl book) by Meg Cabot

It Happened One Autumn (some trashy romance novel: "Four young ladies enter London society with one necessary goal: they must use their wit and feminine wiles to find a husband. So they band together, and a daring husband-hunting scheme is born." It was five dollars and got good reviews. I'm a sucker for historical romance.)

Raise High the Roof Beam, Carpenters and Seymour: an Introduction (This will make my J.D. Salinger collect complete. I am a sucker for the Glass family. Also: two dalla.)

Pontoon: A Novel of Lake Wobegon (I read an except and my life was forever changed. It's an ex-library copy apparently so it's cheap.)

I got a package but I have yet to open it so I don't know which books are in it. I'll let you know.

Oh I've read Anybody Out There? and it was SO GOOD. Seriously. SO. GOOD. All of her books are like that apparently. With the goodness.

[edit] I received the two books that I cared the least about: trashy romance and the second All-American Girl novel. I am pretty pumped for the rest of my books.

waiting to grow

x-cosmic-sunday-x

:: 2008 21 February :: 5.13pm

...I'll be okay... yeah right.

I'm a mess and I can't help it.

There is so much I want to say.
FUCK.

I fucking hate myself.
No wonder I'm not worth it, I never have been and never will be.

waiting to grow

x-cosmic-sunday-x

:: 2008 21 February :: 5.11pm

We use to love one another;;

& this is all my fault.

I'd give anything to have it all back.

waiting to grow

angel_bob

:: 2008 19 February :: 9.20pm

This message brought to you by 2004!
The Valentine's Day bunny (my dad) gave to me a gift card for Barnes and Noble. I used it yesterday on four books and then two hours later remembered the four books that I actually wanted and ordered four more. Half will arrive on Thursday and half will be sent out on Thursday. I am excited. I love getting packages and I love books.

I think that tonight I am going to gather up all the books Katti let me borrow and sort them into "have read" and "have not read" piles so I can start sending those back to her.

I also need to do laundry. I just keep rewearing shirts and it's not that great of an idea anymore. Also, I need a shower.

The week after next is my spring break. I am pumped. I need to figure out tomorrow what I'm going to work over break.

I have a lot to do.

To Do:
Finish FAFSA
Finish Meijer scholarship
Do French scholarship
Ask Emily for a ride next Tuesday
Figure out work schedule for spring break
Schedule fall semester classes
Start researching my final papers before the end of April
Think of two profs for recommendation letters
Finish resume
Apply to FBI job
Find more money for next semester (scholarship search!)
Do laundry
Vacuum
Clean up the bathrooms
Pay bills
Find a job for after graduation
Get Hannah a present?
Find and gather all of Katti's books

I have a lot to do. I'm going to have to actually get on this at some point instead of just talking about it.

The Westboro Baptist Church Counter-protest has changed into boring stuff I don't want to do. I wanted blood and arguments and spitting and fights. They want support and a party. Lame posers.

6 ...sweet love...sweet love | waiting to grow

angel_bob

:: 2008 18 February :: 11.39pm

Upon graduation next year, I will be over $20,000 in debt. Awesome. I just wish I would win the lottery or some rich person would bequeath tons of money to me.

My sister turns 17 on Thursday. That makes me feel old.

8 ...sweet love...sweet love | waiting to grow

x-cosmic-sunday-x

:: 2008 16 February :: 8.44pm

Nothing else matters;

I wish I could say something like "I hope you know what your losing" or something a long the lines of that, but I know he really isnt losing anything thats worth actually fighting for.

I'm sick of this. Once again and more than likely not the last time, I feel as if nothing is worth putting effort into, my heart aches and I'm overwhelmed with emotion, none of which to say the least are even remotly good.

I've given up. This feeling totally out weighs any joys a relationship could possibly produce no matter how short or long it lasts.

waiting to grow

x-cosmic-sunday-x

:: 2008 15 February :: 2.54pm

& the hardest part is letting go;;

Ugh I feel like shit.

Fuck Kevin. I wish we never started dating.

waiting to grow

angel_bob

:: 2008 14 February :: 8.03pm

Happy VD!

Unending Love by Rabindranath Tagore

I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times...
In life after life, in age after age, forever.
My spellbound heart has made and remade the necklace of songs,
That you take as a gift, wear round your neck in your many forms,
In life after life, in age after age, forever.

Whenever I hear old chronicles of love, it's age old pain,
It's ancient tale of being apart or together.
As I stare on and on into the past, in the end you emerge,
Clad in the light of a pole-star, piercing the darkness of time.
You become an image of what is remembered forever.

You and I have floated here on the stream that brings from the fount.
At the heart of time, love of one for another.
We have played along side millions of lovers,
Shared in the same shy sweetness of meeting,
the distressful tears of farewell,
Old love but in shapes that renew and renew forever.

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angel_bob

:: 2008 13 February :: 11.19pm

My icon journal is pretty dead since I don't remember my password and greatestjournal doesn't host pics anymore. I guess it's fine since I can put them on flickr or whatever but I have to get them off greatestjournal and right now I just don't have time. And I can't remember my password so I can't edit the entries.

Sorry, peeps.

If my password ever comes back to me, I'm going to make it my photoblog. I've tried every password I've ever used so it must be one I just used for that journal. Aidez-moi, y'all!

I am watching the last episode of Project Runway before Fashion Week. I shamelessly love this show.

I love you all.

P.S. "Image Hosting: This feature was disabled over a year ago; images that had previously been uploaded have been purged."

So all my icons are gone. Awesome. I don't even know if they're still on my parents' computer. If you have any of the icons I made, it'd be cool if you could email me a copy (onceloviikyu@gmail.com). That'd be great.

This kind of upsets me. I'm just going to remember my password, move on and make it a photoblog.

5 ...sweet love...sweet love | waiting to grow

angel_bob

:: 2008 12 February :: 12.12am

BLOGGING!
Every time I do my laundry at midnight I think "hmm maybe I shouldn't be running the abnormally loud washing machine at midnight" but then I remember that ABG has come running up here and complained to us about everything we do so if he has a problem, I'm sure he'll let us know.

Since Nick doesn't get home until nine, I usually don't end up doing much housework until after ten. This includes vacuuming. I always feel very conscious of any noise I make after nine, the unofficial "quiet time," especially since our apartment building is usually extremely quiet.

I am writing a page for Humanities tomorrow but I think I'll go take a shower and call it good until tomorrow.

1 ...sweet love | waiting to grow

angel_bob

:: 2008 10 February :: 7.16pm

I love when people who don't have kids but only watch (babysit/daycare) or teach them talk about how kids act or how they should behave. Like those 3-8 hours are representative of how the child is. Or how the parent raises them.

It disgusts me. Especially when they are basing their judgments on a TV show that has been edited to only show certain parts. So when one kid hits the other one, the kids beat on each other all the time. And when the parents are crabby during one episode, they're overbearing tyrants.

Seriously, people? This is all you have to do? You just sit in front of the TV watching this one show and then go online and complain about the half hour of parenting you see these people, the people you don't even KNOW or have even ever MET, do on ONE DAY?

The world is kind of disgusting me today. Also, Mitt Romney says if the democrats win, the terrorists win. I'm kind of tiring of hearing about the terrorists winning because of the opposite political party. This fear mongering shit is getting old, people. The sad thing is that it works on some people. Those same people are probably really excited for Larry the Cable Guy in Witness Protection.

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x-cosmic-sunday-x

:: 2008 9 February :: 5.08pm

Smashed up my sanity.

Fuck I am so over this whole situation! FACK FACK FACK

waiting to grow

angel_bob

:: 2008 9 February :: 2.42pm

The only role I can stand Julia Roberts in seems to be Tinkerbell in Hook. She's not grumpy, at some points she's smiling and moving her arms. She has a different look on her face than that same look she has in every other movie she's in.

That same look:Read more..

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