Don't think it can hurt anymore than it already does;
My 16th birthday wasnt great.
It sucked.
But Kyle tryed to make it good, and that was so sweet. Im glad I got to spend it with him.
I dont care If i was sick. Or there was no power. It was nice to stay with him.
I got an email from my Spanish professor asking us if anyone was going to Traverse City and could deliver a package for her. She gave us her cell phone number just in case we were.
Tyler Epps
I miss my cousin. I don't even remember the last time I saw him. It had to have been at his mother's funeral in 1999. We're really close in age so we were inseparable for the longest time. Mom says no one knows where he is anymore.
I used google to search his name and found a picture of him. It's from March. I'm going to cry. I never realized how much I missed him. He's all grown up with facial hair and everything... Apparently he was still really good at basketball. Hey, Tyler. Ty Ty. I miss you.
Just in case you google yourself: this is Rachel, your cousin. You should contact us or Mike or someone. What are you up to? How is everything?
I was way too excited then quickly depressed today.
I saw Emily (!) whom I missed dearly which made me excited.
I also saw, for probably the last time ever, Micah, Tim from my creative writing class, CG and everyone in my creative writing class. Then in French I will have to deal with seeing Marah for the last time. Ever.
Stupid semester abroad. You screw up all my goodbyes.
I am thinking of totally not doing this paper for marketing but I sort of have to. It's all of my grade. But he wrote 0 notes on the one I have to rewrite (except for "good" and "okay maybe") so I have nothing to improve.
Exam week has me stressed and excited and sad. I miss people already.
FUCK you.
FUCK kyle.
FUCK tarl.
FUCK everyone in my life right now.
I'm fucking sick of this.
I try so hard.
And i get fucking nothing.
I HATE YOU
I FUCKING HATE YOU
I FUCKING HATE MYSELF
I FUCKING HATE EVERYHING
I FUCKING WISH I WAS DEAD.
BECAUSE THEN I WOULD NEVER HAVE TO SEE YOUR FUCKING FACE AGAIN
I FUCKING HATE LIFE
I FUCKING HATE EVERYONE
I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING
I FUCKING HATE HOW YOU DONT CARE
I FUCKING HATE HOW YOUR SO SELF CENTERED
I FUCKING HATE HOW I ALWAYS TAKE THE BLAME
I FUCKING HATE HOW NO ONE EVEN PAYS ATTENTION
I FUCKING HATE HOW I GET IN TROUBLE FOR TRYING TO DEAL WITH MY PROBLEMS
I FUCKING HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I FUCKING HATE YOU
We wear our scarves just like a noose
So tomorrow we are going to Chicago so I can get my French visa.
Emily was going to come with us but she has to work on Saturday so she can't. Which makes me more depressed than you can ever know.
In other news, I received a letter telling me who my host family was. I emailed the last two students who had that family and they both said that was the best family in France. I am excited.
Things I hate:
My keyboard randomly changing to Dvorak. WTF, keyboard? I'm trying to write a paper at the last minute and you were fine TWO WORDS AGO. Seriously. Plus you are only using Dvorak in Word? And only on this sentence? WTF? Did I press the wrong keys or something? I closed Word and you better work when I open it back up or I'm taking you out.
Why I love Emily:
I have to or else I will have no friends in France :p
She's going to France
She introduced me to The Decemberists and my newest love Regina Spektor
She has a doppelganger
Regina Spektor
She is just the best person in the world
...uh...minus you guys?
She rocks, Emily does.