You know... everyone was all talkin about how they'd like to bone the girl in the green dress. I don't know... the whole time I'm thinking, I kind of want to have sex with her maid.
I received my letter of acceptance, which means that it's official. I leave september 1 and will not be back until May. Believe me, I was estatic to hear it. The only problem is that now they want me to give them a million things in a week. It's like a really stressful scavenger hunt. Kind of fun, really.
What would you do for a klondike, or two dykes that look Christina Milian like? yeah, I'd be on time for that...
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2008 26 February :: 8.46pm
:: Mood: contemplative
Cacoon, or Crucible
So yeah, Lansing sucks by myself. It's so fucking lonely over here. I wish I had a girlfriend.
So basically because it sucks so bad over here it has forced me to either live in a permanent state of depression or grow myself into a better person. Both hurt mind you, but growing is infinitely better. I've decided that I've been depressed for long enough in my life. I want to take control of what I can and not sweat the rest. If I can't change something I face it, understand it, and come to peace with it.
So I've been working out everyday, and going for walks everyday. Even when it's freezing cold I go walk for like an hour. It makes me feel good, and gives me time to think pro actively how I can enjoy life more. Usually a workout consists of like 30 curls each arm, 50 sit-ups, 30 tricep extentions, 30 double leg lifts, 30 knee style wide grip push-ups, and some jogging in place to keep the heart going. I try to do it circuit style with minimal time between transitions. I'm still really new at this so, I'll probably add different exercises when I learn more.
I've also started to try and eat more healthy, and eat smaller portions. Again, I'm a total newb at this, but hopefully I'll figure out what works for me as time goes on. Basically, my current strategy consists of using better ingredients, maintaining protein, while cutting carbs, and calories. I also cut pop out, and drink a lot more water.
I'm comfortable with who I am right now, so why am I doing this. There are various reasons such as personal growth, being healthier, and enjoying life more. However, One of the biggest reasons is women. I wish that I could meet someone that was ok with who I am right now, but it hasn't happened. I'm tired of being single, and alone. I've been doing it all my life, and as someone who thrives on relationships it sucks. Overall I just want to feel better about myself; mind, body, and soul. They are all connected.
Stopped by the bookstore today. Noticed that the girl working the front desk was quite attractive. She really pulls off the hot librarian scheme really well, and in the end comes out looking fairly sincere. "I'd hit it," is the phrase I guess I would use. The way she asked me if I had any Bulldog Dollars, mmm mmm mmm.
Maybe I was so turned on by the $30 I saved by going to that bookstore in the first place. I hate Ferris and their horrible price mark-ups on their books. They want my soul, man.
So I had this dream that I was on a tropical island, drinking a mojito (does that mean I'm gay? oh only if the mojito was wearing loafers) and walking down the beach. Then I saw Bill and Phil with laptops but they wouldn't talk to me. I kept on walking and saw a plethora of old high school friends, but none of them seemed to want to pay any attention to me, so I kept walking. Then there was a John Mayer song playing in the background ( yep, gay), one of the old ones. And then I saw Andrea Groner, and she said Hi. Then I woke up.
You see Andrea, as creepy as I may be, this is inevitable... :P
no more 3x5's Andrea, no more 3x5's...
On a less creepy note, good weekend ahead of me, but first I must get through class today. I managed to get all the homework done for b-law despite the ridiculous requests the professor makes.
I've managed to wash my hands relatively clean though... and it feels good, and is a plus for my mental status. From now on one step at a time, no more trying to change everything at once. Should be interesting, I'll keep you posted.