let me slip into your place of dreams
i love the cello. its so pretty.

i wish everything was just so.. quiet.

well. on to reality. fcat math. man, was it easy. let common sense reign supreme.

'no. im not crazy!' was my statement today. i think i was completly driven up the wall in biology. we had a 15 question quiz. looong one. i knew one answer. about plankton. not even sure if i got it right either. you try answering some strangishly freakin long words. with 'plankton' stuck in the middle.

anyways. me and sabrina are chewy.
please dont ask and stay away from me when i eat chicken nuggets. they somehow alter my humor. i tend to laugh hysterically if you say 'stop being so chewy.'

concert tomorrow! i cant wait. :D

shatter my reverie upon your jagged thoughts
fcat today. fcat tomorrow. concert thursday. :)

i hate it when people think that they dont mean anything to anyone. it bothers me. because everyone has someone. even if it is your tear-smudged teddy bear. and if you are my friend, then you have me. and i will be there when you need a shoulder to cry on. and i dont plan on changing either.

i dont understand. sometimes a person can be totally unreachable. they dont want to be reached. but they also want comfort.

cold comfort cant lead to anything good.

ive had very vivid dreams recently. except i forget them when i wake up. so the feeling of a vivid dream gets left in my head for a large part of the day and little things just make me jump and realize that it mustve been related to my dream in some way. sometimes it can be quite frustrating.

your blinding concerto brings me to my knees
ok. healthy obsession. day one. ilyssa wants to make bracelets.
im so happy. i have all the ghost of the robot songs :) now i have to burn 4 copies hahaahaha.

i started thinking today. i was in math looking at my purple worksheet. and.. the world didnt feel right. if you look at it, how society, economy, and.. technology just goes past us. how everything seems so important, but when you compare it to life itself, it looks pathetically lame. and i wondered if anything was after this. here. life. i mean, everyone talks about heaven and it being a residual fact of.. existence, and i know it is there. but i cant help feeling what i would actually feel if (here it comes again) society hadnt made it so important and planted into my brain so early on. and really. considering how huge we've figured out that the universe really is.. just earth being here seems like an awful big waste of space.

sigh...

that was my conflit for the day. but. hey. whatever. i would really just like to make it through one day at a time. especially since we have fcat tomorrow. i would like to shoot myself.

i also realized that i use 'wankers' and 'pansy' more than i thought i have been. it usually gives a nice sarcastic bite. but now? who knows. carrie says it is just james. damn his hotness, right carrie? hahaha.

her eyes doth linger

today was blah.

i got a 50 on my math test.

yesterday i went to japocu after school. we watched monty python and the holy grail. i heart the black knight.

flute lessons = pain.

me, car, carrie, ilyssa and sydney have a healthy obsession.

i know i left too much mess and destruction to come back again

LMFAO woooooooooooow.

great weekend.
i went bowling with lindsay and andrea at galaxy lanes on friday night. :) we could only bowl one game though because there were a bunch of leagues. and oh man. andrea. it is called a strike!!! hahahaha dude. and she is the reigning champion of the altoids. 11 PEPPERMINT ALTOIDS IN HER MOUTH AT ONCE! that kicks your ass so bad you will be crying. anyways, that was way fun. too bad about her punk leaving her hahahahah! bowler's arthritis!

saturday. movie night at lissa's!! we rented house of the dead, dickie roberts, the visitors, and sleepy hollow. we watched dickie roberts first. chelsea and sydney were laughing the entire time!!!! man that is great. we ate candy and we each had a glowstick around our neck. mine was pinkish-purple. wooot :D

sunday. church and then amanda's birthday. there were like 6 of us and we went to the movies to see lotr 3. man, me and car were in the back and we were yelling!! you know when those ghost soldiers come out of the ships and start attacking? we were like 'WHAT NOW, BITCH?!!'
it was grand.

monday wasnt too bad. i think ms freis likes to give out homework that is literally impossible to do. seriously. it is impossible. its not you say? well then, why do you tell me how the evolution of african and floridian land over time could affect the theories of darwin, lamarck, and that one guy about disneyland's animal kingdom.
yea.

today. i felt like crap this morning. so i stayed home. but then i felt better mid-afternoon. woot. it felt like i was getting away with playing hookie!! hahaha.
GQ SKIP DAY! wooooo andrea.
tomorrow i have two quizzes.
bugger.

well, i guess i should brush up on animal kingdom. (why the hell am i in that damn class anyways???!) oh well.
nevermind. i have to go do dishes instead.
ta :)

size doesnt matter..
today was ok
it was fun first and second. but thats about it. didnt get to talk much in seventh :(

lisa bit my fucking head off in the car on the way home.
and since she was yelling at mom on the phone, she came home early and took MY tv priveleges away.
AHHHHH.
that is not fair. to the max.

i need to go draw a duck now. *sigh*

but hey.. things rock. i get sleepy hollow in exchange for the very song im listening to! and that is awesome. because.. everyone needs to hear this song and piss themselves laughing.

Its labor day and my grandpa just ate seven fucking hotdogs..
God, i love this song. its so hilarious.

alot has gone on since my last update.
i had a killer sleepover. it was so much fun! and then we went to see 50 first dates. that movie is really good. but you leave the theatre with this really akward feeling because you didnt think it would end that way. hmmm

well school was ok
mentally, i went through a whole week
in a single day
oh, go me, go me
first period was monday. yea, shut up i know its tuesday. third period was like wednesday.
i had no feeling what-so-ever fifth period (well obviously, its biology.) oh! but we had a sub. and did fcat work. *dies*
anyways, i swear to god it felt exactly like a friday in sixth period. ahhhh.
seventh period. ah, this is when the magic happened. you see, reality tried to hit me upside the head, but it must have missed or something. because ever since then it has felt like wednesday.
i feel like if i turn on the tv in 20 minutes i will be watching the oc.
that is way not cool. this is going to be the longest week of my life.
but its ok. because i get sleepy hollow in exchange for the penis cd. well, its just one penis song but the other songs are really funny too.
woot go ana :)
got out to the parking lot after school. i closed the door and vroooooommm we were OUTTA THERE! mad traffic on the way home though. old people need to be shot. and tourists should just.. go to hell or something because they are really starting to piss me off. i mean, majorly piss me off.

jesus. what is wrong with me?

call me a safe bet, im betting im not
ah.
haven't updated. well not much going on. today we had sectionals. talk about adding insult to injury. oh well. it actually wasn't as bad as the other ones, but hey.. sectionals are sectionals.
hmm. i realized that i have one of the most screwed up famliy trees around. how many people can say that their 3rd cousin-once-removed goes to their school? or that youre related to someone but dont know their last name?
... strange
um.. im making a website. its not any good yet, but here it is - wow.
moving along.. here are the classes im taking next year.
chemistry 1 honors
world history honors
pre-calculus
english 2 honors
drawing/painting 2
ceramics 2
band. *sigh*
fun. woo.
i want to take photography. or at least a language for god's sake. but no. i cant. because i have.. i have *kicks flute case* this. *looks at it*
piece of crap.

um. hmmm well nothing else real major is going on. oh yes, the oc is on tonight! but so is angel. and it looks good too!
lets see.. marissa almost getting shot and seth being nemo (l m a o), or spike being a nazi from 1943? ah, decisions decisions. america's recreational activity leads me to constantly take apart plots by the thread yet again.

i want to go somewhere. just.. to go. and do something crazy and unusual and spontanious. just because.

excuse me sir, but i believe victoria's secret is meant for women.

today was a good day :)
i woke up at 7 for solo contest. i was really nervous. drove to lehigh and i practiced at the cafeteria while mom looked for my room.
ahh. i could not get any of the runs right. and my mouth was dry.
i went to the room and waited outside the door. there were other people before me waiting in the hall too. jake was there. i heard him play. it was beautiful. so then i started getting nervous again. i went in after he was done and played it.
he told me i was very good at the technical parts of it and had a wonderful technique. but i needed more dynamic contrast. what else is new?

well, he wrote down the comments for a really really long time. i was standing there, holding my flute and smiling forever. my jaw started to hurt. but then he was done and i left. i drank the rest of the water that my mom had bought me.
back at the cafeteria i ran into little 8th graders i knew from middle school. maybe you've heard of them. sam dawson - extrememly talented with oboe and piano. he made all-state last year. this year too. mark barron - is taking algebra 2 at the highschool. with ms. grabowski. give me more reasons to hate him. and.. some girl. and another girl.
mark is a dork and sam is cool. and they are both taller than me which is really sad. *sigh*
the results got posted, and.. i got nothing. because mine weren't up yet. by this point i had been waiting for 40 minutes. another half hour. more results. with mine, thank god. i got a superior. and i was totally just standing there not believing it because i had messed up so many times on the 32nd runs. ahhh. i was really happy and then had to go pee.

mom went to linen 'n things for some sheets. then we went home. alas, i finalized mall plans.

went to the mall with sydney and chelsea. it was grand :)
i went to Journey's and got some black converse shoes!! yayayay.
then we went to hot topic. i got an afi shirt, a short sleeved hoodie thing with this skull in a pink star. oh man its so cool. and i got three pins. two of them are happy bunny ones and the other is about sarcasm.
We saw Alex and Emily there. haha me and alex just pointed at eachother. i was like 'you! you're here.. in this store!' i was incredibly lame but thats beside the point. the cash register guy was awesome. headed to barnies. syd and chels talked me out of getting a white mocha so i got a caramel coffee cooler. it was really good. ah, we looked around and went into gadzooks. the clothes are questionable but the accessories rock. sydney tried on these tan boots that had fuzzy stuff inside. hahahaa she looked like she was wearing eskimo boots. they were huge.

we got french fries. and then sat in this pizza buffet italian restaurant place. and we just talked. it was time to leave so we walked back to barnies. fun. we talked more. mostly about... guys? cant quite remember. thats when it happened. i saw this old guy carrying a victoria's secret bag and the pink paper was all nice and frilly at the top. i showed chelsea and we started cracking up. people these days... sydney didnt get it until 5 minutes later. because we were laughing.

dropped syd and chels off. went to publix. bought food. made my mom buy lots of fruit. i like fruit.

i have to go burn some cd's now. woot.

*dies*

Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for one reason or another - possibly, you made one tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't commit. In any case, you are faithless and joyless. You find no happiness, love, or acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most days are a burden and you wonder when the hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching picture. You are the one that few understand. Those that do know you are likely to love you deeply and wish that they could do something to ease your pain. You are constantly living in memories of better times and a better world. You are hard on yourself and self-critical or self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved, you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite your tainted nature, your soul is breathtakingly beautiful.

*twitch* coffee coffee coffee
ahh
i went to the art show tonight. nice. there were some really good pieces.

my mom took me to starbucks to get coffee afterwards. for those of you who know me, too much coffee = psycho-carina.
well, this is one deadly combination. i ordered a mocha with some whipped cream (you cant forget the whipped cream) and i guess the lady didnt put enough milk in it.

i am drinking espresso with chocolate. oh man oh man.

today was ok. me and carrie have a healthy obsession now. and i have a friend named humphrey the duck. he is british.

now, i have a decision in bio to make. Im not sure if i should take Chemistry Honors or Anatomy Physiology honors next year. the scary thing is.. i could take physics if i wanted. but i am staying waaayyy clear of that until im like a senior or something. *sigh*

well, tomorrow is solo & ensemble. i am not ready at all. my sixteenth notes sound awful. and i hate how it always slows down and then BAM! it goes super fast. roar. but i am secretly scared shitless to go. oh man. im afraid i'll just stop in the middle of it and.. do something retarded. i sound so lame.

yesterday was really slow. i was so tired you would not believe. and it took forever for the day to get through. err.

... oh yea. i saw 2 acts of our school's ballet. they're doing sleeping beauty. on point shoes. ouch. but lindsay and lisa were awesome. woo.

*drinks more coffee*
i think i might have to go pee now...

sarcasm - anger's ugly cousin

i have experienced a feeling i have never felt before today. its this really moving emotion that makes me want to jump in front of a car. jesus. i hate this.

school started out good enough i guess. me and carrie had fun. she named my flute james. third period wasnt terrible. neither was fourth.
bio was a drag. again. lots of crap to study though. yay.

sixth period ticked me off. me and collin hate eachother, i guess. according to him i have an attitude problem. he is a dumbass. really, i dont know exactly what i did. the fact that i was in english had pissed me a little. especially since sabrina wasnt there. but hey, i was pissed, ok? if you look at me wrong i will tear your head off and feed to the manifestations of wrath. i guess i was the one who looked at him strangely. no need to get on my case, mills. fuck. go to hell collin.

forgot my disk in business systems. had to type the assignment over. it was a long assignment.
lisa yelled her damn head off at me in the car. way to go. i knew i should have jumped at that green car.

heres my homework list.
flute. i have to get my moderato piece up to allegro in 2 hours. joy.
biology. read everything on bacteria and make it stay lodged in my brain.
english. finish a script and type it on a chapter from the most dull, boring book.
art. find three landscapes. do two large ass sketchbook assignments. make pins.
extra? help a friend with a speech, go shopping, find my disk.

go away.
-carina

ha.

monday is over. woot.

yesterday was all homework. and i didnt watch the superbowl. i was busy drooling at shane west. yea. you saw it right. shane west. not the patriots. not the panthers. shane west. woo.

well, i got my hair cut on saturday. and it looks mighty spiffy. and now i have plans to go spend all my money at the mall this weekend. at hot topic. oh yes, bring in the good stuff :)

i had a bunch of homework over the weekend. crazy mad stuff. i had to do a huge math project on conic sections, practice my solo, do my sketchbook, read alot of english, study for biology, and clean my room.
i did alllll my math. sweet, eh?
ms bode loved it. i did it in one day. so did linds. go me. go linds. yay to us.

bio was a drag. again. we got to watch a movie on microbes. woo. much fun, as you can well imagine..
now i have to do all that english. and bio. and flute. and art. oh man. i didnt make it in the gallery (i knew i wouldnt) but sydney did and im so proud of her!! lets give a big 'woot!' to sydney! its her second time too. she paints really good :)
ahh, well, im off to stop my stomach from eating itself. yum.
-rina

the mystery of the tiki
hello there
the angel from my nightmare
the shadow in the background of the morgue
the unsuspecting victim
of darkness in the valley
we can live jack and sally if we want
where you can always find me
and we'll have halloween on christmas
and in the night we'll wish this never ends
we'll wish this never ends


well it sure has been a while.
saturdsay= sleepover at amanda's. major movie watching. we saw practical magic, anger management, corky romano, and kate & leopold (twice).
sunday= spontaneous kid swapping. my mom came to pick me up with my little brother. amanda has a brother about the same age. so.. my brother stayed, and amanda came to my house.
another spontaneous moment- we told jake to come over too.
it was FUN.
we played ps2, talked [alot], and played pictionary.
monday was school. lots of homework, as expected. tuesday was more homework. as expected.
today is wednesday. school was fun. very surprising. i had sectionals after school. not fun. then i had to wait a half hour after sectionals so i could play my solo for mr. daniels. theenn, i waited outside in the cold for my mom. i was freezing. literally.
my hands were white. well, they were really pale and had red blotches. cold cold cold.
i couldve used a bit of cocoa.
ah, now i am home. and have biology. fun.
but i got to see hotness all over my television so im fine. that hotness' name is james marsters. carrie knows what im talking about ;)

bwahahaha.

nevermind. i'll update later to tell you about.. stuff. visit my livejournal! because.. it is cool now. alot better than it was.. and.. yea.

i take a look at my enormous...
oh man.
today started out really crappy. first was ok and second was better than i thought it would be, but third, fourth and fifth really did me in. in third period the flute choir had to go down to the black box theatre at the center to play our song. i dont even know why. anyways, we went back to the band room and i hate mr. daniels. you know, i think he doesnt have the mental capacity that allows him to give someone a compliment. its beyond impossible for him. if he had a choice of saying 'you played nicely' or burning in the deep depths of hell, i think he'd just jump in the hell hole to make things easier for himself. people are strange.
moving on..
fourth period was ooberboring. i couldve screamed. we were going over this worksheet and i reaallly didnt understand why we were. half the class didnt bother to even touch it. ah, such is the mystery of ms. bode. well, i decided to do my biology. there wasnt anything else i could do. except maybe carve into one of the desks. thank pink socks that i dont have an army knife.
oh well. in biology i was bored again. and i was feeling really crappy. because nola isnt there and i have to listen to guys. and i think i have a cold again.
i. h a t e. c o l d s.
but lunch really brought my spirits up. i had a good meal.mmm who wouldnt want to have a school made chicken sandwich? with tater tots?
not you? crazy!
but sam spilled red hawaiian punch on his khaki pants. red! and we are all laughing hysterically.i felt sorry for him though because sabrina was like 'well, you know sam,there is a time in every girl's life when she hits puberty. wait. you're a guy.' it was hilarious. i almost pissed myself. it was beautiful.
me and sabrina were still laughing in sixth period. mostly because she asked me if we should give him a tampon. hahaha. i seriously felt bad for him though. i offered my jacket. :)
seventh period i was crazy with anger. mad-crazy if you must.
I. H A T E. M A V I S. B E A C O N.
i already got to the advanced level for the ten-key. and i passed my goals. twice. but no, since i dont want a certificate, there must be more work for me to do!! i was going mad. absolutly mad.
mavis beacon will end up haunting me to the rest of my days. i will be in a computer store one day, and some clerk will come up to me and say 'excuse me, would you like to try the new version of mavis beacon in 10-key?'
ooorrrr, my mom will say 'we got the new mavis beacon! would you like to try some practice in 10-key?'
do you see how this is affecting me? mavis fucking beacon will be the end of me. grrrr
anyways, i am here at my mothers office for another 45 minutes. oh joyous days. but i did get a pepsi. im only here because i have a doctor's appointment. maybe she'll give me some more amoxicillan. *shudders* i hope not. those things were huge!
this next part of my entry shall be the compliment of ana's recent journal entry entitled 'i have a detachable penis.'

Whenever life gets you down
keeps you wearing a frown
and the gravy train has left you behind
and when you're all out of hope
down at the end of your rope
and nobody's there to throw you a line
did you ever get so low, that you dont know which way to go?
c'mon and take a walk in my shoes
never worry 'bout a thing
got the world on a string cause i
got the cure for all of my blues..
i take a look at my enormous penis
and the trouble starts melting away
i take a look at my enormous penis
and the happy times are comin' to stay
i got a sing and a dance
when i glance in my pants
and the feeling's like a sunshinny day
i take a look at my enormous penis,
and everything is going my way..

well, thats all i want to write. mostly because i cant exactly remember how the middle part of it goes. :D
im going to mess up this laptop im on. (its my mom's boss' son's laptop) ha. ha. ha. *grins evilly*
well, must be off to do my 'homework' haha yea right.
*Rina