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3 ...sweet love...sweet love | waiting to grow

:: 2007 27 June :: 3.01pm

Did I tell you that you all suck?

Because you do, losers.

5 ...sweet love...sweet love | waiting to grow

:: 2007 26 June :: 6.33pm

Did I tell you about when I saw Mark Ruffalo in Prague?

It's a good story.

:: 2007 20 June :: 4.23pm

Things I forgot about:
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2 ...sweet love...sweet love | waiting to grow

:: 2007 14 June :: 2.18am

I feel kind of bad because everyone else is reverse culture shocking it up and wants to go back to France.

But then I think about it and it is okay that everyone else loved France and wants to go back.

I am more happy here than I have been since maybe November or before whenever leaving for France became real.

They can have all the France they want.

Because it sucked and I hated it.

I seriously am surprised when men don't yell at me, check me out or honk at me when they drive by. And that is not a good thing to be surprised about.

For clarification, when I was in the airport in France waiting for my plane wearing khakis that I'd slept in and an old comfy shirt, airport security guards clicked at me. It's this thing that French guys did. They clicked at girls like you would click at a cat or dog to make it come to you. When I was in Texas and wearing a shirt white dress with a tennis skirt that snapped in the front, a guy looked at me and moved on. Like a normal person.

I am so glad to be home.

Plus there are stores open later than 7 at night. And I understand everything people say.

Seriously, this is the best country in the world. And you know how I hate this country.

I just wish I had my car and my job.

I love you all and I am so happy to be home. Beyond happy.

:: 2007 13 June :: 7.26pm

To love & be loved;

I want to feel love.
I want to feel needed and desired.
I want to mean something to somone, more than just something, I want to mean everything to someone.

1 ...sweet love | waiting to grow

:: 2007 9 June :: 8.49pm

Buddy and I found a ribbon generator:

:: 2007 7 June :: 4.10pm

If I was your vampire

I bought the new manson cd. It kinda sucks. It's way more mellow and not as "out there" as his stuff usually is, which was kind of disappointing but I do like it.

I am also in the process of re-doing my room.
I'm finished painting it mostly. And I've put up a lot of pictures and stuff. I put caution tape on my celing and I put my manson flag up.
I still want a few more flags and pictures and then it should be done. I like it a lot.

Only 6 more days of school left. I will most likely pass everything :)

3 ...sweet love...sweet love | waiting to grow

:: 2007 4 June :: 7.45am
:: Mood: jubilant

I AM HOME!

Things that are going to be hard to get used to: keyboard, McHenry now falls over.

I am home!!!

:: 2007 3 June :: 5.54pm

Where did I go wrong?

:: 2007 28 May :: 1.59am

I am slowly learning the lesson that I have only but myself to rely on.
People are not worth it, they arnt worth the time or energy.
So far every single person I have had the pleasure of letting into my life has fucked me and caused me a whole bunch of useless emotional pain and stress.
That being said there are the select few who have showed me what true friendship is. Tianna & Gaetan. And my mother who has never let me down.

I FUCKING HATE YOU

:: 2007 24 May :: 12.14am

& when I press the keys it all gets reversed, the sound of loneliness makes me happier.

I should have never told Jesse.
But thats life.
I hate regret.
Depressed as fuck.

:: 2007 21 May :: 10.43am

Oh life.

I need to write about happy times more.
All my entries are the same.

1 ...sweet love | waiting to grow

:: 2007 18 May :: 12.47pm

Ready to come home.

16 days.

Might go to the beach, I really don't want to.

I miss Nick now more than ever.

:: 2007 16 May :: 1.23am

[Hollie] How grateful I was then to be part of the mystery, to love and to be loved, let's just hope that is enough says:

no one actually wants to like me or love me or anything they just wanna fuck me. and i dont even see why.

[Lance] Pokey� | But I, I know who you really are You're the one who cries when your alone. says:

I like you... and unless your pants liek those sweet ass bondage tripps one in my size I dont have a big interest in getting your pants